Life Is An Ever Changing Road

:: 2007 26 December :: 8.30pm
:: Mood: pissed off

I'm pissed.

one of my friends happened to dissapear, i got an earful from his girlfriend becasue she doesn't have any meds left, doesn't have a car to go get them and has a doctors appointment tomorrow at 10 am.

take care of your shit man, I've had your back before in the past, and you've done a bunch to help me, but your on your own now.

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:: 2007 25 December :: 4.27am

procrastination is wrapping your presents at 4am Christmas morning

thank god i don't have to do that again for another year.

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:: 2007 23 December :: 9.12pm

i don't want to be here tonight, i wanna go do something, but nooooo, i'm guilted into staying home because the roads are bad.

fucking shit man, i'm 21 and my mom is still telling me what to do.
i need to get the fuck out of here.

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:: 2007 23 December :: 7.17pm

my mom wants me to stay home tonight cause the roads are bad.

they arn't that bad.

rayray

:: 2007 22 December :: 12.13pm

So i haven't updated in about a month.
Figured it was time I should.

Still looking for a job.
Christmas is around the corner.
All my shopping is done.
I have christmas with my moms family today at 3.
Christmas with my dads family tomorrow at 1.
Christmas with my dad sometime between now and monday.
Christmas with my mom monday I believe.
Christmas with Paula and Jim and the kids on Monday night Tuesday morning.
And i think that about sums up my christmas' for 2007.

The closer christmas gets, the more exited I get.
And I get to see my sister and my brother in law!

:: 2007 22 December :: 2.14am

for box.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hurt_(song)

oh look, trent reznor wrote it.

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:: 2007 21 December :: 9.15am
:: Mood: calm

Classes were over last week and grades are in. Time to look to next semester. It should be fairly easy. I'm only taking thirteen credit hours so I can have more time to relax (one thing I learned about last semester is that I need time to myself so I don't get so stressed out).

We've moved into our new apartment, which is very nice. It's a four bedroom town house. The main level has a living room, a bathroom and a large kitchen/ dining area. The upstairs has the four bedrooms and another bathroom. We have basic cable and broadband internet, which means I've been watching CNN for the past week and Rueben has been downloading the whole second season of Heroes for us to watch.

I've been working a lot lately, as always. I have thirty seven hours this week and thirty eight next. I help close the store on Christmas eve, and I have to be back at ten am the day after Christmas. I'm not too thrilled about that because that means I have to drive home and back all in one day to spend Christmas with my family.

Rueben's mom came and visited us yesterday. We went out to breakfast at Lil Chef and then went to the Antique's Mall next door. I had to leave for work, but Rueben and his mom continued on and I'm pretty sure he got me my Christmas present(s). As for me, I'm done with my Christmas shopping, and everything is wrapped with many twirly ribbons.

So, I feel like I'm in a limbo; I just sit around until I have to go to work and then I go to work, come home, sleep, repeat. I am sick, though, so that throws a little mucus into the mix. gross.

School starts up in a few weeks, and we'll see what happens.

Michelle

:: 2007 20 December :: 12.03pm

I got my grades!

The one class I was concerned about (because I had missed a large number of classes (due to illness and the fact that it was at 8) and you can only miss four before your grade drops (the prof took attendance EVERY DAY)) turned out great. It didn't drop at all and I know I missed more than four. I'm not complaining about that.

Also, there was another class I was slightly concerned about that my straight-As-friend got a C- in. But even that turned out fine.

So, my lame ass gen ed semester was okay. Next semester is pretty much the same so...excitement. Not.

And that's it.

Rumor has it my mom and I are going to bake cookies and wrap presents and go shopping today. I haven't heard from her yet so I'm going to go call her in a bit. I love shopping and cookies so I want to go as soon as we can.

:: 2007 19 December :: 9.30pm

The kitties. I now totally understand those people who don't have children and baby their pets.

Here are my babies.
Read more..

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:: 2007 19 December :: 1.56pm

Christmas stories
My mom would always tell us stories about how forgetful my grandmother would be sometimes. She'd give us the same gifts two years in a row or think she gave us a present that we never got.

One Christmas, she asked my uncle how he liked his new watch. His only response was "what watch?" She forgot to give it to him and found it in the upstairs closet.

Last year, my mom got my brother a cheese cutting board. He likes cheese and kitchen things. A few days after Christmas, we got a big chunk of cheese and Mom suggested Buddy use his new cheese board to cut it. He sort of just gave me and Mom blank looks and said "I didn't get anything like that."

Mom and I exchanged looks and I laughed at her, bringing up the story she always told about my grandma. We searched everywhere for that darn cheese board. I was there when she bought it, it was heavy enough that I remember putting it in the car.

She finally found it in her bedroom closet.

:: 2007 18 December :: 12.50pm

The grades are in:
Nature of Language : A-

Literature of Non-Western Culutures : A

Foundations of Communication Theory : A

Public Speaking : A

University Band : A

Acting I : A

I'm quite proud of myself for doing that and working thirty hours a week.

