A Silly Little Blog for A Silly Little Girl

:: 2004 30 March :: 8.50pm

aww how cute

Sneakers- funny, laid-back, and goofy, you love to
make people laugh and have a good time. You
enjoy comfort and don't care to much about what
people think of you. You like to hang out with
your buddies and just have a good time. [please
vote! thank you! :)]

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:: 2004 30 March :: 7.51pm
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: number 10 on the DC cd

hey ya'll (haha yara ima use it too!)
wats up my home doggy dawgs?! haha...dont question it :-P....well lets see......ooh im teachin colin french! i gave him my amsco book from last year.....and so ya he's usin it to learn french...he's pretty darn good!! he's good at languages like moi. well ya he wanted to learn so he's kinda like teachin himself and askin me for help when he doesn't understand stuff...aww today he told me that he wants to go wit me to that ski camp..but ya i doubt ima be able to go..plus that means i have to be in a bathing suit in front of him...ahh....i dont know if im comfortable enough wit my body for that...ehhl....anywayz.....well ya so we talked for our daily hour today....haha it was funny cuz after school i was sayin bye to him cuz i was gonna get on my bus....and like we were kissin and this black girl shoves her head out the bus window and yells "THEM MOTHERFUCKA'S NEED TO GET THEMSELVES A ROOM!" haha we started crackin up like crazy! haha.....ooh i skipped latin practice today too! haha i was gonna go and everything..but erin asked me not to go so she wouldn't have to..ooh me and erin r gonna be in a room together along wit 2 juniors..so yay at least ill know one person.......hoorah! today was jovan's birthday...haha and i forgot...whoops......oh wellz. i wrote my commentary today..i think i did alrite..im scared that i mite have listed instead of ... makin an argument. oh wellz who gives a damn.....i still have yet to read Act one...which was what it was on..but i did it on a passage i had actually like read and analyzed in class....so .... i think ill be ok. hmm...well i think that's it....wow..that was pretty short..hehe alritey bye bye my ppls..

tonite's song: swan dive by sister hazel

:: 2004 30 March :: 4.57pm

today was aight...cesar didnt come to school today :-(...8th period i was hanging out with the guys at the gun range...it was cool i wanted to shoot one of the guns...one of these weekends me and jerrica are going to go the marcos's house to shoot paint ball guns...i want to do that soo bad like on 10 things i hate about youl...i dont care about the bruises much i just want to have fun...and it looks like fun...hehe...who knows...i dont really feel like typing much because i dont feel like involving much people in my life at the moment...if you want to know something im me that simple...so yea...bye

Make A Move
by Lost Prophets
So are we lost or do we know
which direction we should go?
Sit around and wait for someone to take our hands and lead the way.

Cause everyday we're getting older
and everyday we all get colder
We're sick of waiting for our answers.

Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
yeah i'm so tired of waiting,
waiting for us to
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
yeah i'm so sick of waiting,
for us to make a move.

Are we meant to take the pain?
Should we sit around and wait?
Are we being safe or was it another lie you made to make us hate?

Cause everyday we're getting older
and everyday we all get colder
We're sick of waiting for our answers.

Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
yeah i'm so tired of waiting,
waiting for us to
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
yeah i'm so sick of waiting,
for us to make a move.

Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
and we will never lose.
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
It's time to make a move.
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
and we will never lose.
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
It's time to make a move.

It's not enough
to let it rush
wait until
it's over.

We're sick of waiting for our answers.

Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
yeah i'm so tired of waiting,
waiting for us to
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
yeah i'm so sick of waiting,
for us to make a move.

Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
and we will never lose.
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
It's time to make a move.
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
and we will never lose.
Wake up! Wake up! Wake up!
I will make a move.

