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2004 26 March :: 12.31 am
i am a procrastinator...big time...who me? I just wander from room to room...my hands smell like balls...tennis balls...I am a liar...but my BS gets me by...I love my life...i need to buck up...and buckle down...4 more weeks and I will be in hell...I called my caddy jobs, and they are both waitin for me... woohoo!...this summer is going to be sooo weird...but at least anne and katie and max will be there...I dont know what I would do without you guys...I will miss the 1st foxers though...oh well...shouldnt think too much about it...like i said...still got time...but not much...
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2004 24 March :: 2.47 pm
:: Music: Biggie: Big Papa
SOMETIMES...
Sometimes I am too busy being jealous to actually be happy.
"Sometimes someone says something really small, and it just fits right into this empty place in your heart."
Sometimes when I need to cry, I laugh instead.
Sometimes you think the world will end, and then something good happens and makes you forget the bad.
Sometimes the person who knows you best isnt the one who makes you the happiest.
Sometimes the person who makes you happiest doesnt know you exist.
Sometimes someone gets under your skin, and makes you want to cut your arm off to get them out.
Sometimes I need to be happy so much, that i pretend hoping it will be true.
Sometimes I write pointless journal entries that make me feel better, but confuse everyone else.
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2004 23 March :: 3.49 pm
GRRRR!
I just had a run in with some Judgers! I went to a job interview, and granted, I did not look very professional, but they totally didnt like me because I look like i do....arg. I walk in and he is like, are you attachd to your lipring? and i was like no, i would be willing to take it out. so he is like, do you have anything else peirced, and i said no, but i have a tattoo, and he is like " and where is that? is it tasteful?" like it would be a skull on my boob next to my nipple that would be pierced with a nipple shield...ahhhhhhh...there was more...but i just cant think about it anymore....I am going to go to target with Megan and Krystal now...
Ok i am back...got some vanilla coke, now all i need is some nummynummy rum! alright, anyway back to the story...
I had to pee after my interview, so i went into the broncomall and I was not in the mood to try to be fake, so I was in ignore mode...IGNORE! So, sorry if you felt ignored, but i couldnt handle you at the moment. What am I talking about? I have a hard time handling you EVER! Oh well good times. Have to go eat now so I can go to work...
Ok, I am back again...I got out of work...SURPRISE!...it was awesome though, cuz Sky gave me a ride home and we rode with the top down...it was so awesome! I have no real plans, but I am always glad to get out...i will have to think of something fun now...and find someone fun to do it with...wooWOO
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2004 23 March :: 1.04 am
Alright, I am noticing that i have become more and more like my old self as of late. I am finally getting comfortable with the people around me and that is such a good thing, except that I have sort of changed and it may be a little confusing. I know that i have shown a softer, nicer side before, but that is not me. I am the bitch. I always have been and I hate to pretend I am not. I am mean to people that annoy me, and if i dont like you i will tell you; there is not reason for fake freindship. I have real friends and if you dont, then it sucks to be you. I am mean to my friends, but always in a playful way. I say i hate you, but that means i like you, cuz i try never to use the word hate seriously...it is too strong; that is the same reason I don't use the word love...too strong. I dont like criers, I dont like crying...if that makes me a bad person, ok. I like to gossip, but i try not to hurt people with it, and I almost never tell anything if I was specifically told not to...if it is hurtful, or belittling, i try to let the person know what is going on. I like to cuddle, but that doesnt mean I want to do anything more. I am a cuddle slut. If I kiss you, you know that i like you, so until then, dont get your hopes up...or anything else for that matter. Drama is bad, but inevitable. I like the kind that is real...creating drama just to get attention irks me beyond belief, and I might have to hit you in the face. Oh yeah, I am very violent too. I like to hit, push, tickle, pinch and poke. If you dont like it tell me and I might try to do it lessbut probably not. I only do it to people I like, cuz if i dont like you i wont bother with you so take the compliment, and buck up bitches. I would not waste my time like that.
in conclusion, I am mean, and rude, and sarcastic, and cold, and bitchy, but i heart you all, and if i dont, you know it!
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2004 21 March :: 1.10 pm
Alright, last night was very fun, and the more i think about it the better it seems. I was the perfect amount of drunk, and lots of funny things happened. I don't know why I got drunk so quickly or why I stayed drunk so long, but who am I to complain? I must say that I do not feel cuddle deprived, thanks everyone for that. I LOVE to cuddle! I heart you Ricci...you are the BEST! Now I have to clean before Megan gets back...paz!
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2004 19 March :: 11.59 pm
Here is the lowdown:
1.) Western Lost, and it is very sad, but i did see shane stewart and julie gilbert in the pep band, so that was cool...I wish they would have won though...