But still...

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:: 2007 17 December :: 2.42pm

tonight, the HH christmas party :D

:: 2007 16 December :: 9.41pm

[21:40] [skife] i want sex
[21:40] [Saria] haha
[21:40] [Saria] yeah me too
[21:40] [Saria] dammit :|
[21:40] [Dan] FINE, FUCK EACHOTHER

why i love IRC

:: 2007 16 December :: 3.05am

hmmm, not thinking about much right now.

:: 2007 15 December :: 3.32pm

The best thing I've read in a long time. It gave me goosebumps.

This is what I want for Christmas. I can't decide which would be better, reading the book or listening to that wonderful radio voice reading it to me.

:: 2007 14 December :: 2.07am

i'm pissed right now.
really pissed.
i have been for the past 3 days.
not sure why
its getting to me

little things set me off.
stupid things

i just want certin people to leave me alone
not happening though.

:: 2007 13 December :: 9.51pm

WHEN TALKING TO OR ABOUT KYLE IT MUST BE DONE IN ALL CAPS.

THIS IS NOW LAW.

I am done with my exams. The cat is awesome. The Baron is jealous.

If any peeps wanna hang, holla.

:: 2007 13 December :: 1.26pm

This is the worst paper ever.

[edit] I'm on my sixth page and half way done.

:: 2007 13 December :: 9.42am

The semester will be done as soon as I write an eight page paper for my Latin American Literature class and submit it online. I haven't even started yet, and it's due by midnight.

I ended up working a ten hour shift last night. It was absolutely horrible. I was suppose to work from one to nine-thirty, but the lady who was suppose to work from five to eleven called in. So, not only did I work from one to eleven, I was alone at the service desk from seven on...which, during the holiday season, is not a pleasant experience.

I got home and my legs were killing me! But, I took a soak, and all was well.

I also got my secret santa gift from, my Kappa Kappa Psi Brother, at work last night. We had a holiday party (that I missed because of work), but Sara brought my gift to Meijer for me. She gave me fuzzy socks, chocolate, homemade fudge and lotion. The chocolate and socks helped me to get through the rest of my night!

Anyway, off I go to start organizing and writing. Wish me luck!

Michelle

:: 2007 12 December :: 11.58pm

We are getting a new cat tomorrow. He gets fixed tomorrow and then I will be picking him up after work.

If he doesn't die. ha ha jk jk

His name is Nick (ha ha ha ha). This name will be changed (it is, ironically, Nick's turn to name the cat.)

I have talked to The Baron about this so he knows he's getting a younger brother and he needs to be nice to him.

These cats are like our children.

WARNING: CAT PRIVATE PARTS. I would censor it but we're all adults here.

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:: 2007 10 December :: 11.43pm

you know, i don't mind doing favors for friends, i actually enjoy them.

But, when you never ever help me with anything....

don't ask me to give your friend a ride somewhere espically when;

1.) We don't hang out much at all
2.) You've known this guy for like a week
3.) you told me the reason he needs a ride because he's running from the cops
4.) you wouldn't do the same for me

also, when i tell you that i won't do it grow the fuck up and don't get pissed at me for you asking me to do something illeage.

also, grow the fuck up.

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:: 2007 10 December :: 12.33pm

I totally cannot remember the password to my icon journal. Bummer. Not that it really matters but I have heard outcries and grumbles.

In other news, we may get another cat today. More on this developing story coming up during Newz at 11 here on WRHG.

:: 2007 10 December :: 3.15am

i can never seem to make up my mind on anything.

except i want feety pajamas

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:: 2007 9 December :: 4.08pm
:: Mood: busy

We're packing and I still feel like it's morning. Rueben went to go get my car from Don and Steve's apartment, and I'm taking a break from going through things.

After I got out of work last night I met Rueben at Don and Steve's and had a few. We ended up staying up the whole night talking and then went to Lil' Chef at 6:30. Then, Rueben and I came home and went to bed. Lil' Chef is six doors down from our apartment, so Steve drove to breakfast and we walked home. Rueben's gone to get my car, which has banana boxes in it from work so we can start packing. We also need to go do laundry.

I've realized that final exams week (starting tomorrow!) is actually going to be a relatively easy week, at least compared to what I'm use to. I have one big exam per day, and an eight page paper due on Thursday, but I think I'll be just fine. I could skip the exam in most of my classes and still pass with a C or higher, so I'm in good shape.

We're moving on Friday and I've started sorting through our food and planning what we need to eat until then. I still need to go start packing my room, and, of course, clean.

But I don't really understand why I should clean, they're just going to knock our building down anyway. But...I want my money back, so I'll do it.

I'm going to miss our little apartment...but our new one has a huge kitchen, a dishwasher, and Jessie.

"We'll get through somehow, this is only temporary/ Not now, but soon/ We'll be living in the future."

I love the radio.

