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2005 15 February :: 5.06pm
:: Mood: High?
:: Music: Right Here In My Arms - HIM
... Ah.
Jade said I hit her window..
And I told her I don't hit windows.. I don't believe in their abuse of windows.
She said I was stupid.
SUTPID
Ohemgee! 0.0
SUTPID
"I can hear myself breathing! HAHAHHAA!"
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2005 14 February :: 9.42pm
:: Mood: Clean
:: Music: None.. T.T
Hmn..
A.. poem? Fancy that!
I open my eyes, they're swollen and red
And for some reason I wonder if I'm any good in bed
This body isn't all that great
There's just too much here to hate
But you've seen past my looks
Past the hair and comic books
You think you're in love
And all I can say is "I love you, too"
You're the first one to
Make me feel the way I do
I wish you were here more often
So my feelings could be expressed better
I'm afraid I'm gonna bleed
Without the sustenance I need
Heart beats too fast
Strength aint gonna last
I need you now so I can sleep
This feeling sucks
Less than ten bucks
For your papery suicide
I'll pay the price
If you're nice
And in the end we'll die old
You have this wonderful feeling
Spinning round through my dizzied heart
You leave a magical happiness
It's all that I breathe
When we get past this happy
Back to crappy
You'll see exactly how cold I am
I'm sheer Ice Queen
Way too fuckin' mean
To understand there's love in the world
I'll open my heart
Maybe we'll start
Of course the end looms closer
>>;;;;;;
I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL THAT WAAAAS! So don't ask? XDD
Today was odd, you could say. In first period, we made HAPPY BOXES! And in second we were outside (e.e;). In third period things were odd, in fourth Keith and I finished the test thing kinda late. In fifth, I was kinda bored without Naomi, but oddly played better (=p). Lunch seemed.. no different, I guess. Sixth was drawingful, and seventh.. oh how silly Seventh was!
Here's the play we wrote and performed today (Andrea = Eddie due to her absence)
CAST
Jesse: Answer-stealing cheater (has green pass)
Ricki: Teacher (Ms. Goldsmith)
Jackie: Goody-goody
Tara: Nerd
Joelle: Cheater
Frank: Cheater
Andrea: Cheater
Emily: Cheater
Zach: Dean (Distraction)
Begin:
[Students and teacher enter stage right, students take seats, teacher starts directions]
Ricki - "Here is your Informal Geometry Semester final. If you fail this, you fail my class, and you'll have to retake it next year. That will probably be most of you since you're in Informal Geometry!" (Laughs hard, snorts, falls over)
[Teacher passes out test]
Emily - "Great gosh! I don't know this stuff! Can I copy?"
Joelle - "Jeez louise, same here. Ugh! Another F for me, and I'm SO hungry!"
Frank - "I can make a sandwich in 48 seconds, just give me some bread, cold-cuts, and shit."
Tara - "Can you please lower your volumes? I'm trying to concentrate."
[Jesse enters stage right]
Ricki - "You're late (mutters "No surprise") Where's your hall pass?"
Jesse - "Right here, can you get it?" (raises hall pass above head, teacher goes to get it, Jesse steals answer key for test)
ackie - "Oh my gosh, did you just steal those answer? I'm telling!"
Jesse - "No, it's just a figment of your imagination!"
[Zach enter stage right, Jesse goes to empty seat]
Zach - "Ms. Goldsmith, may I talk to you outside?"
[Ricki and Zach exit stage right. Jessie reads out answers to cheaters whom gather around his chair]
Zach(outside) - "You're fired! I can't take all the yelling and disciplining! These children are angels, they'd never do all the horrible things you say!"
[Loud sobs emit from the door, cheaters still gathered]
Andrea - "Wow, this is all stuff I learned last year."
Joelle - "It is, isn't it? Adding with more than 4 numbers."
Frank - "This stuff still confuses me."
Emily - "This isn't subtraction?!"
[Zach enters stage right, students look up when he enters.]
Andrea - "Uh oh, it's... it's.. that guy!"
Zach - "What's going on here?!"
Jackie - "They're cheating, sir! They're cheating! Cheaters! Cheating!"
Zach - "We'll see about that. All of you (points to Jesse and those around him) to the principle!"
[Zach, Jesse, Joelle, Frank, Andrea, Emily exit stage right, Tara and Jackie remain. Ricki enters stage right.]
Tara - "FINALLY! I HAVE COMPLETED IT! I will graduate!"
[Ricki takes Tara's paper]
Ricki - "They're.. they're are all wrong."
END! THANK GOD!
Yes I was.. a cheater. How silly! I wrote most of it and had to send it around to the others. They were scared of my email address (i_like_them_dead@yahoo.com XDD) Very silly.
