I have an Advance Biology chapter test tomorrow over all the body systems, the anterior and posterior body landmarks, and a million other things. I don't think I'll do that bad, but then again I have no idea so... we'll see how that goes.

Monday night Karl and I got into a fight. I hate smoking. It might have something to do with like my entire family dying of lung cancer whether it be from smoking them selves or second hand smoke. Anyway, Karl used to smoke and he said he would quit for me and he did... until last weekend. He was talking to me when he told Bubba that he was going outside for a smoke. I was like "... what?" and he was like "oh..." and told me that he bought a pack over the weekend and oh my gosh I was so upset I like started crying and ooh I was just so pissed. He had promised me the first time that he wouldn't smoke again, and he broke that promise. He promised that night that it would be his last and that he wouldn't do it again, but I don't know if I can trust him to keep that promise if he's already broke it once, which puts me in a really bad spot because I want to be able to trust him. I can trust him.. I know that smoking is hard to stop so maybe I should give him some slack, but then he **PROMISED** me that he wouldn't and you shouldn't promise if you know that you won't keep it, or at least have any doubt that you might not be able to keep the said promise. Right? Am I being to difficult with this one? Should I just forgive him and move on, or should I dwell on the fact that he made a promise and knowingly broke it?

So...Yes, it has been quite a while since I've last updated. If you have complaintes...stick them up your ass because I don't care about them. Anyway, school started Thursday and I've had homework every night. This is deffinitly my hardest year. Weird thing? I remember Kelly telling me that His Junior year was sure to be his hardest. Strange I know.
anyway, my schedual falls as this :
1st - Mixed Choir
2nd - World History
3rd - English III
4th - Anatomy & Physiology (Adv. Bio.)
5th - Mass Media
6th - Animal Science
7th - Algebra II

yeah, may not Seem hard, but ... it is
*cries*
I am so stressed out. oh, and every day we have either a quiz or a test in adv. bio. a quiz you can use your notes, but a test you caint. Mr. Terry is a cool guy, but his classes are freakin hard.
In Example: Today at the end of the hour he told us that by tomorrow we have to have all of the Anterior and Prosterior body landmarks memorized for a TEST ... tomorrow. yay...
*cries again*

Other than that my life has been full of nothing other than talking with Karl every single day. We had our first fight. Kind of ... well ok no not really a fight. He pissed me off (of course i don't even remember why now, but oh well) and i didn't talk to him for like a whole 5 minutes, and the whole time (like it was a long time...pshh) he was like "aww baby I'm sorry..." blah blah blah. I ended up feeling really bad so I started talkin to him again obviously. But yeah...

Tessi informed me that her and I are going to a party next weekend and getting shit faced. I don't know about this, but maybe. I'll think about it. Sounds fun, but I don't know if I'll end up being a big whore and ... yeah. I've never been drunk so I don't know.

I need to go to school again to finish this damn schedual ordeal, but Ashley hurt her back doing something and cannot drive. Now, being 16, I should be able to drive myself right? Wrong. I have yet to get my license. I simply don't enjoy driving, therefore I keep putting it off. Besides, I cannot get the whole parallel parking scheme down. I shall work on this and then go get the damned thing. Yes. Ok
I need to get the fuck out of Art, and ... well other than that I have it good seeing as how Mr. Roller gave me an Independant Study for Ag I during sixth hour. yay.

I slept until noon today. Well, actually 11:45. I only woke up because Karl called. He always calls me during his lunch hour so we can talk. Anyway, I didn't go to bed until 4:00 in the morning, so it's no wonder I slept until then. I'm actually still really tired and I want to go back to sleep, but I'm sure Ashley would have a conniption and kill me for leaving her alone with the kids (who are being a pain in the ass today) when she can barely move (because of her back) so I guess I'll just go drink a few cups (or pots) of coffee and actually go to bed tonight. I need to work on getting up early anyway, what with school only ... holy fuck, only three days away. I Still need to go shopping. Fuck this. Hopefully this year will go by fast.

