New stuff.
Well, I don't really feel like actually updating, buuuut, I'll add some pictures and write some captions for them to give a little bit of an update of some sort..
..here goes nothin'
I got a new car! well, new to me. I finally can drive around anytime I feel like it. :P mostly to work, but hey, it makes me look good, haha.
Haha, Leesh and I downtown Saugatuck. We were being goofs that day, Shane was behind the cam on this one. :P
Now Leesh's work behind the cam. :D She does good. haha, we were trying to be serious. I thought it was cute.
A while ago Leesh and I went to Denny's.. I have about 8 different shots of her doing this, hahah. She's adorable. :D
The Hillary trademark. Foot in Face.
haha, this was last night. I kept bugging him nonstop. :P we always have a good time doing absolutely nothing.
My mom snapped this of us today. I call it the squish-face.
Last but not least, my nephew, Brayden. One of the cutest babies ever. :) here's proof:
There ya go. A little picture update for everyone who reads this thing.
The foot one is for you, Leesh. :D hahah.
I friggin' love being out of high school, and summer, and Alicia and Thad, and Shane, andddd drinking water after pilates, and having a car :D
I'm tired though, annnnd I really wanna hang with alicia again.
Oh hey, JOEY + flying to michigan NOW = :D
I wish.
She got her own house, she got her own car, 2 jobs, work hard - she's a bad broad!
Well, Leesh wanted me to update and I DID tell her I would do it today, sooo here goes nothin'. By the way, this song is really good and catchy, but the guy who sings it is fugly. Thought I'd share that. I like it, but I can't look at him when I listen to it. :P
I spent the last few days with Leesh, and it was a-MAZING. I missed her a lot, and we definitely needed to hang out. I went to my dad's for a night too, and it was really good to see him again. I'm hoping he and Jan come to my graduation ceremony, but I can understand why if they don't.
Annnnyways, Leesh and I basically did everything we could do under the sun possibly, hahah. We have way too much fun together. :D
I saw Chris after not seeing him for over a month. It was awesome. :) He bought me a pretty necklace and earrings down in Florida. He's so nice to me. I swear, he'd give me the world if he could wrap his hands around it. I love them both oh-so-much.. god, I wish I lived closer. :(
I might be getting a Honda soon. It's supposedly a 4 door sedan, not sure on the color or year, but I don't even care as long as it gets me places I want to be. It's 1,500 bucks, buuuut the guy's gonna let me make some sort of payments on it, I guess. Whatev, as long as I get it. :) ..hopefully the price of gas goes down soon, too. Definitely before I start driving around, at least. >:(
So, I'm checking out. I have senioritis setting in about now. I will never ever ever go back to that dreadful building again!! yucky. Except for, you know, the neccesities and that crap. Like the grad tickets, blah blah. But yay!! Only about 20-some days when I get back from Spring Break. No more High School for meeeEEee!! yayayay!
So, who's coming to my grad party?
PS: Leesh, I love you x's a million. :D I'm gonna see if I can get out early on Sunday to come ovaaa. :) My scheduling manager wasn't in today though, so tomorrow I'll know.
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2008 13 March :: 10.51pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: 'Round here - Counting Crows
Step out the front door like a ghost into the fog where no one notices the contrast of white on white.
And in between the moon and you, the angels get a better view of the crumbling difference between wrong and right.
I walk in the air, between the rain, through myself and back again - where? ..I don't know.
Maria says she's dying, through the door I hear her crying - why? I don't know..
'Round here, we always stand up straight.
'Round here, something radiates..
Maria came from Nashville with a suitcase in her hand - she said she'd like to meet a boy who looks like Elvis.
She walks along the edge of where the ocean meets the land, just like she's walking on a wire in the circus.
She parks her car outside of my house and takes her clothes off, says She's close to understanding Jesus.
She knows she's more than just a little misunderstood, she has trouble acting normal when she's nervous.
'Round here we're carving out our names..
'Round here we all look the same
'Round here we talk just like lions, but we sacrifice like lambs.
'Round here she's slipping through my hands.
- - - -
She says "It's only in my head."
She says "Shhh...I know it's only in my head."
