].L.o.v.e.l.y.[

:: 2004 29 February :: 6.53pm
:: Mood: ecstatic

Oh Red Wings, how I love thee
Ahhh, don't you just love the smell of youre favorite team being the best in their sport? It's been a while (well 2 years) since I've able to say that about the Red Wings, and even after all theyve gone through I'm happy. And to think if everyone was perfectly healthy how much damage theyd be doing! #1 and loving it...and Fedorov, keep on keepin on

6 don't really. | give a fuck

:: 2004 27 February :: 9.40pm
:: Mood: o.o! Take a guess!

Random depressed poem?
Despair
All I can bare
I can feel you there
It's just not fair

I hate the way I feel
How I just can't deal
How I dramatize what's real
My wounds won't heal

How could you stare at me
Let things go as they be
Through all your hating ferocity
Who are you to say I'm free

I feel all I can do is cry
Corner myself to wilt and die
But I..
I could not tell you why

Our night, this is it
The quiet corner, moonlit
If this is all.. if this is it
Then why do I die for your shit!?

FUCK THIS!
Now I'm pissed!
Don't you take my wrist!
I dare scream, my hand now a fist

How could I let this go?!
Let this free, riveresque flow
Not remembering you, my foe
Blackened like a greedy crow

:: 2004 26 February :: 8.50pm
:: Mood: happy

Rush is coming!
July 29, Sound Advice Ampitheater...RUSH is coming! The date is not official and ticket sale dates have not been announced but im pretty sure the date will become official very soon. I will be first in line/online the second they go on sale. Im gonna get the best tickets possible!! I can't wait, this summer is gonna be great. And I'll be 18 during the show so thats kinda cool in a "not really" sort of way.

:: 2004 25 February :: 3.33pm
:: Mood: hopeful
:: Music: faint- Linkin Park

Hey, srry. bout not having an entry yesterday. I was sssoooo busy. I am today too. I still need to get my homework done.
l8r

Yadiffy

:: 2004 23 February :: 5.46pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: none

hey, Today was, an ok day,the beginning band SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The flutes couldnt even play a high B flat, and they hold eighth notes for TWO counts!!!!!!! Anyways, l8r

Yadiffy

:: 2004 22 February :: 4.30pm
:: Mood: loved

Yo,
The party yesterday rocked. Davids band played all oldies, we played Halo on the comp., played truth or dare, and the girls got really pissed at Cameron and David for saying something to them. Im not in the mood to type that much, so, today Wade came over, I havent seen him scence Christmas!! We messed around with finger boards and played video games. Thats all I did today.
l8r

Yadiffy

:: 2004 21 February :: 3.36pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: United States of WHATEVER!!!!!!!!

Yo ppls or should I say HI Aubrey!!!!! Cause ur the only one reading this. Im so boared and lonely :( all I can say is that I can go to the party tonight, but Ill hardley know anyone thats there, execpt Morg., Aubrey, David, Waylin, Harm., and thats about it, Im going to go because its something I can do, and it sounds kinda fun. I need someone to go with!!!!!! All this morning I have been doing work, and Im the only one my parents call, while my other bro. get to hang around and play GameCube and PS2. Its not fair!!!!!! I even have to do more work in order to go to the party. My dad is pissed, because my bro and I said that we didnt want to go camping.Sometimes I wish I was just in my own little world where I could do anything I wanted, and I only had the ppls that I want there with me. My parents are so lame, they wont let me do anything, the only reason I get to go to the party, is that Its at Waylins house, If it was at Davids or Someone elesis house, I wouldnt be able to go.

l8r
Yadiffy

P.S. Aubery, can you give out my cite to some ppls.

P.P.S. Morg wants a journal too. Can u help him out???

P.P.P.S. Try to hook me up with someone to go to the party with.

:: 2004 21 February :: 9.30am
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: none

HEy, I so happy, because I can go on the comp. yesterday I went to ski club, and some chick came and cutt me off and we both flew like 20 feet! Today has been ok because I don't have to go to my gay ass camp out. I might be able to go to the party today. OOhh yah, during the bus ride home from ski club, I sold halve of a powerade bottle with water in it for ten bucks and, Brian C. in band bought it!!!!!! Thursday was like any other day. Friday at school me Josh, Morgan, David, and some other kid weremaking techno sounds, and J-osh was stripping to it, it was sssooo funny. I cant wait until tonight.

:: 2004 19 February :: 10.47pm
:: Mood: Pissed >.<
:: Music: None

To shed some light on the Ilana Ordeals.
GRR! Ilana's dad is such a pissant! We should fry him with a magnifying glass and incinerate him in his own greed! >.<

Lon: Em, I cant even go to school

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: T.T

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: But.. school is WAY more treacherous than Lo-ra's house!

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Not to mention, are you just going to cut yourself off totally? You'll only get worse, you know.

Lon: Em, you dont understand

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Well, then, Lon. I guess you need to explain. o.o

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Because I feel to understand quite a bit.. and it almost seems you're avoiding us.