On another note, I'm in the process of finding a dress... it is quite fun. yay me!
Rachel

Last night Karl asked me where I would go if I could go anywhere in the world.... I said Cambodia because it's really pretty and for some reason I've just always wanted to go there. So... he said he would take me there for our honeymoon!!! I'm so excited now. After that we talked about kids ... yep. We both want a big family so we decided on 4. I had always wanted 3, but then there would always be one left out and I definitly want more than just 2 so 4 was the obvious choice. He freaked out because I said I didn't want to have any drugs. Mom had all of us natural and came out just fine and I've always wanted to have my kids natural. He said he just doesn't want to see me in that kind of pain, but yeah... he's a little girl and I'll be fine. I laughed at him a lot but anyway. This afternoon we talked about our wedding... yep. We plan on getting married pretty soon after I graduate. I want an Autum wedding, always have... but anyway, he said that I could have fun and plan it. I've always wanted to get married in my church. My grandparents did and so did my mom and dad... it's kind of a family thing, but his parents live in Utah... and I don't know I would feel horrible for making them travel up here...but I don't know. We'll figure it out later. Plenty of time.

On a different note, we're having a surprise birthday party for my gramma Prewitt tonight at my Aunt Jeannie's.... It's promising to be Very boring and sure to drag on forever but oh well, I love gramma so I'll put up with it. Hmm.... yep that's all there is to do tonight. When I get home I gotta call my baby and then we'll talk forever, but that's the norm
*smile*
I'm so in love... it's wonderful.

Alright, I need to go figure out what to wear tonight and... *sniffs* .. yep, I need a shower also. So, catch yall later
Rach

More ramblings
8 days before school starts.
I went up to school today to attempt and get my schedual worked out and I got most of it done, but ... well here's what I have as of this afternoon:

1st - Algebra II
2nd - World History
3rd - English III
4th - Ag I
5th - Mass Media
6th - Elem. Aide
7th - Art I

Ha... I caint draw..but anyway, I HAVE to have Adv. Bio and I NEED to have Spanish II. They're both during 4th hour too, but I have to have Ag. I too....So, I'll ditch Span. II for this year, save it for Senior, and I'll probably ditch Elem. Aide and take an Independant Study for Adv. Bio. during that hour. Mr. Terry usually doesn't do that many Ind. Studies, but...well he loves me so it'll probably work out.
Um...yeah, pretty much ... yeah. ok i'm done, nothin else to say other than MSN is bein a shit head and won't let me change my name. I hate that damn piece of shit but I would die without it

Rachel

9 days until school starts...yay...
*gags*
I still need to go get some more clothes, I don't have Nearly enough jeans, I need underwear and I seen some cute shirts that I want. Ha, and of course I need shoes. Ooh Tessi and I decided that we're going to dress up in skirts and heels a lot this year. I wanted to last year but...no. This year I'm definitly going to though. I like that look and I love skirts so this shall be an exciting year.

Oh, Karl gave me a ring...no, not that kind of ring ... yet ... this one is his ring he got from basic training. He said that I would be getting a shinier ring after he gets back. lol I almost started crying but anyway.
He said that, unless it gets changed, he gets shipped out November 19. I'm pretty scared but I caint show it. One day I was crying about it and mom had a coniption and killed me, saying that I have to just get out and not dwell on it, and she's right but whatever, she's mom.

So, I have strep throat and I'm pretty sure I have the flu also. My muscles are all So damn sore, I can barely move without dying and I've lost my voice and I keep throwing up, which is just peachy for my fuckin sore throat *rolls eyes*
Anyway, It's fucking hot so I'm gonna go take a freezing cold shower. Yay.
Rachel

