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2005 11 June :: 9.36pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Feel Good Inc. - Gorillaz
I've had a dream about Stunkel every night for the past 4 nights. No bad dreams, nothing with him dumping me or being mean, every dream has been about us getting back together or going on a nice date.
I found riding in the back of Jorie's car on the way to the Kays Place concert to be extremely hard, because my mind associates it with reaching over and grabbing his hand. And while part of me was shaken with the realization that I may never feel that again, another stronger part was really happy that I was able to experience that kind of joy in the first place.
Its taken a while, but I think I'm finally coming to terms with it. Thats not to say that I'm not going to hope that when he feels ready for a relationship that he'll turn back to me, or that I can even find anybody else right now even remotely desirable (Honestly, most of the time I have a mental list of people I'd say yes to if asked for a date, but right now I wouldn't consider *anybody* but him.) But I'm coming to terms in that I'm able to smile at the past.
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2005 3 June :: 10.20am
Blah Senior assembly was today, and BAcklight Banguet was last night. I didnt cry today or last night, its very suprising. I would have cried last night if the end of the year video was better, but it was all actors, acting and such. So that had no affect on me. In the senior video today there were parts where i was dancing in pep band. And there were a lot of times where i was like hey! i was standing right next to that person but i got cut off. And of course there was the part with me and david from turnabout. And now im in the library because i dont know what to do, and i didnt want to do anything i wanted to just sit in the music department but they wouldnt let anyone sign in so im here. But im alone i dont know where patrice went. Which is why i am tlaking to myself in this wornderful journal entry. so today is the last day of school. and the bell just rang and i dont know what that means, no one is moving. I still have to sit here in severe boredom for much longer. poop.
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2005 29 May :: 2.26pm
:: Music: Mutilated Lips - Ween
I have mean friends ;.;
Falcon Mitsukai [2:17 PM]: heyo
Linders Pinderss 2:17 PM]: dude, don't steal my word.
Falcon Mitsukai [2:18 PM]: ive used heyo before
Falcon Mitsukai [2:18 PM]: and hiya
Falcon Mitsukai [2:18 PM]: which is typically used by stunkel
Falcon Mitsukai [2:18 PM]: xDDD did I ever tell you that story
Falcon Mitsukai [2:18 PM]: from his lit class?
Linders Pinders [2:18 PM]: god, please NO.
Falcon Mitsukai [2:18 PM]: its funny
Falcon Mitsukai [2:19 PM]: and has nothing to do with him
Falcon Mitsukai [2:19 PM]: but something that happened in his lit class
Falcon Mitsukai [2:19 PM]: they were reading death of a salesman outloud
Falcon Mitsukai [2:19 PM]: and the guy doing happy
Falcon Mitsukai [2:19 PM]: it says in the book "Hiya, Biff"
Falcon Mitsukai [2:20 PM]: and he read it like "HIIIIIYA! ... Biff" Like, a karate noise, because he didnt know what Hiya was xDD
Linders Pinders [2:20 PM]: wow, I saw that coming a mile away. Seriously.
Falcon Mitsukai [2:20 PM]: you're so mean ;.;
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2005 27 May :: 9.21am
Not much time again. I don't know what to say. No playing in band today! Concert was fun last night. I'm ordering my computer after school today. Woo! Maybe It'll actually work for longer then a week.
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2005 27 May :: 9.20am
Last night was the last band concert...but i didnt cry. Im suprised. I really thought i was going to. O well...Assembly today woo! that means 5 minutes less of boring classes! :) that makes me happy weeeeeeee! i did pretty well with my color slides yesterday, thats sweet i can finish today, and then do my final woo hoo! :D!!! Things are goin dude....they're goin
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2005 26 May :: 9.04am
i am very disappointed in myself. I left my slides in my car, so now during study hall i am in the library instead of the photo room where i really should be...im going to fail photo. stupid infared that didnt work...i still have to do my final!!! AHH this is screwing everything up all due to my stupidity.
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2005 25 May :: 9.42am
So im back to updating every day now...i was uber busy b4
i deleted all my email today! :) it felt good everything is gone! woo!
I have a presentation in government now, wish me luck, except i dont care anymore so wooo okie bye bye
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2005 25 May :: 9.41am
:: Mood: irritated
More time to write. Yay.
So, as I said yesterday, this weekend was amazing.
I’m getting very annoyed with the habits of certain people. And that’s bad. But they make no sense, and that angers me. There is no logical reasoning behind their actions, so it just pisses me off. You know that people are acting that way just to make a statement. Or because they don’t want to prove someone else right. They want to be in control. And if they can’t, Kablam. Things will go their way or they won’t go at all. Does that annoy anyone else?
Patience for people is slowly disintegrating. Shonsky was driving me crazy yesterday, Ms. Bennett was, Lestina, Phelan, and anyone else who just talked on and on. Usually I can stand it, but I think I’m just overly tired. Which is not good, my dudes.
Not looking forward to next week. Many reasons. Will not discuss here. The pants movie comes out Wednesday! Woo! :-) That’s good. Madagascar is going to be hell.
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2005 24 May :: 9.57pm
Is it possible to say that everything is perfect right now? because it is.
Im so happy right now.
Prom was great
I wish ditch day could have been better...but i solved a crazy craving...doughnuts and french fries...hehehe
i just cant say it enough i am so happy right now. The art show was awesome i saw my good ol' friend shosty he was good. ...yaaaa
blah! :)
:D!!!!!!!!!
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2005 24 May :: 12.41pm
Life is strangely... life-like right now.
Everything is too normal. Too normal, I don't like it one bit. I wish things weren't so AVERAGE!!
I need something amazing, something out of this world, something incredible... but all thats going on right now is dull boring average activities. It needs to stop >.<
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2005 24 May :: 9.43am
I had something to write about, but no time now. Poop. In short…Prom was awesome. That night was awesome. Sunday was awesome. Lots of awesomes. Monday was boring, but relaxing. And that was my weekend.
Theres the bell. Oops.
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2005 23 May :: 8.49pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: 50 cent
My purse smells like tuna
Senior ditch day was awesome. We went down to chicago for Shika's birthday and hung out. It was so much fun. We were so annoying we laughed/talked so much we made some guy change seats on the bus and the other guy was laughing with us it was so much fun. Mil park was cool too. It was amazingly fun.
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2005 22 May :: 10.41pm
So I guess in any other case it would be hubris to claim this, but I feel right now, its truth.
I am Trigun's biggest fan!!
And I am hereby challenging anybody to dare take the crown from me. I dare 'ya!
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2005 19 May :: 10.58pm
:: Mood: crappy
House Managing
I know i messed up today, but if anyone comes and tells me about tomorrow i'll be mad. I get it. I let people in when i wasnt supposed to whatever, Bo and Phelan didnt say anything to me other than to fire my ushers. (Which by the way is hard to do). Sorry i just expect Jason or Mike to come up to me tomorrow and tell me that and i know ill get mad. I hope they have some sense. Yea i suck at house managing but i actually do it. I mean i dont thlink anyone who reads this journal has ushered outside of the show ( some havent even ushered during the show) so its a tad difficult to find people to usher. Ok i swear im done ranting about this.
You guys did an awsome job on the lights. I totally loved them. I am sorry to say but Patrice won. i really liked her lights maybe it was the dance cuz the two indian dances happened to be my favorites. :)
Yasamin
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2005 16 May :: 1.39pm
:: Mood: tired
My headache is making me think.
I am really tired right now, i have spent this whole weekend doing stuff.
Ok forget it i dont wan to do this. Di d you guys see the music video on my page. Its awesome. i did something technologically advanced. :)
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