Lon: Avoiding you! Christ em, Its not like im intentionally trying to fall off the edge of the earth here, I just cant get rid of these damn anxiety attacks, and nothing is getting resolved because my father wont let me get on medication, so Im sitting in the house all day, not able to do a fucking thing, because everywhere I go, I get so sick that I just have to ocme back home, and I miss going to school, and I miss seeing you guys, but wihtout some kind of medication to take the edge of theres nothing I can do about going places, expecially not parties, Im just so stressed out. I'm trying to pull myself out of this, but the more I try the worse things get

Lon: I cant even go the concert any more

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Wow. That suxx0rs.

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Why won't your dad let you on meds? 'Cause of teh custody shiz?

Lon: yes, the more i suffer the worse it makes my mother look, which means the better he looks

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Oi vey. ._.; What a fuggin' ass head.

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Tell him you're ganna die if you don't get meds. o.o!

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: And if he wants to see some papers.. I'll write them myself.

Lon: all he ever sas anymore is "I love you sweetie, but NO COMMENT"

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Tell him you're dying! Tell your mom to tell him you can't even move or talk anymore. Tell him that.. err.. If you don't get any meds your spleen and stomach with explode and digest you slowly from the inside out.

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Tell him you got a lawyer! o.o!!!!!

Lon: Believe me Em, I am a great address, I could probably fake a siezure on the phone, but that doesnt matter to him

Lon: all that matters is that he looks good, and gets money

Lon: Its not like he loves me anymore or anything

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: BINITCH!

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: There's gotta be some fuggin' way to win this...

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Hmm.. call.. Child Aid security! Mote a petition!

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Fake a sickly little boy who can even form words! >.>;

Lon: we have the Dept. Of Children and families involved

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: WHOO!

Lon: their trying

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: We should bomb him. o.o;

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Hack his security, steal all his monies, and get yew some meds, babe!

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Hummo.. We could ask Keith... if he's a hacker.. I used to know some g00d hacker d00d online.. ho shiz. >.<

Lon: no thanks..

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Nah?

Lon: no..

y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: As long as you're sure? I could totally get this thing going..

Lon: no

And so.. dear readers, the Ilana Ordeals continue. o.o;; Crazed ho shiz and pancakes.

If you ever find Lon's ex-dad, kick him in the shins repeatedly, then steal his wallet. o.o! YEAH! Revolt!

Peh.. I don't feel like writing about my spectacular feights whilst high upon teh.. Red Bull... But, I'll list them.

-Did dishes
-Unloaded, reloaded, and ran the dish washer
-Unloaded, folded, reloaded, and ran washer and drier
-Cleaned out cat box
-Cleaned room greatly

o.o! I never do that.. Musta been a good buzz. x.X;

I really had to take a shower afterwards e.e;; Ewww.

Anywaaaays..

^-^ HAPPY BIRFDAY, LO-RA! ^-^

Happy paper cut dreams and sugar-coated nightmares, y'all!

<3<3 Aishiteru <3<3

~Em-chan

Get to know the REAL you by crash_and_burn
Your Name
You Are A: Teeny-Bopper
Your Favorite Band/Song Snoop Dogg - Gin and Juice
You Like To Read: Everything
You Firmly Believe In: Abstinence
Everyone Thinks You Are: A complete loser
You Were Conceived: In a record shop
You Will Marry: A punk-rawker
Created with quill18's MemeGen 2.0!

:: 2004 18 February :: 11.25pm
:: Mood: Whee!
:: Music: Siiiileeeenceee..

Hm.. art over teh years.
Well.. I was sitting in my room.. and happened to look in my sketch book drawer, yanno? (I have like.. 11.. yeah, 11) and it seems I could never finish off a book.. o.o; There's always blank pages at the end.. I think I might of finished a book like.. twice.. but that's it. o.0;; So, I have all these sketch books, and they have no end.. they're just.. incomplete.. o.o!!!

Crazed shiz..

I found the little one-page random comics I was illustrating in 7th grade.. ~snickers~ They're pretteh c0000l..

Of course, the body structure's a smidge off (I was still bringing it together.. >.>; ) But they're pretty good.. I'm going to gather them in one place, ink, and scan them in, most likely. I just luuuurve them T.T

EEP! I love this one! I used to answer journals with comics, and they'd be real stupid answers.. like "Why did the United States and the Soviet Union fight the Cold War?" and my answer was "They fought because they.. had.. to.." XDDDD

That may not seem to funny, but you should see the rest of it.. I'll get it up soon enough, eh. Well, it's 11:30, I'mma go.. to bed.. ._.; That's a depressing thought.. sleep.. though I'm ganna watch Witch Hunter Robin ^-^ ~jigs~

Jiggin's like.. my new thing now.. o.o!

BAI!

<3<3 Aishiteru <3<3

~Em-chan

:: 2004 18 February :: 6.15pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: none

hey, Im so pissed at my parents, Im like grounded from the comp. for three days, the only reason Im doing this is cause Im on Mr. Drains comp. I wont have another entry for a while.