:: 2004 29 March :: 6.46pm
:: Mood: mellow
:: Music: dear claudia by..crap i forgot who!

howdy ppl i dont know!
well today was alrite. i skipped latin practice to hang out wit colin at lunch...cuz i felt like it! and ya we mite hang out this weekend cuz my mommy's not workin saturday or sunday.. he called me today and he wants me to go wit him to this water skiing camp! it sounds like soooo much fun! but ya it's like 300 dollars.....but maybe i mite be able to pay for it though cuz like...ima get a job durin the summer anywayz....so i dunno we'll see i guess. he was really cute today...he's like aww i like ur hair it looks nice.....i was like.....tank ya! hehe ooh my asthma's tonin down a lil bit which is awesome cuz i dont wanna be like wheezing on the latin trip...im definitely gonna have to take my nebulizer though....sucks but oh wellz...it's either that or another asthma attack...i wonder if asthma's contagious....hmm..i hope i dont get colin sick...haha that would suck...ima go look that up online when im done wit this.....haha omg today i opened my locker and...well since we all know how organized i am...:-/ .. well as soon as i opened it all my books came out and fell rite ON MY NOSE! haha it was swollen all through lunch..i was like oooowwwwwwwiiiieeee! haha colin kissed my boo boo i was like awwww that's so sweet. hmm..i wonder what we're gonna do this weekend..cuz i mean theres no movie out that i really wanna see....well like i wanna see the prince and me..or jersey girl...but i mean come on haha im not gonna drag him to another chick flick! the poor thing..haha. ima tell him he can pick this time...that way it'll be fair...well ya okies ppls ima go bye bye cuz i gotta log off in a lil bit anywayz to read hamlet....way to go thaimi! leavin everything till last minute! no one procrastinates quite like me ill tell u that! hehe okies buhz byez

PS. oh yea i forgot to tell u guys this the other day! well when i went to the doctor.....i got weighed....haha which is like the only time when i ever get weighed....well omg guess what?! I WEIGH 122 POUNDS!!!! isn't that beautiful?! im so happy! i went from 135 to 122!!!!! yay! so ya now my goal is 115...cuz before my goal was 120...and well im purdy much there....so ya....but i know im not gonna lose that much weight...cuz well my boobs....haha that always adds on a couple pounds.....oh wellz hehe okies now im done...::bows::

tonite's song: fuck you rite back by frankee

:: 2004 28 March :: 6.05pm

this spring break kicked sooo much fucking ass...i love it...only sucky part i only saw cesar (which isnt a bad thing) but i would have loved to see jerrica, thaimi, and some other friends...sniff sniff tear...hehe but i made 50 bucks and spent every dime...i got new jeans which are baggy, undies, a i love boys beach bag, my eye brows waxed (still hurt a lil and they look awesome), neon pink nailpolish (score), and the best part the lostprophets cd...ahhh i love that song last train home so now i have the whole cd...score!...also went to ai like twice and got a killer tan...im not that pale...my legs look awesome because of the tan...i just got to wear skirt one of these days...who knows if i feel like it...umm whatelse...i got my expander off...i didnt get my license cause i found out that one year is tomrorow and i have to get the insurance settled but my mom will do that tomorrow...so everything will work out hopefully...if it doesnt...its okay...i really dont need it right now...i jsut need it by the summer...hmm what else...i had no shit from people.....ahh my long awaited break has come and feel great for once...its odd...but ahhh tomorrow is school and thats such a drag...but im hoping we have new people...guys...hehe...ryan came to our school around this time...so we just need another ryan but dateable...hehe...im such a dork...not a bad thing...oh wellz...i better go cause my mom made my favorite dinner...so yummy...hehe soo bye bye everyone...and see ya guys tomorrow!!!..bye bye

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:: 2004 28 March :: 5.57pm

i miss my baby...

**that's all i had to say...hehe bye**

:: 2004 28 March :: 3.40pm

aww look what i found in donna bonnana's journal...at first i was like...wtf y in the world would u want a guy like that?! hehe..
I want the kind of guy that...
-if I asked him if I was pretty, he'd say no.
-if I asked him if I was in his heart, he'd say no.
-if I asked him if he wanted to be with me forever, he'd say no.
-if I asked him if he'd cry if I left, he'd say no.
But then, as I walked away he would grab my arm and say...
-you're not pretty, you're beautiful.
-you're not in my heart, you are my heart.
-I don't only want to be with you forever, I need to be with you forever.
-And baby, if you left me, I wouldn't cry...I would die.