But the girl on the car in the parking lot says, "man, you should try to take a shot. Can't you see my walls are crumbling?"
Then she looks up at the building, and says she's thinking of jumping. She says she's tired of life, she must be tired of something...
- - - -
Gosh, I love music like that. That you can just relate to in so many ways, but don't even understand why..
Here I am. Eating Life cereal. I love cereal.
I went to Holland for the last few days, and just got back last night. Ohhh man, did Leesh and I have fun. :) haha, we love to shop, lemme tell ya, especially at TJmaxx. And we even got some pictures in before we passed out on the floor, haha. Ohh well, we'll get some more later. We sat at Panera Bread eavesdropping, too, which was hilarious. "Asia, Burma!! DUNG!" ohhh man, ahaha.
I did spend a lotta money, but I don't care anymore! It was amazing and so worth it. Plus, Leesh and I now have the same jeans! :P
Chris took me out for dinner at 84East, and I had this really good alfredo, but I only finished like.. the top layer and got full (there was a ton).. then Chris ate that too, haha. After that we went and got some coldstone. It was realllllly good. :) He's good to me :)
Good weekends put me in such a good mood. I love feeling like this. Especially when the sun is shining, too. It feels really warm instead of blistering cold, like usual. I really hope Spring is coming soon, no more snow storm crap, and no more cold weather. I can't stand it anymore! I want to walk around in t-shirts and stuff, c'mon!
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2008 5 March :: 7.05pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: Informatik - The World Belongs to Us
I am sooo excited. I'm going to Holland tomorrow and staying with Aliciaaa. We're gonna have so much fun, I don't even know if I can handle it!! ahh, all the pictures and makeup, and shopping and every other girly thing you can imagine that we'd do. :D
I also am very excited to find out I get out of school completely by the 15th of May. Ohh my gosh. How amazzzzing!! everyone - you're coming to my open house and eating food and cake. I like cake a lot, so it'll be there. Lots of it, too. :D well, hopefully.
Well, I'm just sittin' here talking to Christopher and we're chatting about how he's never read my woohu, haha. well, I just gave him the link so I'm sure he is now. :P I love that boy.
Years will come, years will go,
Kingdoms rise and fall -
The time has come to take control..
The world belongs to us.
What you feel is what you are, and what you are is beautiful..
So just got out of the shower. I smell lots better now. I think I'm going bowling tonight with Kristi and Josh. Sounds like fun to me :)
I'm glad, 'cause I really wanna get out of the house like crazy and hang out with friends. I think I need it. But hey, everyone does once in awhile.
I've been thinking a lot lately, and honestly, I think I might have to wait to go to college for a little bit. I mean, I thought I was going to get a ton more from my FAFSA form, but I didn't at all. I only got about 4 grand that I DON'T have to pay back, and it's a little over 15 grand tuition. I hope my dad went to see if the VA coudl help out, he thinks I'll have the same benefits as he does - which means it would be fully comped. God, that would be so amazing. I mean, I basically have no income and my mom.. yeah, she doesn't much either. So, really, I don't know what I'll do going to school full-time and balancing work, and agggh. It's something I gotta deal with soon, though.
I just want to graduate and not think about high school anymore. I'm so done with the crap.
Anyyways, well, I might have a car soon. It's the one that's been sitting here in the yard for 3 years. The landlord says it needs a battery, and a checkup (we don't know what's wrong with it at all) and then I can have it for 400 dollars, which seems like a really good deal to me. I need a dependable nice one, and it seems like it sooo it's all good. It's a blue Grand Am, nothing special, but it'll run sooner than later. :D
Well, I'm gonna go blowdry my hair and all that junk. Yep.
Good god, Brutis just farted and it reaks so bad in here. I think I'm going to hurl all over the place. Nasty animal.
I smell like dirty fryers, and I thought I'd let everyone know. I accidently touched my arm with a fry vat at work tonight. I didn't even know I had to work until Steph called me. Thank god she did, that'd of been twice on a Monday that I didn't come in 'cause I didn't know. Ohhh well. 'Least it worked out.
