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tubularchick88

:: 2003 9 November :: 8.25pm
:: Mood: bouncy

Happy
I had a friggin awesome b-day, it went pretty much just as i had wanted. There were no problems(like there normally are at pretty much every party i have ever been to in my life). Ali,Anne,Amanda,Michelle,Kelsey and i went to Beatniks(my fav coffe shop and aparently Michelle's now also). We stayed there and listened to the British guy sing while we drank our carmel shakes(w/ coffee). We then took Anne's car becuz it was bigger and like had fun w/ Tommy. Hehe and Michelle it would have been frickin hilarious if the cop had given u a ticket for j-walking after all this time. Then we went to Jalapenos and like had a bad experience w/ a uber rude lady but lol my mom made her apologize so its all good. We weren't really hungrey but i had fun cuzz we brought up old memories so that was tubular. Then we went to see Love Actually which i liked but was REALLY embarrased about seeing certain scences(porn) w/ my mom like 2 ppl away from me! That was a lil more than horrorifying! LoLz! But anyway we went back home after that and stay up till like almost 6 and finally went to bed. Ali and i sang alot but i loved it, and i totally missed singing w/ her. We got up like at 10 and watched Finding Nemo which is really cute and after that we just watched movies and ate fattening foods. LOL I have a new obsesion w/ cheese puffs which is NOT GOOD. LOL I just finished my b-day dinner whih consisted of mashed potatos,fruit,oreo ice cream cake and other stuff that im not recalling right now but it was umm ummm good. THANK YOU to everyone that was at the party i loved it and it turned out perfect!MMWWWAAAH and thanx for the gifts! XOXOXO Byes

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andi

:: 2003 9 November :: 4.50pm
:: Mood: mellow

*_My_weekend_*
Friday

It was ok. I went across the street and Nick, Jordan, Jenna, Anne, Rich, Anthony, and Jared ( :) ) were there. It was fun, we just skated, Well not the girls though. I went over Rich's dad's house. It's huge!!! I love it.

Then I went home and was bored for the rest of the night.

Saturday


I slept in. I cut the whole dang lot!! Not just the front..the sides and fron and back. It was sucky. I did it w/out being asked. I feel special *shrug*. Then....I got ready to go to Gaby's and Amber's b-day parties. Gaby's was ok. I felt outta place b/c i'm not really friends w/ her friends b/c their from the eagles. Anne and I felt like loners, but we weren't. I took the cake and smashed it into gaby's face. It was funny. Michelle and Jordan did it to eachother too.
After that I went to Amber's. We went to beatniks, the greatest place ever. Then Jalapanos..it was ok..then the movies. We saw love actually. It was too long. We go there at 10:45 and we left at 1:30 am. It was a britsih movie, a lil wierd. We went back to amber's and stayed up till like 4. It was soo much fun. yeah great times...I left her house at 3 pm. I stayed longer then i wanna but it was fine.

Sunday

Today is blah... that's all i have to say about that. Blah...blah blah blah...and blah.


Happy B-day Amber!!!


AndI

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andi

:: 2003 7 November :: 9.28pm
:: Mood: loved

*HIM*
He is soooo damn perfect. I don't deserve him one bit, but yet he's mine. He has similar insites as me.. we talked about love and how ppl abuse it. He writes poetry and has a soft and gentle side...no one ever sees it though...but *me*.
He's thoughful and nice and respects me so well.. He has only had one g/f before and I can't really believe it.
The bad thing is that he's opened sooooo damn much to me and trusts me a lot...great right? But the bad thing is i can't really do the same in return. Y is that? B/c I'm not use to it. I'm a ball that can never be popped, i'm a lock that can never be broken, i'm a combination that can never be figured, i'm a deer that never be...well u got it. It's hard for me to open up this quik..we only have been goin out for a week! I believe that if i don't open up soon or in like 2 weeks he's gonna get tired of me and break up w/ me..eek!
He thinks i don't really tell him n e thing is b/c i don't trust him, but i do to the extent. The extent w/ chicks. C he was a "player" when we were "friends" but he's not now, but it's hard for me to trust him about that.
)(sigh)(...

