:: 2004 18 January :: 7.43 pm
:: Mood: irritated

As time goes on..
Today was interestin, no brittany of korse..but im thinkin its cuz mis n amber r down in florida rite now..i dunno. But i got to talk to chels t day!

I have no idea why..but i had this like *itch* to talk wif swiss t day, it was really weird, i jus really needed to talk to her t day..so now i feel better since i talked to her =)

Havent called my baby yet t day, i kinda dont want to, cuz as soon as i do, im gonna get bitched cuz i had to work yesterday and couldnt see him, and den cuz at riot *i was ignorin him and wouldnt talk to him* cept he was playin b ball, but watch im sure ill get bitched at fo dat, who wants to bet 10$?? Anyone? Didnt think so..

I did absolutly nothing t day, actually im still in my pjs. Whew im being soo lazy t day, but its okay cuz i dont have skool 2marro =) yippie!!

Neways i dont have anything to say, so yeah im done, latah everyone!!

I luv my skut Brittney!! Glad ur bak online babe!! Missed you!!

I luv you too brittany gamester!! hehe hope ur havin fun wateva ur doing!! *mwuh*

1 And i fall in love again. | Then i see your face

:: 2004 18 January :: 12.26 am
:: Mood: numb

What else could go wrong?
Okay this is to britts comment thingy in the entry below this one::

Brittany, you are the reason dat i aint c*ut* myself in however da hell long its been, not steve, i dont give a fuck about steve, i mean yeah i care bout him, but he dont *care* bout me like you do, and i dont care wat he thinks, he barely even knws that i cut myself, so how could he make me stop..?

Britt ur da one dats always been there fo me through all of this shit, your da one dats tryin to help me stop though its been a long tough road, your the one dat has never given up on me, no matter how many times you know u sould have..

And bout the whole depressed thing, you wouldnt know how im really doing anyway, i mean you ask bout you dont care anymore, to tell you the truth i have no had a all good day in fuckin forever, i cry myself sleep every single nite, i beg and pray for the all mighty god to take me away and fuckin kill me rite then and there, i scream and yell at him for not killin me the day before, i feel like fuckin shit every day that im alive, and if it werent fo you i would kill myself..I wish dat i had the strength to kill myself every day, you have no idea, its like i dont know how to xplain it, i dont feel anything anymore, like idont care bout my grades, i dont care bout my friends, my family, my life, i dont give a fuck anymore, i feel like numb from the inside out, i feel that nobody cares, and nobody sould, and i wish that nobody would, so den it wouldnt be so fuckin hard to kill myself!! Sooner or latah ill be strong enough, and *hopefully* ill still be going out wif steve, and dat will prove to you that tho i mite be happy cuz of him sometimes he still dont make me all happy and not depressed and shit, so dont fuckin say dat, u have no fuckin idea..

I dont know wat to say to you, to any of you, xcept one thing::If i were to die 2marro, jus know dat i luv you more than anything, and nothing could ever have changed dat ever, and dat you were a huge part of my life and who i was, even if it didnt seem like it, every word you said, every thing you taught me, ill remember forever, i luv you all..dont ever forget it..

If only i could die 2marro..=(

3 And i fall in love again.. | Then i see your face

:: 2004 16 January :: 11.32 pm
:: Mood: giggly

I luv my babey!! =)
Awwe omg i had da best time at riot t nite!! I luv my baby steve!! Hes soo sweet to me, *cept this hickie, which he will get his ass beat fo lol* but newho, i had da bestest time omg i luv this kid, i wanna be wif him forever, until the day i die!! Hes so great to me, i couldnt ask fo anything more!! 11*21*03 *Best day of mah life* =)

Whew i finally got to see my whore kristie lol, shes still as boy crazy as she always was lol oh wells i still luv her, and i got to see danielle's and yeah dat was great lol were gonna start hangin out more heh =) and i saw lisa *korse* and brittney bunker and stewart, and cassie and gosh everyone else was there, haha nobody went ot da dance t nite, go figure!!

Britt says dat im becoming one of the ppl dat we used to make fun of, well britt its okay, im happy..and dats a friggin first!! So yeah im fine wif being a lil boy crazy lil loserish prepish fag..lol but im srry, if you would like me to stop n break up wif him i will =) but only fo you!! hehe..i luv you lots babe!!

I luv my baby boo steve, forever and ever!!

2 And i fall in love again.. | Then i see your face

:: 2004 16 January :: 6.26 pm
:: Mood: busy
:: Music: What dat hook gon be? Murphy lee

1 And i fall in love again. | Then i see your face

:: 2004 15 January :: 12.20 pm
:: Mood: ditzy
:: Music: dillon singing lol =)

Then i see your face