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m&ms487

:: 2007 28 August :: 4.40pm

16 credit hours + Fraternity + 20 hr/wk work = overwhelming?

I had to pretend to forge through strawberry jello in my acting class.


I want strawberry jello now.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 27 August :: 11.04am

I overslept and missed my first class so I shall use this opportunity to do what I always do, talk about my classes.

I had 17 credits this semester but I just dropped a class so now I'm down to 14. This semester is pretty much just catching up on requirements.

On Mondays and Thursdays, I have Earth Environments at 10:50. This class seems exactly like my 9th grade science class. The professor is married to my fourth grade teacher. It's like a timewarp. That's the one I missed this morning.

I also have Intro to Communication at 12:15. This is a requirement so I don't really care. I'm trying to see if I can avoid buying the book at all. It's going well so far. I just wrote a min 2 page paper last night that turned into 4 pages.

After that I had a French class. I dropped it. Gasster taught it, not Pichot and her idea of contemporary Francophone literature was African colonization books from the fifties to the eighties. It was horrible. Plus the books were very difficult.

Then tonight I have Image Editing. It's my only fun class. It is way too easy. During the first class, we changed a picture to grayscale! And that was our assignment.

Tuesdays, I have Humanities at 8am. I have it with McMillan who is pretty much the easiest prof at AQ. This is another required class. It's actually a sophomore required class that I didn't take last year because of stupid France.

Then I have my lab at 1:40. He says we'll watch movies and walk along streams. That's as hard as that class gets really. The walking.

Tuesday nights I have my first quad. It's Theology of Christian Marriage and it is with the hardest theo prof. Yay for me. It runs from 6:30-10:30. My first paper, due tomorrow, is supposed to be 5 pages of what I expect marriage to be like. It is going to be a lot of blabbing.

Wednesdays I don't have any classes. I just work.

Thursdays are just like Mondays except I don't have Theology.

And on Friday, all I have is Humanities and then I work.

I work on Tuesdays and Thursdays too.

So yeah. This semester sucks. I have to give two TAPED speeches eventually in my communication class. It shouldn't be too bad. It is a required course so most people should be able to get As.

I'm going to go try to find clothes now. I love you all.

P.S. Nick's grandmother isn't doing very well. Please think happy thoughts for her. Thanks.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 26 August :: 6.22am

The earth is still.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 26 August :: 6.41am

I can't wait until I'm 21. Then I'll be a real adult and get to go to any concert. I'll be past all stupid age limits. Ha ha, world, I scoff at your attempts to foil my plans!

I should go to bed now. It's actually almost 3. Not 7.

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rayray

:: 2007 26 August :: 12.26am

Thursday my friend Katelyn had her baby. I am way excited because I get to see her tomorrow!!

I also went to see Ally and her pregnant belly today.
I cannot wait until she has her baby..

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m&ms487

:: 2007 24 August :: 10.12pm

The job is going better. I've gotten over most of the ackward phase where you're not sure exactly where you fit in and who acts like what. They only gave me three days next week, which is fine because i have sixteen credit hours this semester. I'm looking forward to staying busy.

It's been really hot out and the apartment doesn't cool off easy at night, so even though it's seventy out right now, it's still eighty five in here...but there are fans, which help.

It's about time to go to bed; I have to work in the morning. I fall asleep to the sound of sirens and tires hitting the pavement: my own genre of urban music.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 24 August :: 5.40pm

What is the worst thing that I could ever see?


A beaver.

It was on the corner of E Beltline and Burton. It looked exactly like those stupid pictures and videos except its tail was brown and not cross-hatched. He was hanging out in a ditch on the side of the road by some marshy area.

Hannah says the government discovered that I was on to them and sent a robot to convince me.

I think she's right.

P.S. Changed my background. It's a picture I took in Venice. Sigh. I miss Europe.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 23 August :: 7.31pm

A STORY!
I took my first ride from a stranger. It was like inadvertent hitchhiking.


