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2004 5 February :: 5.55pm
:: Mood: depressed
snow....damn
it's snowing. that's so....GRR
i hate the snow...bleh. eeeevil.
hehe.
i think chorus is cancelled tonight though...even if it's not mum thinks it is so yeah..
tehe.
i checked the website but it didn't say anything. it should be cancelled though....cos the conditions here are really getting bad. school today sucked.
::sigh::
i hurt so bad...
bleh, i'm hopping this will like, post okay cos my computer is going insane. seriously. the internet is like bwa.
yeah..
im so friggin cold
maybe i need to change my mood to cold instead.
too lazy.
lol.
:D
write more later
-naya-
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2004 4 February :: 8.07pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Figured You Out- Nickelback
Quiz..and shit
"One day you'll see a strange little girl feeling blue..."
Which Strange Little Girl would you be?
This quiz made while Angel was procrastinating her ass off.
Yeah..
I'm so bored. Tomorrow is Thursday. grr....chorus. I doesn't want to go. I went to the orthodontist twice today! once this morning to get my bands changed and once this afternoon to get the wire in the back sinched up so it wouldn't cut my cheek. and then i got to talk to missy! it was cool, cos we went to pick mum up at work and dad's like "how about you go say hi to missy?" so we ended up talking about styles of clothes coming back and shoe laces. cos she didn't have matching shoe laces when she was my age. she's so nice. i think they might be wiccan. it seems like tony was somehow involved with a magick/wicca show that was on public television. idk...
to lazy to remember.
bleh.
i wonder if justin got and skittles...probably.
yeah...probably once they got in the car.
lol. that was totally random.
oh yeah, visit this site for some pics...and if you have any that you want me to put up (i.e. pics of KEYA!) then e-mail them to me. or give them to me and i'll see if i can get our scanner to work.
teheh.
http://antishift.net/browse.php?disp=user&user_id=1829
lata playa....goddess josheph has brain washed me.
-naya-
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2004 1 February :: 2.22pm
:: Mood: geeky
:: Music: All You Wanted- Michelle Branch
Uhh...I guess I kinda left out the rest of the weekend.
Yeah, my last entry was all about the dance..basically. So after the dance I went to Sam's house and spent the night. We watched To Kill A Mocking Bird which was really fun...
Yeah, then we fell asleep and Sam somehow woke up when the movie was over and we went into the guest bedroom. On Saturday we just kinda lazed around and finally went out at around 1:30 so they could get car insurance cos they'd been without since the day after grant's b-day. (24th)
then they took me home and uh..i dont remember what we did.
but last night we watched Orange County which was pretty good.
had john lithgow and some other people in it...chevy chase...good times.
then this morning menards, and kohls. i got some new shoes, and two new pairs of pants.
yeah..that's about it.
hehe.
so that is what i did this weekend.
hehe.
thank goddess tomorrow is monday.
:D
-naya-
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2004 31 January :: 6.00pm
:: Mood: sniffely
:: Music: 3 A.M.-Matchbox 20
Weekend so far=
Went to the dance last night. It was kinda stupid cos all the preps were making it a prom. and cos the evil DJ wouldn't play any greenday. NOT EVEN CLOSING TIME! but the good part was i got to slow dance with my dear keya. and emma...my darling little sister. it was like the hightlight of my night. her beautiful hands around my neck, her eyes looking into mine. it was like old times..we were together for 3 minutes, it was ecstasy. and then i made fun of some preps. hehe. cos we was dancing by them to a fast song and becca and her crew were just standing around and i was like "what, is the music to FAST?" and she started glaring at me and so i rolled my eyes and screamed "PREP!"
twas funny. and ms. russel came and danced with us. she said that she tried to get jared to come but he laughed at her and told her he had better things to do than waste a friday night at an 8th grade dance. t'would've (DOUBLE CONTRACTION!) been fun to meet him. sometime soon im sure.
i got to meet senor dowell. lol....well, said hi anyways. i dont think mrs dowell has worn her zapottos rojos yet...i'll have to remind her on monday.
A DAY!
yayz..i love a days so much. i get to eat lunch w/ justin and keya...yay.
you know what i realised on the phone? keya might not be here next year to help me torture the eigth graders!
i'll miss her if she goes...my lovely keya.
peace, love, and everything else the world will never have,
naya
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2004 30 January :: 4.58pm
:: Mood: crying
i'm such a stupid, self-centered bitch. i'm so god damn demanding. and then i totally change my mind and demand something totally different. i don't deserve anyone's love. nobody should have to waste their time on me. i'm a hopeless cause, and a wast of energy.
don't get involved with me.
if you are involved with....stop
if you don't want to.....it's your choice but i'm a waste.
