things that make you go, hmm...
aw hey guys. last night was so shitty but i guess all's i needed was a good cry b/c today hasn't been half bad. i didn't see J (otherwise known as philly - lol) in school today but its straight cuz i looked like doo-doo lol and he called me after school. ahh, wutta doll. but i've been thinking about alotta el'shit'o to talk to him about.. i'm really hoping i get the answers i want..

anyways.. today i went with sara travis megan and kels to mcdonalds again.. i was sooo freekin scared we were gunna get caught again.. omg. aww my serr and trav are going out now!! yayy!

and leah's having a ruff time.. i'm sorry i el'love'you'o !! and everything will be a-okayy, promise cuz spring break's fixen to be off the chain! ahh lol good one.. cuz i'm FLABBERGASTED !!! lmao

welp.. i'm gunna hit it for now and wait for my baby J to hit me upp! laterrr

just when everything seems so perfect... it all turns to shit

..my hearts falling + only he can catch it..

wow everything is getting to me tonight i'm just sitting here and everything is making me cry.. hopefully it is because of my period..

to start it all HE isn't talking to me and wtf we were fine then i don't even know

then at dinner my dad started talking about his g/f with my gramma how they were at church or something and he wants me to meet her so bad and he said he was gunna make me.. i swear to god i will fucking spit in her face so that pissed me off and i wouldn't talk to him anymore and this was all after he said he would buy me my car when it was time ugh..

then in the car my great gramma (whose 93!) was fucking talking outta her ass she's going fucking crazy and it scares me so much her and my grampa are getting so old and it just makes me realize they're not gunna be here for much longer

and of course there is always luke... i try to be just his friend and i cant do it i still love him so much

god i don't know wut to fucking do anymore my grades SUCK and my mom thinks i'm depressed and wants to put me on fucken meds like i'm a fucken looney. i just don't even fucking know anymore

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i am soo tired of all these people saying Sarah
did this, and Sarah did that. well guess what ;
Sarah doesnt give a shit what you think, so
why dont you go and spread that??



she gets home from school too early &closes
the door to her room. there's nothing inside
her; she's weak & she's tired of feeling like
this. so they rise in the morning & they
sleep in the dark. but even though no one is
looking... she's falling apart. they call her
for dinner; she makes up a reason. she looks
at her arms & she rolls down her sleves. but
they're all starting to see through her lies
& every night she has tears in her eyes



just because i smile doesnt mean im
happy ; a smile can hide everything.



shes beautiful as usual
with bruises on her ego.



((citations to- mandi wray + katie serhegy ; these quotes fit well, i hope you don't mind))

Last night - Sunday ;
teen nite was funn!! alotta freekin people showed up!! but me + whitney didn't dance much we were a bit tipsy =] hehe. then when we got home i checked my celler and _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ had called me! so i called him back but he didn't answer =\ but thats ok cuz i jsut got off the tell wit'm, yayy but anyways we added to the tipsy-ness and passed out! u knoo.. then this morning we got up and my mom cooked breakfast for us (banana pancakes, scrambled eggs, bacon, + hash browns !! lol yumm) then we all got dressed and met tim and dawn down at the el-beach-o. i'm so red.. lol i look like a freekin lobster! but hey.. it'll turn tan so thats gizzood. welp i'm outta here for now..
t o o d l e s =]