GAH~.
i hate being sick. But i think of Steve and suddenly everything gets better. I love him so much. and just today somebody asked me why i loved him. When people ask me why i love him... i tell them because he's sweet... but deep down i'm thinking far beyond that. I'm thinking about the times when it's freezing cold outside,and he still hasnt given up on me when i forgot how to snowboard, but i let my hair down to fly away because i know he doesn't care. I think about the times when I look like shit, (always) but i don't go home to change because i know He doesn't care. I think about the times when i'm having a hard day... but i don't put on a fake smile and let the day go on... i tell him everything on my mind... because i know he cares.
like: i .....hmmmm~i don't want anything between us to change, because he makes me so happy...its indiscribable..nobody could ever make me smile the way i do whenever i even hear his name.Honestly i dont know how to explain how i feel about him... I've never felt like this over a guy before,, its so weird to know that THIS in my heart is the true feeling of love... I've loved him for so long. now whenever I hear his voice, I am with him even if i just talking about him, i know that i truly love him.. And everytime I say "I love you" to him, I mean it with EVERYTHING I have... When he says "I love you" or "I miss you" or just anything he says i know he mean it... When I am in his arms, everythings absolutly perfect... and I dont want anything to ruin what we have... becuz I love him to much to lose him.

Steve, you mean the whole entire world to me... I dunno what i would do without you, honeslty if you werent in my life, i would of NEVER been this happy, even though we havent even been going out for long, i have wanted this for such a long time, and now we are.. Steve, i love you with all of my heart and i thought you and everybody else should know that...

~ BrIaNnA~

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HeY,
yesterday i had the time of my life. I went snowboarding again! and i had soo much fun with steve! hes so much fun to be around . were a fun couple. i mean we do so much stuff and its just getting better! i love him with all my heart! wouldnt change a thing! on the other hand it feels like all my friendships are crumbling right in front of my face, but im too caught up in steve to catch any of them..:( i just dont know whats happeing anymore, jordan, andrea, taylor....i dont know anymore! i love you all to death....i just dont have a best friend anymore....and to top it all off i keep thinking of Corbin and how god didnt give him a fair chance in life. i just dont wanna go like he did....too much i need to do. i love u buddy :(. gotta go help me somebody..
BrIe

Hey,
thanx for replying Tanya...yeah i did talk to him and it was great..he said he would wait for me..and i even did a little "test" so to speak, im steve. I think im ready and hes lke are you sure ?cuz i dontw ant you to feel pressured! and im like ...oh alright im not ready :D haha but anyways thanx babe

Im really scared...me and andrea are fighting and i told her what she did was wrong..and i hate being the one to admit things but i miss her to death :'( its not even funny! and she acts like im not even there! :( i dont know what to do because IM NOT APOLOGIZING ...she messed up and she needs to realize that!...i just wanna know how long its going to take.....and to top all that off ^^^^^ im sick and it sucks..i just hope steve will come over after wrestling! :( i really miss him right now...but i gotta go
Lots of LoVe
Breezey

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Hey everybody*
i havent really had time to write all weekend..so many thoughts going through my head. Last night was one of the best nights of my life. Andrea, Joey, Steve, and Heidi stayed the night with me my brother, brent, charlie, and a few other people i didnt recognize..... but me and steve were off most of the night! i dont really remember what happened..but i am just scared that we "fooled around"...and the sad part is i dont remember! we were talking about "the next step" in our relationship..but i dont remember actually doing anything. I love him i really do...its just that if he loves me like he says he does..then he wouldnt mind waiting for me. does that make sence? please somebody help me because i want to be myself with him..i just dont want to lose him. but i dont want to have to do things * sexually * with him just to keep him around! its crazy......
HELP
Brianna

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This weekend by far was the most fun ive ever had~
Friday Steve, Jason, Andrea, and Joey all came over and they stayed the night.....but we were all "under the influence"....of APPLEJUICE haha right andrea? and chocolate??? but they stayed the night and steve and jason had to leave at 7 for wrestling and joey had work at 8.
me and andrea on the other hand woke up around 12 and went to visit joey at TSC.
saturday was very slow for me...i had a real bad headache...

I just found this quiz so please take it!
1. Give me a new nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I loveable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or
staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I
would listen?
20. If there were a movie about my life, who would play me?
21. Who would play you in the movie about my life?
22. Who is my hero?

