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2003 27 June :: 5.07pm
:: Mood: party
:: Music: Limp Bizkit- Faith babayyyyyyy oohh yeahh lol
Sup, Just droppin out of a uterus...lol
Yo
I'm just chilling at home. The parents are gone for the evening. Thank god. Who knows when they will get back. I hope they get drunk and get lost. Then I could have the house to myself with my sister. She doesnt bug me that much and if she did i'd just lock her in the basement lol. Naw.. hmm..lol
COUSINS ARE GONEE! Thank goodness!! They are great.(suree they are amy) but they got so annoying. Thats enough of that dont even get me started. I only see them like once a year or whatever.
Ever wish you could play the bongos. That would be so damn sweet. "Hey amy do you play any instruments?" "Yeah...I play the.... BOONGGGOOOSS" then i'd all like move my hands like i'm playing the bongos and I'd make noises and stuff then people would think i'm weird lol. Thats ok!!!!...wanna know why that would be ok...because I could play the BONNNNGOOOSS lol.
I need to download some new music. I was downloading some hacker programs too.. I shall try to figure that out. No one will be able to trust me..I'll be hackin into your email accounts bizotches! LOL
I am such a computer nerrrrd.
I'm out.
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2003 26 June :: 8.30pm
:: Mood: Ok
:: Music: 3rd Eye Blind- Jumper
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend Cut ties with all the lies that you've been livin in and if you do not want to see me again i would understand..
I have a good feeling that 9th grade is going to be good. Its going to be very good. Not to mention back to school shopping. I'm egar...for some reason.. to see people. To hang out with jesse and kyle. And to make fun of allen for being shy. I'll get to know emily all over again...I love that girl. I'll just see people who I havent seen in like 3 years. And not to mention to meet new people. Its going to be a big new world of oppertunities. I just hope i pick the right ones.
Trapt-Still Frame. Good song. Thank you arie.
I was talking to chanz the other day and she was talking about how she felt that she was frozen and that the world was passing her by like she was cought in a "still frame". I stoped and thought about it and shes right...I mean...my life has litterally passed before my eyes. I remember being in kindergarten...just reading books and coloring all day..all the sudden I'm getting closer and closer to being on my own. Isnt that what I wished for? In a sense, my wish has came true..but...I wish it hadnt. I'd give anything to not have a single care in the world again. I just wish I just could have everything handed to me easily. With no rules..nothing holding me back. Life would be so much easier.
I take that back. If life was easy there would be nothing to it. If its difficult that you can feed off of struggles...it gives you a sense of empowerment. It feels good.
I want to learn how to play the guitar. Some one teach me.
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2003 26 June :: 1.38pm
:: Mood: questionable
:: Music: none
Hmm.
i was going to write about something but i forgot. I always loose the good ideas.
Kayla invited me over to her house for tonight to hang out with a bunch of people. :-D I love Kayla.
LoSTCHeRRieS: i'm bored...on the phone with zach but not really talking to him that much....i'm like this conversation is endulging
bAbyHaNds101388: lol
bAbyHaNds101388: tell him that amy says that I'm going to kick his ass
lol thats great.
I long for thundershowers. I want to hear the lightning and the rain hitting the willow tree in the neighbors yard. I want to hear its branches creaking. Its like a lulabye at night. Its ...its...weird...it make you feel good...I cant describe it.
I had the best dream lastnight...I woke up and felt all warm inside. It was about him...they are always about him. :-/
Maybe I will have him someday.
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2003 26 June :: 1.05pm
:: Mood: fine
:: Music: none
I have to pee lol
yeah the family cookout was fun lol..We played an intense game of badmitten and I kicked some ass. lol
Last night i was up till like 2 playing videogame tennis and I was kicking ass once again...what does this tell you?
That I can Kick Ass..?
Yeah thats right
You better watch yourself Zach O'Connor...I kick...You ASS! lol
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2003 24 June :: 8.39pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: none
All ends well?
1000 hits WOO!