Yadiffy
P.S. Im gonna change my icon back when I update again. Dont worry, it will be a very long entry.

:: 2004 16 February :: 4.53pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: ugh

I dont even want to think about skool now.
Hey, Im sssooooo tired right now, and I still have to work on my project and go to practice. I wish I didnt have a project, all they are are a waste of time, and you just end up throwing it away, or shove it somewere never to be found again. My dads waking up and Im not supposed to be on the comp. ........bad Stephen....*Thwak*....ouch....now that Im done killing myself I can go to skool tomorow. l8r

Yadiffy

:: 2004 16 February :: 2.14pm
:: Mood: busy & excited
:: Music: Headstrong-Trapt

Hey wazup, I happy I just got this up...Yay! so I am so overflowed with stuff I have to do, I have to get two teeth pulled, clean my room, mow a lawn, work on my project, and go to baseball practice,I dont know y Im typing this right now, Im so pressed for time, oh well. Today so far has been prety good, I hope to keep it that way. l8r.

Stephen (aka Yadiffy)

P.S. Thanx Aubrey for giving me the idea to start this. :)

5 don't really. | give a fuck

:: 2004 10 February :: 10.08pm

I'll run in the rain til I'm breathless
When I'm breathless I'll run til I drop
The thoughts of a fool's, kinda careless
I'm just a fool waitin on the wrong block

Once again, these oh so popular words to my ears come into play. But this time I'm walking down that block, and I know just where to end up. It all takes time, but it's starting to come around.

...on another note, hopefully I'll be able to take the motorcycle course I've been wanting to take for some time. Rose's Dad even offered to let me gain some experience on his bike after i take the course, so it wont go to waste...really lookin foward to it.

:: 2004 8 February :: 7.57pm
:: Mood: Psychotic

Lizzy Borden took an axe, gave her mother 40 wacks. When she saw what she had done, she gave her father 41..
~snickers~ Lizzy Borden was a true psycho killer.. You can actually stay in her house for a night or something. o.0; As many as 16 people can stay at one time.. Hmmm.. maybe we should set that up! XDDD

Whatcha think, Laur? Jade? Lon? Bring an axe with us?

Do yew think Lizzy's the killer?

Wow, she was buried 4 feet away from the peoples she killed.. Interesting.

Fwah, I be bored o.0;; I really REALLY need to start on my cosplay costumes x.x; Bwarkendale.. or something..

I'm gonna like.. do stuff now.. bai! ^-^

<3<3 Aishiteru <3<3

Em-chan

4 don't really. | give a fuck

:: 2004 4 February :: 10.34pm

My pirate music teacher plays guitar...i soo called that one. Maybe in on of my later papers ill have to insult a band he likes so he makes threatening pirate remarks...only because pirate talk is so cool. Apparently Mr. Perry advises us not to make water balloons with boiling water...but i have a feeling that didnt stop a few kids. nonetheless, im still gonna try the bag-o-water-and-fire trick.

8 don't really. | give a fuck

:: 2004 2 February :: 9.44pm
:: Mood: Sutff
:: Music: Stuff

Stuff! >.>;

Which deadly sin do you represent? (Angel Sanctuary Pics)
brought to you by Quizilla

Interesting.. I like that piccha.

my name is papercut and i have deeper mental
issues!!!!!!!!!!(please vote)

!!!!!!!!!!quiz of random questions!and results!!!!!!!!!!
brought to you by Quizilla

Interesting.. o.o; I don't like papercuts T.T

you really love inuyasha so do i inuyasha rocks and
its the best tv show ever inuyasha is so cool
_SIT_boy_

!Inuyasha_Quiz!
brought to you by Quizilla

Indeed. e.e;

Who's Your Anime Boyfriend?

Fwaha! Okay! LoL

What Anime Legend Are You?

WHOO! Hey! I'm not a guy! T.T;

What Magical Girl Are You?

Whoo! Cool hair. e.e;

What Anime Stereotype Are You?

0s0me! o.o;

What Inuyasha Villain Are You?

Koooougaaaa.. ~drool~

What Outlaw Star Character Are You?

Right on! Aisha was 0s0me when I watched Outlaw Star!

What .hack//SIGN Character Are You?

Subaru's of.. the cool. o.o;

What Cosplay Type Are You?

Does this mean I should cosplay Shuichi? o.0;

Well, that's all I wanted to say.

<3<3 Aishiteru <3<3

~Em-chan

:: 2004 1 February :: 9.05pm
:: Mood: Bored
:: Music: Avril Lavigne's CD 'Let Go'

I'm singing! And I like rain! >.>; Pshhh
Hey homes, like the journal name? o.o; It seems to interest me >.>;; If you can find a background of knives, just tell me e.e; LoL

It was pretty cool.. Saturday had a lotta rain.. and some stuff happened.. some crazy, psycho-killer, stabbity-stab, bunny-launching-into-the-Inter-Coastal things.. o.o;

We'll start with Friday, shalt we?