2.) The banquet was cool. I forgot all my free stuff though! DAMN IT! oh well i got 50 dollars to a store that we dont even have here! woowoo...
3.) When i got back we watched Aminityville Horror, and it was boring and unscary...oh well that is not neccessarily a bad thing...
Ok, so I don't really have anything to do right now, cuz I thought that I could, but I can't and I ot in a bad mood because of not being able to...I need to get drunk or stoned or something, I just want to forget that I am me.
Sometimes I just can't stand being me.
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2004 19 March :: 11.29 am
Best CD EVER!!...well actually, it was gonna be better, but some of the songs didnt work, so here is th revised best CD ever:
Alicia's "Allen Mix #1"
311: Love Song
Oasis: Wonderwall
Enigma: Return to Innocence
Westlife: Swear it all over again
The Heights: How do you talk to an angel
Lil Jon: Get Low
Eamon: dont want you Back
Kelis: Milkshake
Joss Stone: Fell In love with a Boy
bush: Glycerine
B.I.G.: Big Papa
Ben Folds: brick
Beck: Loser
R. Kelly: Ignition Remix
Sean Paul: Im still in love with you
I just died in your arms tonight
No Doubt: spiderwebs
Janes addiction: jane says
Van Morrison: brown eyed girl
Alright, so last night I got out of work and was real hyper, so I went with Krystal and Megan to the mall, then I played dress up! It was so fun! The I cuddled with Mike and Krystal...which sounds awkward, but it wasnt really. I really don't get how amanda doesnt get the hint. She was freakin in there longer than me. she wasnt even welcome...we shut the door so she wouldnt come in, but she just opened the door...DANG IT! we are gonna lock it next time...fo shizza!
Tonight will hopefully be fun...well i guess this afternoon too! Frst the game...GO BRONCOS!!...then the banquet...woowoo for dress up!...then perhaps jasons...or i will hang out with friends of some sort...it will rock...i know it!...oh and tomarrow we are going to watch the america movie at the little theatre too! Yeah for cultural events! Well i know i will write more later sometime. I heart you all...have a great weekend!
PAZ!
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2004 18 March :: 3.24 am
Wow, toight was real fun. I hadnt hung out with Krystal and Mike alone for a while. It was a little weird, and I know they might have wished I had left, but it was nice to be reminded of the beginning of the year...a time before drama and complications. I really needed to go back in time for a little while, and it was nice to actually talk to mike for a little while, even if we had to wisper cuz krystal was sleepin...sleepy girl...the only thing that sort of sucked is that i am not really sure how to act, cuz i used to tease, tickle and flirt with mike ALL the time, and I cut down on how much I do it in front of Krystal, cuz I dont want her to feel like I want him or anything, but tonight I sort of felt like Ii was stepping over some lines, yet still holding back a lot. It is just weird to have to censor myself.
Chas was soooo drunk, and I got some funny pics of him. they go in order and tell a good little story. haha, he really wanted a girl tonight i think, and stupid lindsay is totally jerkin him around, and that just aint right, he is a good guy and he deserves better.
I have to go to bed, so i can get up and write my paper for Art history in the mornin...night all...
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2004 16 March :: 11.48 am
:: Music: Watchin' Dawson make a mess of his life
WOW! Last night was sooooo fun! I got to see my Max, and I met his roomate Paul, and Greg came down from Calvin too! I also saw Jackie and Joe before it started. Anyway, Stroke 9 rocked a lot! We were right by the guitar amp for Phantom Planet, so i couldnt hear very well, but it was still awesome, then after the show we met all of the PP band members, and the guitarist said he remembered Paul and I...cuz he saw us rockin out...it was so awesome...and i got to see my max!
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2004 15 March :: 2.06 pm
Ghost or spirit: You are a lost soul. Very calm and
sweet, you are often the one who asks: What if?
With a clever mind, you want to explore the
world on a different level. Without the
answers, you aren't ready to move on. You are
most likely very creative and find yourself
thinking things through on a different level.
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You are going to marry Brad Pitt. He is always
friendly to anybody he ever meets and he is
very talented as an actor. He is also very
sincere and friendly. He will respect you until
the day he dies. Congrats!!
Which male celebrity are you going to marry? (now 12 (i just added more, and still more to come!)results that have pics!)
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2004 15 March :: 2.00 am
Am I a nerd? Go ahead...you can tell me...
Take this survey about me!!!
you are violet
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Your dominant hues are red and blue. You're confident and like showing people new ideas. You play well with others and can be very influential if you want to be.
Your saturation level is lower than average - You don't stress out over things and don't understand people who do. Finishing projects may sometimes be a challenge, but you schedule time as you see fit and the important things all happen in the end, even if not everyone sees your grand master plan.
