im all wet.
so im wet and stuff from 9th period. or from lack of 9th period. me alex and amanda didnt go. stood outside. now im all wet. today was normal. squeed balls bettween my legs in gym u know a normal day

Silly test


YOU ARE OLD SCHOOL PUNK!

You are so anti-social you've become the talk of
the town. You used to spend all day riding on
your skateboard and growing your mohawk, but
now you are on to bigger dreams. Your ambitions
to spend your life strung out on drugs and to
spend a whole year with out a shower is really
taking off. From the Ramones to Bad Brains you
are the true punk fan. Indeed, you are the envy
of nobody, but the attention you get all the
time is well worth it. Its a dirty job, but
someones gotta do it.


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ah im super bored.
so i dont know what to talk about really just the fact that im really bored. i went to paint a random picture before. randomly. even know i lack artisic stills. i still did. and then someone how it go all wet. so i got pissed. and i gave up. then i went to sleep for like 3hours. and i dont know where everyone is online right now but there is no one to speek with so i think ill be going to sleep soon. i think i sleeped to much today.

today was a normal days
so did today i went to school. i didnt get in trouble for not going to math like i thought i did. works almost over. today was sad. haha all the little kids dont want me to leave they love me hehe they say im a good after care person. oh those kiddies are so sweet. and they want me to bring my friends. and they made me chace off these boys today it was silly

today was a nice day
so i had school today. it was a nice day since i didnt go any work reallly and i didnt go to 9th period and played with that kid alex. hes a really cool kid. from the side he really looks like james. i was guna tell him but i didnt. but james is ugly. and alex isnt as ugly ...well anyways i went on then bus and anoyed "ozzy" cuz thats my buss drvies name haha i told him lou was my boyfriend can that he was the fat kid and hes like oh with the orange hair haha then we said to blow him a kiss. but he hald up his hand with a ring. so im like man women or animal. he didnt say anything. im thinking animal.

so maybe today wasnt to bad
so today i went to my grandmas. and guess who i saw on the way. JON GARREN! little fucker got so scared to see me. my mom was like ah lets get food but i was like half asleep and not hungry since i still feel sick but she was and wanted to feed my old grandma. so she went to wendys. and jon works there. i gues they let him get his job back.ahhh. i was soo mad. i wanted to stab him. im going to get him someday now that i know his place of work. yea food like that makes me sick its mean to eat little animals haha so i had to smell it and see it and see jon and i still dont feel good...
anyways went to tinas. my cousin. her friends came. there cool. we drove around with this kid steve playing nigger music
aww and i felt bad my bady cousin was saying how he got 2 fish but me tian and this boy saw one was dead but we just left it since we thought it looked "lifelike"

oh and dans my new boyfriend (wink wink) yummmy
its a joke..shh dont tell him...

a very uneventfully weekend.
so this weekend sucked. i didnt go out once and pretty much just sat around the house for the last 5 days or so with me being sick and all. the only thing that even nearly excited me, was these little boys must have been knocking on dooors and ruining but when they got to mine my dog barked. so i got up cuz i was waiting for that lady to take me to eat with them and i open the door as the little boy was knocking. and he ran to bad he stood there for like 10 secs before he took off.
i told him its only funny when you run before the person opens the dooor.
cant pull one over on cait...
so now to complete my very uneventfully weekend im going to grandmas. ah maybe ill see tina. maybe not.
my dad should be home later tonight. so ends the mother and daughter time. which is good because i dont think i can take more of this bonding....

anyways. im starting to get just as upset as i was when kris 1st left. its not like im doing it got attention or anything. i reallly miss kris. and i want to talk to him just for a little. just to make me happy for a little bit and know that my kris is just fine there.

my daddy is so cool.
alright so my mom may suck alot but my dad just called me and he is on trip and he is in disney world and since he knows i love toy story he got me a wheezy doll. oh yes i know im 16 i should be all happy about a doll but its soo cool i love that little bugger. my daddy hasnt bought me anything since i was like 10 so its really cool. my dads the nice one. he says he is sorry he isnt home cuz then he would have talked to my mom and i would have went out, sometimes my dad can be mean but i think its cuz he is scared of my mom. cuz who wouldnt be.

what a werd test

Grover on Ecstasy



You're funny, you're loveable, you're entertaining,
you like to call yourself "Super
Grover!"--You're obviously on ecstasy.
But that's why we love you. Be careful, ok?


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another stupid one i dont get

You're the smirk,a frown-smile hybrid that's a
little bit cocky and usually associated with
evil or arrogant,but attractive people.You
probably just don't give a damn,but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.