WHY?
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2004 28 January :: 11.13pm
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: only the sound of my circling thoughts
just finished my spanish brochure thing. i wouldn't have even gotten it done if it werent for justin. i called him at like nine and i was like "do you have the packet for the spanish project?" then i made him read me what was supposed to go on each page.
hehe.
i have such a bloody headache
IHABH!
lol...that was so long ago..
yeah, but back to the spanish thing..i'm just printing out the test and then if it looks good i'll print out the actual one..
i just have to make sure it folds right and shit like that.
hehe.
cos i don't want me and hannah to be failing spanish
goddess forbid hannah fails anything
lol...
later.
THANKS JUSTIN!
-naya-
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2004 25 January :: 7.47pm
:: Mood: thoughtful
:: Music: Hanging By A Moment- Lifehouse
Heya...
Tis Sunday, thank goddess. I have such a bloody headache. Arg.
Tomorrow is Monday..yes. But it's a B-day. damn.
I have like none of my homework done. I forgot to bring home my B-day notebook, so I didn't get my civics done.
Oh well, screw him.
Goddess I hate Mr. Johnson. He's so damn annoying.
It's like he thinks the world is centered around him, and getting everything he wants done is enough to keep you on Santa's nice list until you die.
Roar.
I'M SO BLOODY SICK OF HIM.
ack.
If I could kill him......oh.
If only if only.
::sigh::
peace, love, and everything else the world will never accomplish,
naya
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2004 23 January :: 5.17pm
:: Mood: nothingness
Friday...roar.
I hate Friday's.
I'm going to Erin's bday party though...still have to wrap her present...hehe.
I'll probably do that after I get off.
:-D
I'm procrastinating...
ELP was uber fun today...I was "harrasing" Steven. Yeah...everybody was hyper today...even Katie. lol.
That was funny, cos she's always so calm and collected. I figured she'd be out of it cos her bff's ex boyfriend was slitting his wrists. I think she thought I was kinda mean cos I was just like "So?" When she told me.
Yeah, once you've done it, it doesn't really seem that big to you.
Like me and Taylor was saying "Once you slit your wrists nothing hurts"
Tis true...except braces and broken hearts.
lol.
always some exceptions....always.
hehe.
Ms. Russell came back today. I'm starting to really like her. Ever since our Witch, Gay Chick convo. hehe.
Yeah, but Mr. Maifield will always be my favorite. Speaking of which, reminds me that I have George...Paige thinks that Keya has him (watch out) so I'll keep him until Monday and then yeah...maybe I'll go to Keya's locker with her and put it on Paige's shelf.
:-D
tralala.
<3 always,
naya
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2004 21 January :: 4.45pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Headstrong- Trapt
Early Out!!
Wow, I had fun today.
twas early out and I went bowling with Erin and Golly. Yeah..and then we went to Original Joe's.
Tehe.
Had mock trial today to.
Got sentenced 10 years in jail and $900,00 fine or something.
Wasn't really paying attention.
Hehe.
We're doing Mock Trial at the end of the year in Civics.
That's gunna suck. I think for that I might be on the jury...or a witness. Not a lawyer or judge...too technical.
I barely knew my statement..hehe.
Yeah. sucked cos conner was questioning me from the prosicution...lol.
and steven from the defense. steven wasn't even prepared...neither was i.
Justin's over at Joey's house....roar.
they were stalking me...hehe..and erin and golly.
but they wouldn't have been stalking anyone had it just been erin and golly so they were stalking me.
yeah...hannah was trying to read my hand today in spanish. twas funny.
She couldn't figure out what Tribute Mutant was..doubt anyone around here knows.
bleh.
i has a headache.
i think i'll go take that last pill....i need a hug...again.
::sigh::
justin hugged me really hard today....scary..lol.
anyhoo....
i'm to lazy to get up, i'll just like babble on.
i'm talking to hillary.
boring convo actually.
stryder finally gave up begging for food..hehe.
he started in at 5:40 this morning. i was like stryder shut up.
cos i was having a really cool dream about me and justin...hehe. then when i went back to sleep i had one about justin and joey and keya wearing purple skirts to church.
bleh...
hey, me and justin's song is on now...AHHH.
scary.
i want to go to the formal.
if things work out according to plan i may.
though i doubt they will.
bleh.
im gunna go now.
blessed be.
