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2005 30 September :: 6.22am
He made me smile.
I need to just stop caring, worrying, getting so worked up, etc.
Last night was perfect. We argued a little, but it didn't end in us yelling, storming off, or me crying. It ended in him saying, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you." And that was that.
Then we talked about a lot of things for an hour or so.
And I just want this all to last, because if I had this huge part of my life good and fixed again I don't know what could bring me down.
I love you. And always remember every word you said last night.
You can go.
I trust you.
And you know me saying that is a huge step.
Just don't make me regret these words.
Tony's a good friend.
Continue in the good direction you are going in now.
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2005 29 September :: 9.43pm
play tryouts, powderfuff practice, tanning *FINALLY* (and yes you STILL owe me 20) and now hopefully a LOT of shut eye. say hello to another crazy busy weekend... SHOOT me.
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2005 29 September :: 4.20pm
I am so pissed right now.
Here I am, sitting alone.. once again.
Every day I either sleep or watch tv. What a fucking life.
Auditions went terrible. If I do get a part I don't even deserve it, even though I know for sure it'll be a small role with no lines, if I get one at all. I'm just not a good actress. Bah.
Anyway, you'd think after we don't talk for a day, and fight the ones before he'd want to spend time with me, but nooo. I'm not someone to miss. I'm just a bitch who's always pissed off. Someone he can't have fun with or be himself around. I just have to accept that I can't make him happy and let him be happy somewhere else.
I don't have a car, all my friends have jobs and lifes!
But do I? Of course not.
My whole family is STUPID. Seriously.. what I am dealing with at home right now is bullshit. Complete bullshit.
I know I've said this a million times and over and over, but..
I. Just. Want. To. Be. Happy.
Is that ever going to happen?
I doubt it.
Not here, not now.
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2005 29 September :: 3.15pm
So I have the checklist... And I'll do whatever I can to get all of the things on the list the way they should be.
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2005 29 September :: 6.21am
:: Music: Death Cab for Cutie
Perfect fit.
Holding on to your grudge.
Oh, it's so hard to have someone to love,
and keeping quiet is hard
'cause you can't keep a secret
if it never was a secret to start.
We're concentrating on falling apart.
We were contenders, now we're throwing the fights.
I just want to believe...I just want to believe..I just want to believe..in us.
You're holding on to your grudge,
Oh, it hurts to always have to be honest with the one that you love.
Brand New - Okay I Believe You, But My Tommy Gun Don't
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2005 28 September :: 9.56pm
i always worry it might be the last time i say love you baby.
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2005 28 September :: 9.09pm
I'm at Sam's house right now.
Practice was stupid since it was raining the whole time and then Elyse thought it would be hilarious to pance me in front of all the guys and I was wearing Brianna's shorts that are about 10 times too big so I'm pretty sure I don't like everyone seeing my ass lol but oh well.
So then after that we went to my house but I got into a fight with my mom so I left. It was the dumbest fight ever and someone went into my room and took my phone charger and then I yelled at everyone and their like "oh well we didn't take it". Nooo..they didn't take it, thats why last night and today I charged my phone in MY room next to MY bed where my phone charger always has been and then it just goes M.I.A. Yeah--okay someones magic around here. Right.
My mom was like "do you need lunch money?" and I was like "no, I'm going to starve" and I slammed the door and left with Sam. I don't know why but I flipped out on my family but I'm in a sucky mood tonight.
I'm soaking wet from practice so I should get going.
Ashley
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2005 28 September :: 3.33pm
I trust you, more than I ever have before and that's something that doesn't happen often. Somehow I actually believe you and I don't care what anyone says/thinks. I'm happy about how I feel.
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2005 28 September :: 6.42am
Give me one good day before I disappear.
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2005 27 September :: 10.23pm
im so tired. we just got back from the mall(s)... it is NOT fun dress shopping.. but ALAS i found one. and its green.. that wonderful las vegas green.. and i've tried it on and all that jazz again since i got home.. and cant find a single thing wrong with it or that i dont like. thats always nice.
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2005 27 September :: 5.45pm
haha omg that was the funniest thing I think I've ever read on woohu. Some people just crack me up.
I'm at Lisa's with Emily. We just went and chased her sheep. It was fun and we cornered them. How mean are we!?! I don't even know if I spelt that right but who cares.
But I was planning on writing more but we have to leave for practice.
Love Always,
Ashley
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2005 27 September :: 3.55pm
Why do I even fucking bother?
It's always about you.
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2005 27 September :: 6.45am
The past..
I'll be the first to admit..
I am so fucked up and ruined.
And it's not my fault.
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2005 27 September :: 6.09am
another day.
i think me and keegan are gonna find my homecomming dress after school today. its about time. i really wanna find that perfect dress... its hard cuz i cant see myself falling in love with a dress the way i fell in love with my prom dress. it really did look perfect.
last night was laguna night...... if ONLY brad would have been awake. *kicks him and giggles
i dont wanna go to first hour today. im already behind on my algebra. GREAT. im just sick of having homework every night. and esp. math homework. i guess more than anything im just sick of this stupid routine of waking up, crawling out of bed, and going to school. to bad i cant just sleep the rest of my life.
my mom got me a hundred dollar gift card to this salon in rockford called genisis as an end of red flannel thing. im SO looking forward to getting a massage with it. i think the day of homecomming im gonna go there and get a massage and have my hair and nails done. i deserve to be pampered once in awhile. esp after this last week.
side note: GET TAN ERIKA! im so white right now. i just hate throwing money into such a dangerous thing as tanning. wooooo.. lets go buy cancer. hells yeah!
after we get my dress... its straight back to keegans for a nap.
i just zoned out there for awhile.. i hate when that happens. well i guess i've rambled on long enough about nothing in particular. and i suppose i should get dressed and try and look all wonderfull....