1010101

:: 2007 8 December :: 5.23am

Alright, so I typically hate short vague entries, but right now there is simply no way I can detail everything going through my head right now. Maybe I'll try in a bit here. Anyhow, at the moment, I am pissed, so if I say anything stupid, please forgive me. Anyhow, the sum of my thoughts seems to be: I hate this year so fucking much, and I want it to rot in hell. Now many people throw that phrase around loosely, but in this case I mean it to the full extent. Nothing has gone right, everything keeps going to shit, every light at the end of each long shitty tunnel turns out to be a fucking floodlight some asshole left running (oh, and it promptly turns off before I can make use of it), and everytime I feel like things can't get any more stressful, they plummet further into a bog of shit.

What am I stressed about, well, allow me to make an attempt to outline things:

1. I'm changing my major to psych, but I can't seem to get an appointment with my future advisor to discuss what classes I need to take and how to handle the transition.

2. I don't know where I'm living next year. I don't want to be in the dorms anymore. I'm sick of them, they cost as much as an apartment and you live in a poorly kept up closet. I found a possible roommate, but he doesn't want to move into an apartment.

3. I have finals next week

4. I may have failed my software design class. It won't count towards my major, but nonetheless it would be a horrible blight upon my GPA and really bad way to end the year.

5. I'm going to have to work at meijer when I get back home.

6.My love life is a mess (subpoints listed below, everyone grab your notepads)
-I like one girl, I believed that she liked me. She reveals this to me by kissing me before heading off to Japan for a study abroad trip. I decide to hold off on starting a relationship with her until she gets back. I figure if she still feels the same way, then we can date. I found out today from a friend of mine that she is apparently "going to put the moves on" her 'psuedo boyfriend'. Ugh I keep thinking I had to have misheard. Maybe I'm losing it or something. Maybe it's just a dumb fling. Anyhow the only other girl I have a crush on is:
-I like this other girl, she's had a boyfriend for 5 years and he seems kind of lame. Naturally I can't help but think "I could do a better job than him." Still, I think I may just be behaving dumb. They're obviously together for a reason, and I can't compete with it. I'm okay with that. However:
-if there is no possibility with either girl. I am back to square one. Screwed. I'm a 20 year old virgin who hasn't had a real girlfriend since Junior year of high school. Maybe I'm picky, maybe I'm unlucky. Either way, I feel so fucking lonely right now it's insane.
-there's another girl. She says she's loved me for 3 years. I just can't seem to return those feelings. I talked with her not too long ago because I had no one else to talk with. I just had one hell of a guilt trip laid on me. Um, did I mention that we've had sort of an off and on friends with benefits situation going for the last few years? Yeah, that complicates things further and adds to the stress more. Whee.

-not really my love life, but: I'm currently setting two of my friends up as a couple. They're extremely cute and I envy them horribly.

7. I'm trying to write my novel again. It was going well until now.

8. I have to read two novels by next friday for one of my exams.

9. Earlier this week I had a few panic attacks, and I think I may be having one now.

I basically...
...feel...
...shitty.

I'm shivering, though I'm not cold. I may have cried a bit, though that may just be my eyes watering from lack of sleep (I've been a bit of an insomniac lately). If I did cry, that's the only time I've cried in my adult life. The last time I cried before then was in elementary school.

So anyone have any thoughts? I think I may go sleep now.

If you read this all, thanks, and sorry about the annoyingly angsty entry.

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:: 2007 7 December :: 8.53pm

We're going to see The Golden Compass tonight. I'm very nervous about it and I don't know if I want to see it.

It's my favorite sci-fi book series and I just don't want it to be ruined.

Nick keeps saying that the book will stay the same but it won't. Now I'll forever see those actors when I read the books.

I am, however, excited for the second one. Real excited about how they portray both the knife and the seams in space/time.

End.

:: 2007 5 December :: 2.32am

new AIM:

CedarCreekPirate

:: 2007 4 December :: 9.54pm

bordem.

[21:15] [skife] boo?
[21:15] [jeff] aaaaa.
[21:15] [skife] bbbbb.
[21:18] [Jeff] ccccc?
[21:18] * skife claps
[21:26] * Jeff glares

:: 2007 4 December :: 1.18pm
:: Mood: awake

Today is my 20th birthday. I feel quite old, but know that I'm still one of the youngest people I know. How does that happen?

I guess I'm finally caught up to myself. People have been guessing that my age was 20 since I was 16.

I'm not about to do a year in review, I don't have enough time or motivation for that, but I will take a moment to make a few general statements for posterity sake (or so I say).

I'm a sophomore in college now, and that has made me a stronger, better person. Being a Brother in Kappa Kappa Psi has made me part of something larger than myself, and that's always something I had felt I was missing.

In the past year, I have become more liberal than ever, even toying with the idea of Socialism in the form of Democracy.

Unfortunately, I only watched Mrs. Doubtfire about 12 times (that's only once a month!)

I have met some amazing people that recognize me for who I am, and can understand that I am different people sometimes.

I have grown more responsible, less fearful, but more worried.

But, above all, I am here, and I made it, and that's something that I didn't think would ever happen four years ago, today.