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duckie

:: 2008 5 July :: 11.16pm

I lost my WoW virginity today. I feel kind of dirty, like I need to wash my hands, but I'll get over it.

Mainly I feel like weaksauce because I said I would never play it, but I finally gave in to the peer pressure and temptation that was supplied by Pj and Kelly.

We're getting a canary too. Soon. Hopefully after I get my half of the stimulus check. Which should be sometime this week if Shawn doesn't have his head up his ass.

Kbai.

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duckie

:: 2008 3 July :: 11.31am

I vacuumed and cleaned out the microwave which made me feel slightly better about how horribly this morning has been going. I'm now very much wishing we had hot water so I could take a damn shower.

I'm very glad that I opted to stay home for the carpet guy. They left the door open the whole damn time which means that Slayer and Stabby would be god knows where at this point, and it would have been my fault. I didn't think about locking them up somewhere until I saw the carpet van thingy in front of our building, and then I was like hm. I should probably put them in the bathroom.

I cleaned the microwave while he was doing his thing, and then I vacuumed after he left. And then I heard from Chassa.

Her mom had a mastectomy not too long ago, and they did a tummy tuck and used the fat from there to make her a new bewb. Well, apparently her incision on her stomach got infected really bad, and it got into her blood. She's currently in ICU unable to breathe without the use of a respirator.

So once again I feel helpless because Chassa pretty much my fucking sister, and I'm here in Michigan unable to be there for her the way I want to be. I'm scared as hell for her mom too because cancer is not something to mess around with. My dad walked down that road, and thankfully he made it through just fine. Not everyone is that lucky though, and I've had bad feelings about this from the start. I'm so scared she's not going to make it, and even more scared about how Chassa is going to handle it if things reach that point.

I've only been up for 3 fucking hours. What else will go wrong? =[

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duckie

:: 2008 3 July :: 9.06am

4 months, yay!

I barely slept at all last night. I had some stupid dream about my teeth falling out, and every time I have a dream like that it really REALLY creeps me out. So I tossed and turned all night long. I was exhausted, but I couldn't manage to actually fall asleep. I kind of slept for an hour or two after Pj left for work, and when my alarm went off, it left me feeling hung over. My eyes are heavy, my muscles are shaky, and I'm crabbier than a mother fucker.

And to top it all off, I have a feeling today is going to go by excruciatingly slow because tomorrow is the start of a 3 day weekend, AND the 4th which is one of my favorite holidays. So of course my silent wish for my day to go by fast will not be granted because I never get that kind of luck.




I'm just tired. And I want to cry. I hate feeling like this.

Oh, and to top it all off, I get to most likely spend the last weekend of July all by my damn self because there's no way I'll be able to go to Farmington for the CQC airsoft game. There's only 3 tellers, and Becky already requested off for that weekend =[ I won't get out of work until 5 or 6, and they're already be there by then. Today sucks. A lot =[

One more edit. To make my morning even worse, we don't have any fucking hot water for the 2nd time in a week. So now I'm just pissed. Pissed. Frustrated. Crying. =[

Oh and the maintenance guy came over at like 10:20am and asked if someone was going to be home so that the carpet cleaning guy was coming over. He had no idea what time the guy was coming, and I said that Pj would for sure be here around 2, but I guess that wasn't good enough. So now here I am. Waiting. Still pissed. Still frustrated. Still on the edge of tears.

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duckie

:: 2008 2 July :: 8.31pm

Chase bank in Caledonia is opening up a 20 hour teller position in case anyone is interested. Kthxbai.

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duckie

:: 2008 30 June :: 10.27am

Corny as FUCK, but I still smiled when I heard it =] ILMSH!


We should get jerseys
Cause we make a good team
But yours would look better than mine
Cause you're out of my league

And I know that it's so cliche
To tell you that everyday
I spend with you is the new best day of my life
And everyone watching us
Just turns away with disgust
This jealously
They can see that we've got it going on

I can not wait for a new improved way
To let you know you're more to me than what I know how to say
You're ok with the way this is going to be
Cause this is going to be the best thing we've ever seen

If anyone could make me a better person, you could
All I gotta say is I must have done something good
You came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I gotta say is I must have done something right
I must have done something right

Maybe I'm just lucky
Cause it's hard to believe
That somebody like you'd end up with someone like me
And I know that it's so cliche
To talk about you this way
But I'll push all my inhibitions aside
It's so very obvious
To everyone watching us
That we have got something real good going on

I can not wait for a new improved way
To let you know you're more to me than I know how to say
You're ok with the way this is going to be
Cause this is going to be the best thing that we've ever seen