Well, the roads are pretty icy. Maybe we'll have a 2 hour delay tomorrow. That would be sooo nice, I'd love some extra sleep.. or to just sleep in longer than 7 again. Buut uh, Rockford's Rockford. *sigh* I asked for the weekend after this one off, so maybe I'll go to Holland and stay with Leesh or my dad. I dunno, I'm hoping he's feeling okay by then so I can at least stop by. I think I'll stay with Leesh though, just because it'll probably work out better. We need that girly time, with no obligations, no interruptions, and time to just.. do whatever the heck we feel like. Then I can bring the camera along, 'cause Jim will let me borrow it. Ohh yay. That sounds absolutely amazing right about now - what do ya think, Leesh? :)
I'm feeling like that would make me feel a whole lot more alive at this point in time. I feel like the past week or so I've just been dragging on and on through school, work, and basically everything I do. It sucks, I really hate the feeling, but I can't help it. I think it's 'cause I need my medication again, either that or I was so used to it. I haven't gotten it filled for 2 weeks. Oh well, no big deal.
Anyways, Ooh, I also got my v-day present from Chris last weekend (since I didn't see him on V-day.. nor anytime since then) He got me some silver earrings, kissing dog stuffed animals, and a little jewelry box. They're cute. :)
I was excited. I got him a sketch book and some new sketch pens, which I personally wanted, buuut I'll go get one for myself. :) I need new pens anyway. God, I need to DRAW or something. That's what I need. Maybe that will bring me out of my slump. Gotta channel it all into a beautiful piece of art. Mmhm, sounds good.
Leesh - you, me, photoshop, camera, pencils, pens, props, etc.
Sooo, I'm in the process of convincing my mom to let me buy an iguana. Kinda funny, haha. I knew she wouldn't want me to, but the thing is that I'd pay for it all. :D I dunno, I'm still bribing her on it.
I found a good deal on craig's list. This lady lives in GR, and is selling her 4 month old iguana and everything that she has for her for 60 bucks. Good deal, I think.
Anyway, I guess I have to work tonight? I didn't think I had to, but oh well. It's something to do - and I get paid to do it. Which is alwayys good. I get paid this wednesday again. I don't think my check will be very good though, 'cause I didn't work at all last weekend and I got sent home early both days this weekend. :/ Oh well. as long as I get 100, I'll be content.
My mom and I have a haircut appointment tomorrow, which I'm hoping to god works out. Curse the weather!! I think I'm really gonna cut off all of my dead hair, from bleaching out the purple. :( I'm getting a longer version of a bob haircut, I think. Then I want some purple added in there again, which totally defeats the purpose of what I went through to get it taken out - but hey, what can I say? I miss having my purple. :) Plus, I think I need new sexy hair, haha.
Anyyyway. I guess I'm gonna go. I need to take a shower, and all that fun stuff.
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2008 1 February :: 10.17pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Dave Gahan - Kingdom
If there's a kingdom beyond it all..
- - - - -
Can you feel me coming?
Open the door, it's only me..
I have that desperate feeling,
And trouble is where I'm going to be.
If there's a kindgom beyond it all..
Is there a God that loves us all?
Do we believe in love at all?
I'm still pretending I'm not a fool.
In your infinite wisdom,
You show me how this life should be.
All your love and glory..
Doesn't mean that much to me.
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That song rings too many bells right now. I mean, it's a great, but in certain ways it brings out so much that I would really rather not think about.
This past week has been a little different. I don't know. Not in a bad way, I guess. Just.. different. I guess that's the only way of putting it, too.
I've really enjoyed all of the snowdays though, they've been much needed and taken complete advantage of.
I'm going to dinner with Jess tomorrow, hopefully. We're going to eat some of the best chicken tenders in Michigan.
I ended up having to work today 'cause one of my co-workers was going to the Kid Rock show. I don't mind, I'm actually glad I got to pick up some extra and much needed hours. But apparently I have to go in at 8 tomorrow morning, because my boss wants another girl and I to start a schedule of doing prep every weekend. *sigh* 8am is just way to early for me sometimes. It seems too close, even now. Oh well. But hey, maybe I'll get out a little earlier tomorrow then. I dunno though.
Sometimes I wish I could do more. Do any of you ever wish that? I'm sure you do. I mean, sometimes I just want to stretch myself beyond my means so much that it brings me down because it's not possible. Sometimes I just wish I wouldn't worry so much. I wonder where I get my worry-wort tendencies from. They're weird.
