old emails....they gotta go somewhere
I made a horrid mistake at the football game. I must tell you and only you. I'll deny it to anyone else who may ask... except for the people who were actually there. Promise me on mine and your dead grave that you shall never tell another single soul. The horrid mistake was Shaun. I thought it would completely harmless to "cuddle" with him. I must admitt he wanted more. I was bombarded with the question of going out. I never really confirmed.. but it was decided for me. I didn't fight it because I was afraid. Unfortunately he kissed me. I didn't want to kiss. I was made to. I didn't want to. The next day I felt eve more depressed than I ever did before. The horrible weight of having to deal with Shaun on my shoulders was almost too much for me to bare. Levi was calling me again... and Aaron Sean was flirting with me online. Megan was questioning me about holding hands with Shaun. The FUCKER Jacob was calling me also..... interogating me about the whole scene. It was too much for one to take. I was hurrled into the descision of ending something that never really was. I "broke" up with him, even though I wouldn't call it that when I never really fully agreed. I just wanted the harmless cuddle, but as I said he wanted more. He pushed me too hard. He got too close. He touched too much. I just wanted to pull away... but I couldn't he wouldn't let me. I'm afraid of him....but now that I am broke up with him even more so. He isn't the type to take things lightly. I am afraid of boys now... afraid of what they may do to me. Especially recalling the Lucas incident... you might as well call that rape.... because I didn't know what he was doing to me. Now I feel violated. I must stay away from guyz.... for many weeks. Football games are evil. I don't wish to go unless there is a guarentee that nothing will happen. Holly.... I wish you were there. You would have saved me. I love you and please love me, even though I make so many FUCKING mistakes. I do not deserve a thing.... do not deserve love... food... LIFE..... please save me from the hell. I'm hurrled to the loneliness of my mind and no one is here to pull me out. I'm stuck... fuck them all... fuck them all... I LOVE FOREVER AND ALWAYS
~emma the lone wolf

> How much do we actually know about our friends? This is a questionnaire to get to know your friends better. Make sure you read the instructions at the bottom and have fun...
> 1. What time is it? 4:10
> 2. Name as it appears on birth certificate? Justin Ryan Arment
>
> 3. Nicknames? boo, spaghetti sauce...that's all i can think of at the moment
>
> 4. Number of candles on your last birthday cake? 13...i think, if i even had a cake.
> 5. Pets? two cats; snowball, tiger
> 6.Hair Color? brown
> 7.Eye Color? brown, kind of hazel
> 8.Hometown? twenty-nine palms, california
> 9.Town you live in? ankeny
> 10.Favorite foods? i'm told i dont eat
> 11.Ever been to Africa? no...should i have been???
> 12.Been toilet papering? no comment
> 13.Love someone so much it made you cry? perhaps
> 14.Been in car accident? oh yeah
> 15. How many? 3
> 16.Favorite day of the the week? monday
> 17.Croutons or bacon bits? bacon bits
> 18.Favorite flower? i dk..
> 19.Favorite sport to watch? i like to watch football
> 20.Favorite drink? hot chocolate
> 21.Favorite ice cream flavor? chocolate chip cookie dough
> 22.Disney or Warner bros? warner bros
> 23.favorite fast food restaurant? culvers? or arby's
> 24.Favorite restaurant? i forget
> 25.what color is your bedroom carpet?carpet? umm...this sick orange color
> 26.how many times did you fail your driver's test? i havent not taken it yet...ask me again in 2 weeks
> 27.before this one from whom did you get your last email? holly
> 28.which store would you choose to max out your cedit card? definitly best buy
> 29.most annoying thing people say to you? sorry when i'm sure as hell they dont mean it
> 30.who will respond to this email the quickest? i dont know or care
> 31.Who will least likely respond? i dont know or care again
> 32.Favorite TV show? that 70's show, simpsons
> 33. Last person you went out to dinner with?parents, sister
> 34.Ford or chevy? but...thats not fair...my favorite 2 cars are a chevy s-10 and a ford probe
> 35.What are you listening to right now? music on computer
> 36.Time you finished this email? 4:24
> Return directions:Now here's what you're supposed to do... And do not spoil the fun . Copy (not forward) this entire email and paste if onto a new email that you will send. Change all of the answers so that they apply to you. Then send this to a whole bunch of people you know INCLUDING the person who sent it to you. The theory is that you will learn a lot of little known facts about those who know you. Remember to send it back to the person who sent it to you
>
>
-justin-

*In kindergarten your idea of a good friend was the person who let you have the red crayon when all that was left was the ugly black one.