Karl and his friend Bubba (no, not his real name, but his real name is basically impossible to say, let alone spell, but he also goes by Crespo) came down and we hung out in Illinois Friday night, and Saturday. We left there at about 2:00. They decided to go home with us. Unexpected but not unwanted. We drove forever (7 hours) and stopped by Wheaton at the fire house. We decide to stay because they're having a cruise. Like none of my friends was there so we decided to go to Monett. We got home and eventually went to bed. Sunday we wake up and go to church....this part was interesting seeing as how I'm Baptist, Crespo is Pentacostal (sp) (I think...) and Karl...is kind of nothing, but maybe Mormon...or some shit, I don't even know which is bad but oh well. After church we went back to Monett but there was Nothing to do (because it's Monett...) so we decided to watch a movie. Well...we felt bad for Crespo so I called Tessi and we went and picked her up. He liked her Sooo much but she didn't like him and yeah, I felt really bad, but it wasn't exactly my fault...but yeah, it was bad. She was nice enough to him though. Anyway, we went and ate at Mazzio's pizza, then went and bought tickets to watch The Bad News Bears, but we had like 40 minutes before it started and Tessi freaked out because now Wal-Mart sells water bras and she wanted to go buy one. So...yes, we made them take us there to buy bras. Sad part? Tessi and I are both quite...large up there, and the biggest size was 36 C so we couldn't get one. Kind of pissed us off but oh well. Hmm...oh, we then went and watched the movie, went back to Tessi's house and called Jo. Hell fire was she pissed, but she didn't answer when I had tried to call her, and she wasn't at the cruise the night before or at church that morning. Anyway, she had a coniption and came over to Tessi's house and we all sat around doing nothing. It was actually pretty fun. Jo left at like 7:30 - 8:00 and we left around 10:00. We came back and Karl freakin made me drive his truck. He has a stupid clutch. I like killed us but it was really fun. He says I did a good job but I'm quite sure he was just being nice. lol he told me to pick it up to 25 and so I was watching the speedometer (or whatever) and not the road...lmao yeah it was funny he was like "Holy shit Rach, you have to watch the road hun!!" haha it was grand. Crespo was in the bed of the truck, and before you go thinkin we're horrible people, it was by his own choice, we didn't force him back there...anyway, he was like screamin and shit lmao he was so freakin hilarious. Anyway, we get home at like 10:30 or some where around there and so we just sat out in the bed of his truck and talked forever. It was quite fun. Crespo ended up climbing in the cab and sleeping and ... well ... ha, Karl and I had some fun ... but anyway, at around 2 dad came out and made me go inside and go to bed. Kind of stunk, but it was ok. This morning we got up late and did nothing. At 12:00 Karl took me up to the school to get my schedual, which the school fucked up. I'll tell more on that in a minute. Anyway, we get back home around 12:30 and Crespo says that he wants to go say goodbye to Tessi, so I go call her and tell her that we're coming over, but her Ex was there, along with Johanna. Karl said oh well and so we went anyway. Crespo was aparently joking because he didn't really know where we were going and then we show up at Tessi's house and he has a coniption and then I felt really bad once again but...well yeah. Anyway, we get back home at 1:45 and then mom and Karl talked about the fastest way for them to get back and then they left. I then went, took a shower and slept forever.

Now, about my freakin schedual.... this is what they gave me:
1st - Algebra II
2nd - World History
3rd - Contmp ISS / Psychology
4th - Advanced Biology
5th - Ag I
6th - Elementry Aid
7th - Creative Writing / Novels

Ok...nice and dandy? Horse shit. I don't even know what the fuck third hour is, I've already had Creative Writing / Novels, and freakin Elementry Aid is for the fuckin Seniors most of the time. I didn't even write that shit down on my list of classes I needed. I needed Alg. II, World History, Adv. Bio, Ag I, Spanish II, English III, and freakin Mass Media, a FACS class or a typing class, which ever one I could get into on that one. Yeah...fuckers. But then again we got a new councler, principle and V.P. this year. Ha, yeah, all our people quit. Quite wonderful. Anyway, they were Way to busy up there for me to do anything about it today so mom's gonna take me back up there tomorrow. Oh I was so freakin pissed. All Juniors have to take English III. Why the hell wouldn't they even GIVE me an English class???? Freakin morons. Anyway, I'm pissed again so now I'll be going.
Rachel

So basically I have 8 replies to my last update, and that just might be a record for me. Makes me excited.

I cooked supper tonight and I have to say I did a pretty damn good job. Ashley helped a LITTLE bit for you see, I do Not touch raw meat, I never have been able to, and I'm obviously still not able to. But anyway, she made the hamburger patties, and then I fried them, along with potatoes, and then I put some corn on. I thought we've had enough salads this week so I would be nice and clog our arteries.
I know, I'm too nice.