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-i need a life-

Its only fucking 1 30 and my day has already been ruined.
so today i was guna go to some kids house i didnt really know with lou, galler , fingers..you know those peopple. but i asked my mom and she said no. then i called her a whore and now she isnt guna leave me home all day like she was going to and she is staying with me. im guna die. i cant take her shit. shes so mean to mean and hate it. i want to get out of the house. next weekend i have to go to some fucking stupid party in maryland and wear a stupid fucking skirt and be happy and pretend i love my family yet again. and i cant go out for another weekend. i want to leave. i need to get out of this house.
now i think i have to go to my stupid grandmas.
well its better then siting home and painting this stupid picture frame all day.

im sleepy.
So i havent been to school since wed. and i didnt go out tonight since i was still "sick". i dont really care tho since i didnt have to go to school and i can go out tommorow. but i dont think i have anyone to hang out with since i think lou and them are going some place. so im alone. unless i go valley streams. which im alowed to do. which may not turn out good since i have like 100 dollors plus 150 dollors worth of pay cheek. ah i can stay home all day also. which be great if kris was still around cuz he used to come over and we could play. but i dont have anything to do tommorow really so what im saying is if u wannan play tell me or leave one of those sillly comments or tell me because telling me just makes more sense

ah so its been a month today
So i was thinking about it before and its been a month today since my kris left. I still feel the same way i did when he left, i just have learned to deal with it. Russ told me that Kris's mother had a talk with Russ's mother much like mine and his did. He said that his mom thought i started Kris out. Even if it is total true i dont see how she would just think that. I think kris must have told that i did. Because i remeber he told me they asked him who starting him when he went to meetings and stuff before he went. He had told me that he made a story up. but i think he said that his girlfriend did or something thinking they woulnt tell his parents. Oh well. Russ also said that he should be geting a break soon because hes mommy said he is doing really good. i really miss kris and id love to talk to him. and see him. and kiss him. and make sure he knows i love him and miss him because i think he left on a bad note. it was just like another goodnight goodbye like anyother night. i said bye and he did also then i left and didnt call him that night. i didnt call him because i didnt want to hear him say goodbye again. because it hurt so much the 1st time so i went to sleep that night and thought id wake up and call him before he left. but i didnt it was to hard. i guess i kinda still thought he be back. my hopes where to hign. but now im geting used to it. one month is longer then people think. so much can happen. well only 11month left of no kris.
ah im guna stop rambling now.

my moms...shes nuts
dude my mom is crazy 1st she thought i left the house today when i was home sick sleeping all day!
then she told me all this bulshit in the car how she is guna kill her self and it will be my fault. she said she never wants to see me agian and im a bad person ect.. and she said she isnt coming home and to call someone for dinner and to take care of me and my dads away so im home alone
i think she will come home but still its unfait i didnt do shit plus im mad sick

i feel so sick.
alright so i didnt go to school again because i feeel really sick. you know when you get so sick, that its almost hurts to walk. and you feel weak and like ur head is going to blow up. ah thats how i feel. it sucky

thinggg
`*..do you drink// i have but i dont really like it

`*..how many times have you been d.runk// alot in the summmer time but not lately

`*..is your best friend a virgin// some are. most i think like 2 arent? there mostly boys but then again i dont know if i even have a best friends eh i duno

`*..do you wear short shorts// never

`*..how many people have you slept with// one

`*..do you get along with your mom// i hate the whore

`*..how many guys have you kissed// one time be and kris counted all the people we have kisssed isnt that cute? i got like 21 or something

`*..been so d.runk you couldn't remember your name// never

`*..do you have any eating disorders// nope.

`*..piercings or tattoos// i have the top of my bellly i want the botton i got my nose and industral

`*..do you wear shirts that show your clevage// na

`*..ever wear shirts that show your belly button// not reallly.no

`*..have you ever smoked// yea

`*..are you a regular smoker// not no more

`*..do you have any kids// at work hehe but no

`*..do you think you could be pregnant// im so over that


WEiRD QUESTiONS..


`*..ever find yourself wishing to poke people with sticks// YEs!

`*..ever taped your nose to your face// um yea who doesnt

*..do you wish you could live in another realm// no?

`*..have you ever ran in circles like an elf// yummm elfs

`*..do you pick your nose for a living// welll its kinda comes along with the nose piercing

`*..do you fart in public// no

`*..do you pick wedgies in public// i dont get them alot

`*..what's your view on religion//its gay

`*..ever stop to smell the roses//no.

`*..what about wake up and smell the coffee// yea all the time my house smells like it

`*..can you smell// yea unlike someone i know

`*..gotten so d.runk you didn't know where you were// no maybe yea


MORE QUESTiONS..