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:: 2004 27 March :: 6.51pm
:: Mood: in dire need of peeing...
:: Music: nothing

hmm..
well i dont feel like givin a whole freakin summary of my trip but just know that i had a blast....and i didnt get the tan i wanted cuz it was like freakin 50 degrees.....and i had my first asthma attack since like 10 years...and yea....ok im done wit the whole trip recap hehe. well i bought hamlet yesterday so i gotta start readin.....i need to study freakin history for the latin thingy ma bobber ...it's on thursday..and i dont come back till saturday...i dont know y but im not as excited bout this one as i was bout the french one...i dunno im just...blah i dont wanna go. i miss colin like crazy. i haven't seen him alllll spring break....agh..haven't talked to him either cuz he's in montana and all....i can't wait to see him monday...OMG GUESS WHAT?! i got accepted to the usf summer health academy thingus!!!!! im sooo happy! it's 2 weeks and i get to stay in the dorms and stuff.....it's a lil bitter-sweet though cuz shilpa didnt get in..sucks...it's not gonna be as fun without her.....but ill get to meet tons of new ppl and that's always a blast...im glad i finally have plans this summer...hmm..lets see what else is new...oh yea i have asthma again...grr i have'nt had asthma since i was like 6 yrs old...so ya i have to have that nebulizer machine all the time....and it's hard to breathe...ima have to take it with me on the latin trip....sucks big cock but oh wellz....it's either takin it or havin another asthma attack. omg it was soooo scary. ok well i was lying in bed our last nite in the hotel room....and i woke up and all of a sudden i just couldn't breathe! i couldn't breathe through my nose cuz it was all stuffy (i had a cold) and i couldn't breathe through my mouth cuz my chest was all clammy so i was like wheazing and heaving and everything....and so i get up and i was in a hotel room wit my aunt, grandma and my lil cousin.....and my mom was in the hotel room next door....both rooms were connected by a common door....so i got up and went to open that door to get to my mom and it was locked! so i was like freakin out cuz here i am not breathing...pounding on the door...at like 4 in the morning....omg it was so scary i started crying cuz i didnt know what to do.....finally my mom came out and she put on that lil nebulizer machine.....meanwhile i was still in like tears cuz i was so scared....then i finished doin that lil machine thingy and went back to bed.....but omg it was sooooo frightening...one of the scariest moments of my life....i've never actually found myself unable to breathe....it was so creepy....but ya....so anywayz i went to the doctor and he prescribed some thingy ma bobber that's not workin for crap....but w/e...crap i gotta pee like a mother....haha way to go off topic thaimi...damnit i wanna talk to colin so bad! he's sposed to get home today or tomorrow.....im actually lookin forward to school just to talk to him...hehe. ima try and make plans next weekend when i get home from the trip so me and him can go out and do something. we haven't hung out in forever.........btw last monday...was one month since we've been goin out....that's so weird cuz it doesn't feel like one month at all hehe...freaky.....oh wellz .. alritey well ima go cuz i relaly have to pee....haha ..... dont u just love to share?! hehe bye

tonite's song: maps by the yeah yeah yeahs

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:: 2004 27 March :: 3.57pm

i just got back from ai and im tired like hell....my sister met up with some friends of hers and she met this guy and they hung out and were all over each other all day...so lets say i felt lonely badly...no friends no guy...oh wellz donna can entertian herself...im getting good at it...hehe...i should go take a shower but im too tired...anyone care to join me?..hehe...i bruised my sisters hand bad with my mouth...marcos wants me to make him cookies...i was like no...i refuse to do anything for anyone...i know im a bitch...but it doesnt matter...i refuse to go back out with him that simple...i rather be single....its easier...whatever....im going to go....bye bye

update...well i have deformed big toes...hmm great right...its not life threatening...but if i want my toes to be not deformed i have to get an operation where they shave down my bone...wtf...scary i know...i refuse to get the operation...i can live with my messed up toe...if it affects me ill worry about it then....my ankle is bruised and swollen...it must be from ai but i dont know how i hurt it...but its hard to walk on and its bugging me...ahhh...well bye