-naya-
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2004 20 January :: 6.24pm
:: Mood: void of feeling
:: Music: The Boys of Summer- Don Henley
Do you notice?
Does you notice how people whose lives suck are cool? How you feel cool when you tell someone that you got yelled at, or beaten, or something like that? Do you notice that people who are failing are cool? How you feel so cool when you tell someone that you got an F on a test, or you cheated and got caught? Do you notice how the total slackers are so cool? How the people who sit in the back and dont really care are the ones you want to be just like? Do you notice how American teenagers are morphing into this? How everybody wants to just "not care"? Do you notice how our spirit is slipping? How we're turning to drugs, and alcohol and violence just so we can be seen as cool by those people who "dont care"?
Why are we pretending?
Why are we being like this?
Why can't we all just be ourselves.
CARE A LITTLE PEOPLE.
What would the goddess say?
::sigh::
-naya-
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2004 18 January :: 7.26pm
:: Mood: friggid
:: Music: An Cailin Gaelach-Mairead Ni Dhamhnaill
Talked to Keya and Justin today.
And watched CSPAN and Nine Months.
Yeah.
Spent a lot of time with Stryder.
We also went to the library got a couple books on witches and stuff, but they aren't very good.
Yeah.
And I checked out a book called Echo.
It's like uberly gripping...
Yeah. Have yet to figure out what it's about. They keep switching view points and places in time. But it's so good. I'm like half-way through.
Wow, this song is really pretty.
hehe.
I figured it'd be over by the time I got the lady's name written, lol.
It's like a seriously long and Celtic name.
Wow, Naya's capitalizing things today.
That's insane..hehe.
It's Noel's fault...damn, can't blaim it on her anymore, she just left.
hehe.
Taylor's birthday was today.
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2004 18 January :: 1.04pm
:: Mood: magickal
:: Music: The Chicks Dig It...who sings that song?
lol.
On the phone with Keya.
hehe.
I has been doing wiccaish stuff.
hehe.
i found my book of shadows last night.
YAY!!!
i'm looking for spells, gotz to figure out when imbloc is...and what i is doing.
hehe.
mum and dad went to des moines to see LotR again...
hehe.
home alone until like 4:30.
TRALALA
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2004 14 January :: 5.56pm
:: Mood: thoughtful
:: Music: ::sigh::
i just got off the phone with justin. he was getting mad at me cos i was gagging myself..well, getting really close anyways. like i did when i was a little kid. i used to lay on my bed at night and almost gag myself..didn't know it was bad back then.
but today i was just sitting on my window seat shoving the cord from my curtains down my throat. yeah...i got really really close.
justin thinks he broke his wrist.
i told him to get a pink cast if he did.
lol..t'would make me giggle.
he'd look adorable with a cast..though it would make the girls in his elp pay even more attention to him. they'd be like hanging over his sholders pretending to be sad. then they'd make their move and ask him out.
goddess i'm so scared someone is going to ask him out..i dont know what he'd say.
i dont know anything about him anymore.
roar.
i miss him so much.
id go back out with him if he asked....maybe i should talk to joseph about that.
lol.
be like "you know, id say yes if justin asked me out"
hehe.
then when joseph's like "oh i'll tell him" be like "just tell him you think id say yes..not tell him i told you, k?"
yeah..now i just need to talk to joey alone.
be great if he could get on
::cough cough::
lol.
could call.
dunno how long my parents will be out though.
keya's getting me candles!
yayz.
happyish.
i should go..cos i can.
bb
-naya-
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2004 13 January :: 4.45pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: I don't like music with words anymore
Originally from my notebook "Naya's Stuff", but I liked it so I desided to put it in here.
what's the point when you dont see one?why should i act? why should i make the rest of the world think things are perfect when they aren't? why should i be confinded to this place?
i dont want to be here, so why am i forced to come?cant i just stay in my room forever? just surfing the internet and watching stryder eat and sleep. then when i'm old enough movre to california. there i could finally be free. practice witchcraft, astrial projection, be openly gay, maybe marry keya.
WHOA, that came from nowhere.
uh...but maybe it's a possibility. if she would that is.
are gay marriages legal yet?
probably in california.
not here...hell no.
why would they allow gay marriages in iowa?!
that would be....UNCHRISTIAN!
goddess forbid we do anything against the christian religion.
cos jesus died for our sins.
jesus loves us!
dead men cant love
DEAD MEN CANT LOVE!
why cant i just be acceptted for who i am?
i hate pretending.
why is my life an act?
