Ariana

Ariana

:: 2005 21 November :: 1.08pm

Where is your boy tonight? I hope he is a gentleman.
Maybe he won't find out what I know: you were the last good thing about this part of town.

When I wake up, I'm willing to take my chances on the hope I forget
that you hate him more than you notice I wrote this for you (for you, so...)

You need him. I could be him...
I could be an accident but I'm still trying.
That's more than I can say for him.

Where is your boy tonight? I hope he is a gentleman.
Maybe he won't find out what I know: you were the last good thing about this part of town.

Someday I'll appreciate in value, get off my ass and call you... {but for} the meantime I'll sport my
brand new fashion of waking up with pants on at 4:00 in the afternoon.

You need him. I could be him...
I could be an accident but I'm still trying.
That's more than I can say for him.

1-2-3-4!

Where is your boy tonight? I hope he is a gentleman.
Maybe he won't find out what I know: you were the last good thing about this part of town.

(won't find out) he won't find out
(won't find out) he won't find out

Where is your boy tonight? I hope he is a gentleman.
Maybe he won't find out what I know: you were the last good thing about this part of town.

Where is your boy tonight? I hope he is a gentleman. (he won't find out)
Maybe he won't find out what I know: you were the last good thing about this part of town.

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liz

:: 2005 21 November :: 12.59pm

well i talked to leo today. apologized about being a bitch to him and he was cool. he said that i was in a new relationship and he could understand how ray would be a little jealous of him, leo is too good to me. hopefully other people can be cool like him too.
as of right now the only friends i seem to have as constant are joslyn, amber, and kristin.
everything is turning out so differently than i had ever expected.
im bummed that you people who have claimed to be my friends can turn around and say things like that about me. kelly especially. he said that he was neutral and that he would still be friends with both of us after we broke up. i see how true that was. im really upset about that kelly. thanks a mil.
pj I am bummed because i feel like you are trying to use things against me that you think will make me want to go back to you. I dont think that is fair at all, especially the whole ring thing. i love you regardless im just saying.
today is really upsetting me.
I need something a drink or sleep, yeah sleep. good.

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liz	:: 2005 21 November :: 11.34am SO Kelly, Kevin, Bill, Yakaly, Michelle, YOU CAN ALL FUCK OFF!!! You don't know me, you don't know Pj and I's relationship so keep your damn opinions to yourself. Leave a Red Hair

liz

:: 2005 20 November :: 9.52pm

so yeha. im am wiped the fuck out
i mean literally ray and i just skatedboarded for two hours.
it was damn cool.
only i wiped out and my hand is all filled with gravel and my elbow is bleeding.
but i feel happy.
we had a good night.'
now he is going to the medcenter because he has been pretty sick and his mom said that he needs to go and so he is.
whatever.

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shannonw55

:: 2005 20 November :: 8.06pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: John Mayer - City Love

6
I found a new favorite song for the time being.
"I tell everyone
I smile just because
I've got a city love
I found it in Lydia
And I can't remember life before her name"

Anywho,
The play is over. I can't even express how much of a downer it is. I really hope I did my best. I hope I get the chance to do something like that again, cuz it was the coolest experience I've had in quite some time. It's just gonna be so strange to go to school tomorrow and not have play practice. I just feel like I wasted the experience and didn't make it as good as it could have been. I never had the time to make it perfect. But I guess it was as good as I could get it, eh?
I'm happy I got to be in it.

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liz	:: 2005 20 November :: 6.00pm F"UCK that is me screaming fuck in frustration at you. \okay. he is angry at me. damn damn. 3 Red Hairs Left \| Leave a Red Hair

bigty623

:: 2005 19 November :: 12.01am

Damn! what a good night, i love her so much.
we (Me, jessica, beth and sang moon) went and seen Walk the Line. it was a good movie. the bad part was that we didn't get in the theather in time. so we had to sit almost in the front. it pissed me off. Tonight i felt so close to jessica. It made me feel so good inside.
I love you jessica
-beaver

