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2004 5 January :: 8.41pm
:: Mood: distraught
I'm a nice girl. I don't see what the big stupid deal is. We're kids.
And maybe I wouldn't seem like such a slut bag if you would just leave us be for like three seconds.
You're so scary, you don't even know it. If you could just stop looking at me like I'm crazy and making up these stupid rules I could warm up to you, and you wouldn't suggest awful things.
And I'd like you to know that I didn't push anything. It just happened. Coercion and guilt were not factors here. I am not a crazy obcessive kid. School nights are crap and weekly visits...it's not a big deal okay? It's supposed to be fun.
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ok...i was in band....
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2004 4 January :: 6.12pm
:: Mood: hateful
i'm so annoyed right now. i don't want to eat dinner because i think i'll grumble at someone and then get yelled at.
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ok...i was in band....
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2004 2 January :: 1.31pm
:: Mood: excited
things i am proud of today:
1. My reorganized closet
2. The things i bought yesterday
3. My feet
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ok...i was in band....
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2004 1 January :: 8.32pm
:: Music: sponge-have you seen mary?
i'm so hopeless with money. i think when i grow up i'm going to be very poor because i don't know when to stop. i do look considerably hotter though.
being with renee was cool, we had a lot of fun stealing babies and coughing and acting like seventh graders.
tomorrow will be fun too
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2003 31 December :: 6.04pm
the sky is really pretty right now, it's like the end of dusk and the light is still faint and i can see one star.
i guess i'm as disapointed as i thought. something like this usually happens. so maybe tomorrow.
ok...i was in band....
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2003 31 December :: 3.03pm
i am feeling the tremendous hurt right now.
ok...i was in band....
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2003 30 December :: 8.34pm
it was like being ripped away all over again.
ok...i was in band....
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2003 30 December :: 4.08pm
:: Music: coldplay-in my place
i don't know. i'd give it an okay with a side of brooding boys.
it would have been funner if we were in the right place. they aren't part of our normal lives. an invasion of that doesn't feel right.
ok...i was in band....
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2003 26 December :: 4.55pm
:: Mood: livid
:: Music: lifehouse-simon
the more you will something to happen the more it doesn't.
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ok...i was in band....
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2003 25 December :: 1.19pm
the only present that matters is coming tomorrow.
ok...i was in band....
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2003 25 December :: 10.56am
if you're not going to put effort into it, you might as well just not waste your money.
asdasdasdasdasdasdasdasd
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2003 24 December :: 10.32pm
i also hate the whole gift giving thing. i'm crappy at it, i hate shopping, i have limited funds. it would be more enjoyable if it was a holiday where we put decorations out for no reason and bought trees. but no presents. it would just be cute.
this is the only time of year i wish dad still lived with us, so he could help out.
my mom has one present. i'm such a jerk. and she's leaving us tomorrow. but if she stayed she'd just be grouchy all day.
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2003 24 December :: 10.24pm
so far, worst christmas ever.
i feel so disapointed, so cheated.
it's a time for families to annoy each other and be all stressed about dumb stuff, like forks or exagerated misunderstandings.
christmas makes me deeply unhappy.
everyone ruins christmas for everyone else.
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2003 23 December :: 10.56pm
:: Music: cardigans-lovefools
oh it's so very good. do you think the attachment stage has set in yet?
no, nevermind i don't think that would make me feel giddy.
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