Anime club was.. t3h g00d. And HERE I AMMMM!
There was this crazy black cat pickin' a scrap with S'mores. S'mores like.. ran into the window trying to get it xDD
<3!!!
FUCK VALENTINNNES! YEEEY!
".. THIS ISN'T SUBTRACTION?!"
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2005 10 February :: 9.51pm
:: Mood: ^^;
:: Music: "Watching" - Evanescence
Oh baby.
Welp, I went to UTurn with my fangs in. How silly ^^
Yesterday, oh man, we had this guy from FAU step in to help conduct in our band class... e.e;;;
He.. Was.. Oh my god XDDDDD
Let's just say he sure knew his interpretive dance!
He had a thin combover, he flipped his tie in his face, he humped air, he smiled drunkly, and apparentally he was married!
He made our tonguing go at "Turbo-space speed 12"!!! XDDDDD
The whole band would not stop laughing, but since we aren't rude, we laughed into our instruments e.e;;;
xD
Yeah.
Souuuu.. yeah. Thought you'd like to know e.e;;
Ooh! My "Yeah" mix has been playing since I left for UTurn at 7 up until I got home! AMAZING! I get home and like.. 9. How silly!
<3! For luv-luv taste!
P.S. I'm beuful e.e;;
xD
MRH1024: i don't look for then u still look nice
o0p5 y3r d34d: Aw, gee, thanks.
o0p5 y3r d34d: I reall think I'm horrible looking. I'm surprised I pulled off the tiny-shirt deal at UTurn
o0p5 y3r d34d: really*
MRH1024: np to my eyes i think ur beaful
MRH1024: wut
MRH1024: wut u mean
o0p5 y3r d34d: I spelt really wrong ^^;
o0p5 y3r d34d: I'm beaful. I s0 rock.
MRH1024: wut were u wearing under the shirt
MRH1024: im coneus
o0p5 y3r d34d: ...... A.. bra?
Hmm.. if you couldn't read that, go beat up Michael Howell.. I sure should, he needs a built-in spell check or something. And to learn my chest is off limits.. ~twitch~
He DOES get beaten for that, THANK YOU
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2005 8 February :: 8.36pm
:: Mood: Le Rarr
:: Music: Keine Lust - Rammstein
I have no Desire
^^
Today was pretty good. I liked it.
Staying in first period for 4 hours, doing pretty much nothing, rocks out loud. I must say. It made my day very good.
I was spazzing out in Drama because:
a. It's so FUCKING COLD
b. I had to preform my monologue
c. I barely memorizes it xX
xD I sucked. Oh well. I lived.
What lovely pictures I made this eve.
I made it look like I got beaten up.
It's really not something to joke about. Especially men abusing women, or anyone abusing anyone else (unless that's what you're into e.e;) but I kinda liked how it came out.
I need different colors of make up. I have dark dark red, sky blue, silver, and light light purple. See? It sucks. I need to get more eyeliner, too. Rarr.
Hmph.
Yeah..
Oh yeah, I'm a fag-pants.
I broke up with Ducky, if I didn't tell you already. We're still cool, though.
I am such a gheyore. xX
<3
"GO HAVE *Korean word*!!"
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2005 6 February :: 9.51pm
:: Mood: Stressed/Rushed
:: Music: None, yet
Ew. I'm gonna die.
No one got my secret message in the post before, eh?
Anyways, I'm a horrible person and I haven't done my MLA Spurgeon essay, memorized fully my monologue, or my scales for the scale test tomorrow.
...
I'm dead.
Love you who knew me before now.
<3<3
"PRONO!"
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2005 5 February :: 11.56am
:: Mood: Dry-eyed
:: Music: Mein Teil - Rammstein
Blech
My tummy hurts and I have so much to accomplish, or would like to accomplish today. Plus Weston might be sleeping over on this night. How happy ^^ <3!
- Health Notes
- Language essay
- Laundry
- Clean room
- Change bed sheets
- Continue the Large Card Deck I started with the cardboard from binders
Rar..
Maybe I should even get it over with.. You know what I'm talking about, right?
But I just don't know
Right now
Everything's twisted
And confusing
Kinda scary ^^;
Umn.. yeah.. my Grandma's close friend is dying.
Probably gone already.. or going to be gone soon..
Why do people so close have to die?
I mean, I love Faye..
Time passes so quickly
How come all of the greatest people end up having cancer?!
Dammit..
Under the ground.. What's it like?
Couldn't be too happy.
Korn is an odd band.
You know?
....
<3
"Amerika est Wunderbar"
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2005 1 February :: 10.37pm
:: Mood: Hurting.
:: Music: Rammstein -- Ohne Dich
Tramps Like Us
My heart hurts right now -.-;;;;
Oh my god.