*In first grade your idea of a good friend was the person who went to the bathroom with you and held your hand as you walked through the scary halls.

*In second grade your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you stand up to the class bully.

*In third grade your idea of a good friend was the person who shared their lunch with you when you forgot yours on the bus.

*In fourth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who was willing to switch square dancing partners in gym so you wouldn't have to be stuck do-si-do-ing with Nasty Nick or Smelly Susan.

*In fifth grade your idea of a friend was the person who saved a seat on the back of the bus for you.

*In sixth grade your idea of a friend was the person who went up to Nick or Susan, your new crush, and asked them to dance with you, so that if they said no you wouldn't have to be embarrassed.

*In seventh grade your idea of a friend was the person who let you copy the social studies homework from the night before that you had.

*In eighth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you pack up your stuffed animals and old baseball but didn't laugh at you when you finished and broke out into tears.

*In ninth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who would go to a party thrown by a senior so you wouldn't wind up being the only freshman there.

*In tenth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who changed their schedule so you would have someone to sit with at lunch.

*In eleventh grade your idea of a good friend was the person who gave you rides in their new car, convinced your parents that you shouldn't be grounded, consoled you when you broke up with Nick or Susan, and found you a date to the prom.

*In twelfth grade your idea of a good friend was the pe rson who helped you pick out a college/university, assured you that you would get into that college/university, helped you deal with your parents who were having a hard time adjusting to the idea of letting you go...

*At graduation your idea of a good friend was the person who was crying on the inside but managed the biggest smile one could give as they congratulated you.

*The summer after twelfth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you clean up the bottles from that party, helped you sneak out of the house when you just couldn't deal with your parents, assured you that now that you and Nick or you and Susan were back together, you could make it through anything, helped you pack up for university and just silently hugged you as you looked through blurry eyes at 18 years of memories you were leaving behind, and finally on those last days of childhood, went out of their way to give you reassurance that you would make it in college as well as you had these past 18 years, and most importantly sent you off to college knowing you were loved.

*Now, your idea of a good friend is still the person who gives you the
better of the two choices, holds your hand when you're scared, helps you fight off those who try to take advantage of you, thinks of you at times when you are not there, reminds you of what you have forgotten, helps you put the past behind you but understands when you need to hold on to it a little longer, stays with you so that you have confidence, goes out of their way to make time for you, helps you clear up your mistakes, helps you deal with pressure from others, smiles for you when they are sad, helps you become a better person, and most importantly loves you!

Pass on to those friends of the past, and those of the future...and
those you have met along the way...[crying yet? oh there's more]

Thank you for being a friend. No matter where we go or who we become, never forget who helped us get there.

There's never a wrong time to pick up a phone or send a message telling your friends how much you miss them or how much you love them.

You know who you are, pass it on to someone who you want to remind.

So send this to all your friends and maybe those who aren't but just
watch and see who sends it back.

If you love someone, tell them.
Remember always to say what you mean.

Never be afraid to express yourself. Take this opportunity to tell
someone what they mean to you. Seize the day and have no regrets.

Most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you the person that you are today and are what it's all about anyway. Pass this along to your friends. Let it make a difference in your day and theirs.

The difference between expressing love and having regrets is that the regrets may stay around forever.

26 ThInGs A sWeEt GuY wOuLd Do
>> >
>> >
>> >
>> > 1. Know how to make you smile when you are down.
>> >
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>> > 2. Try to secretly smell your hair BUT you always notice.
>> >
>> >
>> >
>> > 3. Stick up for you but still be respectful of your
>>independence.
>> >
>> >
>> >
>> > 4. Give you the remote control during the game.
>> >
>> >
>> >
>> > 5. Come up behind you, put his arms around you, squeeze you
>>tightly against his chest, and whisper softly into your ear
>> >
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>> > 6. Play with your hair.
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>> > 7. His hands will always find yours.
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>> > 8. Be cute when he really wants something.
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>> > 9. Offer you plenty of massages.
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>> > 10. Dance with you even if he feels like a dork.
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>> > 11. Never run out of love.
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>> > 12. Be funny, but knows when to be serious.
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>> > 13. Realize he's being funny when he needs to be serious.
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>> > 14. Be patient when you take forever to get ready.
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>> > 15. React so cutely when you hit him and it actually hurts.
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>> > 16. Smile alot.
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>> > 17. Plan a romantic date full of cheesy things he wouldn't
>>normally do just b/c he knows it means alot to you.
>> >
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>> > 18. Appreciate you.
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>> > 19. Help others out.
>> >
>> >
>> >
>> > 20. Drive 5 hours just to see you for 1.
>> >
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>> > 21. Always give you a peck on the cheek when you depart from
>>each other's company- even when friends are watching.
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>> > 22. Sing even if he can't
>> >
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>> > 23. Have a creative sense of humor.
>> >
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>> > 24. Stare at you.
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>> > 25. Call for no reason
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>> > 26. Quit smoking, chewing, drinking, or drugs just b/c he loves
>>you enough to quit!!