Your outlook on life is bright. You see good things in situations where others may not be able to, and it frustrates you to see them get down on everything.
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2004 14 March :: 1.34 pm
You should be dating a Sagittarius.
22 November - 21 December
Your mate is frank and open, optimistic and honest.
Though the Archer can display bouts of
argumentative, impatient and critical
behaviour, he or she is extremely adventurous
in bed.
What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
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2004 14 March :: 1.31 am
wow, I am drunk. I am so sorry for amyone who is readign this or anyone who is REding tis 221. I am soooooooooo drunk, and i thnak molle and craig for thankin avereyone who was nice too me..woowoo.
i heart you.
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2004 13 March :: 3.59 am
Wow, for doing absolutely nothing, it was a great night. I heart friends! Chas crackes me up! I am tired now. I hope tomarrow will rock as much as today did.
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2004 12 March :: 12.50 pm
Ok, I took a lot of quizes and I didn't copy and paste them all, so here were my results:
Nintendo Character: Wario
Grammer Aptitude: Fuhrer
X-files person: Dana Scully
Shadow Type: Moon
Dysfuntional Carebear: Hooligan Bear
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2004 12 March :: 1.04 am
:: Music: Phantom Planet
Woot to my boys Max and Greg!
"California"
We've been on the run
Driving in the sun
Looking out for #1
California here we come
Right back where we started from
Hustlers grab your guns
Your shadow weighs a ton
Driving down the 101
California here we come
Right back where we started from
California!
Here we come!
On the stereo
Listen as we go
Nothing's gonna stop me now
California here we come
Right back where we started from
Pedal to the floor
Thinkin' of the roar
Gotta get us to the show
California here we come
Right back where we started from
California!
Here we come!
Spmetimes life is too much for me, and I need to look ahead to what it will be like in the future. I can't wait til monday, I need to see my max. he is my touch stone and I need a little sanity right now. I feel like everything is unraveling. I need to just get a max hug and to hear him tell me everything will be alright. Until monday i will make do with what I got...which happend to be a lot...me heart you long time...night...fo shizza this time.
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2004 12 March :: 12.43 am
Ok, here is the word. I had a real good day. I went to Spanish and we did online crap that was real easy, then I watched Nemo w/ ricci, then after some other stuff I went to work. It was fun cuz I was sittin there readin my magazine, reclined and stuff, then when Amanda was driving me home she drove marcus home first and he invited me to a party tomarrow. WOOT! so then i came home and greg sent me some phantom planet songs andMegan and Ricci said they might wanna go to the partay with me, then I walked to videa hits and returned steve's porn. When i got back Megan and I listened to California and had a time. I made bitch purge some of his crap from his wallet...including the pics of mandy. and then i looked up words in the thesaurus. Ricci called Troy too, and I think next time she sees his she is going to use the word reverberate....sorry...nevermind, too many inside jokes in a sentence. I am real tired, so I am going to go to bed now.
To DO Friday:
Laundry
Paper
clean
party
WOOT! Peace!
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2004 11 March :: 6.46 am
Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.
- Mark Twain
Didn't sleep well last night, but I got all the classes I wanted. WOOT! Oh how I loathe WMU and it's stupid online registration that doesn't work at 6am when you get up specifically to register online. Oh well, everything worked out in the end.
11-1215 TR Spanish Composition SPAN 316
1230-150 TR People of World ANTH 120
2-350 TR Writing Fict/Poetry ENGL 266
6-850 TR Film Interpretation ENGL 210
4-620 W Utopias in Society HNRS 490
6-9 W Intro to World Cinema HNRS 490
I really get the urge to hit you sometimes. Good thing I never see you when I get that urge.
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2004 9 March :: 11.51 pm
I was a major slacker today. I skipped both my classes and got a sub to work for me tonight. The good part is that i actually got some crap done. i did my financial aid stuff and made a schedule for fall semester. I have to get up to register at 6am, cuz I think some of them might fill up fast. I don't really hve a lot to say, so peace y'all.
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2004 9 March :: 11.06 am
Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are
an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for
one reason or another - possibly, you made one
tragic mistake that cost you everything. Or
maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't
commit. In any case, you are faithless and
joyless. You find no happiness, love, or
acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most
days are a burden and you wonder when the
hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful and
sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching
picture. You are the one that few understand.
Those that do know you are likely to love you
deeply and wish that they could do something to
ease your pain. You are constantly living in
memories of better times and a better world.
You are hard on yourself and self-critical or
self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved,
you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite
your tainted nature, your soul is
breathtakingly beautiful.
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