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:: 2004 26 March :: 11.38am

have you ever met someone that off the bat you feel like you know them and they know you...its like love at first site...just not like in the movies and stuff where you automatically love someone....but you grown to love this person in 5, 10, 20, 30 minutes and you want to be with this person for as long as you can have them...all you want is to know this person like no other...be with this person...when you are with this person everything is right...you feel like nothing can happen to you...you feel safe...your happy and you dont want it to change...this person is like a friend and you want more than just a friendship...but cant because its a scary thing...something horrible might come out of it or something beautiful...its based on the risks you take....

dont ask me where all that came from..lol...i was just thinking about being little and now and just everything...i remember in 1st grade i had my first boy call me...3rd grade i had the first boy like me and he gave me my first teddy bear for v-day...my actual first crush was in 4th grade...hehe i remember when i was in day care before kindergarten (sp?) and guys had cooties and you had to stay away from them...i also remember me and leah beating up lil boys and they would push us off the swings and we would get dirty...and you had to cross your fingers so cooties wouldnt get to you...lol wow man we were some cute kids...me and leah and crystal would go in the back yard when we were younger and make mud pies with oranges and nasty stuff we found in the ground...we would also catch lizards and find there eggs and hold them untill they hatched...i know i had a few hatch in my hands...gosh...good old times when stuff didnt matter and you didnt really know what was going on....i wish for those days again....just to be 8 again and the only thing to worry about was catching cooties...and the best thing was finding a cookie or your mom bringing you a barbie or something to that effect...just simple things made you happy...but now adays everyone wants more...its amazing how people change from a childhood to teenage years...and now we are going to change while we get into our adult years....and we learn from our mistakes...risks...chances...moving on from stuff we dont want to move off of...from everything that happens to us...and we all become amazing people...gah too much umm i dont know...hehe but im going to go i got to call my dad and see if he still letting us go to ai...i got in trouble last night because i was online at 11:15...its not like i can get raped over the net...oh wellz...bye bye

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:: 2004 25 March :: 3.20pm

this spring break has been the best other then some annoyance by my sister...but thats okay..ive been to ai once so far...im going again tomorrow i think and hopefully sunday too who knows.....i just really want a tan...and i have one but i want it a lil darker...it doesnt matter...i really want to cut my hair...its nuts...its getting way too long..if my hair grows two or three more inches it will be to my ass...so i guess im just going to wait about a month and a half and it should be to my ass and then ill cut it all off...not really but a lot of it.....i dont know...im a dork and am too indesive...am bored and marcos's older brother is calling me white...he is always messing with me...oh wellz...thaimi comes back today...i dont know waht time but she comes back...so far i only seen cesar from school this spring break...im only missing carlos and thaimi and jerrica...if i saw all those then i would be good...im watching life or something like it...i love this movie...it makes you think about life...and how you really only have a lil time left and you should live it...thats my plans...man im soo excited for my future dude...i know what i want to do with it finally....its awesome...my grades are good...i got nhs...i got everything at school going for me...all i need now is to work a bit harder and get accepted into university of florida...and ill be set...everything will be good...and im going to travel...how awesome...hehe im done...last night me and my mom talked about when i get older...it was nice i havent spoken to her for a long time because everytime we talked she would always tell me how cold i am to people...and how i dont care and how much im careless and blah...i was like okay thanx your not perfect yourself...so whatever...me and her get along for now i guess...who knows how long that will last...crystal finally met the guy at the orthodnist that i thought was cute but not my type but crystals type...she thought he was cute and he tryed to hit on my sis...it was funny...he is like 17 and he goes to jefferson...my sis was following my into the room for them to take my expander out and he was like you dont have to go wiht her...i was like wow loser...oh wellz...my dad's cell wont shut up...i want to throw it...im babbling too much hehe...this is what boredom does to you...i want something but imi bored...oh yea im buying this bag thats soo cute for the beach that says i love boys or i lover surfer boys...dont ask i like it...la di da...i want new pjs with ducks on them...dont ask why i just do...anywho im going to go cause kings of chaos is calling me...lol...i just felt like checking it because i have like 500 turns because i ignored it since like a while back....bye bye peeps

