dammit
this is fucking gay, i dont think im gonna get a damn tux before saturday. this is so gay. grr this just adds on to my list of problems... i hate people,, especially james..cuz hes stupid, you fuckin think i still talk shit about david..-.- moron, me and david got over that shit along time ago stupid ass. unlike you we know how to stop running our fucking mouths. all you can do is cry about other peoples problems when your the one with all the damn problems..anyway enough on that faggot. im uterly pissed right now. this blows, i wish prom was in another week so i have more fucking time dammit. then tomorrow i got fucking meaps which sucks ass too. god damn world. i have a tendency to get my friends pissed at me..i guess im just gonna have to find a suit somewhere else dammit. i dont want to disapoint megan because i asked her and then i show up wearing something gay. ugh its sad enough im barely gonna ave enough for dinner and my ticket. anyway i guess ill have to make all this work...somehow. ill find a way, i always do. and if you dont have anything to say that i would care about then dont reply cuz its a waste of my time. but goodbye to those of you who are still with me.

Brad

its 1:00 in the morning and im tired
hey all, i missed school today cuz god damn katie decided not to pick me up..i was pretty pissed but oh well its only one more day to add on to the time we dont get any practicing done...i had a boring ass day today. all i did was play basket ball and eat. its pretty bad. anywho i have a guitar on layaway at guitar center. its a $220 strat. its pretty rad but soon enough ill get another one even better. but yeah i really really hope the kent theatre thing turns out..when spring break started they didnt listen to me. i told them we wont spend enough time together to make new shit and now look what happened..we have one god damn song done and now i have to just learn the old damn songs and play mostly them and im gonna tlak to them about doing more covers too because if we ever plan on doing a real gig of at least 3 sets then we need at least 10 songs per set which leaves us with around 30 songs and i know we aint got that many origionals..i know the band is probly gonna bitch because they dont like covers but they're gonna have to get it in their head that people want to hear what they know...if people are gonna come to our shows and have never been to one then they are gonna expect to know something we play and if they go there and we play all origionals then they're gonna be like what the fuck is this..and its gonna suck so yeah i need to talk to the guys about that, pretty much all this was told to me by my aunt and joe which is the one helping us out and i know they know alot more about being in a band than we do so i think we should be taking their advice. but yeah enough about that ive been having a pretty shitty day...no one to talk to right now..and i have no fucking tux for prom and im pissed about that too. i need to fucking get one otherwise im screwed. i dont wanna let megan down..i asked her to go and im going to go i cant just not go that would be total bullshit. anyway my weekend was boring as well. i went to my cousins house for a couple days to spend time with him. it was his birthday and he had a party on saturday which was ok. i got to see my cousins little baby and her other kid danny. he got this cool little guitar from joe that was from hawaii or whatever but it sucked cuz it was all messed up tuning wise. i know i am boring you right now..thats if you cared enough to keep reading cuz i know i would have stopped the moment i started bitching cuz i tend to do that alot. anyway thats pretty much it for now. ill talk to ya'll later. night.

Brad

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come see the show
well now i finally have a computer in my house. but im pretty sure it'll be gone as fast as it came cuz of my stepdad but oh well. i might as well enjoy while its here. anyway ive been having a pretty good day today only for one reason which is confidential but yeah. today all ive done was wake up at kevins, hook up with rob and go down to kentwood to bring back the equiptment we used for the talent show. then we got some taco bell which was very good. tomorrow im going to rob's sometimes later in the day. and me and kevin are gonna stay there. hopefully dusty will be there too so we can make a song or two. for this whole spring break we are gonna end up just meeting at rob's everyday at around 9 in the morning to about 3 or so cuz rob and dusty have to work. but yeah i really hope we get alot done before our break is over. im pretty sure the 18th will be the best show all of you see. we might end up rescheduling at the bean before that since the weather had to knock out the power at the bean and cancel our show. i was pissed but oh well. if we do play at the bean before the 18th then that will most likely be the last time you hear the songs that we have now except for a few maybe. but yeah from the 18th on we will have all new stuff, its gonna be great. our style will be a little bit differant too, it will kinda be like a blink/taking back sunday kind of thing. i think it will be awsome but we'll have to wait and find out. but anyway when we play at the kent theater we will be selling our cd's for 5 bucks. right now you can buy tickets for the april 18th show for 4 bucks, just talk to me or any of the fella's in the band and we'll give you a ticket. but if you pay at the doors it will be 5 bucks. anywho thats about it for now. if anyone has any questions just ask or leave a comment or whatever. bye all.