-naya-
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2004 9 January :: 10.40pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Bring Me To Life- Evanescence
::sigh::
roar.
on the phone with sam..just got home from babysitting.
taylor and hunter.
they were pretty good.
bleh.
i'm so friggin tired.
i should probably like...go to bed.
oh wellz.
dunno what to write.
justin's at nighthawk...
roar.
and and and......yeah
i was going to tell him my idea for the 30th but i desided it was stupid, and a late night fantasy.
i mean.....
hehe.
sam thinks me and grant are perfect for me.
tehe.
gtg
-me-
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2004 6 January :: 3.42pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: Lonestar- Not A Day Goes By
Noel is laying on my lap. Which is something that rarely happens, especially now.
::sigh::
Stryder just walked by and....
Now Noel is gone, and Stryder's eating some food up on the desk.
I made the mistake of putting his bowl ontop of mum's printed stuff...gotta move that, just a sec.
This song is so damn sad. Bleh.
I can't wait til Justin gets home. Then I won't be so god damn lonely.
Stryder's so cute..I keep gettin distracted watching him eat. The only other guy that's cute when he eats is Justin. Not that he eats much anymore. Atleast not that I see.
"He just doesn't eat lunch"
Not a day goes by that I don't think of you. After all this time, you're stil with me it's true. Somehow you remain locked so deep inside. Baby, baby, oh baby not a day goes by...
Minutes turn to hours and the hours to days. Seems it been forever that I felt this way.
Nah, my favorite part is:
I still wait for the phone, in the middle of the night. Thinking you might call me if your dreams don't turn out right. And it still amazes me that I lie here in the dark wishing you were next to me with your head against my heart.
::sigh::
Such a good song..
Something I have to get out..
Wish I could say the other thing I need to get out, but that has to remain a secret.
Maybe I'll tell Keya someday. If Keya stays....
Blessed Be.
-arenhod-
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2004 6 January :: 12.34pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: My Name Is (Parody)
Home..bleh
You're an AIM WHORE!
What kind of AIM-er are you?
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Yeah..i'm home sick today. which sucks cos i wanna go to school. but i threw up like 4/5 times last night and my mother decided i needed to stay home.
grr.
talking to Hunter..we're discussing HWNG. yay. Stryder is asleep on my lap and i'm eating. eating lots and lots.
gobstoppers and cheddar chex mix. i think that i might go watch finding forester.
cos mum said it was good.
we wanted to rent white oleander, but it's still a new release.
maybe i'll watch freaky friday again...
dunno.
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2004 3 January :: 12.46pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: Some country song about a boy and a girl...
dammit..
Water Fairy
Rate my quiz please even if it is a 1 or whatever
Which Fairy are you?(for anyone many out comes)
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I'm sad today, and I need to talk to Justin. But "He's out." as his step father put it. He almost told me where he was, then stopped and said "He's out"
Maybe he's over at Joey's..maybe I should call Joey..
bleh.
I don't know what to do.
I wish I could just talk to him.
::sigh::
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2003 31 December :: 11.02am
:: Music: Falling Out- Relient K
You are the mysterious night and all its sounds. No
one knows much about you or what and how you
think, unless they're really close. You prefer
the peace and solitude. You are quiet and don't
express many of your feelings. If you had the
ability to be invisible, you would love it, and
take advantage. You are more of a nocturnal
person and don't really like going out much,
but the thing about you is that you may know
how to have a good time. Hmm. Anyway, have a
Happy Halloween, Shadowy One.
What Halloween Figure Are You?
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Oh no. You may not even have a funeral because of
your wild, crazy ways. No one would notice
you're gone. Your body may just be thrown and
found somewhere. Your death could be in the
newspaper, or anywhere else, and people would
barely even notice or care. You would possibly
just be a statistic. Come on, don't be thrown
out like trash now. You don't have to go out
and think that there's no need for anyone or
anything in the world. Look around and you may
find something worthwhile...it could even be
your own self =)
What Type of Funeral Will You Have? Will You Be Missed Once You're Gone?
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You have the eyes of a hawk. You're very much aware
about your surroundings and the situations that
you're in. People can't touch your things
because you would immediately notice what's
been touched or what's missing. You can analyze
people's thoughts and actions quite well.
That's good for you. Don't lose that sharp
vision of yours.
What Animal Eyes Do You Have?
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Hello, you striking person! You are the gorgeous
poinsettia, but people should not let your
looks or personality fool them. You are the
type who could either be really nice or very
spiteful. Others probably don't want to be
around you when you are in a bad mood. You like
the presence of other people and you care about
them, but sometimes you could lash out at them,
which could be the side of you that you try to
control. Other than that, you are a great
person and you have a good heart. Merry
Christmas =)
What Christmas Figure Are You?
