SCHOOL
Yeah its been so long since ive wrote and i have absolutely nothing to do in Journalism so i decided to write. (tara told me to put loved) and i have no clue why.I guess alot has happened since last time i wrote, but nothing really big. Ive dated around, Meek......Jimmy......Drumm.....yeah im done

Uhh. Steve and I got back together.. i have no clue why but i suppose he deserves a 2nd chance. maybe not but meh. its for me to decide. I know its nothing serious. It's not that I don't want to be with him.. I just... Am passing time?? That sounds really bad but its the truth.

. Idk whats going on with Dan, but hes acting weird around me. Its like since me and steve got back together, hes kept his distance. Like thanksgiving. Steve and Scott were over. Dan showed up and suprised me. I ran up to him in the driveway, Gave him a HUGE hug and he came inside, saw steve and barely spoke after that. Lately i'v been thinking that maybe he.. ya know likes me. But the i smack myself and realize that im not his type. He likes th epretty girls and the ... wel the good pretty girls *not me*
Anyways~ I hope that he doesnt feel like hes being replaced cos hes my best friend.... Dan used to come over or at least call me every day.and for the past 2 weeks, its been weird. IDK. maybe im just being paranoid.If it all comes down to it you know i would let steve go to save our friendship~ dan your my best friend in the whole friggin world....\...not that he reads this. If only he did.

Is it normal to be in love with a friend? like i love my friends, but i want my friend to be a part of me for the rest of my life...is that normal.


just let me know what how your feeling..what your thinking...



Love Brie.....Tara rocks!

Hey guys,
Its been SO LONG. but ive been so busy. me and risa are hangin out. you know keepin it real. were going camping with dan and chad tomorrow. and its gonna kick ass! tonight is the sandlake fair~

Risa says:
hey its been a great summer so far i love hanging out with the guys the are so much fun and i finally found a guy that wont be a dick and cheat on me i guess the ONLY thing that steve and scott did for us was give us each other i dont know what id do without brie shes my best friend love ya brie oh yeah thanks assholes!!!!



Love Mucho,
BrIe & RiSa

~ Im just now realizing that this is my life. ~
that its never going to get anybetter. and it cannot POSSIBLY get any worse. a few weeks ago, i had 3 diff guys. and now. im down to 0. well. kind ahave one. but idk if thats going to work out.
im aware that its not always about guys. but why am i so upset when i dont have someone to hold me? i would like to feel appreciated every once ina while too ya know? maybe im juss kiddin myself. im not good enough to get a guy. im never goin to be a supermodel. and i guess theres nothing i can do about it. i have my friends and they love me for me. or atleast i hope so. but when he looked into my eyes yesterday and told mei was beautiful, i got chills up my spines. it was just. picture perfect! cos i liked him for sooo long . since this summer! and now hes finally giving me a chance. but he hasnt talked to lately. idk.
and nothing has changed about my family. they are trying to make me perfect, and trying to manipulate me into thinking things that i really dont. but in the end i always do. like my desicisons . how can she lecture me about being in high school, witha ll these responsibilities if she never gives me a chance to prove myself of anything? she never trusts me with anything ! ugggh. it makes me so mad. well ive wasted enough of your time if your still reading. nobody reads it anyways.
Lots of Love
me

Last night...WoW. Steve had some ppl over. i pretty much hung out w/ kyni rae and brittany w. sorta fun . but then ryan and casey and kevin and everyone else left. then it got boring. L-O-N-G 2 hours in his hot tub. lottsa fun. didnt go to bed til 7. woke up at nine to scott singing..haha. yeah great fun.

I really dont know how much longer i can stay with him....i cant take it!

not much else to say . so love you jess, love you ash.
Lots of Love
~me~

hey everyone
HeY guys ( jess and ash)
yeah its pretty much all who reads this anyways but you wont believe what happened!!! :D well first i had to spend the day at his house and we just watched movies and talked ya kno? pretty basic. we ate around 3. and then went to my house around 5: 30. and at night theres a christmas party that me and steve spent time with my weird-o family. but we left early cuz it got real boring with my aunt debbie...and my " cute cousin " ...haha ash :D but yeah they were there and nobody would talk to me cuz she think im too young to date and blady blah. i think shes just pissy cuz she never got invited on dates so she just...gah. shes weird. but we left early and we were almost to my house and hes like oh yeah. ... i have a suprise for you..so he turned around and about 10 mins along the way he was like...okay close your eyes...so i did and he covered them too.....and i open them up and there were sooo many lights around me! i felt like a little girl and i couldnt help but just tear up! it was adoreable and then he looks at me and was like..merry christmas..i love you !! ahhh it was just....a kodak moment ya kno? WoW ...it was just that perfect. and the whole way home i just...thought about how much of a sweetheart he was.
Yeah..that was my christmas. And jess...any time babe! we need to hook up before break...today is umm...friday....im thinkin maybe this saturday we could all do something! * me N you, and caleb N steve? but yeah ill call you...
Ashley: what did you need to tell me so badly? just email it to bewarebrat777@aol.com..or was it just the shirt thing cuz that was hilarious...i wonder what happned to that! it was adoreable..:( haha lots of love for both of ya
~!*BrIaNnA*!~

HeY eVeRyBoDy~*!

Its going alright over here. its pretty boring. Chloe is here. Family is here. Pretty boring. ZzZzZz. I went shopping today. seen all my presents and my mom told me to wrap them all! haha. what a joke. steve got me a real pretty necklace! i love him sOoO much! its gay. i already know all my presents. how fun is that! im just wondering what santa is bringing me...hMmMmM....lol anyhoo. not much else to say.
Lots of love.
oh yeah and jess...i hope everthing between you and caleb works out! just call him! and remember i love ya babay!
BrIaNnA