godessalthena
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2010 2 June :: 7.22am
Driving to work this morning, I almost forget I wasn't in Seattle. Beautiful.
I'm really happy with where I am in life right now. Amazing love. Great job. A career path. A nice apartment. I can finally see my goals as obtainable!
Occasionally I'll wish we had friends, but things are seeming to work out with Amora.. And if Sus starts school he'll make friends there for sure! I don't really think I can be friends with anyone at work.. They are all so.. Spokane. Plus in my experience making friends from work rarely works out. Sus is the only work-turned-something-else that's worked haha
But it's nice to be happy. And have health benefits. :D
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angel_bob
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2010 31 May :: 2.56am
Nick and I are moving to the Seattle area (Redmond or Bellevue, probably) next year.
This is as long as he finishes what he's doing at CC and gets accepted to the school he wants to go to out there. Both of which are very likely and probably most definitely will happen.
So, I'm already pretty nervous/excited about this. Moving out west means higher rent, higher gas prices, higher everything but it's what we've wanted to do for a long time and now we have the chance to do it. Plus it means maybe a scooter for me which ohmanissoexcitingkidsiamsoexcited.
Things I am currently nervous about:
The actual moving process
Moving our 2 cats
Finding a job
Finding a place to live
Any tips on cross-country or long distance moving between now and July 2011 would be appreciated. I have moved states before but only when I was too young to help out or know the logistics of the whole process. And it was never more than 6 hours away. Also, any Seattle advice would be welcomed with open arms.
I love you all.
P.S. This move means we definitely will get married this year. Exclamation point.
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godessalthena
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2010 30 May :: 6.46pm
So I just found out today I'll be making $19.50 an hour at my new job.
And that's without an AA degree. That's without the support of my family. That's without any number of friends in my physical realm.
That is my being extremely talented, intelligent, hard working and suffienct on my own. With the support and love of my wonderfully hot, caring and intelligent boyfriend.
I'm so thankful for everything I do have. And at this point I find it so pointless to be controlled by the negativity of others. I have a couple people who love the hell out of me and I have the skills and the potential to be successful at anything I try.
I feel so good about myself. I'm so happy with where I am. And I'm extremely excited about my future!
GO ME!
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aerii
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2010 29 May :: 12.59am
im sick of this pointless drama shit.
Don't tell me how to live my life, and that I need to get my shit together.
What shit do i have that's out of order?
God damn it.
punks.
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godessalthena
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2010 25 May :: 11.47am
Almost a 3 day weekend!
Then a 4 day weekend!
Then a Seattle weekend!
XD ahhh!! And a new job!
I know I sound like a broken record.. But damn!!
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godessalthena
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2010 21 May :: 12.54pm
Today just keeps getting better and better :D
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godessalthena
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2010 21 May :: 7.13am
My dr gave me a month of free cymbalta :)
met an amazing woman yesterday :)
get to see sus's amazing mom in a couple weeks :)
get to see Seattle in a couple more :)
starting an amazing job in a week :)
will be debt free in a few months :)
life is pretty FUCKING awesome right now
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godessalthena
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2010 18 May :: 7.11am
So! For my birthday Sus's mom is flying us up to Alaska!!!!!!
I love visiting! And we'll get to actually see theflaciers and animals!
Only roadblock to the final frontier is getting 2 days off work. I'm banking on my experience to get me excused.. I really want to go up north!!
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godessalthena
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2010 15 May :: 12.34pm
So.. Haven't fucked a girl in over a month :( and Stateline isn't helping.
I feel so ugly. Plus this recent interaction with my dad only makes me feel worse. I dint understand him.
He doesn't want me to do things to make him happy, he wants me to do things for me. So I am now and it's bad...? Damn double standards. I will never win.
I find that my pessimism is addictive. I don't want it but I need it to survive.
do you still believe?
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godessalthena
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2010 15 May :: 1.34am
i want a steady girl
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godessalthena
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2010 11 May :: 11.07am
I'm so tired of them making me feel like shit.
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angel_bob
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2010 10 May :: 1.45pm
I got an invite to my high school reunion. The thought of going makes me want to cry.
I just saw these people. I haven't changed. My hair is a little shorter, I guess. I got new glasses. I've been dating the same guy I dated in high school for almost 6 years now and I've been living with him for the past 3 years. I'm a supervisor in a call center. None of these things make me want to see these people.
Oh and look at what the invite says: "Remember parents, even though children aren't invited, bring pictures!!" SOME OF THESE PEOPLE HAVE KIDS. KIDS THAT I HAVE TO FEIGN INTEREST IN. I'M NOT EVEN ENGAGED. PUKE PUKE PUKE.
Also, if I wanted to reconnect or see any of these people, I'd already have done so.
That being said, I still haven't decided if I'm going.
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godessalthena
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2010 9 May :: 10.51am
Went to josh's birthday party last night!! Had a great time and talked to some peole I never thought I'd eve talk to haha Josh did an amazing light show for me (3 acutally) and Nik did too! And I totally kicked everyone's ass too!
And I tried shasish which was hella fun! And I found out it's just vapor.. And now I'm considering getting one cuz the smoke is so fun!
Then I got to cuddle with my cat boi and have some yummy fun :3 it was a great night!
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godessalthena
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2010 5 May :: 12.13pm
I just got hired at Liberty Mutual!
Which means:
annual salary $31,400
full benefits from day 1
11 days paid vacation per year
15 sick days per year
debt free in 2 months
NEW CAR
ahhhhhhhh success
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godessalthena
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2010 4 May :: 6.56pm
Is it honestly too much to ask to have more than one or two worthwhile people in your entire life who care?