Eh. Dont know what to do about this one. I thought middle school would be over with.
I think I shall make an effort to hang out more often instead of sleeping. But sleeppingg is sooo good. -drools- lol
I havent wrote anything in a long time.. I think I'll work on that tonight. If at all possible.......hm.
Theses pieces will come together soon.. I have to promise myself that. I wont feel like something is missing....
I have a feeling that this promise will be one i cant keep...:-/
i'm out
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2003 23 June :: 8.47pm
:: Mood: great...
:: Music: 12 Stones- The way I feel.
grr.
i hate my mom she makes me feel like i'm unworthy.
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2003 22 June :: 8.38pm
:: Mood: Grr..
:: Music: Broken- 12 stones
Psh.
UGH! ...JUST UGH.....
Fuck it.
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2003 22 June :: 12.48pm
:: Mood: confused
I'm out of my element. no one can understand that.
again. Judgement.
I shoudlnt even worry about it anymore. Its old repetative news.
When i didnt talk..people think i'm snobby...or that i think im better...i didnt talk rairly because i was unhappy...and not to mention i'm shy.
Dont judge if you dont know the whole story. You dont know me that well you cant already assume things because you havent been though some of the stuff i have and your not me.
And you said I should think before I talk.
I'm free to what I want to say and so is everyone else. I think and I write exactly what I think down. It takes balls to do that and I'm glad I do because there could be a lot of people who relate to it or agree with me.
I cant just throw away "friends". But I can avoid those who bother me..To the people that said " I was using everyine" Well... I wasnt but you can definatly count on me hanging out with differnt people and some the same people that I did....I've gone through to much with our so called group and I'm giving up because I know its never going to stop.
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2003 22 June :: 2.14am
:: Mood: Moved on.
:: Music: 3rd Eye Blind- I would understand
Please come back when you think this in your head....All answers will be shown below.
The main reason why some might ask..is because some were left out...talked about...and criticised. If your asking what the hell this is about...when the question pops into your mind, go back to the journal entry that was made at 1:57 AM in June 22, 2003. That will answer your question.
Thank you for your time...errr.
Comments only come with/from controversy. Well. You know how I just love to read comments...MORE CONTROVERSY!!
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
You could cut ties with all the lies, that you've been living in,
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand.
I would understand,
The angry boy, a bit too insane,
Icing over a secret pain,
You know you don't belong,
You're the first to fight, You're way too loud,
You're The flash of light, On a burial shroud,
I know something's wrong,
Well everyone I know has got a reason, To say, put the past away,
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
You could cut ties with all the lies, That you've been living in,
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand,
I would understand.
Well he's on the table, And he's gone to code,
And I do not think anyone knows,
What they are doing here,
And your friends have left, You've been dismissed,
I never thought it would come to this, And I, I want you to know,
Everyone's got to face down the demons,
Maybe today, We can put the past away,
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
You could cut ties with all the lies, that you've been living in,
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand,
I would understand,
I would understand...
Can you put the past away, I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend,
I would understand...
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2003 22 June :: 12.09am
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: That song where they paved paradise to put up a parking lot
You said she's Hispanic.
I am Jack's white skin. Not Hispanic, although it's a common mistake, I‘m sure. But all is forgiven. No guilt; just smile.
Today was given to the Hovinghs'. If you were to put them on an island without food, I wonder who would be voted off first? Or eaten.
^ Proof that Damned reality television is infiltrating society. For this, I am saddened.
For those who are logical: Who is Theresa's favorite Hovingh child? One guess.
It's not the woman who has more than her share of testosterone. Nor the swear happy Hovingh; who lives in Dullville. It's not the Mudlover. It's not the creative soul who thought of such a resourceful use of space in that spare room in the tree house. -cough- He isn't easily seduced by kitties... (Lindsey! Go in from left, I'll go right. Me-ow!)
One guess. If you get it, I’ll turn into a kitty and seduce you. If you don’t, Lindsey will.
No guilt; just smile. :-)
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