I was on the bus and it started sprinkling a little bit and then, out of nowhere, POURED. I got off the bus and the driver suggested I take a schedule to use as a makeshift umbrella. I did. I walked five steps and my pants were soaked. I don't even know what my backpack is like, I should probably go air it out.

I got to E Beltline and the light just turned red so I had to wait. I was standing in the rain for maybe 15 seconds when a car pulled up and the driver started talking to me. It was a kind of old car and there were two kids in the back. He asked me how far I had to go, I said only down E Beltline. He offered me a ride and I accepted.

Maybe only Kelly will understand why I did this. It was raining, I was soaked, wearing a very light tank top and jeans, the light was red, I still had 479 yards to walk (1,437 feet) and I did not get any apprehensive/creepy feelings at all. Which is unusual for me because I worry about everything. He had two kids in the backseat, I had my cell phone and plenty of heavy books with which to whack him.

I got home fine and was filled with warm fuzzies about very kind people. People rock, the world is good, the end.

Now I have to wait until Nick gets home to get lectured.

I love you all.

P.S. I also have been overpaying for my bus rides and the bus driver was kind enough to point it out. She said that AQ students only pay 40 cents and the 10-ride card is basically 80 cents a ride. I only had a ten dollar bill so she said I can just pay twice tomorrow instead of overpaying. People are awesome!

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sugarjackj

:: 2007 23 August :: 1.45pm

I'm all moved in. Everything is wonderful. I have to go get books tomorrow and registir for two more classes.

And I got my ticket for QotSA!!!!!!!!!!
They are going to be at the Orbit Room, so its sure to be an amazing concert!!
:D

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angel_bob

:: 2007 22 August :: 7.11pm

You guys are too depressed. Smile. Be happy happy happy.

And breathe.

I love you all.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 22 August :: 2.08pm

It was warm out today. Too warm. Fark news: Redheads may become extinct because of global breeding (rueben says it's old, but I still find it disheartening).

My kind is going extinct. oh noes!

We went and bought our books today. It was upsetting. Just about three hundred for me, four for rueben.

At least my acting class doesn't have a book.

Miners? Yeah, they're definately dead by now.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 20 August :: 9.26am

OMG FRIST DAY OF SCOOL DON"T MAK ME GO!!! kthx

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m&ms487

:: 2007 20 August :: 8.29am

I haven't disappeared into the chasm known only as mt. pleasant. I'm here. really. I just don't have internet because my apartment apparently has wireless and my computer is too old to do that.


First day of work went well. the apartment is great. lonely, but rueben will be here soon.


I thought i had a lot more to say. i certainly did when i was thinking in the shower this morning...

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angel_bob

:: 2007 18 August :: 12.56pm

Do any of you guys cut hair or know someone who does? I need a haircut but I don't want to pay a billion dollars for one.

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sugarjackj

:: 2007 17 August :: 12.00pm
:: Music: Yeah Yeah Yeahs

I think I got asked on a date last night. My roomie thinks so too. So what did I do? I went shopping. I don't have time for dates *eye roll*

Today is my last day at work. I have to admit, one of my favorite parts of this job is my title. It just sounds offical. (I'm Jackie Robinson. I am a Marketing Intern for Skanska, a Worldwide Construction Management Company.)

I move in 5 days. I have yet to pack. I'm not worried though, I packed everything in one night last year. I paid my ticket, my phone bill, my credit card, and tuition(kind of). I'm ready for school. Nevrous for classes, but ready to start.

Yes.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 16 August :: 7.47pm

I think I added you, Jason.


My Wii number for those who want awesome:
3465 2007 0016 5828


And you know you want awesome.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 16 August :: 12.33am

I think Zelda:Twilight Princess is the most satisfying game, both ending and playwise. There's nothing at the end about resetting time like nothing happened. And you still get to deflect magic balls with your sword! (note to me: try bottle) And Midna's smokin' hot.

I half expected Ganon to be up there conducting an orchestra the way that music was. It was awesome. (he'd turn around and be all Uh... ... what? then a concussion blast turns them to dust. (the orchestra))

Time to collect 30 or so poes and more heart pieces.

I love you all.

