This One Time At Band Camp...

:: 2002 20 July :: 12.35am
:: Mood: moved
:: Music: mmm.... some song with a pretty acoustic guitar

ok...this is it. it's the last one. i just couldn't leave without saying goodbye to everyone on instant messenger! i'm such a dork. but yep... i'm almost to tears from this song and mixed emotions. i love you guys.. wait..i already told you that. oh well... see you when i get back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo ...hugs..kisses... high fives... anything else... hand shakes i guess... mmmmm...they make milk shakes at camp!!!!! they are ssssoooooooooooooooo good..so is their ice cream...it's homemade!!!!!! anywho... have lots of fun and i'll talk to you all when i return!! GOOD NIGHT!

2 can't stop the B.M. | ok...i was in band....

:: 2002 19 July :: 5.31pm
:: Mood: happy and excited..but sad too :(
:: Music: stroke 9- kick some ass

this is crazy!!!! i'm so freakin excited about camp!! like..i can't wait.. i can taste the food, i can smell the way the dorms always smell, i can feel the hugs and i can hear the laughs. i absolutly cannot wait!!!!!! on the other hand, i'm going to miss you guys alot! i hope you all have a GREAT week and don't update too much so i don't have to sit here forever to catch up. i'll think about you guys everyday. hmm... i could put the camp address on here but i don't think people would write me. oh... you know what else is weird??? my music that i have donloaded on here is making me so happy. like... it's the same stuff i listen to every time i'm on the computer, but today... it makes me want to run around screaming the lyrics so loud so the world can sing with me. i love that rush i get from music. all music.... i always get a rush when we play a really intense or pretty song at camp. it's the greatest thing. for the next week i'm going to be surrounded constantly with music and it's going to be so wonderful. i can't wait. take care of yourselves... don't get hurt or lost and don't do anything dumb. I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!! SEE YOU ALL IN A WEEK!!!!!!!! BBBYYYYEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:: 2002 19 July :: 9.40am

1 day!

hey-oh-hey-oh-hey

that's all there is to say.

2 can't stop the B.M. | ok...i was in band....

:: 2002 18 July :: 10.23am
:: Mood: indescribable
:: Music: some song in b flat

hmmmmmm...... hm hmmm hmmm... i want to say what i'm feeling...but if you refer up to my mood, i can't really put it into words. so.. oh well i guess.

2 can't stop the B.M. | ok...i was in band....

:: 2002 18 July :: 8.48am
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: GRD

2 days kids.

:: 2002 17 July :: 10.29pm

Green

You are a very calm and contemplative person. Others are drawn to your peaceful, nurturing nature.

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wowzers trousers! this is my favorite color!

:: 2002 17 July :: 12.07pm
:: Mood: eehhhhhh....
:: Music: ben folds five- underground

What obscure band are you?

hmmm...

:: 2002 17 July :: 11.57am

I'm sorry.

:: 2002 17 July :: 10.47am
:: Mood: guilt,guilt,guilt.

I feel sort of like a bad person.
that's all.

3 days.

1 can't stop the B.M. | ok...i was in band....

:: 2002 17 July :: 12.05am
:: Mood: awake/bouncy
:: Music: this is sooo funny.... casper- cha cha slide... it fits my mood though :)

what can i say.. i'm really awake tonight. i think i still have some energy left in me from pit. wowzers trousers we had fun. i laughed so hard i thought i was going to split my gut, but on the other hand, we had somewhat of a searious conversation as well. i think i really needed that tonight. it was just good to talk to people who are on your side about things!!!! i think the 4 of us that were there got alot closer tonight. it will be really weird missing next week and then going back and having the other 2 there. oh well i don't think i'm going to worry about it because i'm going to have the time of my life next week. also i was thinking, i am basically busy for over 3 weeks straight. ahhhhh.... and it's almost birthday time!!!!!! but i'm flying out to montana the night of my birthday!!!! yay!!!! anyway... i feel like doing cartwheels and making the most beautiful music in the world or have the most deep conversation with the best person in the world or running to band camp 5 days early and everyone being there or jumping into the most wonderful guy's arms or smell the sweetest perfume or hear the most beautiful song that would put me to sleep.... mmmmmmm.... music...i'm tired now and i'm listing to the get up kids so i guess that puts me in a whole different mood. good night :)

:: 2002 16 July :: 3.47pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: ben folds five- underground

ok, somehow our little countdown got off and it's wrong now. if we were still going the way we were, we would say 4 days. but even if you don't include today, 4 days would be saturday and camp is on sunday. so i guess it's 5 days if you don't count today and 6 days if you do. either way we're still excited. i started packing last night. woooo!!!!!! pit tonight. we get our shirts. woooo!!!! again. anyways, i'm gonna scooot. later.

:: 2002 16 July :: 8.54am
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: I can't listen to any of my music because Aaron deleted it. (Yep he's an ass)

Now it is four days until fun.

I had a dream about Band Camp for the first time in a long time last night. But it wasn't a band camp nightmare. It was a nice one. And my dad was happy again in it.

GOD answered my prayer though. that was nice of him.But after that while I was trying to sleep I couldn't get devils out of my head. Anyone I imagined had devil horns. And I kept seeing shapes on the walls. And it was ever more scary because I went upstairs to see if Aaron was on the computer and he wasn't so I turned around and he was peeking out his door (devilishly) and looking at me. It was so scary. Because I thought he was Satan. We did a little dance for a few minutes. And I said to him "DON'T EVER DO THAT AGAIN!" (obviously I'm not mad at him anymore, but I held out all day and I think that's great)And then he scared me with the fact that a game he plays whispers his name all the time. When I went downstairs I kept putting my foot on Jessica's for comfort. It didn't help too much. And I kept saying I'd trade my soul for stuff. But I didn't mean it. There was nothing I could think of that would calm me down.( even Tony) It was all brought on by that horrible Diary of Rose Red book and the movie Rose Red. I almost threw up I was so scared.

erhem.....time to go.

wait time for one more story! I (obviously I did this to piss Aaron off and not apolgize, just blow the whole thing off) uninstalled Winap and Kazaa but I only successfully uninstalled Winap and Aaron didn't get as mad as I wanted him to. I didn't even get an apology. He has no respect for anyone.

:: 2002 15 July :: 11.58pm
:: Mood: thinking
:: Music: ben folds five- brick

just a thought
i was just thinking, you probably don't have a clue to who moe, earl, josh or miss torre is do you?? gosh, now that i really think about it you probably don't even know beans is sarah! ha! oh well.. to better understand:
moe= my aunt's (by marrige) mother
earl= moe's son (but he's like 50 or 60 something)
josh= my cousin that is getting married in montana (as well as moe's grandson and earl's nephew)
miss torre= my counsler at camp, a tuba player and music education major at CMU

ok...that cleared possible confusion up. gnasd :)

:: 2002 15 July :: 11.53pm
:: Mood: kinda tired, but ready for bed
:: Music: the ataris- how i spent my summer vacation

every time i see the word atari, i think of dan kunhle (sp?) and his atari shirts...heh..i'm a dork
and no where in that fun entry about wal mart runs and yummy salads did i mention.... 5 days till camp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! heavens to beatsy...can't forget that! i talked to miss torre tonight and she's going to get me an info packet about CMU and she said i made her day when told her i wanted to major in music at CMU. she was so happy and said that i would love it there. so yay!!! i'm excited!!!!!!! good night!