tiptoeinthedark
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2004 13 May :: 9.07pm
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: I hate everything about you y do I love you
~ finally got sum closure.. I hate him!!!
everytime we lied awake
after every hit we took
every feeling that I got
but I havnt missed u yet
everyroom we kept awake
by all the silent screams we made
every feeling that I got
but I havnt missed u yet
only when I start to think about it...
I hate EVERYTHING about you...
WHY do I LOVE you...
the s t r o n g e s t person
you see all day
...may be the one...
who c r i e s themself
to sleep at night
iim a str0nq qirL' wh0 keeps mii shyt iin
line'even wif tears streamiinq d0wn mii
face'i styll manaqe t0 say [( i'm * fiine )]
this isn't a perfect world
`people do get hurt
you smile when you feel like crying
you act like your alright-
-meanwhile your fallin apart inside
_you let it go_you move on_
because there is nothin else you can do
*For once I *w i s h* one of my wishes would come [t r u e]..Then maybe my l.i.f.e wouldn't seem so ((b a d.))*
some things really are worth waiting for
yOu can*t g0 thrOugh life pushing things
aside that really matter. there*s g0ing tO
be times that are harder than 0thers `&
instead Of being naive t0 the fact that
they wOn*t change unless y0u change
them, yOu push me away - never really
facing the matter at all....
ThEy SaY tHeRe iS a ReAsOn, ThEy SaY tHaT TiMe WiLL hEaL, bUt NeiThEr TimE NoR rEaSoN cAn ChAnGe ThE wAy I fEeL. nO oNe KnOwS tHe HeArTaChE ThAt HiDeS bEhiNd My SmiLe, No OnE kNoWs HoW mAnY tiMeS iVe BrOkEn DoWn AnD cRiEd. I wAnT tO tELL u SoMeThiNg So ThErE wOnT bE aNy DoUbT, yOuRe So WoNdErFuL tO tHiNk Of BuT sO hArD tO LiVe WiThOuT-
Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
I make believe that you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
you seem to move on easy :'(
*.tHeRe R tHiNgZ YoU DoNT WaNT 2 HaPPeN.* *.bUt YoU GoTTa eXCePT iT.* *.tHeRe R tHiNgZ YoU DoNT WaNT 2 KnOw.* *.bUt YoU HaVe 2 LeaRN.* *.& tHeRe R PeOpLe YoU CaNT LiVe WiTHoUt.* *.BuT YoU HaVe To LeT Go.*
Why cant I just get over you. Why do these feelings have to be true! Why do I have to care about you.. Why can't I just forget all the cute things you do. I wish these answeres I could see. I wish I could just forget about you like you forgot about me.
*.LiKiNg hIm iS hArD tO foRgEt.*
*.LoVinG hIm iLL nEvEr rEgReT.*
*.LoSinG hiM bRoKe mY hEaRt.*
*.SaD tO sAy mY wOrLD fELL aPaRt.*
*.I guEsS iTs tImE tO hOLd mY HeaD uP hIGn.*
*.BLiNk bAcK tHe tEaRs, AnD sAy gOoDbYe.*
I'm convincing myself, yes I'll find some1 new, I won't be alone, & I won't be w/you .. You're waiting 4me,2crawl back to ur side but no..not this time, I'm keeping my pride .. So goodbye 4ever, I'll be on my way, It's gonna take time, but I'll be okay
This time it's over, I'm keeping my heart ,I'm gonna be strong & not fall apart .. It'll get better, I'll no longer cry.. In a couple of weeks, I wont want 2 die, I won't want 2 go back, I'll be able 2 sleep, It won't hurt so bad, & it won't feel so deep
I'vE lEaRnEd THaT gOoD-bYeS wIlL aLwAyS hUrT, pIcTuReS nEvEr RePlAcE hAvInG bEeN tHeRe, MeMoRiEs... GoOd Or BaD... wIlL aLwAyS bRiNg TeArS, aNd WoRdS cAn NeVeR rEpLaCe FeElInGs!
iLL bE sMiLiNg wHen i SeE yOu
ThE TeArZ wOnT eVeR sHoW
i kNoW iLL aLwAyZ LoVe YOu
AnD yEt uLL nEvEr knO
T R U E - L O V E
I used to believe it existed,
but when you've had your heart torn
and thrown on the floor,
You just don't care anymore
Happily ever after.
That's how they want you to think it will be
but its not. Not at all in reality.
The deaths, the tears,
the fears,
the falls,
through it all we still go on.
The broken hearts,
the cheating friends,
so much pain that never ends.
The fake smiles that seem to make everything ok, but not for you
because you know the pain won't go away.
Bright and cheery,
but oh so weary,
because inside your heart is breaking in two.
U'll Never Know How Much Some1 Means 2 U Until That Some1 Is No Longer There
In This Weird Way,
I Know You'll Miss Me,
Not Because I Want To Believe It's True,
But Because You'll Never Find A Girl That Will Put Up With U,
Like I Did.
You'll Never Find A Girl Who Will Care As Much,
As I Did.
Because No One Will Waste All Their Love On Someone Like You,
Like I Did.