Thanx everybody! i love u
Brie*

im finally happy again!
Hey everybody~
if you havent heard i finally got my love back- steve. saturday out of the blue he called me and then hes like well the phone is dieing so ill call ya tomorrow....well about a half hour later him and joey came over!!! he said we needed to talk more; so he came over again sunday....then he asked me out and we had a verrrrrrrrrry long talk: monday i went to his house and last night i was there....last night we had a very long talk about love. and i realized that i havent stopped loving him during our "break". i love him with everything i have.. i wrote this for him yesterday:

anything happens..

it was getting late
on that early saturday night
she broke down and cried
because nothing was going right
when she was upstairs
she heard the doorbell ring
she turned the corner
and seen his eyes shining
he said he stopped by
because he was "in the neighborhood"
she'd always wanted him to come back
but never thought he would
we were finally alone
talking face to face
he told her that we should talk
just another time and place
he said he would come back
and the following day there he stood
he looked so perfect
just like she knew he would
he sat far from her
as if he was scared
but he then moved closer
and her heart instantly repaired
not a word said, just looked at her with those eyes
w/ that look that says more than words
it speaks to her of no lies
just looking at each other
she gasped for air
while he slowly thought of what to say
her nervously playing with her hair
he grabbed for her hands,
her heart began to race
he told her he loved her
and nobody could ever take her place
she said that she wanted them to be together
and couldnt handle being just friends
that she wanted to hold him
until the very end
so much rushing through her head
she didnt know what else to do
he looked at her and said
" i havent stopped loving you"
she knew he was waiting for it
and knew that she loved him too
she didnt want him to go away
and didnt know what to do
she shrugged her shoulders
and he glanced at the floor
as he stated:
i want us to be more
she told him she did,
but didnt want to get hurt
thats all thats been happening lately
she always lands in the dirt
but they said they'd be true to one another
and not let anything go wrong
this is what shes waited for
for so long
so he asked her out
and she said yes as you probably know
they ended happy
and either havent let go....tell me what ya'll think
especially you jess* i need an insiders opinion cuz your the only one who knows whats goin through my head i love ya girl! call me okay? well im out now
much love
Breezey*

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Hey everyone,
okay i was having the best weekend...he stayed the night and we just talked until about 4....
Saturday rolls around and the one guy ive waited for to call my name..finally does...he called and said we have to talk and so we did..he was around all his friends and he was talking to me on the telephone. the phone died and he said he would call me tomorrow and i said okay. well about an hour later he comes over and we just hang out like friends..i know what i wanted though....i wanted him very badly.i didnt realize this until last night but i still do ....im just so confused. and hes on his way now........PLEASE HELP ME!

*breezey*

Hey everybody~
yesterday: was a really good day..up until last night. i promised myself i would go to the showing for corbin * R.I.P BUDDY* so i did. i went but it took me 3 times until i finally would go up there! does that make me a bad person? its just that everytime i got close i just thought of everything that happened between us and it made me just wanna run away. and knowing one of my close friends is in the room...and he's never coming back ...but i had keegan and sam and jordan and sam g. helping me through it.

and about my whole guy problems...well i wouldnt call it a problem anymore. i couldnt stop thinking of him..so i finally worked up some courage and wrote him a note asking whats going on between us. he wrote back asking what i wanted to and why he was interested in me and blah blah blah. then at the end he asked why me: why did i pick him of all the guys..and theres alot of reasons why i like him. when im with him~ i feel like its okay to be myself. and for some odd reason he likes me for me! i know crazy right!? and i just like how we kinda "connected". we have lots in common and i feel i can tell him just about anything and i think thats very hard to find in a guy. All I want is a guy who will accept me for who I am. a guy who will understand that at times I will confuse him cuz most of the time i confuse myself. a guy who will understand that im not perfect~ and i make mistakes just like everybody else. a guy who will cheer me up when im sad. a guy that will give me the attention i need but still give me space. a guy who will stand up for me when im not around. but I dont want a guy whos perfect~ just a guy who is perfect for me.

and about the whole jess thing...yeah i am sorry for everything ive said...but i guarentee it i never called you a slut.and everything ive said- was just that i didnt like you- not even hate because i dont hate anyone.but i just thought ide let you kno that i would like it if we were friends..and sorry idk how to take u off my friends list :(
but im out now
much love~ Breezey!

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Hey everyone,
last night was so boring (ZzZzZz) i just had my girl amy over and i was waitin on cory to come get me and he never did and we called amy to babysitt, so she was jus chillen wit me and my family....today i think is gon' be real boring but maybe ill call andrea and cory and mitch and see if we can get somethin goin on but im out
much love
~Brie~

Hey yall
its saturday night and im bored.....amy is over and were kinda babysittin but my ma hasnt left yet..haha wow your a sneaky person "jess" your real cool ..lol i mean it! i love you to death! i didnt on this day but im editing it all out! cuz i love you :D but yeah im out
*Brianna*