:: Friday ::

Not a lot happened Friday. After school, I had saved a Red Bull from lunch (Nyaaaa.. e.e;) and so we all drank some and were running about in the rain, doing our ULTIMATE thing, LoL. Eli stole my shoe, I did a split whilst chasing the fool, I pelted him with Magic Model clay by Crayola, it was all eventful and sitch.

Jadie came home with us (whoo!) We went for a walk in the rain, came home, had some cookies (Yuuum) and just kinda.. chillaxed..

Fwah, her mom came to pick her up and I ended up going with them, 'cause they were going to Sushi Jazz (Yuuuum). I tried Dark Kirin, the JAPA-BEER! >.>;; Let's just say I tried to order some o.o; LoL

So we get back to her place, boom, Jade+Computer -_-; Pshaw.. So I played cards with Asj, trying to amuse myself. An hour or so, Jaded and I go upstairs 'cause her mom high-jacked the computer with her motherly powers.

Jade and I tag-teamed on DOA 3, then she felt "tired", but of course, so I had to play alone for a smidge. Then I hop down backstairs and get onto Mark's laptop (HAHA!) and I won ^.~

Then I went upstairs and slept blah, blah, blah, your needs, onto the next day.

:: Saturday ::

Got up.. pretty much with Jade, and I didn't have to attack her like I usually do o.0; Amazing. I played a bit of DOA while she talked to Chris on her cell (but of course) We went downstairs, computerized (with Emily being the controller.. HA!) then we ate some Breakfast out in the rain (Puuuuddingggg.. ~drool~)

So Chris comes over a bit later (of course) and I beat his ass repeatedly at DOA.. He thought he could beat the l33t master, psh!
Anyways, Jade goes outside, hanging out on the otherside of the railing of her balcony. It's all wet 'cause it hasn't stopped raining, yanno? So we're trying to get her back and Asj (her little sister) threatens Bun-Bunny (Jade's loved bunneh)

So I take the bunny, and pretend to throw it towards the Inter-Coastal ('Cause Jade's house is on the Inter-Coastal.) I was going to drop it behind me and pretend to throw it.. bu alas, the bunny was launched into the air.

And where does it land? Take a wild guess. o.o; If you said pool, what fuckin' crack are you on, bizitch?!

There was a mad dash down the stairs and out the door, I being the head of commotion because I screamed and ran. But it was only to get the bunny, and the scream was of sheer horror that I had actually tossed Jade's heart-felt-loved bunny into an ocean current.

So we got the next-door neighbors net (with out asking.. we were too frantic) and rescued said fluffy object. We rushed it back inside to wash, soak, sope, condition, soak, wash, and dry the poor bunn, while Jade disappeared to mope. Psh. Drama queen. o.o; LoL

Nothing really happened after that for a few hours, though we went out into the rain again to chillax, I guess. We ended up in the pool, in the rain, fully clothed. HA! There's FUN for ya! ^-^

We were in the pool for pretty much 3 to 4 hours, Chris, Jade, Asj, and I.

Asj and I chillaxed in the hot tub while Chris and Jade made out in the pool (of course) Then they tried to INVADE! How DARE they?! Anyways, they were diminished back to the pool, and the pants I was wearing were REALLY annoying me, so what did I do?

If you thought danced around because I'm stupid like that, what helium are you on and where can I get some?

I took of meh pants! ^-^

But I was wearing a long shirt and opaque panties, not to mention I wasn't getting out of the water anytime soon. I ended putting them back on about 10 minutes later.. Chris disturbs me. o.o;; (Of course) >.>;

Then, I took off tha big shirt (I was wearing an undershirt, mind you.) About 20 to 30 minutes after that, we all go out, cold and sitch. Chris went in first, and Jade, Asj, and I stayed out to take off wet clothing.. THE PANTIES STAYED ON, YOU PERVERTS!

The three of us went upstairs, showered, yanno, and changed, fun fun. Asj, Chris, and Jade played Sims, I wandered downstairs and chatted with people and sitch. They bore me (of course) LoL

That was pretty much it.. I stabbed myself with my umbrella, I went home, I stayed up 'til 3 AM, RPing and making hurtful, spite-pictures pointed mostly at Erik. Poor kid. WE STILL LOVE YA!.. kinda.. >.>;

Anyways, today was a nothing day. I better go do some stuff and stuff like that. Have a PEACHY rest of yer time here! >.>; BAI!

<3<3 Aishiteru <3<3

~Em-chan

:: 2004 29 January :: 10.45pm
:: Mood: Bored
:: Music: The Family Guy

I love this job more than I love taffy.. and I'm a man who enjoys his taffy.. I'm not a man, by the way.
Le fwah, my peoples.. Been a while since I posted.. lemme tell you what happened last Saturday.. or atleast try, I'm watching this thing on the travel channel about Tokyo. e.e;

::Saturday Night::

Okay, so Asja (Jade's little sister) and I were sitting in Jade's room, playing DDR. Jade was downstairs, the boys were asleep, and Mark and Kimmie were getting ready to go out to dinner. So we're sitting there, playing the game, and this explosion goes off right next to me! Like, right outside Jade's glass door. I saw the flash, and heard the boom, but when we looked, we didn't see anything, like firecracker remains or burn marks.

