This One Time At Band Camp...

:: 2002 4 October :: 11.01pm

:: 2002 4 October :: 10.26pm
:: Mood: tired, and i have a tummy ache...also i'm kind of
:: Music: marching songs stuck in my head...ugh

depite everything, the football team won....thus we'll be marching longer...woo!!
heh...i said the word thus. thus happens to rhyme with LUSS! hahah! i didn't feel like going to the dance. i was tired, cold and my feet hurt from stupid marching band, even though i don't march. something smells funny down here...ick. tomorrow is going to be so crazy. and i have flute ensemble tomorrow...but i love it...i especially love playing alto. wow...it's soooo cool!!! i'm talking to one of my friends from camp and that's what we are talking about (camp) and ahhhhh....i miss it sooooo much. we're kinda talkin about ryan too..and wowzers.... i miss him soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!!!!!!!! it isn't fair!!!!!!!! not at all!!!!! grrrrr!!! ok.... i'm really tired so i think i'm going to hit the sack. oh! if you're going to powder puff tomorrow night, stop by and see me and gunnie at the yearbook table!!!! you'll be sure to get a smile!! happy red flannel day!!!! gnasd :)

2 can't stop the B.M. | ok...i was in band....

:: 2002 4 October :: 10.10pm
:: Mood: tired, grouchy and sad
:: Music: dbc...age six racer

Things That are Crap:
1. Marie, Katie Cherie and Cole.

2. Marching

3. Uniforms

4. Mud

5. Having to sit and be good during something you don't want to sit still and be good for. (Because it's crap)

6. Seeing something you thought you were okay with, but we secretly not okay with happen.

7. People screaming. And clacking those stupid clacky things.

8. Football games.

9. Wanting to cry about Marie, Katie, Cole and Cherie.

10. Being cold

11. Feeling like an ass and getting yelled at.

12. Not being able to bawl your eyes out because everyone around keeps looking at you.

13. Chemistry.

14. This list.

15. Wanting to see them so bad even though it's been two years and you don't even remember them that well.

16. Uptight people who take marching to seriously and feeling like they have to be bitchy about it.

17. The fact that list could go on forever, but I need to go to bed.

:: 2002 3 October :: 9.07pm

:: 2002 3 October :: 4.59pm
:: Mood: nonchanlant

i refuse to get excited about this. i'll get bored in a few days.

6 can't stop the B.M. | ok...i was in band....

:: 2002 2 October :: 6.10pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: jewel-stay this way

I like horoscopes. They're fun. haw haw haw.

Aquarians are the kind of people who like to fool around with you every Saturday night, but if anyone asks about it, you guys are just friends.

Aquarians are brilliant, charismatic and fascinating, and they'll show you the world in a way you've never really seen it before.

Nothing is scarier to an Aquarius than the word "relationship." Say it to one sometime. Watch what happens. They may not even really know what you're talking about. You'll try to explain it to them and their face will light up: "Oh, you mean friendship!" You may feel like you're talking to a moron here, but the truth is that Aquarius is the most brilliant sign in the zodiac, so it's not an IQ problem we're dealing with here.

They have intimacy issues, They're not into commitment. Keeping their attention is difficult, since they have the jitters when it comes to romance. It feels safer for them to just be your friend -- maybe your friend who suddenly grabs you for an earth-shattering make out session from time to time, but a friend just the same. Aquarius is the most commitment-phobic, least emotionally available sign in the zodiac,

You may find them to be a little bit cold Aquarians are air signs and live in their heads -- if not another weird alien dimension -- and romance is not their strong point.

Once you get them into boyfriend or girlfriend mode, they'll let you live your life. They'll never be jealous (maybe even when they should be), and they'll be your very best friend. Their erratic behavior may freak you out from time to time, as may some of their wilder and weirder schemes, but that's the price of dating a genius.

5 can't stop the B.M. | ok...i was in band....