Beware of the players,
they'll steal your heart;
and they wont even
give it back once
its all torn apart.
Don't let them suck
you into their game;
Cause once you lose,
your never the same.
*EvEn ThO ivE BeEn HuRt i rEmAiN
[ s T r O n G ]*
mE hAvE rEgReTs?
uR dEaD [w r 0 n g]
CuZ yOu GoTtA take [c h a n c e s]
*uR wHoLe LiFe LoNg*
*..Everything happens 4 a reason..*
*..The Hard Part Is..*
*..Findin out wut the reason is..*
: if you can't get someone oFf ur
minD . . cHanCes are - tHey aRe
suPpOsEd to Be tHere « ` * -
I used to smile when I told
people you were mine
Now I can't even smile
and say your name at the same time
You don't love me
You don't care
You don't think about me
Whenever I'm not there
You don't know that you hurt me
With all the things you do
But for some strange reason
I'm still in love with you
SuMtyMz tHiNgS HaPpEn & wE dUn UnDaStAnD wHy
sUmTyMz tHiNgS HaPpEn & wE CAnT HeLp BuT CrY
BuT wEn YoU FeEL u CaNt PuT uP WiT iT aNy LoNgA
-JuSs HoLd OnN-
_CuZ BeLieVe Me_
--WuT dOnT KiLL u MaKeZ u StRoNgEr--
Tell him that I don't love him & that I
don't need him anymore, tell him that
I don't miss him & that I don't want
to see him at all, *but* most of all. .
[ d o n t ] tell him I said all this with
tears in my eyes :'( and that..
there just all lies :'(
*I DuNNo WhEtHeR tO*
*HaTe HiM fOr WhO hE iZ*
* LoVe HiM fOr WhO hE wAs*
*oR bE sAd cUz hE cHaNGeD*
1 And i fall in love again. |
Then i see your face
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thoughtskill
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2004 10 May :: 7.26pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: NaGgin`*
Ill neva f0rget the l0ok in yer eyez *
i havnt wr0te in here in a while..
s0 thursday courtney called me and told me she was moving, and friday was her last day. words cant describe how much i am gonna miss her, she is my best friend and she was my first friend when i moved here, seriously .. i dont know how im gonna make it without her.. i love you courtney ! .. anyway s0 yea friday i gave c0urt this necklace n bracelet 4 a g0in away prez..n she gave me this heart necklace that is silver n blu..n than at 2 was the talent sh0w s0 i sat by c0urt n we wre m0stly jus cryin thr0ugh it.. n than there waz lyk a gr0up 0f lyk 40 ppl surR0undin her cryin n huggin her.. it was really sad =/ .. than i jus tried to keep my mind of it and have a ok weekend.. went with kaela to get her dress fitted and than we went to the movies n met our boitoiz .. saw mean gurlz for the 3rd time .. thn went to man on fire.. left round 11.. came homee slept.. than lindsey came n pickd me up at lyk 1 saturday n we went to jeremys party..that waz really fun . . than i went bak 2 linds h0use n we g0t ready 4 teen night.. wanted 2 d0 s0mthin w/ nick but he waz tired..s0 we piked up steven n went.. had s0o much funn there.. hung 0ut w/ linds steven carissa dezi marissa randy jeremy .. that was aws0me.. then went h0me..sunday waznt s0o g0od =/ ugh.. i hurt my knee really badd and in lyk 10 minutes im g0in n gettin crutchez.. l0l..
<33 i l0ove NiCh0lAs! <33
4 c0urty...
I wish I could carry your smile in my heart,
For times when my life seems so low.
It would make me believe what tomorrow can bring,
When today doesn't really know.
I want you to come back and carry me home,
Away from these longlonely nights.
I'm reaching for you
And what would you say if I called on you now?
And said that I can't hold on?
There's no easy wayit gets harder each day.
4 And i fall in love again.. |
Then i see your face
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tiptoeinthedark
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2004 4 May :: 8.32pm
:: Music: d-12 my band
o wow... I miss...
thought I was gunna say Cole? haha NO!!!!!!
I miss my Jillane!!!!!
Im going to W.V thursday...
so I wont getta talk to her 4 ever
+ she is never on ne more ='(
JILLANE IF U SEE THIS I LOOOOOOOVE YOU!!!!!!
I MISS YOU BABES
come back sooooooon
leave a comment I miss you!!!!
with Jillane I can get through n e thing
she helps me get over guys
n I really need her for this 1!! lol
love u baby girl
best friends forver!!!!!!
3 And i fall in love again.. |
Then i see your face
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tiptoeinthedark
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2004 4 May :: 8.32pm
:: Music: d-12 my band
o wow... I miss...
thought I was gunna say Cole? haha NO!!!!!!
I miss my Jillane!!!!!
Im going to W.V thursday...
so I wont getta talk to her 4 ever
+ she is never on ne more ='(
JILLANE IF U SEE THIS I LOOOOOOOVE YOU!!!!!!
I MISS YOU BABES
come back sooooooon
leave a comment I miss you!!!!
with Jillane I can get through n e thing
she helps me get over guys
n I really need her for this 1!! lol
love u baby girl
best friends forver!!!!!!
Then i see your face
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