We were scared, you know? That's all crazed. So Asj and I were sitting downstairs for a while, Kimmie finding the Karaoke game she was telling us about, and Asj and I go upstairs to play it. Jade goes downstairs again (-_-;; Chris, of course). So Asj and I were playin' the karaoke game, Kimmie and Mark had just left to dinner, and we were just playing.

SE TWAH! Another explosion! Just near another window. We dropped the controllers, ran downstairs to Jade and were totally freakin' out. Of course, Jade has to be all brave butch-chick and go check it out, though we begged her not to. She said there was nothing there, but she watched a black, beat up van drive away. She told us to get the little boys in one room.

Asj and I were upstairs, trying to pick up the one little boy to get him in the one's bed, so they'd be in one bed. Their rooms are conjoined by a bathroom, by the way. Jade had gone to the garage to get like.. this scythe thingy.. big pointy object of DOOM! For protection, if needed. So she was turning off all the lights in the house and locking the doors, and we hear "Come on, Ron!" like REALLY close, like RIGHT NEXT to the house!

Jade bolts upstairs and we lock the doors and try and be all silent like. We were really scared, and I had this like.. oar.. it was wood, a decoration, but I was ready to kill anything that moved. We were shaking, and crying, and praying, but we managed to blockade one door and stand guard by the other. The whole time, we kept ears to the floor and stopped every now and then for a good listen.

Then, we tried to pick up the phone to call the police, you know? But we had left the phone downstairs.. off.. the hook! 0.0;;;;; We didn't have Jade's cell and we were all freakin' out.. Yanno.. it was a half an hour after the voice, so we weren't so scared. I crept out the door to her room across the hall and got her cell.

So Jade called the police, they came and looked around the house. Apparentally they saw nothing by the three of them. We turned all the lights, were all happy and stuff. But LORDIE! >.< We were SCURRED!

Wow.. Tokyo is crazy.. ~stares at the roads~ Daaaaang.. ! And the guys ARE hott! T.T;;

I better go take a shower, it's pretty much 11 and I need one.. My mom's so nice, she cleaned my bathroom today. But it was pretty much 'cause she couldn't stand how it looked... Though she doesn't use it. o.0;;; Don't ask, my mom's insane.

I went on the field trip to the Renaissance Festival, by the way.

I loved it T.T Unfortunately, I didn't get to see a lot of the shows.. But I got a bracelet e.e;; It's called a Slave Bracelet.. But it's like a bracelet, and it's kind of a glove that connects around your middle finger..

>.>;; Apparentally Diarrhea is a funny word..

Ehehehehehehh... Doody... ehehehehehh..

<.<; Nevermind.. Anyways, bai, darlings.

<3<3 Aishiteru <3<3

~Em-chan

:: 2004 26 January :: 10.31pm

This certainly doesn't help my case...even though I don't think he wouldve faired too well even with a helmet...

WARNING: EXTREMELY GRAPHIC - I felt sick for about 10 minutes after viewing this:
http://streetbikeworld.com/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=1291&PN=1

:: 2004 21 January :: 12.55pm
:: Mood: excited

RUSH will tour in 2004!!
Yep, that's right! Rush is coming back this year! Just found out today. I've waited over a year and finally they are coming back!! Without a new cd, hopefully they will be able to play more of their old tunes, instead of more modern, recognizable stuff. I'll have to keep checking on the exact date they come down here so i can make plans early...im so excited!

:: 2004 20 January :: 10.50pm
:: Mood: Happeh
:: Music: None

Kyo Kyo Kyo Kyo Kyo Kyo Kyo Kyo..
hothellsingpic
you are a..MODERN vampire. you are pretty much in
the middle of good and evil. you dont mind
humans, but you like going along with your
insticts as well. you show your opposite sides
at very different times. you can be kind and
merciful, but suddenly harsh and cold. you
sometimes make a game of it. are you kidding?
are you serious? one wrong step and who knows!
you love tranquill water, going with the flow.
you are pretty nutral

what kind of vampire are you?(hellsing pics)
brought to you by Quizilla

Whoo e.e;

Earth Dragon: Realistic, defensive, and a true
nature lover. If you had a chance, youd hug a
tree everyday. You do whatever you can to
protect the environment and be in touch with
it. You know the importance of nature and
cannot be without greenery. Be very careful of
becoming a product of your own environment.
Hold on to your sense of imagination as well as
your inner child, and you will be an all round
happy individual.

Which Elemental Dragon Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

Guess I could see that <.<;

Your soul is bound to the Solitary Rose: The
Alone.

"When I wake up alone, the shades are still
drawn on the cold window pane so they cast
their lines on my bed and lines on my
face."

The Solitary Rose is associated with loneliness,
melancholy, and patience. It is governed by
the goddess Merope and its sign is The Sword,
or Unrequited Love.

