**...It was an honest mistake...**

:: 2004 25 May :: 7.49pm
:: Mood: drained

so tutoring finale went fine--tear--haha i thought i wasnt going to get a card and David gives me a louis vuitton wallet. lmao.

i hate stupid things that you just want to know in order to make an observation about someone, and it's not a big deal but you just want to know.

and i hate random global tests and being exhausted.

i also hate that overwhelming fear of the future and everything it will come with, because you know that every year you have horrible moments of pain and emotional distress and you just wish they didnt have to come but you know they will and you fear which form they'll come in and how bad they'll be.

but i love looking at yearbooks and imagining what our senior year is going to be like. Who will be dating who...who will be friends...who won't...the thought of all of the memories i have just being combined and our grade just leaving is extremely frightening, overwhelming and satisfying at the same time. i cant wait til were seniors. i cant wait to culminate 13 years of our lives together...as much drama as there is it's just going to be so liberating. but im also dreading it entirely. im sorry this is extremely random and um...early, but i just was thinking about it.

well thanks for reading my random thoughts, ill stop blabbering now. i suppose im delirious from lack of sleep.

much love<33

:: 2004 23 May :: 2.00pm
:: Mood: recumbent

oh sit
its been quite the interesting weekend. little dolly, oh geez. had a little 6th grade style fun with elise last night.

oliver is back, he's so cute, but it makes me realize that im so much more of a cat person.

yes and eliz i know what you mean about the peer leadership--it makes me crazy too. i dont think anything could describe it better than cliche. and while i love the girls who got picked and they're all my friends and i dont hold it against them, i really dont, it's still very frustrating and discouraging to now try other things like a-school when they dont take chances on people and stick with the obvious.

yes and ive realized how overacheiving people here are, and most of the time its not their fault, it's just the standard here that everything you do must be for college... i think im sort of in the middle...my face doesnt explode when someone talks about their college resume but i do get annoyed after a while. and i wont just give in and play a sport or do some club that i dont want to do just for college. you have to have a sense of yourself and what you like to do. while i do have a sense of my future and do things partly for college and what not, i think some people just take it a little too far. i honestly dont have anyone specific in mind but i see these conversations out there. you're life will go on if you dont get into ap euro or honors english, i promise it will. but generally i dont care if people are obsessive over it. it's not my problem or life and i understand the pressure and expectations. people just have to continue to remember that there are things that are much more important. people lose sight of that.

end of school is approaching and something about it is just very blissful i feel like ive changed a lot...i have a lot to say about this year but im planning on saving that for a nice big chunker post in a couple weeks when school is over. its hard to put into words but i have a lot to say.

it's really bizarre to see Alfonso Soriano in a Ranger's jersey. It's sort of sad. It's actually really sad.

hmm in like 2 weeks finals will be like 2 days away...i think i should start studying. or do my homework or go for a run.

nah.

i'll watch the yankee game or go to the mall instead. why not? you're only 14 once.

much love<33

3 HoLLeRr.. | ..HoLLa BacKks..

:: 2004 18 May :: 9.14pm
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: the reason...

you wouldn't TEASE a girl would you???
hmm since no one has updated maybe i'll get something going...

not much is happening--im so excited i did so well on global. School is being extra-tedious though. I need it to just shhh. I can't decide a lot of things about school, idk how to explain it but it's like hard to figure out if it's been easy, hard, long short, fun, horrible...it's odd.

wow its like excruciatingly irritating for me how much Diana from American Idol NEEDS to die her hair brown. It's like killing me.

kind of upset hamptons has been postponed so many times...Ollie is coming this weekend yay and were babysittig for a couple weeks...niiice.

I'm really getting sick of school. I'm just so incredibly excited for summer. It's gonna be fab.

just 14 days of school + finals...can't wait for all of my spring festivities.

...<3

:: 2004 16 May :: 9.08pm
:: Mood: delirious
:: Music: bsb~i want it that way

Warm Spring Sunday Night...thank God for these
Woke up from a nap a little while ago, still slightly disheveled, plus i have that ew-after-a-nap taste in my mouth yack.

i love how spoiled my cat is. she's downstairs chomping away at peter luger's filet mignon (yeah im not kidding) and i had like a hot dog for dinner. sigh.

weekend was nice. yankee game muy fun today.

16 days of classes left--holy smokes...can't frickin believe it. I hope that the workload isn't crazy these last weeks...I just want to be able to enjoy it all. I don't think I'm doing as well this quarter as last...but whatev.

so that's it..hope everyone had a nice weekend..

..<3Gabs

1 HoLLeRr.. | ..HoLLa BacKks..

:: 2004 15 May :: 10.55am
:: Mood: satisfied
:: Music: yankee replay

Something to think about...
"People take different roads seeking fulfilliment and happiness. Just because they're not on your road doesn't mean they've gotten lost."

Amen.

:: 2004 13 May :: 6.52pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: spice girls~move over

AUGUST:
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave
and fearless.
Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to
console others. Too generous
and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty
for praises.
Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when
provoked. Easily jealous.
Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly.
Independent thoughts. Loves
to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in
the arts, music and
defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance
against illnesses. Learns
to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and
caring. Loves to make
friends .

What does your birth month say about you?
brought to you by Quizilla

interesting...i'd say maybe 50% of those are true. Some are way off though. For example, I am not egotistical or do not seek praises at all.