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liz	:: 2005 18 November :: 12.24am JOSLYN I love you. come see me. i want to cry and i dont know why. what is going on. everything is falling so fast stupid stupid fall out boy. 2 Red Hairs Left \| Leave a Red Hair

liz

:: 2005 18 November :: 12.13am

do you ever feel like every choice that you make is wrong. like your happy for the moment but fucking yourself over in the long run.
i dont feel it.
im afraid of what i do feel.
its odd.
different.
i dont want to get bored.

i went to meet him at work and he was like so what are your plans for midnight and i was like, sleeping and he was like well there is this movie that i guess you were kinda interested in seeing and i was hoping you would let me take you and i was like.
awww.
i am going to take my little sister on saturday though, and then we were going to go see it anyway.
but then i said no save your money we will go see walk the line or jarhead or a movie that you want to see and he was like, i want to do something nice for you though. i love you and i know youve been waiting for the release for awhile and i was like, sweetie you would not enjoy yourself lets just sleep, you have school in the morning and all.
so here we are and im okay with that.
he is a really great guy.
not sure why he loves me so much.

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liz

:: 2005 18 November :: 12.11am

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He's as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world would cave in
Lord, it just ain't right
Lord, it just ain't right

Oh and i don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
He's such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him
So hard not to blame him
Hold me tight
Baby, hold me tight

Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
He's such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm searching for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long

He's soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He's never enough
And still he's more than I can take
Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
He's such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

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bigty623

:: 2005 17 November :: 7.18pm

gah! can this day get any fucking worse? honestly. it's seems to me that i can't do anything right :( it pisses me off. i don't think i should go to school tommrow save me some hassle and preasure then for once i could have a good weekend later
-Ty

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liz

:: 2005 17 November :: 2.21pm

GOWD
I hate college.
No I hate myself for being such a slacker and not trying at all.
I am totally going to have to retake this stupid ass prereq stupid ass algebra class again.
why?
because I dont try at all and I have put forth no effort and I got a test back today that I got a 36% on.
DAMN YOU LIZZY.
im so upset with myself I am so so SO much better than that. I am smart. not like yeah liz is smart but like SMART.
I should be doing really well in an entry level sort of class like math 110. .
I am just really really upset with myself. I don't know If I can dig myself out of this algebraic hole that I am in but by god I am going to try.
the teacher gave us this big whole lecture too.
he is all talking about how it is his last semester and that if he likes a student he is going to take that into account when he gives them a grade and that policy doesnt matter to him because what is the school going to do? Fire him. nope he doesnt care. so its time for liz to buckle down and start kissing some major teacher ass.
or just study and do good on the next test and ace the final because what the fuck liz you are smart and better than an F.
so angry with myself.
you dont even know the resentment i feel for myself and for being a big old failure at life.
god at least ive got ray.
where is he anyway.
not at school cuz hes just as big of a slacker as I am. he hasnt been to school in like three days.
stupid high school boys ill tell ya.
to bed. i need to sleep. im going to have some pizza with my ma later. so yeah.
i should study instead.
hugs and shit

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liz

:: 2005 16 November :: 11.20am

Today is the Liz and Ray do nothing but be in bed all day adn drink hot cocoa and watch gilmore girls and other stupid girly shows day.
Mostly because I got up this morning and it was snowing and I am so not ready for that yet that. mostly because I lost my winter coat. well the outside shell at least and I cannot take that. coat where are you and fuck you snow. silly silly snow its only november.
oh wait i guess it does snow a little in november. sucky suckness.

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liz

:: 2005 16 November :: 12.34am

well to finish off a good day, i went to the gym.
yeah iknow right.
and on the way home who should i see but.....

i know you want to know who?

jAKE mellema, and jake moerdyke.
and then josh gates.
so i brought them back to my dorm and we ate tacos.
it was cool.
they are all way cool.
jake mellema is way super hot these days too.
my roomate was like that tall guy is HOT! and i was like yeah he is.
it was cool.
we hung out for about an hour and half,
it was a good day.

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liz

:: 2005 15 November :: 8.16pm

DDR/TACO Night BIZITCHES.
wOOt WooT.
I am having like the greatest day which is funny because nothing substantially good happened. In fact I forgot to do some English work but whatever It was still a really good day and Im in a super great mood.
*sigh*
well kaylee adn I are off to dance the revolution

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