As a Solitary Rose, you may be summed up as a
hopeless romantic. You desire love and have so
much love to give, but thing just never seem to
work out the way you want them to. In life,
you can be very optomistic, even when things
are gray and nothing works out to your
expectations.

What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
brought to you by Quizilla

o.0; Wow..

Anyways, nothing really happened today. Dylia came over and we made a fire in an ash tray e.e;; We're not piros, we swears! That was fun, burning leaves and such.. le fwah, I'm tired.. I think.. I'm gonna go write something.. "write-ee like"..

BAI!

<3

~Em-chan

P.S. WORSHIP KYO!

:: 2004 19 January :: 11.50pm
:: Mood: Sick T.T
:: Music: Silence

Le Fwah!

Somehow I doubt that o.0;;

Anyways, I talked to nameless and everything's pretty much cool ^-^

Let's read Jade's description of.. THE EM-CHAN! Dun dun DUNNNN!

em_chan: Heya.
em_chan: Heya.
em_chan: Stop mocking me!
em_chan: Stop mocking me!
em_chan: You started it!
em_chan: You started it!
em_chan: Bit me!
em_chan: Bit me!
em_chan: bite*
em_chan: bite*

o.o;; Oops.. that's not it! <.<;;;

an_angel_both_worlds: Ever since I met you, everything, for the most part, has been going great.
an_angel_both_worlds: You are my light, oh dark and evil one.
an_angel_both_worlds: You are a happy evil love.
an_angel_both_worlds: You is like a lettle bunny.
an_angel_both_worlds: With fangs when nececary... ^.~
an_angel_both_worlds: lol

There we go ^-^ LOVE YA JADED!

I better go, it's pretty much midnight.. T.T I dun wanna!

Aishiteru <3

~Em-chan

:: 2004 19 January :: 10.43am
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: Avril Lavigne

Some poems I wrote last year.
12-12-03

I'm sorry I'm not perfect
I'm sorry I don't look good
Or flaunt my legs
Or aren't skinny as a stick.

I'm sorry I don't meet your standards
Or have long hair
Or tweeze my eyebrows to nothing
Or paint my nails neon pink.

I'm sorry I'm more of a black-wearer
Anti-cheery and a look of unloving
Eyes darkened by annoyance
In you.

It's all about you
And because of you I'm like this
You pick on people without feeling
Without remorse.

Sympathy
You fake it
And you suck at it
So stop trying to look sorry for me.

You don't care
I've learned from years of experience
With people like you
Cold, heartless, unloving, taunting, wanna-be

Bitch.

12-12-03

i hate you
i don't care who knows
you spell everything wrong
like it's cool
but it's not.

i hate the way you smile
how you laugh
how you flirt
like it's cool
but it's not.

i hate the way you joke
how you giggle
wanting to be like everyone else
like it's cool
but it's not.

i hate the way you whine
how you act with your friends
then act around me
like it's cool
but it's not.

i hate the way you think
like it's all you
all the time
like's it's cool
but it's not.

i hate the way you always taunt
giggle and point
smile and whisper
like it's cool
but it's not.

i hate the way you look
how you act
plastic, plastered and pink
like it's cool
but it's not.

i hate the way you're always breathless
always smiling
always hurtful
like it's cool
but it's not.

i hate the way you trust me
though most of it's a lie
it's all stupid and pointless
like it's cool
but it's not.

i hate how you live
thinking you're better because you're rich
because you have money
like it's cool
but it's not.

i hate how you compare people
and i can't stand you
i can't stand you
like it's cool
but it's not.

i hate how Barbie you are
how "dress me up"
how girly and hyper
like it's cool
but it's not.

i hate how you stare
how you walk
how you wear yourself
like it's cool
but it's not.

i hate how you keep your skin
oiled and fake
plastic and lifeless
like it's cool
but it's not.

i hate your friends
they're all like you
all bright pink and giggly
like it's cool
but it's not.

i hate how i want to die
i hate you most
i hate how you force crap on people
like it's cool
but it's not.

i can't believe you
how you lie
how you think it's funny
like it's cool
but it's not.

i won't bleed for you
that will be on my own accord
you think we're friends
like it's cool
but it's not.

i hate why i hate you
and i thate that i can't stop
but i still hate you
like it's cool
but it's not.

Well, all this lovely hate poetry came to be when Shelby pissed me off.

Bitch.

Anyways, err.. I haven't posted in a long time... Well, last night, I made myself a cosplay website on Tripod. Check it oooout..

Copy and paste link:

http://x_the_happy_place_x.tripod.com

Kies? Enjoy it. If you visit it and don't feel like composing an email for yer visit, just leave a comment here, mmkai?

Well... I'm sick.. whoooo.. yippeee.. of course I'm sick DURING the bloody 3-day weekend! >.< Dammit! I have a large mound of tissues as a garbage can.. o.o;;; Eww.. where's the sanitizer?! LoL

2 boxes of tissues in 2 days.. I need another one.. I just ran out today... I think I might eat something, too.. That would be a good thing.. yanno... to... eat something.. while sick... wonder if I can find any chocolate? Or I could always do the miso paste again... OOH! I could ask mih mommy to take sickly me out to sushi! ^-^ I need some, and so does she, and it's almost lunch time! Whence, the cheapliness of bento boxes at lunch time.