Ashley punched me in the cheek (yes on purpose, but not meaning to hit me hard, and we were just playing around) and yeah...it bruised and so now I have some nice coloring to my face. Yay. ... she's such a shit face.
We're getting a long a Lot more now for some reason. We go through so many freakin little periods of time where we either hate eachother or are always in one anothers company laughing so much we get killed by our parents. Anyway, I just remembered a wonderful story so:

Our neighbors granddaughter was over at his house and she's around Taylors age, so she came over to play with Tay and Trevor. Well, I was in the kitchen doin the potatoes and Ashley was making the patties, and Amanda (obviously the granddaughter) came in asking for a drink of water. Well, Taylor and Trevor decided they just Had to crowd in the kitchen with all of us and they were like Way to close to me so I was screaming at Taylor and Ashley was like "Rachel, calm down, you don't want to go back to anger management." Well, Amanda was over by Ashley and she whispered to her "She's already Been? She looks like she would be nice..." and then Taylor leaned over me towards the sink and stuck her elbow in my face and I was like "Taylor, get any closer and I'll freakin stab your elbow" ... yes, I know I'm violent, I've come to terms with this, leave me alone ... and Amanda was like "...or I could be wrong". It was quite funny.

Gettin the fuck outta here
well my people we (mom, dad and I) are heading out at 6 in the morning to go to Illinois. The time sucks but the destination is about perfect
*stary eyes*
We (ok, he) decided to come steal me away and we're gonna go back to his barracks and hang out. yeah...only because he will more than likely get stuck doing work this weekend which SUCKS ASS. I asked mom and dad if that would be ok, and surprisingly mom was like "I guess, but you can only take granny panties and you cain't shave until Saturday night" I was like...ha...yeah right. and by the way, No, I do Not own ANY granny panties. *shudders*
Anyway, dad freaked out and was like "Where will you sleep? It won't be in the same room as him" I was like "dad...that's the only spot that I Would be able to sleep at, and don't worry, I'll make him sleep in the floor or something" Ha...we all know that wouldn't happen, but we can pretend for the moment. It's not as if we could do anything Anyway, because his room mate will be there probably the Whole flippin time. Yeah...Eww.
Anyway, dad still freaked out and had a coniption (sp) so I don't know if I'll be able to stay down there with him. If not, then hell, it's only 2 hours away. I'll sneak away in the middle of the night...haha. Yeah, sneaking onto an Army base to do the dirty. Fuck that, I would probably get killed.
Eww I'm scared that some Sargents gonna yell at me and make me do push ups for the hell of it. I'd probably cry. No, I freakin Would cry. I don't know, I'm done thinking about that scariness.
I really wanted to go shopping but dad said that I didn't need to go buy more underwear because I was keeping them hidden from Karl's eyes and so what did it matter. Yeah...poor, innocent daddy. Haha.
I think that I'm actually kind of nervous about going, because I'm not dumb enough to think that we won't end up having sex, but I try to kid myself and be like "Oh, that won't happen, there won't even be Time for it to happen blah blah blah". I mean, yeah, I might end up not being ready and so we won't, and he would be fine with that, he's already told me that we won't go that far until I swear to him up and down that I'm completely ready, so basically I have nothing to worry about.
Yeah ...
Weird, I know...

Ok then, that's enough details for now I guess
Rachel

Well...Karl's comin this weekend so Yay! Mom and dad have to go to Illinois for some classes for the fire department so they might drag me along and have him go there instead of five million miles to my house and we'll just hang out at the hotel or where ever while they're away...hehehe...
No get your heads outta the gutters, he's bringing a friend so we're gonna be supervised...heh
Anyway! omg he decided to buy me a little ribbon thing...like the "Support our troops" one, only it's black and says "Support Road Head" ...yeah...i'm so kickin his ass for that. He also bought me a shot glass (i collect them) but he got it from Spencers, And he won't tell me what it says so I'm kind of scared of it...
Anyway, i'm pretty tired of typing so i'm gonna go
Rach