Man, I'm having one of those days where I keep looking at the words that I just typed and stare at one of them for like.. 10 seconds wondering if I spelt it wrong. Gosh, I think I need to go to sleep or somethin'. I'm being way too critical.
Well, I think I'm going to my wonderful relaxation escape.. aka: the bubble bath.
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2008 28 January :: 6.17pm
:: Music: Dreams - the Cranberries
Wellll..
Hm. I really have no clue why I'm updating because I have nothin' overly exciting to talk about.. as usual. But hey, what the heck? I almoooost have the hang of the Flash program in multimedia class. That thing is definitely not for me. I made the typical flower growing out of the ground, but it's actually kinda neat for my first little clip. I really am not looking forward to doing much more of it, but hey.. gotta do what'chya gotta do.
Anyyyways, I'm taking my last makeup exam tomorrow for pottery. I'm gonna be glad when it's all done. It's really weird getting out at the normal 2:30 time now. It feels like the school part of my day just takes for-absolutely-everrr. 'Cause they do.. err, feel like they do.
I got some of my grades in the mail, and I actually did pretty well for myself. I am actually happy with it for once. Then again, I've actually been concentrating on doing better in school. I mean, hey, it's the last year. I have to have something to show of my time in high school, right?
Soo, I totally forgot to clock out of work yesterday. I really hope they got that message I left them. Oops. Ohhh! oh! and everyone, I had a perfect drawer yesterday in drive-thru. I totally got cookies.
By the way, if anyone gets a chance.. you really really NEED to have a chocolate turnover. They taste like amazing, giant, fudgy, brownies. Amaaazing.
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2008 25 January :: 4.45pm
:: Mood: full
:: Music: The Bad Touch - Bloodhound Gang
I just had some waffles, and they tasted unusually better today. I don't know. I'm kinda weird, you could say, when I make them. It's like a process; first I put them in the toaster and then when they pop up I quick put butter on them, and then some syrup, and then it goes straight into the microwave for 30 seconds. I have no idea where or when I learned to do it, but I can't remember when I didn't so I guess it doesn't matter.
I really have no idea why I went on about waffles like that, but oh well. Anywayyy, on to other things..
So apparently I qualify to get about 7,500 dollars paid of my tuition for college, which is cool. And thennn.. I'll have to take out some loans possibly, or just make monthly payments while I'm there.
God, it's so weird that I'm not going back to school next year.. it's like, well, everyone's so used to doing it. It's going to be so different. Having so much to do with college, and actually starting a career along with many other things. I mean, seriously, it's weird thinking that in about.. I don't know, 5 years I might be married, or have a kid, or be living somewhere new. ahhh! It's too weird to think about.
I think I need a nap today at some point. Maybe I'll take a bath to relax or something, 'cause it feels crazily cold in this house too. I'm surprised that my hands haven't fallen off yet.
..You sunk my battleship, please turn me on I'm Mr.Coffee with an automatic drip.. *sings* It's so sad that I love this song. hahaha
But c'mon, you can't deny that ya didn't like it at some point in your life. Like, in elementary when everyone was like *gasp* and cracked up and said "Ooohhhh!".
What good memories..
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2008 24 January :: 3.59pm
:: Mood: groggy
:: Music: Still Waters Run Deep - 69 Eyes
Uggh..
I don't know if it's just me or not.. but school has felt like it's been draaaaagging. Seriously, if it doesn't speed it up I'm going to rip out some trach's.
Anyways. I just added another donation to my car fund, yay! Though I think I'll probably spend a little of this check. Oh well, gotta have a little fun too. :D
Do you know what sounds amazing right now? That cheese cake that I had in Florida with Leesh and Joey. Oh my god. I would kill to have some of that in front of me. Though I'm just gonna have to settle for some marshmallow lover's hot chocolate, which is good too. I don't know how good of comparison it is to any type of cake, but hey.
I am so happy that tomorrow is Friday. I wanna sleep in this weekend, and be laaazy. Yeahhh, sounds good.
Well, I'm gonna go. I hear that hot chocolate callin' my name.
