lisa3019

i don't know if i can do it =(

..I don't know if I can be without him for two more weeks.
I cry every single day. I don't want to leave my house, I don't want anyone to come over--I just want him to come home.

=(

I am bored and sad and lonely.
I hate it.

I just got off the phone with him right before this sentence.

Now I'm on the phone with Christina but I'm taking long breaks between tthese last three sentences.

Okay, now I"m OFF the phone with Christina.

It's probably a good thing she called or I'd still be crying.
I hate that he's gone.
It's weird when I have spent every single day with him for as long as I can remember and even before we were living together I would atleast see him every day.
..and now I haven't seen him in.. today is the 5th whole day.

My mom keeps on trying to tell me that it is going by fast and he keeps on saying that he'll be home before we know it.. but I feel like an ass because I can't stop crying and I want him here.

Today I woke up and got ready for work.
I didn't really want to go, though because I was like--dead tired.
I have been so worn out lately that I feel like I'm starting to get sick.
I called work and Andy answered and I asked him if Todd needed me.
Andy asked Todd and they said to come in if I felt liek it so I just stayed home.

Did I mention that Andy wants to send a laptop home for me so that a week after I have the baby I can work from home until I'm ready to come back?
That would be soo awesome. I would LVOE that.
That way I don't have to take forever off of work but I don't have to worry about going in too soon or even leaving the house and baby.

Soo.. I layed down on the couch and took a nap with NORE.
We slept until liek 2:00 when my mom called and said she was coming over.
I made myself two ham sandwiches and started eating lunch as she walked in.

We went through some more baby clothes and stuff and we separated them in sizes and then I just started washing blankets and sheets and everything.

Ugh. The last load is in right now actually.
I'm watching Scarred though.
This show is fucked up.
It almost makes me want to throw up and if I didn't have like a really strong tolerance to this kind of stuff I probably would.
Justin can't watch this show...

I am glad I had Christina to talk to.
She asked if I wanted her and Kris to come over, but I just want to be by myself.

MJPerry24: you are going to have so many baby friends over in years to come
MJPerry24: who come over just to see you

atleast talking to people makes me laugh, hahaha.

anywyas, im going to finish this email to babe.

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