Holly:a kool dude...i mean dudet..lol y would i say dude as in male...i dk...but u fun fun and umm holly just to tell u i have some extra condomints for u if u need some...

10 of Daddy's Rules for Dating
> >
> > Rule One:
> >
> > If you pull into my driveway and honk you'd better be delivering
> > a package, becasue you're sure not picking anything up.
> >
> > Rule Two:
> >
> > You do not touch my daughter in front of me. You may glance
> > at her, so long as you do not peer at anything below her neck. If
> > you cannot keep your eyes or hands off of my daughter's body, I
> > will remove them.
> >
> > Rule Three:
> >
> > I am aware that it is considered fashionable for boys of your age
> > to wear their trousers so loosely that they appear to be falling
> > off their hips. Please don't take this as an insult, but you and all
> > of your friends are complete idiots. Still, I want to be fair and
> > open minded about this issue, so I propose this compromise:
> > You may come to the door with your underwear showing and
> > your pants ten sizes to big, and I will not object. However, in
> > order to ensure that your clothes do no, infact come off during
> > the course of you date with my daughter, I will take my electric
> > nail gun and fasten your trousers securely in place to your waist.
> >
> > Rule Four:
> >
> > I'm sure you've been told that in today's world, sex without
> > utilizing a "Barrier method" of some kind can kill you. Let me
> > elaborate, when it comes to sex, I am the barrrier, and I will kill
> > you.
> >
> > Rule Five:
> >
> > It is usually understood that in order for us to get to know each
> > other, we should talk aobut sports, politics, and other issues of
> > the day. Please do not do this. The only information I require
> > from you is an indication of when you expect to have my
> > duaghter safely back at my house, and the only word I need from
> > you on this subject is: early."
> >
> > Rule Six:
> >
> > I have no doubt you are a popular fellow, with many
> > opportunities to date other girls. This is fine with me as long as
> > it is okay with my daughter. Otherwise, once you have gone out
> > with my little girl, you will continue to date no one but her until
> > she is finished with you. If you make her cry, I will make you
> > cry.
> >
> > Rule Seven:
> >
> > As you stand in my front hallway, waiting for my daughter to
> > appear, and more than an hour goes by, do not sigh and fidget.
> > If you want to be on time for the movie, you should not be
> > dating. My daughter is putting on her makeup, a process than
> > can take longer than painting the Golden Gate Bridge. Instead of
> > just standing there, why don't you do something useful, like
> > changing the oil in my car?
> >
> > Rule Eight:
> >
> > The following places are not appropriate for a date with my
> > daughter: Places where there are beds, sofas, or anything softer
> > than a wooden stool. Places where there is darkness. PLaces
> > where there is dancing,holding hands, or happiness. Places
> > where the ambient temperature is warm enough to introduce my
> > duaghter to wear shorts, tank tops, midriff T-shirts, or anything
> > othere than overalls, a sweater, and a goose down parka - zipped
> > up to her throat. Movies with a strong romantic or sexual theme
> > are to be avoided; movies which features chan saws are okay.
> > Hockey games are okay. Old folks homes
> > are better.
> >
> > Rule Nine:
> >
> > Do not lie to me. I may appear to be a potbellied, balding,
> > middle-aged, dimwitted has-been. But on issues relating to my
> > daughter, I am the all-knowing, merciless god of your universe.
> > If I ask you where you are going and with whom, you have one
> > chance to tell me the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the
> > truth. I have a shotgun, a shovel, and five acres behind the
> > house. Do not trifle with me.
> >
> > Rule Ten:
> >
> > Be afraid,. Be very afraid. It takes very little for me to mistake
> > the sound of your car in the driveway for a chopper coming in
> > over a rice paddy near Hanoi. When my Agent Orange stargts
> > acting up, the voices in my head frequently tell me to clean the
> > guns as I wait for you to bring my daughter home. As soon as
> > you pull into the driveways you should exit the car with both
> > hands in plain sight. Speak the perimeter password, announce in
> > a clear voice that you have brought my daughter home safely
> > and early, then return to your car - there is no need for you to
> > come inside. The camoflaged face at the window is mine.