`*..what is the most common question you get asked// um how are you??

`*..your usual response// suck my dick

`*..what's your natural hair color// brown

`*..eye color// light brown?

`*..how tall are you without shoes// short....5"1

`*..favorite colors// black and red

`*.what's your highest level of education// 10th grade.

`*..how many surveys have you taken// alot there fun when im bored

`*..do you have any siblings// yea

`*..if yes how many// two.

`*..do you have any pets// yeppp.

`*..if yes, what kind// dog and mice

`*..what's your sexual prefrence//boys

`*..do you agree that men are little boys in men's bodies// syre?.

`*..do you have your own site// sure

`*..do you sleep with clothes on// when i fall asleep that way

MUSiCAL STUFF..

`*..favorite band// i think sublime

`*..favorite song// i dont think i have one

`*..what song most describes you// ummm under the sea

`*..what song shows how you feel about your best friend// um that one woody sings to buzz...ah it makes me cry and weezy sings it also its you got a friend in me
`*..what song makes you cry// you got a friend in me heheh i love toy story

`*..what song describes your love life// ummm same.

`*..what song describes your happiest moment// um i dont know SAME?

`*..what song describes your worst moment// same

`*..what song describes life for you// same.

`*..what song describes your feelings for your enemy// um the i dont know.

`*..what's your one favorite lyric// "you got a friend in me ...do do do do do do" hehehe

`*..what lyric reminds you of an exlover// shut up god.

`*..what lyrics do you want the world to hear// DAM WOODY!?

EVEN MORE QUESTiONS..

..and some repeated..

`*..eaten a box of oreos// no

`*..been on stage// yea but not like for soemthing i just ran up there

`*..dumped someone// yes.

`*..gotten in a car accident// no not really.

`*..been in love// i am in love.


EiTHER//OR..

`*..coffee or hot choccolate// hot

`*..neve campbell or jennifer love hewitt// girls ewe

`*..tom cruise or brad pitt//boys ew

`*..jeans or cords// jeanss.

`*..sweater or sweatshirt// sweatshirt.

`*..t-shirt or tanktop// shirts


iN THE LAST 24 HOURS HAVE YOU..

`*..cried// maybe

`*..helped someone// more like been helped

`*..bought something// food

`*..gotten sick// no wait yea head

`*..gone to the movies// no

`*..said i love you// to lou hehe but not to kris :(

`*..written a letter// na

`*..moved on// na

`*..talked to an ex// yea

`*..missed an ex// no

`*..talked to a crush/ i wish

`*..had a serious talk// yeah.

`*..missed someone// YEA

`*..hugged someone// yup.

`*..fought with your parents// yea

`*..fought with a friend// yea i think


DO YOU//WHAT..

`*..wear eye shadow// a little somtimes

`*..put on a 'front'// what?

`*..kiss on the first date// i dont dat?

`*..have a crush on someone// yessss

`*..eat with your mouth open// i dont think so.

`*..color is the carpet in your room// wood.

`*..the last CD you bought// umm god i dont remeber i think......choking victim a mad long time ago


RANDOM QUESTiONS...

`*..how did you spend last summer// coke kris and other things

`*..when's the last time you showered// morning

`*..are you lonely// alot.

`*..are you happy// no.

`*..are you wearing pajamas// na

`*..are you talking to someone online//na.

`*..what's your astrological sign//sag.

`*..what are you listening or watching right now// my mom bitch

Now i know regrets are worthless but if i could only take some back
so today i did something total dumb. normady asked me if i wanted a k line i total forgot my new found drug free life for that moment in time for some reason and said yes. it was stupid and even more so to do it in school. i told lou right away cuz i didnt want him to be mad. i coudnt go to gym like that so lou played me with me jack came told me to get sugar if i want it to go away so i drank a peach snapple. and within the end of that period i felt a little better but stilll sleepy. so then i went to math and no one was there at all...grrr...i wish i didnt do this shit cuz i need to pass gym and be drug free and a goood kid cuz i wanna stop and be good like lou and rios and galler and other good kids like that hhaha

im starting to realize maybe i need some more friends who are girls. i dont really lilke most of them. but i need someone to talk to about stupid shit my guy friends dont care about or maybe i dont ...i dont know fuck that im just rambleing