And I just told Adam I wasn't depressed.
I'm horrible and a liar.
Adam's philosophies are beautiful, even if it sounds like he's dying.
Like my new layout?
Girls are softer.
P.S. 3 new manga. I'm fancy. ^^ Tramps like us.
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2005 26 January :: 10.13pm
:: Mood: Shitty
How horrible
Love Ducky.
He's going through a tough time.
Our some amount of months anniversary is coming up. Lovely ^^;
It's this Saturday.
But he's going through such a horrible time.
This is a scary show.
And a commercial for the Grudge DVD scared me.
Sadness.
<3
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2005 25 January :: 10.09pm
:: Mood: Shitty
Something I feel helpless to.
Good evening.
It's 10:09 pm, and, miracles of miracles, I'm tired. I guess I should find a pencil to shove in my back pack.. I heard of testing tomorrow. And I should look up the parts of speech that accompany the words of my vocabulary, or do my math homework.. but.. I can't.
I'm too tired.
And the fact that the teen populace has fallen into the habit of drugs and smoking has depressed me.
A couple of my guy friends were conferring about weed, the one even had some on him! I thought school was safe.
Another friend of mine was making a deal for a pack of ciggarettes. I thought school taught us better.
I was told how weed was good a while ago.. how it relaxed and relieved stress.. but there's so much more that it does, too, that isn't as good as these things. Like lung cancer and the like. Why can't people understand it's so bad?
Sure it's the earth, and the earth made it, so it must be okay, but what about all the radioactive ores the Earth made? What about all the horrible things that the earth made, too?
Should we suddenly just take up everything that hurts us, roll it in a peice of fast-burning paper and light up?
I hope I never get asked to do drugs are take a breath of smoke.. for I will have to hurt those who ask..
<3
Even if you hate me.
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2005 19 January :: 12.20am
:: Mood: Sooo Good
:: Music: ATHF
That's right!
ZOMIGAWSH!
I LOVE EVERYBODY!
YES!! <<
WATER.
<3<3
"Meatwad.. this is your new.. brain."
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2005 17 January :: 1.08am
:: Mood: Philosophically depressed
:: Music: None
Happy Martin Luther King Jr. Day
Hey.. It's been a while, hasn't it?
I guess I'll start off by apologizing.
I'm sorry Ducky for killing any plans.
I'm sorry Keith for hanging up on you repeatedly.
I'm sorry Naomi for not going to the movies with you.. or having you stay longer.. or sleep at your house.
I'm sorry Jade that I didn't go to your house, even though you really wanted to see me.
I'm sorry Kristen Joyce for not going to the movies, even though you were genderly outnumbered.
I'm sorry for everything I haven't said sorry for.
And now for what seemed to hurt this weekend.
Not being told that everyone was together hurt my feelings.
My mom seemed to keep putting me down, which hurt my feelings.
I hate myself, and that hurts my feelings.
I wish I wasn't so stupid, it hurts my feelings.
I wish I wasn't human, maybe I wouldn't hurt my feelings.
Machinery is so perfect, and it hurts my feelings.
I've come to a verdict.
Humans will become machines easily.
Mortality will succumb to the metallic perfection of a quick modem.
The homosapien race as we know it has been doomed from creation, prolonged only by the things that cause our deaths daily.
Oh, how hypocritical and bittersweet life can be.
<3
"I know, but I can't get out of the shower."
P.S. I've finished 3 pages in the scrapbook, Naomi ^^ Aren't you proud!?
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2005 10 January :: 10.07pm
:: Mood: Tiredly clean
:: Music: Fan?
Today.. was good.
Yeap, you heard it. Today was pretty good.
1st period:
Normal Richar, normal math, normal is fancy after a long break. We got 2 or 3 new kids, I think one didn't show up.
2nd period:
Bleh, I now have Team Sports. This is bad, because only for the first month are we in the gym, and we'll only be inside later if it: rained, is raining, or is just about to rain.
Please, rain a lot T.T
3rd period:
Same old science. That is good. I kinda hope Shina isn't in that class anymore. It's not like she annoyed me or anything, and she's really nice, but I just kinda like sitting alone.
4th period:
Ew, Health. Not only is our teacher a man (who seems to act and dress like a woman), but it's HEALTH! Atleast Keith and Naomi are braving it with me in the same room, same hour.
5th period:
I love Mr. White ^^ He's such a cool guy. Band is the same, of course, and I like it that way. Naomi and I fooled around almost more than usual xD
Lunch:
Still lunch B. Still good ^^ Today I actually brought food, thus, Naomi and I ate something for once. We're so good.