If anyone could make me a better person, you could
All I gotta say is I must have done something good
You came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I gotta say is I must have done something right
I must have done something right

If anyone could make me a better person, you could
All I gotta say is I must have done something good
You came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I gotta say is I must have done something right
I must have done something right

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duckie

:: 2008 30 June :: 9.12am

I'm only going to say this once.
I have a big problem with unavailable men/boys openly flirting and/or hitting on girls. The question is WHY. Whether you do it publicly or privately where only you two are around, WHY WOULD YOU DO IT. Have you ever thought about how your girlfriend/fiance/wife would feel if she saw it/heard it/found out about it? Have you ever wondered how you would feel if you heard about/saw her saying those things to another guy especially behind your back?

Guys may not always be the jealous types although I do know that some exist, but females are a different story. It hurts--a LOT-- when their significant other flirts with and hits on other females.

Maybe it's just me because Loren did that allllll the time. 3 years of my life that I wasted on hoping he would change. It was enough to completely jade me on the topic, and hearing about guys that do this pisses me off to no end. KNOWING guys that do this is even worse, and it doesn't sit well with me.

I have hopes that I have found a guy who is above all of this, and I don't want to hear 'it's a guy thing,' because that is NOT an acceptable answer. Getting hurt over and over again isn't worth said "guy things."

I wish she would understand that.

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duckie

:: 2008 28 June :: 6.51pm

Hilariousness
Soooo I learned how to drive a manual transmission car in about 20 minutes. I still need to work on starting from a dead stop, but I'm sure that ownage will come in due time. If it's nice tomorrow, I'll probably beg Pj to take me out again; it's a LOT of fun =D

Funny story.

Pj stole my bowl of spaghettios and made me think that I was actually crazy. I thought I had forgotten where I put it. Kelly checked the fridge and the cupboard, and he made me close and open the microwave again to make sure it didn't magically appear. Pj was awfully quiet through all of this, so finally I was like HEY. What did you do. Aaand there I saw my bowl of spaghettios on my desk. I was laughing so fucking hard and crying because I really thought that I was crazy. You probably would have had to be there to experience the true humor, but it was pretty great.

I called my dad immediately afterwards, and the story made him swell with pride. He was pretty happy that Pj did a good job haha.

Winsauce, and stuff.

I need to go to Barnes and Noble; my book is almost finished.

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duckie

:: 2008 26 June :: 7.16am

Hi.

How do you think Rick Astley feels knowing that he Rick Rolls hundreds of people every day?

I'm pretty much really glad that it's Thursday and that today is my last day of classroom training. Early lunch today, and as soon as we're done, we'll be able to leave. I just hope that Julian doesn't take for fucking EVER, because I'm ready for the weekend. I get to go to my branch tomorrow and enter my time, which I'm REALLY excited for, and hopefully pick up my pay check and go shopping. Apparently I need black pants with POCKETS. I don't own black pants with pockets. Eff you.

Hopefully I'll get my new check card today for my account that's full of epic winsauce.

Anyway. I need to get ready for work and leave early so I can pick up teh cunt from her hotel like I offered to yesterday after I dropped her off =| Curse me for being so nice, but unfortunately she's going to have to find something to do until her husband can get her, because I can't handle her for that long after class.

Peace homeskillets.

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duckie

:: 2008 25 June :: 12.38pm

I hate the other girl in my class, and I really just want to punch her in the throat so I never have to hear her talk again.

The other guy in my class is pretty um.. well he doesn't seem to catch on too quickly which makes for a really irritating and long day.

I'm REALLY crabby, and I am not looking forward to anyone crossing my goddamn path today.

And Kelly, I cleaned the cat box on my lunch hour, but I'm fairly certain that wasn't the problem. I apologize to you on behalf of the cats.

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duckie

:: 2008 25 June :: 7.41am

I love my Dad a lot, and I'm really glad that he's there for me through all of the crap that I've had to deal with.

Shawn is a gutless pussy whipped sorry excuse for a man. Maybe one day he'll learn to stick up for himself, and not let his mother brainwash him into every decision SHE wants him to make. Or maybe he'll always holy shit.

HOLY SHIT. He's just like Loren. Just. Like. Loren. That's sad. Really sad, even. And kind of funny.

Again I'm finding myself thankful that Pj has a damn good head on his shoulders. Love himmmm.

Go time, imo.

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duckie

:: 2008 24 June :: 6.51am

Forever.
1. without ever ending; eternally: to last forever.
http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/forever

Yes please!

Anyway.