i am super sleepy
so today was a pretty normal day. i went to school so tired and stilll am. i was so sleepy i felt like fucked up. james told me something that i dont belive and if its true i dont want to belive. im kinda starting to look on the bright side of quting stuff. like i loook at people and im just like wow there throwing there life away. and then i realize that was me and can be me again in a matter of seconds and i know i was worst. kris leavin can be a good thing in some ways.l it pushes me to stop and when he gets back we can just be together for once not total cracked out. haha. so i went to work today. that lady is such a fucking bitch. i wanted to tell her off so bad today, but i stoped my self because i realize by next week works over cuz that school thing ends for me then and now i gotta look for a new job. because with out one i feel as if im doing nothing with my self. and i only get depressed when i am home alone. and spending all school days doing to wont help.
so last night i got really upset again. i almost cryed myself to sleep again. i really misss kris and its almost been a month
ahh im so stupid i know someone said it wasnt normal in a comment and i guess there right i gotta get over my self. but its so hard. im quiting coke and geting over losing someone who i reeally love at the same time its hard for me.

boreddd
1. Are you male or female?:im a little girl

2. Describe yourself:im a girl im mean i have brests and hair and other women like parts

3. How do some people feel about you?: i think people think im angry and mean and i suck but i duno you tell me

4. How do you feel about yourself?: not very good i feel sad and like i said i think i suck

5. Describe your girlfriend/boyfriend/interest:i just lost my boyfriend to cocaine (hes in rehad) but you kids know that so i miss and love him?

6. Where would you rather be?:id rather be dead

7. Describe what you want to be:happy

8. Describe how you live:i live with very mean parents who tell me they hate me dont care about me and lovely shit like that

9. Describe how you love:i dont like love but i love kris

10. Share a few words of wisdom:life sucks

bored home alone

You're Charles Manson!


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HEHE just like in real life

roleplay


What's YOUR sexual fetish?
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ah tests make me unbored what can i say

You are the typical feminist, depressed, artist.
You go against the crowd and do everything you
can to be different. Too bad noone notices.
Try communicating with people, not just looking
down on them.


What kind of typical high school character from a movie are you?
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toy storty makes me happy

You are Mr. Potato Head! You're always the one
wise-cracking, being Mr. Sarcastic. Yet you're
always there to "lend a hand" to a
friend, and help them out.


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AHHHHH these is anthoer toy stort test and i got the coolest dude

You are like Weezy, small, and just there to take
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i really Hate mothers day
so my mom still isnt home but she will be soon and i know im just going to get my self into alot of trouble because i cant pretend i love my mom when she is so mean to me all the time it isnt fair for me to have to act like she is a good person and should get love from other people
my dad was being a dick also he said something about the hair testing im geting scared whats going to happen if they test me before i get to use the stuff. you gotta use it like at least 8hours before i really hope i can get around to that. but if i do it going to be sooo good because i will be total free again from her and she wont be able to say shit about drugs.

Ah good old matt
so tonight my daddy droped me off at the moots(fingers or matt) house then me and him meet lou at the mall. we played. i tried to get lou to fight me. spit on him alot. stuff keeped making me think of kris and id be like to matt ohhh kris in a joking way but it was reallly kinda upset. i miss the dam kid oh soo very much. anyways we went to borders then went right back to the mall pretty dumb then lou left and me and matt loooked at the gay peoople who make it soo freakin ovious they are on E its anyoing hahah so then i went to matts house for like 20 mins we played with these weird things and i tried to eat a rubber chicken but it didnt work.

I miss kris agian
so today i went to school. lou gave me that stuff. so nice of those boys. i wish they would take my money. so anyways i left bio and my teacher went to check to see if i was in the nurse and i wasnt soo i dont know i dont really care about geting in trouble very much. so my belly botton is mad fucked up and that chick javi asked me to come over after school so she can fix it ... i might go...maybe hanging out with a girl for a change would be good for me...
so i am still dispointed with what kris did to me but i do really miss him again. sometimes it just hits me that he is really gone for a while and maybe when he gets back it wont be the same and he wont care for me anymore cuz i dont see how someone who said they lovedd me could just tell on me like that when they know how crazy my mom is but then u can say that maybe he told cuz he does care about me. but then again i just cant help but be hurt ah welll i care about him no matter what and i think even if he gets back and it doesnt work out then he will always be very importand cuz everything i did that makes me who i am pretty much i did with him .. like coke....which isnt really a good thing about me ....which is why im stoping....plus i dont think anyone forgets the 1st person they ya no did that thing u do with
well bye

Such nice boys they are
so lou went with ted today to get that stuff and he gave me back the money again but i gave him 10 dollors cuz i feel bad about it ,,, mayer and rios went with him
uh i dont know what else.

oh and thanks jill for that comment i dont know why people are stupid and say they dont like you cuz ur a nice girl so thanks