Tell me what u think about this...

AndI

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yellowchicki

:: 2003 5 November :: 7.19pm
:: Mood: energetic
:: Music: Senorita

Homecomeing!!
Omg!! Homecoming was soo much fun!! I wore a blue sparkle dress with one strap. Amanda picked Kelsey and I up and she got us a red rose!! Thankz Mandy!! We went to Carraba and meet up with Cristine, Shannon, Michelle, Jordan, Gaby, Larissa, and Jessica, Brandon (Michelle's man) and Phillip showed up later. Brandon scared the crap out of Michelle and I!! I kinda broke my heel, and I saw Amanda S. When we got to the dance it was soo pretty!! I took picture and then danced! Kelsey and I danced the whole time and then we started blacking out when dancing with some guys (Jr was with Kelsey and Justin was with me) cuz we didnt drink enough!! I danced with the hot curly hair guy!! You guys were soo mad at me Hehe! We went homw with Brandon and that was interesting him stopping in the middle of the bridge and Jordon thought we had to get out!! Michelle likes a man in uniform!! LoLz!!

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yellowchicki

:: 2003 5 November :: 6.49am
:: Mood: flirty
:: Music: Wonder Boy (Great song hehe!)

My foot itches!!
Today went by really slow and I slept in math. I got my homecoming pictures yesterday, so I was showing everyone those. Omg, everyone was like who is that hot guy whenever they saw John's picture! I talked to the really hot curly hair guy in class and online! I was talking about him breaking up with his G/F. Hehe! I went to the Doctors after school today and I got a Physical, so I got my finger pricked and guess what?? I have a low level of iron, so that why Im always so tired and sleep in class!! Its such a great excuse!! Well, Im gonna go walk the dogs and workout. Byez!! Mwaz!!!

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tubularchick88

:: 2003 5 November :: 6.46pm
:: Mood: amused

B-day
HHHEEELLL YYAAA! Ok im finally gunna be 15! Im excited for saturday, and everyday up untill it cuzz i get lotz o presents!!! Yay! And to ya'll who kno something you shouldnt( it involves noises) shhhhhhhhhhhhh

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andi

:: 2003 5 November :: 5.25pm
:: Mood: tired

I'm sooo tired. I've been all day. I slept in English..eekk! Bad thing to do, bad, bad Andi, BAD!
Nick wants me to teach him drums..yay! I don't think i'm gonna have him pay even though he asked. But if i do charge then like......I get money, dur! But i dunno what i'm gonna do. no pay most likely.
I think i'm drooling, i can't tell. lol
I got finding nemo. I watched it too many times. I have to go and um...do homework. So i'll write l8r when I have something more interesting to talk about. L8r!

AndI

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yellowchicki

:: 2003 3 November :: 8.58pm
:: Mood: crazy

I wrote in it!!
I know its a miracle I wrote in my journal!! I just wanted to write down another day that I was in England when I meet Edwar(Eddie) He was 16 and very cute. He played guitar and was sOoO nice like he and I were talking about parents getting divorced and he was telling me how sad he was and how he still kinda was. He was playing guitar for me and stuff and he is really good at Bmxing. He was really one of the coolest guys I have meet cuz he was so open and didn't care what other people thought and was a totally sweetheart and I really miss him!! I wanna see him again Sniff Sniff! This is what I hate about making friends who live somewhere else. I Love and miss you my England Gang that includes Lettie, Alice, Olly, Justin, Edward, Danny, Sophie, Clare, my Cuz, my Uncle, Aunt, Nanna, and Grandad, The Duckies, The Horses, and The Dogs!!