Yeah yeah.. anyways.. I think I veto-ed the idea of Mega-Con and gonna wait 'til JA-Con.. We're a smidge short on the monies ^-^v But, yees, so anyways.

Le fwah.. one of my best freidns (who shalt remain nameless) totally hates our (me and my other friends') guts. -_-;;;

See, one friend (let's call her Lain) was having a birthday party last Friday. So... at Lain's last party, nameless was kind of a downer 'cause she was pissed that she couldn't sleep over at Lain's and the rest of us could. Anyways, Lain didn't want that again it's nameless couldn't sleep over, so we tried to be all sneaky and behind her back.

Fwah... it was a horrible idea. Not to mention, nameless probably never wants to speak to us again.. She was totally yelling at me through an email 'cause she didn't have everybody else's.. Le bob..

Though she can be a bit of a drama queen at time. I love nameless, but she has to tone it down. She was the "lets-kill-myslef-at-Em
s-'cause-my-life's-a-total-hell"- chick.

Lain has been through WAY more then her and never ONCE thought of the knife! It was ONE internetial boyfriend, nameless, and you want to DIE 'cause he wasn't TALKING to you?! Hmm?! That's a GREAT excuse! Ooh, and look at me! I'm dead and I'm screaming in protest in the background of a prank phone call! >.<

Holy hell and pancakes, now I'm pissed off.. I better go get some tissues and beg for sushi. Anyways, feel loved you got a post ^-^

<3 Aishiteru,

~Em-chan

:: 2004 14 January :: 1.48pm
:: Mood: shocked

I just got as close to a car accident as i ever have today.

On I-95 coming back from my Dad's house, there was an older mazda in front of me that kept swerving, it looked like his left rear wheel was mis-aligned or somethin, but anyway...you know those little protrusions in the walls around the linton, atlantic exits for the light posts? well he hit one of those and flew up the side of the wall, getting completely airborn, coming back down with the left side of the car hitting the wall before the tires even touched back down. Wasnt worried yet, but that caused the car to take a hard right and then left back into the wall in which it went about 50-0 in 3 seconds and i had to slam on the brakes to keep from hitting him. got towed to the atlantic off ramp, cop came got the story from me, turns out the guy had no license or insurance. the weirdest part is that there was not a single thing wrong with him, he was fine, perfectly fine.

:: 2004 11 January :: 10.04pm

FIRSTS

First screen name: tclonyl (yea, i know)
First piercing/tattoo: none
First credit card: none
First enemy: none
First concert: Billy Joel and Elton John!
First musician you remember hearing in your house: Vanilla Ice

LASTS

Last big car ride: Naples and back in one day
Last kiss: sophmore/junior summer
Last library book: too lnog to remember
Last movie seen: Ali G In Da House
In the theatre: the sailing movie
Last food consumed: hershey's kiss
Last phone call: will
Last CD played: Oldies Mix
Last annoyance: being cut off going home from work
Last soda drank: pepsi
Last time scolded: hott water!
Last website visited: whats a website?

SHORT ANSWER

I AM: bored
I WANT: stuff
I HAVE: stuff
I WISH: for stuff
I HATE: some stuff
I FEAR: other stuff
I HEAR: dead people?
I WONDER: if the waitress at bru's got mad for us leaving a dollar tip
I LOVE: going to sebring
I ACHE: nope
I ALWAYS: am alive
I AM NOT: dead
I DANCE: like a white boy
I SING: badly/all the time
I CRY:...but dont like to admit it sometimes
I AM NOT ALWAYS: running
I WRITE: music
I WIN: stuff
I LOSE: stuff
I CONFUSE: some stuff for other stuff
I NEED: more stuff
I SHOULD: run

YES or NO

YOU KEEP A DIARY: not a physical one
YOU LIKE TO COOK: spaghetti o's
YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVEN'T SHARED WITH ANYONE: yea, but if you ask the right question you will know what it is

DO YOU...?

HAVE A CRUSH: not in particular
WANT TO GET MARRIED: as soon as possible
GET MOTION SICKNESS: no
THINK YOURE A HEALTH FREAK: no
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: i have no parents
LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: impartial
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: brown
BIRTHPLACE: Boynton Beach

FAVORITES

NUMBER: 91
COLOR: blue
DAY: Friday
MONTH: June (stanley cup finals!)
SONG(S): Fool in the Rain
SEASON: Summer
DRINK: iced tea

PREFERENCES

CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: yes, please
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: hot choc.
MILK, DARK OR WHITE CHOCOLATE: milk
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE: chocolate

IN THE LAST DAY, HAVE YOU...