*sighs... our drama project....
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2005 26 September :: 10.00pm
Okay that was probably the most akward moment of my life....really it was.
And I don't even think I deserve you. I had my chance and I definately didn't take it and now I feel bad for what I did to you. I chose someone else over you, when I never should have and now I have to find some way of getting back what I lost.
And I better go before I say something that gives away too much info and before I say something I regret, which I often do.
Goodnight. Laguna Beach is calling my name.
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2005 26 September :: 6.18am
:: Music: Death Cab for Cutie
I have the most insane boyfriend in the world..
but, I love him.
I know he's made a lot of mistakes and I hope I can say there will be no more (big ones at least) and actually be right this time.
He has a huge heart and I need it to be mine.
We got our rings. They are nice and simple.
They simply signify we won't do anything to hurt one another in a big way.
Sorry, I'm just rambling about things none of you care to hear.
I hate school.
But, I love hot chocolate. Mmmm.
>>Edit
Oh, and if you're a BOB DYLAN fan like I and have been waiting pathetically the 'No Direction Home' movie is on tonight at 9pm on PBS.
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2005 25 September :: 10.20pm
*sighs
could i BE anymore sad. at least desperate housewives was on tonight to comfort me.
lately... whenever we're apart i get this empty feeling inside. like it almost hurts that you arent with me. and as much as i hate it, i love feeling that way. not empty, but complete when i'm with you. now hows THAT for "is the glass half empty or half full"... 10 months and we're still goin strong.
*sighs again... last night was hard. we are no longer the reigning red flannel girls... but we will ALWAYS be the 2004 girls and the connection we formed with eachother and with Sue is unbreakable.
what a hectic weekend.. im suffering from sleep deprivation... is that a word? ahh well.. close enough.
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2005 25 September :: 10.11am
ugh i feel like shit. i thought i was done beign sick but i guess i was wrong.
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2005 24 September :: 11.15pm
i never realized how much i miss my old friends until tonight. oh myyyyy erika and danielle welcome back into my life you great girls you!
other than that... you drive me NUTS as usual
and as usual, I still love you like no other, you crazy cat. BLEH! and by cat i mean roman.
and. other than that... i just want to remember, gracelinsephiakennajalynANDICANT REMEMBER!
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2005 24 September :: 7.04pm
So here I am, everything is fine... Im fine. Excuse my horrible puncuation, but Í didnt anticipate that the keyboards in venezuela would be so fucked up. They have a button itself for ñ. its cool, and when I try to shift to capatalize something, I get an <. and you better believe that where there should be an apostrophe button, there is a ç. I donçt know why the fuck these people need a button for ç . ANd dont forget the obvious upside down question mark, which I am able to see on the keyboard, but am not able to type. anyways, lets move on....
´the country is different than you would think. they still believe in the free market system in most ways, as in, you put up a tent and make it wherever you want to. I have, however, discovered the greatest food known to man. Empenadas. the basic idea is that yiou take some corn dough and fold it over with whatever you want in it, then deep fry it. Delicious. My favorite is white cheese and plantaines. SOOO good. you can find these shops just about anywhere, and where there is one, there is about 20 more right next to it. These places are just like like 5x5 squares, but they are sooo good. Ive also discovered plantaines. cut them up and fry them and then you have yourself the equivelent of french fries, except tastiier and more than likely better for you.
I just got back from a week long trip we took to cumana, which is, accordiing to the venezuelans, the first "developed" city in the americas. I smell bullshit , but I will look it up. We went through so many of the coastal towns and moutain towns. Although incredibly poor, with mere shantys for houses, they are in such a beautiful location, more beautiful than the rockies. Its fucking hot... all the time. Airconditioning determines where you go.
Gas is amazingly cheap, like expected, but Im not sure exactly how. I took a picture of a gas station sign, and I will put it up here. Most gas stations dont even have signs because the prices never change for there low selves... fuckers. Anyway, its about Bs. 70 to the liter. when 1 dollar is equal to about Bs. 2400. Ill let you guys do the math. Everything is cheaper down there in the end. And I get to feel loaded, Içm carrying 120000 on me right now. Goddamnit, I cançt find the exclemati... damnitªªª)/()"!¿< ahhh, theres the upside down question mark.
so hows america. I hear it sucks right now. Another hurricane. fuck! aha, there it is. I just needed to type fuck to find it. Anyways Im off to see movies like stealth and some wedding crashes that just came out here. byeª!
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2005 24 September :: 12.05pm
I love these lyrics.
I cannot pretend that I felt any regret
Cause each broken heart will eventually mend
As the blood runs red down the needle and thread
Someday you will be loved
You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved
You may feel alone when you're falling asleep
And everytime tears roll down your cheeks
But I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet
Someday you will be loved
Death Cab for Cutie - Someday You Will Be Loved
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2005 24 September :: 10.31am
:: Music: Death Cab for Cutie
Most of you don't need to read this so fuck off.
Oh my God. The new Death Cab for Cutie CD is so amazing.
You were right Matt, it's very close to Transatlanticism. I don't know which is better. Never thought I'd say that..
New layout!
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2005 24 September :: 9.10am
Who is going to the pageant tonight?
I need to shower somewhere, haha. My dad is working on the shower and failed to tell me I can't take one until this morning. Laaaame.
Oh and Mishy..Tomato! Pickle! Apple! Let's play that little crackle!
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