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2005 20 October :: 7.40pm
Dinner with the parents was fantago.
We get along okay.
and Now I am doing some laundry.
Trying to work on this paper. Not going to get it done.
I find myself blocked, but as pj says I will find a way and somehow I will come out of this too unscathed.
I am fabulous.
In case you didn't know.
only 3 minutes until my laundry is done. How sad that Im like waiting for that moment. lol.
okay thats my night then.
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2005 20 October :: 3.29pm
I am having dinner with my parents tonight. I am currently just waiting for them to arrive here at my dorm.
I am bored though, bored bored bored. BUT Joslyn comes home to-morrow. yay above yays. That is all my excitement. Im going to start my paper. they are here.
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2005 20 October :: 1.47pm
I am currently in good standing at this university and not failing. that is fantastic, im gettin 3 c's and a B but that is so much better than I thought i was doing. not that it will be that way too long after the two tests I bombed today combined with that paper that is due tomorrow. shooty shoot shoot.
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2005 19 October :: 2.25pm
the day is getting better.
but for those of yous out of the loop let me fill you in.
I am currently seeing a guy named ray.
Yes sudden. Im sorry.
Hes nice.
anyway he lives with his ex girlfriend. only she wont accept that he is broken up with her blabh lblah
last week he went to texas to get a new car in order to leave her house.
well las tnight we went out and he got pulled over and since he just got the car home that day and so he didnt have it registered.
bitches impounded it.
so now he is staying with me. or he did last night. im not quite sure what the arrangements are but whatever. we will figure that shit out.
but yeah so that is the shit that is stressing me out.
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2005 19 October :: 2.09am
well the worst day ever concludes with the worst night ever.
the one fucking time that we arent doing anything wrong and the cops come.
fuck you guys.
my life is suck.
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2005 18 October :: 6.53pm
QUIZ WHORIN'
You are a very simple person and thats very cool
because you dont complicate much and you always
look good.
What is your clothing style?( girls only)
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You are a Playful/Innocent lover! Love for you is
like childs play! Not in the bad way, but that
your love is the most pure and innocent of the
all. When you love someone, you know it in your
heart because you get a feeling that makes you
feel on top of the world! If people look down
on you because they think you are too immature
for love, dont bother with them, they probably
just wasted their childhood lives trying to be
adults, while you have the right sense of mind
to keep innocent as long as you possibly can.
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2005 17 October :: 8.52pm
true stuff
Not really a big Jack Johnson fan but i love this song
Well, you win, it's your show now
So what's it gonna be
Cause people will tune in
How many train wrecks do we need to see
Before we lose touch of
We thought this was low
Well, it's bad, getting worse so
Where'd all the good people go
I've been changing channels
I don't see them on the TV shows
Where'd all the good people go
We got heaps and heaps of what we sow
They got this and that
With a rattle'l'tat
Testin, 1, 2
Man, what you gonna do
Bad news, misused
Got too much to lose
Gimme some truth
Now whose side are we on
Whatever you say, turn on the boobtube
I'm in the mood to obey
So lead me astray, and by the way now
Where'd all the good people go
I've been changing channels
I don't see them on the TV shows
Where'd all the good people go
We got heaps and heaps of what we sow
Sitting around, feeling far away
So far away, but I can feel the debris
Can you feel it
You interrupt me from a friendly conversation
To tell me how great it's all gonna be
You might notice some hesitation
Cause it's important to you, it's not important to me
But way down by the edge of your reason
Well, it's beginning the show
And all I really wanna know is
Where'd all the good people go
I've been changing channels
I don't see them on the TV shows
Where'd all the good people go
We got heaps and heaps of what we sow
(Where'd all the good people go)
They got this and that
With a rattle'l'tat
Testin, 1, 2
Man, what you gonna do
Bad news, misused
Gimme some truth
You got too much to lose
Now whose side are we on
But everyday anyway, ok whatever you say
(where'd all the good people go)
Wrong or resolute, I'm in the mood to obey
Station through station
Desensitizing the nation
Where'd all the people go
Going, going, gone
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2005 17 October :: 5.17pm
so thats an interesting theory, when you know someone for long enough do you start running out of things to talk about, do you repeat conversations. huh. good question. off to work now. i am tired.
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2005 17 October :: 12.48pm
wow. i need to stop reading your email, because what your mom said really hurt, she knows nothing.
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2005 17 October :: 12.42pm
"I started smoking cigerettes theres nothing else to do I guess"
sounds about right 4 on the drive home, fantastic.
Everything is so screwed up right now. my head is spinning i knew seeing you and talking to you would fuck me up even more. it was an okay day though, minus all the crying and sadness.
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2005 16 October :: 11.23pm
Im tired and hungover and stupid,
this is all the last thing that i need, but then again i did it to myself right?
I mean god imagine changing and feeling shitty about being lied and wanting to make sure that things work out right in the long run.
i cant believe that.
and at the same time i cant because its too damn hard
everytime i get somewhere and draw some conclusions you are there talking or you left some post that just fucks me up more than anything in the world.
I fucking hate myself and im beginning to not like you so much either.
im sorry to say that, even sorrier that its true.
i dont know why you love me so much, im not that great.
i made you give up yoru best friend and im a bitch adn i hurt you.
what the fuck do you want with me.
for the first time in my entire life i really wish that i was dead.
honestly i dont feel like I have anything left to live for.
im crying all the time.
and you all see is this front,
and im struggling and dying, and trying to make some sense out of it all and all I get all the time is criticism because for the first time in a long time i did something for myself. something that i felt i had to do.
You want to know why, because things were shitty, I didnt trust you, yeha ray, he came along, he called me sweetheart and before things went too far i told you that it was over because i knew that i was falling hard and fast. maybe your right, maybe i did leave for something better. i dont look at it that way, but go ahead if that is what helps you sleep at night then go right on and believe it. but to me it was something different and maybe the relationship would be better, mabye i wont get lied to. or maybe ill see someone new and realize that you and I are meant to be toghether. who fucking knows right?
this last week has been a constant struggle of you and him,
i wanted to go back to you I really did, your comfortable and I love you and I probably always will, and i was really close god knows i was, but you kept pushing,
and your still pushing, and the more you push the worse i feel and the less i want that back.
because what is it going to amount to, your pleading and wondering and pressing and me being suffocated.
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2005 13 October :: 8.54pm
some reason i don't think she does love me much any more for some reason. just the way she act's. it seems like she just blows me off. well them are the feelings for my day so im off
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2005 13 October :: 7.30pm
:: Music: Led Zeppelin - Going to California
Awww...
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2005 13 October :: 12.13pm
Im a facebook whore!
I love college.
oh yeah that paper. I have the conclusion left and frankly whatever ive thrown together just now is pretty damn good. especially for only like 2 hours of inconsistent work. I wonder how great I would be If i just did stuff on time and right. huh.
oh that reminds i have a paper due next week an art ananlysis. I think that professor is probably expecting something good too since he gave us a month to do it. huh.
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2005 13 October :: 10.05am
fuck, how come i never know what to do like ever.
choices suck. i just want people to decide things for me in a way so that nobody ever gets hurt but then it wouldnt be life would it.
ack. gotta write about war now. due in like 6 hours shit shit shit.
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