CRIED? no
HELPED SOMEONE? yes
BOUGHT SOMETHING? yes
GOTTEN SICK? no
GONE TO THE MOVIES? no
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? yes
SAID 'i love you'?: every day
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: no
TALKED TO AN EX?: yes
MISSED AN EX?: no, i see her everyday
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL?: yes
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: yes
MISSED SOMEONE?: yes, everyday
HUGGED SOMEONE?: yes
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND?: no

WOULD YOU EVER:

Eat a bug?: yes, and have
Bungee jump?: yes, and have
Kill someone?: no!
Parachute from a plane?: yes
Walk on hot coals?: hell nah
Go out with someone for their looks?: not solely
Be a vegetarian?: no
Wear plaid with stripes?: what?
IM a stranger?: yes
Sing Karaoke?: i love karaoke!
Get drunk off your Ass?: maybe one day
Shoplift?: no
Run a red light?: no
Star in a porn video?: hell yea!
Dye your hair blue?: no
Be on Survivor?: no
Wear makeup in public?: umm no
Not wear makeup in public?: yea
Cheat on a test?: no
Make someone cry?: beat them with sticks
Date someone more than 10 years older than you?: not now, lol
Stay up all night?: yea

:: 2004 11 January :: 6.56pm

jazz maaaannnnnn. so i can hum Take 5, but that doesnt help me. Im learning Blue Bossa, like with real music notation! Not tabs! Yes but Mark (my guitar instructor) has decided ive learned all i can possibly learn theorertically about playing blues and rock (i know its kinda conceited but i agree) so we are moving on to jazz, starting with a popular standard, Blue Bossa. Next gig he does he might let me sit in for a couple songs, which i would love to do, and cant wait for him to ask me.

Sebring in two months!! I have officially begun my period of excitement that precedes sebring.

:: 2004 2 January :: 3.16pm

05 Mustang - Ugly as sin
05 Corvette - just WOW, and who can I thank for the projector headlights. The base engine for the enw C6 is the old Zo6 motor, yes the base 05 corvette will pull about 405 HP and 405 lbs/in for torque. thats a 6 liter V8. and how much will all this cost? well, about the price of an 04 base model corvette. more power and styling for only about 4k more = good way to sell cars.

The enw mustang is gonna have an updated coupe and GT engine. 4L V6 with 205HP and 235lbs/in, Gt with the same 4.6L V8 but uprgraded pistons good for 300HP and 316lbs/ft. I was liking the enw msutang because of its retro look until the final version. Way to novelty if you ask me. they completely deleted andy hint of mustang familiarity on the sides while keeping a "wannabe" attempt at the classic mustang front end.the rear end is nice, even though it looks just like the front in terms of the old mustangs. the interior is finally worth looking at, with the "throwback" gagues a nice touch to go with the modern interior.

:: 2003 30 December :: 1.22pm
:: Mood: FwAh
:: Music: The voices of leetle cheeldreen..

Zipper skirts and black/purple striped over-knee socks..
LoL, I got that from Hot Topic yesterday (don't worry, Jade, I still got my gift certificate so we can go together ^.~)

They're quite comfy, eh. Zipperee skirts.. my little cousin's gettin' toooold... I understand, though, he screams alot and is really annoying and hits me when I don't move.. Garsh darn leetle cousin.. He'll get it again one day.

Yi yi yi.. yiiii.. yi yiiiii...

I <3 computers.. I'll become one one day, I swear.

JJ's eating rice cakes? o.0;;; He needs no diet..

No eatin' here tonight, you on a diiiiiet!

Groar... I wonder if my doujinshi paper has made it to my house.. or even if I could buy it.. La la LAAAA la la LAAAAAAAAAAAA la la LA la LA la LA la la LA! >.>;;

I'm bored.. I'm waiting for my girl cousins.. They's my homies. Jess and Dee.. My homiiiiiiies... LoL. Anyways, sturf.. I really have nothing to do. Lunch? Who needs lunch?

Tapioca.. Scary. That's some deep, dark, tapioca. Fwaha....

Groar. ph33r m4h l33t.

I need to start on my costumes. That would be a good idea.. I could probably start here, just which one to start first?

Jade, are we ganna cosplay the white team? Yanno?

Fwarrrrr... Cause i we are, we gotta coordinate, babe... Ya hear?

Okay.. some New Years Resolutions..

1. Loose some weight...

2. Get a boyfriend.

3. Err... Dye my hair for High School..

4. Win manga contest.. or write my own doujinshi.

5. Learn to HTML to make a shibby osome cosplay site.

6. Go to all the conventions I can.

7. Meet cosplayers in my area.

8. Make the anime club better.

9. Make the anime club better.

10. Host a con?

XD!!!! Fat chance, eh?

LoL

I visited Carol.. so I smell of cigarettes.. T.T

Ewwww... I should take a shower, eh, but I'm busy.. the computer is my braaaain...

And it is l33t..

I hope my cousins get here soon T.T I thing they might be, 'cause I kinda hear slamming car doors, but that could be playing cheelreen upsterrrrs...

So.. I'll sign this off. BAI!

<3<3 Aishiteru <3<3

~Em-chan