I want the kinda of the guy that...
-if I asked him if I was pretty, he'd say no.
-if I asked him if I was in his heart, he'd say no.
-if I asked him if he wanted to be with me forever, he'd say no.
-if I asked him if he'd cry if I left, he'd say no.
But then, as I walked away he would grab my arm and say...
-you're not pretty, you're beautiful.
-you're not in my heart, you are my heart.
-I don't only want to be with you forever, I need to be with you forever.
-Baby, if you left me, I wouldn't cry...I would die.

:: 2004 24 March :: 9.54pm

well i just got back from the mall with cesar, jen, and crystal...it was a lot of fun...we all went to the parking garage and me and cesar were sitting next to each other talking and talkin while jen and crystal were on the other side...then the dumbass sercurity guy told us to go....oh wellz...me and cesar hung out a bit today cause crystal and jen were having issues with cookieman...so yea...we talked...he is awesome...anywho...i went to the book store and i found like 3 books i want to buy...yup yup...well im going to go cause i need to change...luv ya guys...bye bye

:: 2004 23 March :: 9.23pm

i found this song on a forum and liked it...so its getting posted here for safe keeping...hehe...i got my expander off...score my teeth hurt but i got that stuff out...yey...it feels weird too how wellz...i can speak normal now i dont sound like a baby...score moneky...hehe...

Rise Against - Swing Life Away
am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up?
am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?
are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost?

I'll show you mine, if you show me yours first
let's compare scars and I'll tell you who's is worse
let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words...

We live on front porches and swing life away
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labour, I'll slave till the end
I won't cross these streets untill you hold my hand

Been here so long, think that it's time to move
The winters so cold, summer's over too soon
So let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow

I've got some friends, some that I hardly know
We've had some times I wouldn't trade for the world
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go

We live on front porches and swing life away
We get by just fine, we're on minimum wage
If love is a labour I'll slave till the end
I won't cross these streets untill you hold my hand

swing life away
swing life away
swing life away
swing life away

:: 2004 22 March :: 8.43pm

this is a picture of military ball...look...hehe...

FIRST ROW...cesar my best guy friend...ME!! i wonder why im soo red?? maybe because i danced too much oh yea my hair is naturally red and i look like shit there!!...jen who is my good friend but she is a freshie (freshmen)...crystal aka my sister literally we have the same parents but we look nothing alike i look like my mom (white) she looks like my dad (cuban)...nessa she is my other good friend freshie hehe...LAST ROW...first two people i dont know lol...the last person in the row is carlos my other best guy friend he is awesome always there for me when i need someone...thanx you guys....as you can see we all had a blast...lol....we had more than a blast...well today was awesome ai from soo much fun me and crystal had good luck...and i got a new pair jeans that are baggy and a new pair of undies that are stripped pink...hehe im a dork....well im out im tired and i got things to do....hope you guys like the pic....BYE

this poem my best friend carlos wrote...isnt it amazing!
no title
I got up and wrote this today
Then i did the same things i alway do
Got up,dressed,and on my way
didn't think today would be different than
any other day
Repetitiveness got the best of me
Madness got the rest of me
all of these things that i couldn't foresee
Even now that i think about it i still can't
believe
What you've seen what you've done
all for some fun
How can you do that to a human being
Treat then like a less being
By doing demining shit
as if they were you property or your pet
But the person you do that to wont soon
forget
That's why we have kid colombines and shit
they'll get back at you eventually
shoot you a couple times just to make you
bleed
Make you feel the pain that they went threw just to get back at you