Week's gone by pretty fast...managed to get a nice, oh, 3 people mad at me today. Went to the baseball game, slightly frustrated because of someone's desicion to LEAVE in the middle of the game ahh!, almost got killed by a ball haha.

Finally gave in and went to Coldstone.

Hmmm...Global test was alright. it's been crazy hot lately i cant deal. i wish it were friday--i wish that i didnt have such a shitty friday coming up. ergh.

what else? excited for the weekend, party, yankee game sunday.

hold it down feel the noise
let em know its a fight pick it up its alive
hold it down feel the noise
let em know its a fight pick it up its alive
move over yeah dont do it over
yeah yeah yeah
cos its over yeah yeah yeah dont do it over
generation x
yeah yeah generation x
next phase next stage next craze
let me tell u about a thing gotta put it to the test, its a celebration motivation generation
were sowin the seed every color ever creed
speak never preach listen up and take heed
take the heat feel the flow cos were ready to fight and were ready to go
move over yeah dont do it over
generation x
yeah yeah generation x

^are u feeling the nostalgia?

i think it's time for another spice girl concert...yes i think it's just about time.

girl power<33

:: 2004 10 May :: 4.28pm
:: Music: spice girls

i love all these beautiful signs--i really do--i love how it helps me get up in the morning--but i hate it because it sucks. but it doesn't.

omg i just was given a driving lesson--i pulled the car out of the driveway and parked it on the street--wayyy hot. and i didnt kill anybody. nice.

had a very impt. lunch period (wow, lunch important? ha) today that made me realize some things that i was doubting.

cousin's here for the night which makes me happy.

you guys suck at updating :(

ciao

:: 2004 8 May :: 7.19pm

last night was fun...today was fun too...lax and then omg me and stacey found our new obsession: edgemont baseball ahhh. i <3 it.

mean girls=so good. i dont know anyone that mean but i found it particularly realistic when they were all talking on the phone and telling the other ones what they each said about eachother--yeah, that needs to stop.

hmm...what else? i freaking hate how im in a woohu dry spell these days...if i feel the urge ill do a nice big post tomorrow.

<33 Ciao

:: 2004 5 May :: 5.45pm
:: Mood: satisfied
:: Music: Sweet Dreams~Annie Lennox

CinCo de MayO! AndaLe!
Hey ya'll--sorry haven't written in a while (well, a while for me and my woohu)

Things are getting better. Wednesdays SUCK...they really do. i hate them.

I'm LOVING it:
~the red sox are on a 5 game losing streak
~yanks had a come-from-way-behind win last night and have won their last 7!
~O.C. TONIGHT!
~This cd mix Stacey made me--I love listening to a cd and not worrying that bad song is gonna come on. I love all this good music!!! Ahhhh!
~Hamptons this weekend

So i'ts not too many but it's better than nada. of course there are a few bad things i could name but why waste my time on worrying about the bad things in life. and it's never THAT bad. well...it can be, but not really.

having a nice family outing tonight...hope my parents stop making fun of my "alcoholism." it's really quite cruel. sigh.

<33

:: 2004 1 May :: 12.32pm

Lying Low~
things are slowly getting better around here--but i got ways to go.

the city trip was soooo fun. im so happy i went.

first night "back" had a much needed talk with stacey and elise...who knew that something so dramatic could happen in result of something like this.. it makes me ill.

today getting invites with jojo and having a bbq for the k. derby!!! muy excited.

not much to say, im just taking it easy for a while like i should be.

<33Ciao

1 HoLLeRr.. | ..HoLLa BacKks..

:: 2004 29 April :: 9.02pm
:: Mood: crushed

fuck
godammit...im such a fucking idiot...my parents are so much smarter than i estimate them to be. i do it a few times and get busted and feel like shit...damn my track record has not been good lately. i need to really stop ruining my life. im doing a pretty damn good job at it. im such a fucking idiot. i really hate myself right now.

:: 2004 29 April :: 7.30pm
:: Mood: ecstatic

AHHHHHH! DEREK JETER HOLY SHIT!!!!!! OMG!!!! WOOOOOOHOOOOO!!! THE SLUMP IS OVER!! FIRST PITCH HOMER!! AHHHHH!!!

:: 2004 28 April :: 7.22pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: yankee game

God, it feels like just two weeks ago I could update my woohu every hour and the thoughts would just pour out for forever, but lately I'm just so thoughtless..it's weird. so im updating for the heck of it.

it's been a slightly dissapointing week on a few counts but w/e it's fine. life will go on.

i'm happy:
i (well my mom) FOUND my keys...ha...in the most retarded place too. ha.
i got magazines, nice.
doing good in school.
got cookie mix..weekend is 2 days away...so excited for mean girls!
and YES runners on first and second

much luv to u all~gabs

Awww shit! Giambi hit!!!! 1-0 Yanks woohuuuuu!

:: 2004 26 April :: 3.30pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: everytime

argh, lousy weekend. sick. ergh.

the yankee game sucked..but w/e no worries, they'll be fine. i know they will. i still had fun despite being sick. i love the gerspachs. they're so funny.

knick game was fun too...but wow they suck.

ahhh i hate catching up with school ugh...but at least it's a short week.

w/e there's nothing to say...crappy few days...hope things get better--warm weather would be nice.

wow how scary is it that there's like 6 weeks of school left?? I can't believe how fast it's gone by. It's insane. It's been a really interesting year. A good one I'd say, except for a few things. We're coming into the home stretch girls...sophomores in 2 months...crazy.

<33