SIPPING VODKA

This is just too funny - I still have tears in my eyes! Finally, a
chain letter that I don't mind forwarding...

IT'S FUNNY (DON'T BREAK CHAIN)

A new priest at his first mass was so nervous he could hardly speak.

After mass he asked the monsignor how he had done.

The monsignor replied, "When I am worried about getting nervous on the
pulpit, I put a glass of vodka next to the water glass.

If I start to get nervous, I take a sip."

So next Sunday he took the monsignor's advice. At the beginning of the
sermon, he got nervous and took a drink. He proceeded to talk up a
storm.

Upon his return to his office after mass, he found the following note
on the door:

1. Sip the Vodka, don't gulp.

2. There are 10 commandments, not 12.

3. There are 12 disciples, not 10.

4. Jesus was consecrated, not constipated.

5. Jacob wagered his donkey, he did not bet his ass.

6. We do not refer to Jesus Christ as the late J. C.

7. The Father, Son, and Holy Ghost are not referred to as Daddy, Junior
and the Spook.

8. David slew Goliath, he did not kick the shit out of him.

9. When David was hit by a rock and was knocked off his donkey,don't
say he was stoned off his ass.

10. We do not refer to the cross as the "Big T."

11. When Jesus broke the bread at the Last Supper he said, "Take this
and eat it for it is my body." He did not say "Eat me"

12. The Virgin Mary is not called "Mary with the Cherry,"

13. The recommended grace before a meal is not: Rub-A-Dub-Dub thanks
for the grub, yeah God.

14. Next Sunday there will be a taffy pulling contest at St. Peter's,
not a peter pulling contest at St. Taffy's.

Holly- okay... now this is a little different for you.... you like being mean and weird... which you are exactly.... one.... you're just plain weird and weird for wanting to be so and mean... you are mean because you act like you dont care and people can take it the wrong way... but i no... deep inside... you do care LOL! no... maybe that'll make you mad.... now just to tell you... i can tell you everything too... actually i think i might have told you too much info.... i know where you live holly......... dont u let urself slip any info...... u'll be sry! Just kidding!

> 50 Ways to Make Your Parents Think Your Nuts
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> 1)Follow them around the house..everywhere
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> 2)Moo when they say your name
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> 3)Pretend to have amnesia
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> 4)Say everything backwards
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> 5)Give yourself a swirly
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> 6)Run around with a lamp shade on your head yelling "the sun! It's dying!!"
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> 7)Run into walls
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> 8)Sing at the top of your lungs while running around the house in your
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> underwear
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> 9)Have nervous spasms at anonymous times
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> 10)Say that wearing clothes is against your religion
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> 11)Pretend to worship the Devil
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> 12)Stand over them at 4 in the morning with a HUGE grin on your face and say
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> "Good morning Sunshine!"
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> 13)Snort loudly when you laugh and then laugh harder
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> 14)run in circles
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> 15)recite a whole movie 3 times
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> 16)pretend to beat yourself up
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> 17)Pluck someone's hair out and yell "DNA!!!"
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> 18)Slither everywhere
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> 19)wear a sticker that says "I'm a retard!"
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> 20)wear your pants on your head and your shirt on your waist. tell them you're
>
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> making a fashion statement.
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> 21)Try and drink out of a glass the wrong way
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> 22)Super glue your finger up your nose
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> 23)Talk to a pen
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> 24)Have 20 imaginary friends that you talk to ALL the time
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> 25)Lay face down and chant like an Indian tribe
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> 26)Try and climb the wall
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> 27)Spread out on the window and buzz, pretending to be a fly
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> 28)Take your ice cream cone and put it one your forehead. Say your a lovely unicorn
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> 29)In public yell "NO MOM I WILL NOT MAKE OUT WITH YOU!!!"
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> 30)Put pegs on your nose and eyes
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> 31)Do what they actually tell you
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> 32)Switch the light button on and off for awhile. Then say "oh...I get it!"
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> 33)Eat your hair
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> 34)Whatever they are eating, tell them it looks like a certain animal
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> 35)Eat anything obviously not edible
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> 36)Jump off the roof, trying to fly
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> 37)Say your pet is mocking you and chase it around the house
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> 38)Hold their hand and whisper to them "I see dead people."
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> 39)When you shower or bath yell "I'm drowning!!!!1"
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> 40)Try and snorkle in your fish tank
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> 41)Ask them quietly "Pardon me but do you have any.." then yell
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> "SHOELACES!!!!!!"
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> 42)Chase an imaginary tail
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> 43)Demand that you want your own area code
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> 44)At everything they say yell "LIAR!!"
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> 45)Pretend to be 346 years old
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> 46)Hang upside down in your closet
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> 47)Pretend to be a phone
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> 48)Try to swim in the floor
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> 49)Tap on their door all night
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> 50)Pretend to have multiple personalities.