P.S. Typed this all on the Wii. It was a major pain.
P.P.S. Want to be WiiFriends? I have Voldemort. And Jesus. And Buddha. And Mr. T. And Christina Ricci. And Hitler.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 15 August :: 12.22pm
:: Mood: complacent

Change is upon us.

I leave on Friday to move into my apartment in Mt. Pleasant. Classes start on the twenty seventh, Wheatland is the weekend of the seventh, the shower is before my brother's wedding which is on the thirteenth of October.

Then comes my parent's moving.

When I come back for Christmas, I'll have a new house in a new place. Actually, it'll just be the place I'm staying until I move on again.

All the lists and the planning in the world can't quench my anxiety.

I'm happy that Rueben and I will be living together. It'll be nice to be with someone I can get along with.

Oh, what am I doing? Rambling on like this? Another symptom of my anxiety, I guess. I have to go pack. I'm behind. And I have a dentist appointment in an hour and a half.

Here I go, out into the world/ Looking, searching, for something to/ Hold Onto.

Michelle

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m&ms487

:: 2007 13 August :: 3.02pm

Odd moods. Misaligned Chakra, or something? Not sure.


I have lots of packing to do. I wish I didn't have so much stuff.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 11 August :: 2.16pm

Did I ever tell you about that time we were in Prague?

We were in Staromestske Square during the week of Easter and there was a festival. Along with various food stands, there was a stage where multiple groups of schoolchildren performed acts ranging from line-dancing to recorder-playing.

This group was my favorite. They wore yellow t-shirts and sunglasses while they sang a song in English.

The lyrics:
"...here to stay
Your body is a wonderwall to touch
I want you so bad,
Want you so much
Your body is a wonderwall to touch
I want you so bad,
Want you so much..."

The video:
Read more..

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rayray

:: 2007 10 August :: 4.16pm
:: Mood: Enraged.

If you thought your day was bad..
What needs to change:
While you do work hard, it has been observed for some time that instead of being respectful and helpful to your co-workers, you have been a major contributor to a hostile, judgemental and difficult work environment. Belittling, jabbing comments as well as rough handling of equipment and passing of material are just few examples of behavior that must stop. While you may argue about others not going enough, it is not much different than what you were able to do when you first started. You have also exhibited these types of behaviors with people not even in your work cell.

It was hoped that discussing these issues, you would take an honest look at yourself and look for ways to improve the situation. Unfortunately, right after this conversation, the same negative behaviors were displayed.

Why this is a concern
These types of behaviors are contrary to the values of GRC and undermine the teamwork required to achieve the highest of overall results. Your condescending and hostile behavior towards others is consuming several people's times on these issues and making work difficult for others on a daily basis.

What results are expected
Everyone who comes to work should expect to be treated respectfully and professionally. When issues or problems arise, we should be honest and look for ways to solve the problem and find was to achieve the highest overall result. When new people come into GRC, rather than belittling them, you should be making them feel welcomed and help them perform their job better. This may mean doing more than your share initially until they learn how to do the job efficiently.

What happens next
You need to aware that creating a hostile work environment can begrounds for immediate termination. If we do not see a dramatic difference in your behavior, termination of employment will be the immediate consequence for you.


That is a letter I recieved from the HR Director. Shannon recieved the same letter. So after reading that you'll understand how my day went. As most of you may know I have had a problem with Christine for awhile now. Things have never escalated to the point where she felt the need to tell our supervisor every little detail of every conversation. Im not trying to make myself sound better than her, or be immature and childish about any of this. However, I do not appreciate her jumping down my throat for supposedly copping an attitude. I was simply stating a true fact, and she blew up at me. It is not my fault she misconstrued that situation as well as when Stacy and Shannon hashed it out, after Stacy tried hashing it out with me. I am in no place to point fingers, because I am guilty of being rude, and judgemental. I also do not appreciated Christine telling Shannon when she first started that she better not let me meet her boyfriend because I would try and steal him. Also that I was trying to come between a supposed love affair between Brandon and Angel. I do not know where she got any of that. (For the record, and Im pretty sure all of you realize that I am very at home with Mike. I do not need another man. And I wouldn't be a susie-homewrecker and try to break people up. If people at work are having a love affair, that is their business.) I am not guilty of talking behind their backs because whatever I have to say, I willingly say it to their faces. I have a spine, and Im not going to back down. I don't lay down helpless to be kicked. I may have done that once upon a time, however things have changed.