Brad

now to re-update my journal. im kinda pissed about tonight, i really cant believe the weather sucks so much ass. i was actually gonna play tonight too, i was really excited. but oh well, its all in the past now. anyway the more i think about it..i think im still in love, i know it seems fucked up but i think its true. everynight i still lay there and look at her pictures remembering all the good times we had. im such a loser i know but i dont care. god! i have a wierd feeling about this band, i really think we might go somewhere. i have hope, as long as i believe in my self then i have a chance. i hope theres someon out there who also believes in me. anyway im gonna get going, bye all.

shit
well, i find myself here at kevins once again..updating my journal. its kinda boring here cuz there isnt anything to do and kevins not entertaining me at the moment. not much has happened since last time i updated this thing..well except i asked megan to prom, thats gonna be awsome, shes a really cool girl. and tomorrow im supposed to go with sam her and a few other people cafe' bar hopping or something like that, but yeah that'll be fun. this spring break me kevin dusty and robby are all gonna like live together by staying somewhere together the whole time and were gonna try and make a new album which will be rad as hell. but yeah this new project will be alot better i think. i cant wait though, the talent show will kick ass too. were playing possesions and marty. but yeah..ive had a few problems lately but nothing too bad. im gonna get going now, see yall later.

Brad

p.s. james dont bother putting anything in my journal because no one gives a shit what you say so dont waste my time with your petty fagget comments.

well its been a while, not much has happened but yeah im in bruce said checkers as you all know. tonight they played at the bean and it was a pretty good nigh for the most part. im at kevins right now. im starting to get mixed feelings about things now, i dont want to say what about because i dont want anyone to know at this point in time. but probably eventually everyone will know. tonight was also wierd, it kinda seemed like tony was trying to make things better between me and him but i dont know. maybe its a trick..like where i think things are getting better but then i act nice back an it gets thrown in my face. i dont know i dont know who to trust but yeah at least i still have some close friends. but yeah i dont know. anywho i cant wait till me and the band start getting together like all the time and getting lots of practice time. then after i know all the songs then the band will be a little better but i dont know im sure there are some people who dont want me in the band, but oh well they can suffer..this band is going somewhere and im going with it, and its going to be great. im so pissed, i left my camera at the bean and i have no fucking clue what happened to it. anywho im bored and tired. i think im just gonna go, talk to yall later, bye.

im just updating for the hell of it. im so bored, its midnight and me and kevin are just sittin on our asses doing nothing. it sucks, i really wanna go somewhere for some reason. ...i hate people, i wish i knew who my real true friends are.. im pretty sure rachel, kevin and jay are on the list. i just dont know about everyone else. im so glad school got out early today, it totally kicked ass. i wish it would happen more often. but then again it sucked cuz when we went back to my house we couldnt make any food cuz of no electricity but then it started working so it was all good. anyway i wish robby was over here, or me and kevin over there, i wanna jam and like make a song or something. that would kick ass. but its probly too late. but yeah im just gona go, i need to find something to do. but yeah bye all.

Brad

well today was fun, me and kevin got with sam and went driving around for a while, then we went back to my house and fell asleep for like an hour then we went to meijers for a bit and then we drove around and now im back at kevins and were just chillin and whatnot. anyway im just gonna go.