Most likely to succeed > Rohit I.

Most likely to become president > Daren Hushak

Most likely to end up working at McDonalds > Grant Parker

Funniest boy > Adam Young/ Ryan Toney

Funniest girl > um....kayla becuz of her ditziness?

Best smile > idk

Best actor > skippy

Best actress > ill go with liz i guess

Best (boy) athlete > Morris Smeader

Best (girl) athlete > Larura Arneson?

Best couple > Justin n Holly

Weirdest Person > Chris mettetal or w/e, the kid that shaved his eyebrows off

Most outgoing > kelsey teeter

Most goofy > Matt Sexton

Most hyper > Laura Gillum

Smartest (girl) > Jean Xie and Johanna Ruff

Smartest (boy) > Rohit I.

Person that has made the most clique changes > Becca Wilson (prep, skater, punk, prep)

Stupidest > Kelly Spoth

Best fashion > uh..Gillen Witherspoon, cuz she dresses like me

Worst fashion > Jourdan bell! SHE WORE A TOWE AS A CAPEL, I MEAN CMON

This is a pre-yearbook! Fill it out and send back to the person that sent it
to you, and to all your friends so they can do the same!!



Most likely to succeed > liz

Most likely to become president > Daren Hushak

Most likely to end up working at McDonalds > richie atkinson

Funniest boy > joey! hee hee

Funniest girl > holly!!!!!! FUNNY FUNNY

Best smile > kathryn

Best actor > andy strachan

Best actress > lizzy

Best (boy) athlete > levi

Best (girl) athlete > sammy!!!!

Best couple > lauren cheek and andy

Weirdest Person > HOLLY!

Most outgoing > idk

Most goofy > MATT SEXTON!!!!!!!

Most hyper > Kelsey

Smartest (girl) > mona

Smartest (boy) > daniel

Person that has made the most clique changes > becca er.....

Stupidest > AARON MONTZ

Best fashion > mindy

Worst fashion > marissa b! YUCKY!

Most annoying > KATIE ZUCKER


This is a pre-yearbook! Fill it out and send back to the person that sent it
to you, and to all your friends so they can do the same!!



Most likely to succeed > umm, Justin Arment
Most likely to become president > hopfully not holly, lol
Most likely to end up working at McDonalds > Gipple, lol, jp, umm, aaron montz
Funniest boy > Morgan Parks
Funniest girl > I don't no i havn't noticed anyone with the crude sence of humor i do.
Best smile > somone with white teeth, lol, (diane does but she is a high schooler, (me josh and justin are probly the only ones who no her,
Best actor > Darren Hoshack, u should see her when she is trying to act sane, lol
Best actress > Holly wheeler when she trys to act sane it is really suprising.
Best (boy) athlete > Morris

Best (girl) athlete > people who play sports, lol, idk

Best couple > Sam and Josh.. they were a good couple.

Weirdest Person > umm that is hard to say with all the people i hang out with, but i would say holly.
Most outgoing > uhhh no idea

Most goofy > umm, i might need to agree with holly, i think i might b, lol.
Most hyper > That is hard to say to with all the people i hang with

Smartest (girl) > idk maybe Sam

Smartest (boy) > umm i will say justin cause he is smarter then me but so is josh and so is half the school so i will just say that half of the school that is smarter then me, lol
Person that has made the most clique changes > idk

Stupidest > Richie Atcinson, he can't even remember names, thankfully he isn't in any of my classes
Best fashion > Josh (he is a prep so yeah)

Worst fashion > idk

Most annoying > Aaron Montz or Richie Atcinson



-this one is from joe-

just random stuff...yeah.
-naya-

A tear for everything that i did wrong.