I do not know where they got that I belittle the new hires, when the only person on the line I have said was slow, was Christine. And thats because she's been there 3 years, and still cannot keep up. When I started working there, I was told the first day by the supervisor that gossip was not tolerated, and if I didn't make rate after a certain amount of time, I would be let go. What happened to those policies?

Also, I am not offended easily, nor disturbed. But when I hear things come from Christines mouth about how her 11 year old daughter wants to get her clit pierced. Or how she found a used condom in her 13 year old daughters backpack. Or how her 17 year old sons girlfriend has a smelly pussy. I am very offended and disturbed. It is uncalled for, true or not, to say those things in the workplace. Especially about your own kids.

And trust me, I have tried telling my supervisor all of this, and it obviously hasn't gotten me anywhere. I am all out of ideas.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 8 August :: 7.25pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: Pretty Baby - Vanessa Carlton

It's amazing how some make up, music, and clothes can put me in a good mood. I was rummaging through my closet looking for 'lost clothes' - clothes that i haven't worn in a long time, but still like. I couldn't find any, so i decided pull out my luggage that's been in there since i got back from college this spring...and i found it full of clothes that i forgot about! And it's all cute stuff, too, and, i tried on some pants that didn't fit in april, but fit now! (even though I'm bloated to the gills). I didn't really gain any weight when I went to college, but i've lost about ten pounds this summer, so all my stuff fits a lot better! AND I put on make up and covered up my zit that comes every month from hormones and trimmed and shaped my eye brows and curled my hair a little while listening to some up beat music and I FEEL HAPPY!

I know, girly stuff. Ew.

In other news, I painted my old night stand/ small bookshelf silver and wrote quotations about books on the sides and top of it in black permanent marker. It looks really awesome, and the great part is that the words cover up the horrible paint job. I realized that 1. I'm bad with spray paint and 2. I didn't get enough. Oh well, it's done now, and it's not john deere yellow anymore, thank god.

I talked to a Brother from the frat last night and got a little anxious and guilty about an upcoming project, but I feel better now that I realize that I didn't do anything bad, and now, after thinking on it a bit, I realize that it's not so terrible, or difficult, or terribly diffcult, or rather, not as much as i supposed it to be earlier.

I'm excited for the next couple weeks. Transitions! I'm leaving my Meijer, moving into my first REAL apartment, and starting up at a new Meijer with new people and new drama and new everything. I'm really happy with the classes that i'm signed up for, and really excited about band again. AHHH!

Michelle

[edit] This happy entry brought to you curtesy of off-brand midol.

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skife

:: 2007 8 August :: 10.56am

sooo,

update?

good things since last update:
Jen
21'st birthday
new job at goodyear on alpine

Bad things:
truck needs more parts/money
i havn't updated alot
i'm sorry.

have a nice day.

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jedibumblebee

:: 2007 7 August :: 6.21pm

happy anniversa-ree, to mee

I cut all my hair off in celebration of my monogamy

Read more..

Please ignore the less-than-thrilled look on my face.

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sugarjackj

:: 2007 7 August :: 10.11am

Roscoe invited me to go see Hot Rod with Dan, Jasper, Jeff and Julie. I thought it was really funny. Dumb. But funny. I almost peed myself when I saw QOTSA. Roscoe was like "How in the hell did you even know it was them?!" :D They looked like some crazy 80's band. It made my day.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 6 August :: 1.32pm
:: Mood: cold

Back to the simplest terms: listing
Things I hate:

Wasting ten minutes of my life arguing with a moronic, toothless old woman about the price of cheese she thought was on sale, but wasn't.

People who do a rolling stop at stop signs.

People who go before me when it's my turn at a four way stop.