Brad

kevin's hot
hey people, i had a good time this weekend. friday i went to the bean and hung out with kevin, bobby,emily, and jeff. we had fun and we skipped the whole band session thing with fuzzy logic, it seemed kinda gay. oh well, after that kevin stayed the night at my house and i fell asleep like really early cuz i was super tired. then saturday me and kevin got picked up by robby and jammed at his house for a while then we got dusty over and he played too, it was fun, then something very great might happen to me but im still waiting to see if it happens. anyway after that kevin went to work then me sam avery and her cousin and me drove around for a bit and then picked up someone else, but i wont name her. anyway we picked up kevin from work then went to a few caffe's that was fun. and then after that me and kevin..well lets just say we werent totally dressed appropriatally..heh, but yeah it was real funny. and yeah after that nothin else happened. but yeah im gonna get going people. bye all.

Brad

sick as hell
well, i havent updated this in a while. i feel so shitty, i had to stay home yesterday because i was so sick, i dont really feel much better today but i didnt want to stay home again, well i did i just didnt want to miss out on assignments and fail or anything. life sucks. its amazing how much everything has changed in like 4 or 5 months, back then everything was great, i had alot of friends and everyone got along. life was great and there was nothing to worry about. at least i still have friends, i would have to say jay and kevin are my 2 best friends, i talk to them more than anyone else, at least they dont hate me like everyone else. i still wonder what went wrong, how did all this start up, i think it was because of the freshman this year, the girls. see if you think about it, if none of the freshman girls were around i think none of this would of ever happened.not that im saying its all their fault but yeah. i dont regret anything i did with tasha but ijust wish things could have turned out better. if i wouldnt have gone to tashas that one night we would still be able to talk and she wouldnt hate me like she does which i dont see why she does but im sure its from everyone telling her a bunch of shit. i just want to forget about everything. im glad chris is back, it'll be nice to have another friend to talk to, i also think its funny that i heard james was moving because he doesnt want to deal with chris, i think hes just affraid of getting the shit kicked out of him or something, now poor james cant flirt with connie. now i can see chris with connie instead of james all over her. not that any of this is my business it just bothers me when i hear about chris being pissed because of james. im here to help chris out all the way. anywho ive been so bored at home, i changed my room around again, im finally gonna get a ps2 sometime this week for my birthday, i was thinking about asking for a new guitar but ill just wait till this summer when im working. im so happy for myself ive read my first book on my own, it was the hobbit, it was a good book, the end was kinda sad. now ill have to read more, ill get a differant lord of the rings book from jay. i wanna buy some of these books, reading makes you smarter. but yeah i guess ill get going now, i dont have too much to say now. so yeah see ya'll.

Brad

sad
i had an ok weekend. i invited jay over to my house on friday to stay the night. so we just played ps2 for a while and went outside for a very small bit cuz it was too cold. then on saturday i went to tj's party, that was ok, im suprised tj got such a successful party going on. after that me and jay went outside at about 1:45am and came back at about 4:20am, then we played dbz for a while and finaly went to bed at about 5:30am or 6:00am. but yeah then on sunday jay went home and justin invited me to go to the movies so i did, and we saw just married, it was a pretty funny movie. anyway thats pretty much my weekend. but yeah im gonna get going. bye all.

Brad

hey all, i dont know why my life has to have so much drama. all this is just a phase it seems like. i still miss tasha and no im not over her, not at all. if i could just go back in time and change a couple of things none of this would have happened. in a way tasha\'s dad is kinda deciding my future and i just dont want everyone pissing him off then i get the shit for it. i wish i would have made a better impression on him and not have to deal with him hating me. then me and tasha would still be able to talk at least. but im sorry if any of this affected anyone in a bad way. i know it probly hasnt except for tasha and her family. and thanks to everyone who has been supporting me through this, it really is something i need. just dont make any threats or any kind of harm towards tara for what she has done to me otherwise i get in trouble. no ill never forgive tara for what she has done. i dont necessarly blame tasha\'s parents for getting pissed because if i was the dad in this situation i would probly do the same and i know all of you probly would too. i just hope things get better and i get out of this with as little damage as possible. but anyway im gonna get going. bye all.

Brad