6th period:
I love Ms. Spurgeon *-* Pre AP English is like.. my friggin' calling or something. I love English e.e;;; I'm such a geek ^^ <3
7th period:
Started Drama today. Mrs. Rubin is such a silly. A deer ran into her car once o.o;
Anyways, that's really my day without the frills. I'm glad my period never acts up too bad.
I think I've been on it since Saturday, but it didn't show 'cause I went swimming.
'Cause swimming stops that sort of thing.
I love everyone.
I feel like painting, but it's bed time.
My room is so clean >>;
Well, kinda. Cleaner than it used to be.
I think I'll paint my nails before I go.
Mm.. black *-*
Love you, you giggle billies <3
"Well.. you're.. a stupid face!"
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2005 10 January :: 6.49pm
:: Mood: Ow, my esteem
:: Music: ..
o.o;;;;;;
Wow..
I'm so loved.. <<;;
That raised my self esteem a WHOLE.. LEVEL! xDDD
JUST KIDDINGGGGGG! >>
Love ya
<3
"You will get pregnant.. and die."
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2005 9 January :: 7.52pm
:: Mood: Tired
:: Music: None
Umbrella Corporation
Welll.. it was a weekend indeed as the Winter Break comes to a screeching halt and tossing me into the fathomless depths of school.
Yum.
:: Friday ::
Weston came over at night for a while and then we went to Laur's so I could sleep over and pick up Jade the next day. Silly. I painted up Weston to look like a geisha. Giggle ^^
Laur and I decided to stay up 'cause we were suposed to get up early (9 am), but that only worked 'til her mom told us to go to sleep. Then we conched out.
:: Saturday ::
Woke up at, like, 9:45 am and we left about 10:15 for Jade's house ( we had to meet Kimmie there ). I didn't feel too good, but whatever. We went to go pick up Jade.
The first time we saw her was her dashing through the airport with a baggage cart. This scene = sheer hilarity. Laur and I laughed so hard ^^ We put Asj and Jade in the car and went to McDonald's for some luncheon.
Ah ha! The baby loved me ^^ And I loved her. Mark and Kimmie went to the race track, so Jade, Laur, Anna, Asja, and I watched Athena and the boys. That was great, I went SWIMMING!
AHHHHH! EMILY WENT IN THE POOOOOOL!
Watch out for floating candy bars! >>
JUST.. KIDDING!
Okay, I'm good. Anyways...
We took Thenie in, but she was just too cold and unhappy in her wet diaper so we took her out, gave her a bath, and then changed ourselves and played DDR for a bit.
Then, out of fucking NO WHERE, Keith shows up right behind us! All three of us screamed xDD We're such geeks. Mark and Kimmie came home with some other people and we went to the Beach Club for dinner. How silly.
So we ate, and Keith and I said we were seven year olds at the same time (scaryyyy!1!) and then we ventured out to find the beach (scarierrrr!11!) We found it and it was all dark and all I could think about seeing Jade step out onto the sand was the beginning of Jaws .-. THANK YOU, TV PRODUCTION!
Anyways, that was over and we went home and Keith went home a bit later, but not before taking some lovely pictures, of course (^.~)
Laur and Jade went to bed at freaking 12:30 am!! HOW DO YOU DO THAT?!?! But oh well. I stayed up 'til, like, 1:30 am then fell asleep on the floor. I stole the comforter, so later I was prompted to get on the bed 'cause I had the blanket. Even though there were a buncha blankets up there still.
:: Sunday ::
Hahaha, Jade wakes us up at freakin' 11 am -.-;; Screw.. you. I didn't get up for a while..
Then I did.
Now I'm okay.
They were gonna go to the beach, but they didn't, so I was okay. Erik came over. Laur, Asj, and I went swimming, annnd.. yeah. I went to Wilt Chamberlain's, it was great. We got 2018 tickets. Yum. Then I went home.
And here I am. ^^
YEY!
And tomorrow's school.
Boo.
My mom's hurting my brain.
And calling me names
CHILD ABUSE!
I started my period today ._.;
That's a sad thing to me.
I was thinking.. it would be.. SO hot.. to have an Umbrella Corporation ID. You know, the Umbrella Corporation from Resident Evil?
How freaking AWESOME would that be? Really? Don't even lie to yourself.
If some one could make that.. I'd like.. worship you o.o;; And pay you.
'Cause that's just the hotness.
Anyways, I'm out.
Laterrrrrrr
".. BIRD!"
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2005 8 January :: 1.38am
:: Mood: Giggle
:: Music: Mean Girls =p
4 questions
Ask me 4 questions.
Any 4 no matter how personal, private or random.
I have to answer them honestly. I have to answer them all. In turn you post this message in your own journal & you have to answer the questions that are asked from you.
Love yoooou
<3
"I can't go out "ehh ehh" I'm sick"
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