:: 2002 2 October :: 5.32pm
:: Mood: um.... ok
:: Music: the get up kids- out of reach

this is a pretty song... and just to let everyone who i know doesn't give a flying fig but i don't care, because it's MY journal.. that if ryan and i both make it into the CMU honers band, we'll get to see each other in 45 days. which is a long time from now, but it's worth it i guess. wooo... ok..time for pit..my favorite thing.. righhhhht... later :)

:: 2002 1 October :: 10.05pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: ben folds- hero's song

"i don't wanna grow old .. won't you let me, won't you let me explode?"
this song is fun to jam to. every lesson i get closer to making it into CMU's honers band. and that's one step closer to seeing ryan. by the way...i miss ryan. it's been a month and 1 day since i've seen him. that's a long time...and he hasn't been online latley so i haven't been able to talk to him. i could call him, but i never know if he's home or not. :( life will get better and things could be worse. i'm pretty tired... and i kinda want to wind down on my piano for a while. sooo... good night and sweet dreams will fill your head.
ps. don't you think it's weird that i wake up in the middle of the night when i drop jarvis on the floor?? (jarvis is the stuffed animal ryan gave me)... crazy :)

1 can't stop the B.M. | ok...i was in band....

:: 2002 1 October :: 4.08pm
:: Music: edelwiess

small and white, clean and bright, you look happy to meet me

I'm not sure what I was thinking.

Regret is a really crappy feeling.

AHRARAGARAERAFARAF

1 can't stop the B.M. | ok...i was in band....

:: 2002 30 September :: 9.56pm
:: Mood: sad, tired and hungry
:: Music: pit music stuck in my head from marching band

wow... i get home and to my suprise my cousin and uncle aren't here like they were supposed to be. i find out that they aren't here because my grandpa is in the hospital again. this is extremley sad for me because this is the 4th time he's been in the hospital in like a year. he's so old and i don't know how much longer he's going to make it. please, will you all pray for my grandpa and our family? it would bring comfort to us all. anyways, we're supposed to get an update phone call at 10 so i gotta go. good night.

:: 2002 29 September :: 5.22pm
:: Music: zoot suit riot

Rioting says:
you're a luss
he says:
wow. that came out of nowhere.
Rioting says:
i know
Rioting says:
i'm crazy like that
he says:
well. then you're a spontaneoluss.
Rioting says:
haw haw haw
Rioting says:
haw haw haw

:: 2002 29 September :: 4.46pm
:: Mood: nice
:: Music: clarinet strip

Your Existing Situation:
Attracted by anything new, modern, or intriguing. Liable to the bored by the humdrum, the ordinary, or the traditional.

Your Stress Sources:
Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and of separation from others. Believes that life still has far more to offer and that she may miss her share of experiences if she fails to make the best use of every opportunity. She therefore pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity and commits herself deeply and readily. Feels herself to be completely competent in any field in which she engages, and can sometimes be considered by others to be interfering or meddlesome.

Your Restrained Characteristics:
Emotionally inhibited. Feels forced to compromise, making it difficult for her to form a stable emotional attachment.
Feels that she cannot do much about her existing problems and difficulties and that she must make the best of things as they are. Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity.

Your Desired Objective:
Preoccupied with things of an intensely exciting nature, whether erotically stimulating or otherwise. Wants to be regarded as an exciting and interesting personality with an altogether charming and impressive influence on others. Uses tactics skillfully so as to avoid endangering her chances of success or undermining others' confidence in herself.

Your Actual Problem:
The fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her to play her part with an urgent and hectic intensity.

Your Actual Problem #2
Fights against restriction or limitation, and insists on developing freely as a result of her own efforts.

cool.

4 can't stop the B.M. | ok...i was in band....

:: 2002 28 September :: 5.35pm
:: Mood: in pain... and it's not emotional!!!!

yeah... so i've been having daily headaches every day for about 2 weeks now. today's has been ever since i woke up this morning. it's been really bad too. the asprin i took about an hour ago hasn't kicked in yet or something. well, today was fun. i went with jenna and her family and their model a car club to the orchard and to the minature train station. now i'm getting ready for the pagent with beans. fun fun fun. just think, next year i'm going to be the one up there giving my speech and strutting around stage. whoa...the time has gone by. last night was a blast too. let it be known that unorganized pep banding, band wars, and unoffical fundraising is the best way to spend a friday night. i won't go into detail because too much went on, but if you ask me, i bet i can muster up a story to tell you. actually, ask me about unofficial, unorganized fundraising. that's a riot. especially when you actually make $1.75 for the boosters. wooo!!! anyways, yeah... i gotta go finish getting ready. have fun tonight kids. :)

:: 2002 27 September :: 11.21pm
:: Mood: nostalgic
:: Music: africa

we don't need no stinking vikings!

the word mosey makes me sad. vikings make me sad. that stupid picture on my mirror makes me sad. I'm going to put it away.

...and try to stop thinking about the whole fiasco.

had a riot tonight though.