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valoth

:: 2009 20 February :: 11.09am

I was approved bitches.

Im signing up under Logistics and reserves. I will do 12week boot, MOS and then back home for 6months of reserve duty followed by paperwork to go active duty.

No date set on boot camp. I will know this when I go to MEPS again at the beginning of March.

FUCK YES.

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valoth

:: 2009 17 February :: 12.41pm
:: Mood: Lunch
:: Music: ES Posthumus

Fortune Cookie
"Your dearest wish will come true."

Luckynumbers: 6,14,25,29,37

If karma could pull me out on this one that would be great.

discovering the flaws


valoth

:: 2009 17 February :: 9.34am
:: Music: /wrist

The One, the only one I want
I will never bother you
I will never promise to
I will never follow you
I will never bother you

Never speak a word again
I will crawl away for good

I will move away from here
You wont be afraid of fear
No thought was put in to this
I always knew it would come to this

Things have never been so swell
I have never failed to feel
Pain [3x]

You Know your Right [3x]

I'm so warm and calm inside
I no longer have to hide
Let's talk about someone else
Steaming soup against her mouth
Nothing really bothers her
She just wants to love herself

I will move away from here
You wont be afraid of fear
No thought was put into this
I always knew to come like this

Things have never been so swell
I have never failed to feel
Pain [5x]

You know Your Right [17x]

discovering the flaws


valoth

:: 2009 17 February :: 9.31am
:: Music: Nirvana - You Know You're Right

I had my chance.
she haunts my thoughts before falling asleep.

Shes on my mind.

I wish I could say the things to make it right.

I wish I could tell her what I really need to.

I dont want to make her hurt over it. So I keep it inside.

I shut my mouth, but cannot close up my heart.

Woe is me.

I wish I could get my final 'no' and go do something I feel I need to do.

I think its worth it. Id take that chance. I cannot do that though until I have a few things.

...I wont do that. Why would i? It would only end horribly for me.

At least..




at least i thought i should...right? Is it wrong to make the promise for the future in hopes of getting at least that?


Hurt!

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lillypad

:: 2009 16 February :: 3.31pm

Read more..

I wrote that 3 years ago and I just found it...I can admit, easily, it's only mediocre... but I wish I had anything remotely that beautiful inside my head these days.
I'm... hurt.

discovering the flaws


valoth

:: 2009 16 February :: 12.45pm

So ya...

Shits pilling up at work and eventually I think I will explode.

In other news, I bought FEAR2 last night

Holy shitzba! Freaking amazing. Once again Alma manages to make my heart race. Freaking creepy psycho stuff in the game. Its great. I was up till 3am last night playing in the dark with the sound blasting.

Id been in need of a good time killer like this. The story is great and better than watching movies/tv.

You get thrown right into hell out of the first load screen, its great!

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lillypad

:: 2009 12 February :: 3.24pm
:: Mood: ...wouldn't you like to know?

It would be cool to have a hobby.
What's a good one to take up?

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valoth

:: 2009 12 February :: 4.22pm

so much to say...much more needed to be kept not said.



Edit:

The icestone has melted!

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Upchuck

:: 2009 5 February :: 5.50pm

Does anyone have any thoughts on what a "traditional" American is?

I mean everyone probably thinks they know this it they substitute typical or conservative, but what do think a traditional American is?

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valoth

:: 2009 30 January :: 11.59pm

I find myself brooding more and more lately.


I should feel mellow and content tonight. I dont.

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valoth

:: 2009 27 January :: 1.32pm

Stuffs
CQC cancelled this weekend, bummed.

DQ'd from Marines till further review, super bummed.

Making computer reformating painless thanks to nlite&drivermax, good deal.

L4D keeping me up late into the night to make folks ragequit when you beat them good, awesome.

Finally getting to know your exgirlfriend isnt dead in a ditch, fantastic.

Knowing you still are wanting to be clingy as fuck to her, sinking stomach feeling.


Sigh.

So anyway. Im almost completely debt free again. Cars at like $400 and finally managed to get my credit card in check. So Im happy.

I plan to leave DTA not matter what happens with Marines. Yes or no I cannot stand working here.

But I know if I leave there I may end up trying to do something that would be really dumb because it would end horrid.

WTB Life Coach.

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lillypad

:: 2009 27 January :: 1.27am

I have been too hungry today.
All day.
And I've eaten like...5 times.

discovering the flaws


lillypad

:: 2008 30 December :: 9.18am

ephemeral eloquence exaggerates exactly exonerated executions.
the end.

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alastar

:: 2008 30 December :: 4.32am
:: Music: Isaac Marion's Moon Colony

I spit sacrilege through gritted teeth.
I am disconnecting from... reality. From consciousness. From tangibility. From dimensional restraints.

Thread by thread, I am tearing each stitch. Finding solvent for the glue, I pry each nail from its hole. I exhume screws from their cylindrical tombs. I am plucking staples and cutting ropes. I will deracinate the roots that attach me to the ground and degauss the magnets that are holding me down.

I am burning to be released in smoke. My name is Phlogiston.

I am the view from within a raindrop. I am the collision it has with your skin.

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valoth

:: 2008 10 December :: 6.02pm

MEPS
So fucking pissed right now.

As it stands Im denied. My Gunny says that theres still things I can to get by.
Ive done all the paper work short of signing my contract and readging the oath.
Thankfully if I didnt remember my ss by heart before this I will now.

Tuesday I arrived at the post around 10am and waited to fill some papers out. Went to lunch met the other guy going from the post and then after lunch we headed to MEPS in Lansing.

Arrived, signed in, and then went to take ASVAB. I get any job I want thankfully because of my score so that was a plus. The negative was that I waited from 4pm till 7:45pm to go to the hotel. Some post arrived with a kid at 5:30 so we had to wait for them to finish testing. He failed. So ha.

Once at the hotel me and the about 3 other marines, 2 air force, and 2 navy guys all hooked up and played some texas holdem in one of the rooms we had.

Next day it was up bright and early for the day. 4:45am wake up and clean up. By 6am we were at the MEPS station again and into testing. Us 8 Marines got pulled aside and did our dead pulls. Then we moved back and did the other stuff.

Paper work, blood work, urine sample, and then lots of waiting. Followed by moving a seat and waiting. Then a physical.

Then more waiting. Then more.

Then being told I have to go for medical history.
FUCKING HELL!
I was pissed. I still am.
One fucking god damn blemish and its set me back big time. It hurts.

I got back into GR around 4pm and helped the other guy who I was with push around his truck. He was selling the one he has and buying a new one today. The only problem was that his current one has a flywheel problem and needed to be pulled/pushed to throw it into first and get it started. Ice doesnt help that. Thankfully about 5 army guys saw us and helped out. So thank you to them.

Tomorrow I need to look into getting an appointment with my doctor and getting retested for this whole medical thing. I dont want this to fail me.

I want to be a Marine.
I want to be a Marine.
I want to be a gd Marine!

Anyway...


Friday night is xmas party for work and saturday is poker night. Some time saturday afternoon I would like to get out and see that "the day the world stood still" movie.

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