I mean.. I know Sus cares.. And my sister is great when we hang out..
But all people here do is make me feel like shit for being me, for sharing my feelings, for expecting people to actually be a friend.. But no. People don't give a fuck no matter how loudly I scream for help, no matter how many times I try to ask...
I honestly feel like every single person I have ever cared about here thinks I'm a worthless piece of shit who's broken and just... Garbage.
Maybe I am. One person loves me unconditionally. One person reaches out when I need them.. And the rest blame me fo them not helping.
I am so scared to run out of my medicine. I don't want to die, but I know I will want to once they run out.
I just want to be happy.
To feel loved.
To not have every negative thought I have reinforced by the people in my life.
I quit.
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godessalthena
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2010 4 May :: 11.23am
So.. We have two plans.
Plan a is awesome
Plan b will suck but is manageable
both lead to happiness in the end.. And both have a sucky part..
But just knowing that we actually have 2 viable plans makes me feel so much better about my life.
This is the first time in a lot time I feel like a goal
is achieveable
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godessalthena
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2010 4 May :: 8.42am
Good lord freaking BRR!!
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godessalthena
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2010 3 May :: 7.11am
I'm living for the weekend.
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godessalthena
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2010 28 April :: 1.03pm
XD
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godessalthena
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2010 28 April :: 11.05am
:(
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aerii
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2010 26 April :: 2.51pm
Working on a kickass summer playlist.
This summer is looking better and better.
Now I just have to finish school and kick biology's ass so I can really enjoy my break.
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godessalthena
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2010 26 April :: 5.51am
I remember a time when always looking amazing was very important to me..
Now I don't really give a crap when I go out.
I kinda miss being that vain, just because I felt better about myself..
Spokane has made me a lazy fuck. I need to change that.
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godessalthena
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2010 24 April :: 4.55pm
I wish moving was easier.
I wish life would stop taking a crap all over me.
I'm done with Spokane. Once I finally leave I am NEVER coming back. For any reason.
I have never hated a place more than I hate this place.
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godessalthena
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2010 23 April :: 7.12am
I woke up this mornig being caressed by my lover and with images of Seattle in my mind.. I could see all my favorite places so clearly.. And I could feel love and warmth in Sus's touch and it was at that moment I realized where all my passion has gone..
I never lost it.. I just wasn't used to it being so concentrated in so few things. I used to be passionate about so much and now.. Every ounce is focused into the twobest and most important things in the world:
my lover and my home.
Its like everything I am and that ever was and every will be is focused on my love of these two things. It's an incredible feeling :)
i've never felt more. I've never been happier. I might explode when we get back to Seattle :)
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aerii
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2010 21 April :: 7.40pm
This is the definition of my life
Lying in bed in the sunlight
Choking on the vitamin tablet
The doctor gave in the hope of saving me
In the hope of saving me
Walked in the corner of the room
A junk yard fool with eyes of gloom
I asked him time again
Take me in and dry the rain
Take me in and dry the rain
Take me in and dry the rain
Take me in and dry the rain, the rain
The rain, the rain, the rain now
Dusty brown boots in the corner
By the ironing board
Spray on dust is the greatest thing
Sure is the greatest thing
Since the last, since the last
Walked in the corner of the room
A junk yard fool with eyes of gloom
I asked him time again
Take me in and dry the rain
Take me in and dry the rain
Take me in and dry the rain
Take me in and dry the rain, the rain
The rain, the rain, the rain now
I asked him time again
Take me in and dry the rain
Take me in and dry the rain
Take me in and dry the rain
Take me in and dry the rain
The rain, the rain, the rain now
If there's something inside that you want to say
Say it out loud, it'll be okay
I will be alright
I will be alright
I will be alright
I will be alright
I need love
I need love
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aerii
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2010 21 April :: 3.13pm
too much death this year.
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godessalthena
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2010 21 April :: 7.11am
I am so torn between wanting to stay at this amazing job and wanting to move back to Seattle. I mean Seattle wins hands down when it comes down to everything... Except money/finacial security. At this point I think we are on the plan where after our lease is up we'll go month to month until we have enough to go home.. But who knows when that will be? We want to have a good store of money. And..
Well if you like at it like this: I'll be making approximately $1100 each paycheck so that's $2200 every month. Right now we are living off my wage of $700 a month pulse what Sus is making (I don't care to discuss his $$ it's his to discuss). So that means that if we can exist on $700 (which includes entertainment) we'll have an extra $1500 a month to save round-about. That means in 4 months we'll have $6000 which is a fairly decent amount to move with. And that's just on my end.
The part Im worried about is finding a job over there. The only reason why I'd want to stay is after a year of working here I could ge my adjustor's lisence and get a claims adjusting job in Seattle making at least the same amount. And that looks really good to the logical/unfeeling side of me. The prospect of staying in Spokan for another year is probably one of the most repulsive thoughts that has crossed my mind..
I guess it just really boils down to this autumn. How we feel and what we save...
Here's to hope!
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godessalthena
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2010 18 April :: 11.49am
:: Mood: sick
Sick.. Grumpy.. :(
I just want to buy an interview outfit I feel confident it. That's all I want to do.
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godessalthena
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2010 17 April :: 7.30pm
I wish I could just be depressed again.
Damn addictions.
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godessalthena
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2010 16 April :: 1.47pm
Caught a cold :(
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