:: 2004 17 March :: 8.37 pm
:: Mood: high

yiipeeee
i'm so confused with days! omg..

tuesday? - -
got up + ready.
went to my dads shopp to see him.
stayed there and visted for awhile.
went + picked up whitney.
mom + sis got their hair cut _ me + whitney chilled with joey and some high kid. lol cool shtuff we saw his pet "frog".
came home.
whitney hadda headache =\ .
got zooted.
went to bed.. wow.
woke up at 3- fell back alseep.

today (wed) - -
we woke up.
no headache ! =D
got ready.
went to beach.
SAT IN TRAFFIC!
laid out.
played football and volley ball with hot guys.
came home.
took showers.
got zooted!
called travis.
him + his friend darren took us to brusters.
darren.. you are one fine white boy!
but! too old.. college student.
got- a strawberry shake!
oh yea trav.. you almost killed us.
had to buy my sis a shake to keep her on hush. (not to tell mommy) lol.
now we're home and c h i l l e n .
holla back.

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:: 2004 15 March :: 8.11 pm
:: Mood: crying..

welp last ngiht me and whitney stayed up til like 4! lol we watched american wedding then drumline. but i didn't stay awake for the end of drumline.. we were supposed to get up at 8 and go fishen with my dad but we deff didn't get up in time.. oops! lol we finally got outta bed at 2! ahh then we just chilled and watched TV and took showers. then we made cappuccino ices lol they were yummy! lol whitneys leavin soon so i'll be back to this later..


i fucking hate guys! for real i need to just forget about them anyways. i'm too fucken young to be worrying about love- FUCK IT!

so luke came over today with bubba. things were going good. he got here and we were all just hangin out outside by his truck. then they came inside and ate. then we all went in my room and were just sitting on my bed talking. and luke was just laying on the other side of the bed and me and bubba were sitten next to eachother and lukes all like aw you guys should hook up. WUT THE FUCK!! how is he gunna sit there and tell me to hook up with his bestfriend and it not bother him at all? thats so fucked up i love him so much and he honestly dosn't care about me. b4 he came over we were talken on the phone and he was like so if i come over can i get a kiss? so when he was here and was fixen to leave i went to kiss him and he turned his head so i could kiss his cheek and i was like wtf is that? and he said i can't and i was like why and he said cuz i'm not a single man. i was like oooo heellllll no! so i said bye to bubba and went inside and they left. then bubba called me and was like are you okay? and i was like no why the fuck does he do that shit to me. and he was like don't let him get to you thats just him. and then we were talking about chelsey and shit and i jsut started crying. i don't know wtf to do. well wait. i do know wut to fucken do. FORGET ABOUT HIM! but its just not that easy.. it's been since august since we broke up and i'm still not fucking over him.. oh my fucking god wtf's wrong with me

you know wut.. i talked to bubba and katie about this some more and i can't let this get to me. i've been living fine for a long time without him so i will get through this i am just so jealous that that used to be me. and he's the only one i've ever been in love with and got love back, i miss that so much. but i really need to wake up and get a reality check. boys=nothing! they do not make or brake you.. they are wut you make them so if you don't stress and stay focused ; you'll be all right.. i just gotta try n keep that in mind

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:: 2004 15 March :: 1.22 am

hmm.. today was really boring til' about 4 then whitney came over and we waited for my momma to get hom from work. then we went to target [i got a new bathing suit and shtuff] then we went to coralwood to see 50 first dates, it was cute/funny. yea well peter murphy met us up there.. weird nite lemme tell ya. anyways now we're watchen american wedding and just chillen at my casa.. u knoo. update later bye

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