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VICTOR: You are victor!
1400-years-old, he is the supreme Vampire overlord
who has been sleepong to restore his power.
Selene trusts him as she trusts no one else and
daringly awkens him when no one else believes
her discovery of the Lycan plot to destroy the
Vampires. Viktor is tall, powerful, haught, and
ostentatious. And ruthless. He had his own
daughter, Sonja, executed when it was
discovered she was secretly involved with a
lycan leader. Many have elevated him
Okay, well you just do anything you find
interesting and fun, which everyone else should
do as long as it's not careless. You're not so
much of an idiot because you know what you're
doing and you know what you like. That's
wonderful for you. You stray far from idiocy,
and keep it that way!
What Kind of Idiot Are You to Take This Quiz?
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2003 30 December :: 9.52am
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: All The Small Things- Blink 182
STRYDER!
stryder's home. he's half asleep on my lap. i'm so happy he's back. slept on the couch last night in attempt to get peekaboo to sleep with me, but that didn't work. she slept on the other couch. had more odd dreams..grr.
but that was probably cos of where i was sleeping.
yeah...
i dunno. it was like i was stealing some blonde chick's boyfriend over the internet or something. bleh.
we were going to summerfeast.
summerfeast...such fond memories.
threesomes..carnies stealing wallets...bannanas...
Ah..good times.
I don't even remember why I wouldn't go on any rides..if we go this summer I definatly will...lol.
We'll see.
Wondering if I should call Justin.
Or Joey..lol.
Burn some more CDs, just be a general pyro.
Joey said it was healthy...hehe.
Poor Stryder. He's so cute when he walks, but you can tell it hurts like hell. He kinda limps along...oh well, more reason for me to pick him up and carry him a ton. I'm not even supposed to be up here. They said stay downstairs so he doesn't have to walk up and down the stairs. hehe.
bad child...
:-D
Oh wellz...
wonder if Keya's planning on calling today?
roar.
<3
-Arenhod-
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2003 29 December :: 2.01pm
:: Mood: wonderful
:: Music: God Must Hate Me - Simple Plan
Thanks Joey..
Just had a gratifying conversation with Joey. He's so sweet. What did I ever do to deserve him? I was such a bitch to him...Oh well, we're friends and I dont' feel like thinking about that. I burned a CD while on the phone with him. Literally. Took a lighter and burnt it.
Twas soo fun. Then I accidently burnt myself and he's like "You'd be in big trouble if I was Justin"
Yeah...
Must have been like an hour and a half I was on the phone with him.
I was so depressed when I called him and now I feel so...refreshed.
You'll never see this, but thanks Joey.
You make me happy, when Justin can't.
Where the hell is Justin anyways???
grr.
Oh well, I'll figure that out later.
Blessed Be.
THANKS JOEY.
-Arenhod-
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2003 29 December :: 11.40am
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: Celtic
Tis waaaay to early to be eating sugar, but I am anyways. peel and pull twislers.
getting hyper depressed.
listening to Music Match's Celtic station.
roar.
HYPERISH
wish justin was on.
wish i could get a hug...
An Cailin Gaelach...good song.
No idea what it means.
who cares.
i'm getting a sugar high.
blessed be.
-arenhod-
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2003 29 December :: 8.51am
:: Mood: silent
:: Music: Hoopes I Did It Again
Stryder's in getting his front claws taken out, and getting nuetered. I'm so lonely without him..
I'd be great if Justin would ever get on, and notice that he's supposed to call me *cough, cough*, but he's probably still asleep.
Had the strangest dream last night about him...and his mum.
lol.
I don't think I'll put it here, I'll just write it in my book of shadows later. I'm wanting to cast a circle or something, but I'm not for fear that I'll be interupted by the phone. Bleh.
Tis hard to practice the craft under these circumstances..
Mum and dad dont even approve of it, so I can't tell them. Justin doesn't believe in it, much less support it. Sam's...variable. I dunno about Keya. I wish I could find another wiccan or atleast someone who practices the craft.
IF ANYONE OUT THERE IS WICCAN AND LIVES AROUND DES MOINES CONTACT ME!
bleh.
I need someone to help teach me. I've been researching and stuff forever, but that's basically all that I do..reasearch. Haven't done any real spells besides invisibility...and the peace chant. Other than that I've just meditated to find my magick name..blurg.
Suppose I'll see what's going on over at Children of Artemis.
Peace,
Arenhod
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