Pj and/or Kelly:
I need help =[ I can't get Windows Live to install for some ridiculous reason, so if one of you could take a look when you get home and fix it for me, that would be wonderful. I'm really pissed off right now, and I don't particularly want to deal with it when I get home from work. The only thing I can think of as the issue is for the OS requirements, it says XP SP2 or Vista, and after the updates that installed last night, I'm running SP3. I'm at a loss =[ Thanks if you mess around with it, and it will be muchhh appreciated <3 Oh, and can you guys link me to FMF's forums? My mouse like disappears when I try to click on the damn link, so I can't get to it.

Class room training today. Tomorrow. Thursday. WIN. Except for not so much. I'm going to miss my branch =[ I have a lot that I need to learn though, so I suppose it's a good thing, and I'm only on 28th St which is quite a bit closer, so yay for that. I hope this week goes by fast though so that I can learn everything I need to and actually get my own cashbox. I absolutely HATE shadowing people, and I just want to do it on my own. And I want to go up to 32 hours.. maybe Becky will go into early labor *crosses fingers* I'm horrible.

Oh, and a HUGEEEEEEE thank you to Pj and Kelly for getting rid of Vista for me =D I am finally running on XP which is what this machine is built for, and I can already tell it will be on top of its game. Excitement! I just need to install CoD and AoC when I get home which is fail, but whatever.

Go time!

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duckie

:: 2008 23 June :: 10.29am

Blah blah blahhh
I went into the Chase on 28th today. Gag me with a butter knife, please. It was so quiet in there, you could hear the emo kids cutting themselves in the bathroom. =[ I'm glad that I'm at the branch in Caledonia =D <3


My cats are sitting right next to each other staring out the window at a bird; it's fucking cute, and I wish they would stop melting my soul. I know that the second I get up to grab my camera, one or both will move. Whores.

Thanks to everyone at Bill's homecoming party for allowing me to be friend-whorey. You guys are great <3

Oh, and I'm learning how to drive stick this weekend, because we agreed that the next weekend that we had nothing to do, Pj would teach me. =x I'm slightly nervous... I'm sorry if I break your car, SH

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duckie

:: 2008 22 June :: 8.37am

Have I mentioned how much I LOVE Michigan?
Friday night couldn't have possibly been better. I met a ton of really awesome people, and again, welcome home Bill =] I'll see you soon!

Yesterday was full of epicsauce aside frommm going to bed at like 415 this morning? I'm tired as fuck, and maybe still sort of drunk? Water ingestion is win, as are bagels to absorb teh liquorz.

Today is going to be hit or miss. I'm running on about 4ish hours of sleep. I'm tired as fuckkk, and I get to spend all day out in the sun taking pictures of the WMIA and FMF boys. I love it, but I don't love it when my eyes feel like they weigh a million tons a piece. Bill will be there though as will the FMF boys aside from my number one DB, so it will be a good time.





I don't think I can remember the last time I had such an amazing weekend. =D

Edit: I miss Chassa. And my parents. I think that a trip back to the homeland should happen soon-ish. We're directly across the lake from them which is all sorts of exciting =D

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duckie

:: 2008 20 June :: 7.48am

Game over.
My subconscious and I are currently not on speaking terms. This is the second morning this week where I have woken up ridiculously upset because of some stupid and random dream, and because I actually shed tears, we're no longer talking.

7 hours until WEEKEND. Yes, I actually kind of get one of those now [even if I ever work on Saturday's, 1:30 leaves me the whole day to do stuff].

Off to work so that I can be in a good mood.
Ilmshsfm, kty.

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duckie

:: 2008 19 June :: 9.41am

Yup.
Crest Whitestrips are pretty win, except for the bottom one starts to get gooey in the back, which can taste pretty gross =[ I should get more becauseeee I'm a pretty big fan of my teeth being pearly white.

I was in a bad mood when I went to work yesterday.. and it didn't last long by the time I got there lol. I actually got to DO stuff while I was being shadowed, which was awesome. I guess I was the first person to finish the online training, which is good, I think? I wanted to fly through it because I don't learn that way. I need to ACTUALLY be doing stuff to learn it, not just reading and/or watching. I'll get to perform transactions all day today and tomorrow too. Win =D

In other newssss. I'm finally meeting Bill tomorrow which I am equally excited and nervous about =x I think I'm more nervous about feeling out of place, because I'm sure everyone is going to know everyone else, and they're all going to have stuff to talk about, I'll just be standing there.

No one leaves me comments anymore, so you guys SUCK. With the exception of Lizzy who left me a comment yesterday. <3

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