People who pass me when I'm going the speed limit.

People who do the last three things within two minutes.

Feeling restless and uncertain.

Hot weather.

Going to work for a four hour shift.

I think that's it, for now.

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rayray

:: 2007 3 August :: 11.31pm

I haven't posted anything in here for a little while now. Partly because I am completely tapped on anything I want to say. I have done enough communicating lately that I have nothing left to vent. However, the tables have turned. I am frustrated and confused. I feel like I'm being selfish on all that is going on. But its the only thing that feels right. I just wish things were different. I don't even know where to begin.

I dont understand why I can't just forget the fact that she's my mother. I don't understand anything she does. I don't get why I try. I don't get why no matter how hard I try to avoid her, or how many times I say I hate over there, I end up there. I always leave pissed off, or this time, crying because Im so upset. Its because of things I witness, things that are said or things that are done. I don't get why I can't come to terms with the fact that my mother is an alcoholic that smokes pot and prefers men over her children no matter how hard she tries to say otherwise. I have a hard time trying not to care. I do so good for awhile, and then I break because i feel bad. I hate how I can be so cold and act like no one around me exsists, yet Im always worrying about everyone. I always have something big on my mind, and I get stressed out. I honestly, do not understand my mother. At all. I truly do not understand her. And she doesn't understand me. She doesn't realize that she has hurt me.

For instance, tonight I was over there washing my car, and spending time with her, like she has wanted to do for a couple of weeks now, and Joe shows up. Granted I new he was going to come over to get rid of the bat(s) she had. Anyway, she basically ignored the fact that I was there, and made plans for her, Joe and his friend to all go back to his place. After Joe's friend asked if I wanted to come out there, she spoke up and said "oh yeah, you can go if you want". And then rushed me out.

Not to mention the fact that earlier in the week, she invited my brother to go over to my grandma's to pick out what he wanted out of her stuff, but not I. Not the one who she had just spoke with on the phone. She is giving some of my grandmothers things to Joe. She knows that I'd like a few things that belonged to my grandmother and also they were things that she knows I have said I needed for my apartment.. Apparently, I do not rate, but here I go feeling sorry for myself.

I find it quite hard to believe that the only thing that keeps me sane, the one and only thing that I didn't ever think I'd have, is the only thing that makes sense in my life day after day. I have found happiness with him. I love him entirely and I honestly would go crazy without him.

In good news, my brother-in-law is going to be a Cop. (I believe that is what my mother said. It was hard to comprehend anything she was saying).

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angel_bob

:: 2007 3 August :: 8.58pm

I realize now that we need measuring cups.

I can't convert cups to tablespoons forever.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 3 August :: 3.53pm

I can't wait until school starts and I actually have order in my life. Work is so crazy. My hours aren't set in stone and I hate that. I like something to work toward and I can't when working toward noon turns into five.

And I can't wait to take normal English-speaking classes again. I have two night classes for the first time so I hope that turns out okay. I never wanted to take a night class but both these classes are ones that I really want.



In other news, I love Canada. "Look, this isn't the 15th century. You can't go around the world and just plant flags and say 'We're claiming this territory.'" - Canadian Foreign Minister PETER MacKAY dismissing any threat to Canadian sovereignty in the Arctic after Russia planted a flag on the seabed beneath the North Pole.

"By comparison, Canada is a tension-free place." - JACK JEDWAB, director of the Association for Canadian Studies, explaining the increased number of Americans moving to Canada, which hit a 30-year high last year with discontent over the Iraq war and American politics.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 1 August :: 8.09pm

I am riding the bus home from work because we only have one car.

Let me tell you, the GR buses are awesome. The bus drivers are nice and it's clean and easy to use. The bus talks and says what stop is coming up next.

Plus , today was an Ozone Action Day so the buses were free. Tomorrow is one too. Apparently, they are running free on the first 10 Ozone Action Days this year. I think that's awesome and they should advertise it more.


Anyway, I don't know if you ever have had or will ever have the opportunity to ride the buses in GR but I highly recommend it.

I love you all.

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