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andi

:: 2003 31 October :: 11.08pm
:: Mood: giggly
:: Music: Blink182: First Date

Halloween Night!!
So Brandan drove me home...woo! We actually went to his house and um...had a fun time.... Then we went to my house to wait for my ma and sis to come back from the doctors. We had a great time waiting....
Then we went to Beatniks. Great place! Then we went to anothe rcafe but it was closed. We just drove all around Fort Myers to kill time before the movies. We got lost lol. ... I loved it.
We went to the movies and someones weren't there cough:Amanda Cough:Mike Cough: who ever else. So Brandan and I had a great time in the theatre n e ways.
Coral wood is soo damn cool inside, the seats go lean back!
Then we went to where ever our hearts desired. We went to Four Freedoms park and layed there talking and looking up in the sky...so damn pretty. He asked me out there too.... Then we frolicked our way to the car and went driving again to where ever. We stopped at some lot and um...yeah..so n e ways, I was like lets go to the Yaught Club, so we went and saw Drew (the freak/punk kid) and his weirdo friends. We walked the beach and layed down and um..yeah again.... Then he drove me home...
So here I am at home.... Halloween night is the best dawg! Lol!

I made a new friend, Nick. He is sooo TubuLAR, I can already tell! I have a feeling that he's gonna be gay sooner or lata. lol.

Well I'm gonna go now, if u want to know the details then call me or someone get the hold of me that is not aol b/c i don't wanna type it.

AndI

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andi

:: 2003 30 October :: 10.05am
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: breathe

Why??? Wed Night..at church
i was ok for the whole day, I talked to Brandan on Anne's cell on the bus for a bit and at home. That made me cheerful. Well Amanda (my sis), David (her b/f) and my ma and me went to wallgreens to pick up the pics of my sister's car and my homecoming and amanda's homecoming. Mother of Pearl! I saw my sister's car for the first time ever!!! I gasped when i saw the site.
Well I was still ok though till I got to Youth Group. In a middle of a song I started to cry and I couldn't stop. L to the ouie (louie) came over and asked what's wrong, which that made me cry more...Levi geeze, he brought his now g/f tonight..the bastard, so he didn't even pay attention to ne thing.
Reason for me crying?? I have no idea, all i know is that it has to do w/ the pics of the car. Like if i was the passenger I would not be here, i would be paralyzed or in a hospital...it's kind of scary. But here me out i'm not upset or aggravated or sad or nething...it's weird. I don't feel nuttin , so i cry... hmmmm....
I was a lil hurt when I saw Levi w/ Holly, but it's all good. I jus thought og him and it made me feel so much better and it made Levi look less hott too. lol. SO um...yeah.
I think that Amanda and I are ok now well we've been ok but i think we are better. Which is Dandy like Candy..I'm gonna make something for her, but i'm not gonna tell u what it is...maybe i'lll make something for Amber too. I'll give them their own indviduality..even though what i make for them will be the same....lol. Why am I gonna maek something for them? cuz..I can and I can do it. woo! Later...

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andi

:: 2003 29 October :: 4.49pm
:: Mood: ecstatic

HIM!!
Dude...he is awesome! I was talking to him on the phone and we got to know eachother soo damn well. It's great, seriously really great. He loves to write like me. He read me some of his poems that he wrote. Holy mother of pearl ! He's a lil shakespeare! lol. I'm soo glad I stayed at FMHS, he makes it more anjoyable expecially in 1st period...Cough, nudge, wink!!! lol. I can talk to him for hours....
He told me something that is soo damn sweet today when we had to go to 3rd period...sigh..it's great

Today I wanted to be a neato kind of gal that I can be, so I went to Economics to get Amanda and Anne outta class. I was just like I have to interview them for like 15 minutes... )(i have newspaper by the way and i get to go n e where)( So BAM they got outta class b/c of me. He came along too.... So we were just talking and stuff. Then Anne had to go to the bathroom to wash her hands and so we walked her to the girls bathrooms and he went in there too! Amanda and I were like ahhhh.... and he just said I do it all the time. lol. It was soo awkward for Anne I bet. I love him, he's soo TubULAR!
Maybe on friday we'll go to the movies at Coralwood. Woo! Finally it opened! It looks kind of cool inside but still korny looking.

Ok, I have to go and do spanish HW..O by the way I failed 2 tests today..o well!

AndI

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andi

:: 2003 26 October :: 7.03pm
:: Mood: Crazii!!!

Saturday_Sunday..my Weekend!!
..:*:..Saturday..:*:..
I woke up at 4:45 in the AM!!! Reason? I self-consiently )(however u spell it)( put on my alarm clock! eh...I went back to sleep till Brandan called me at 8 AM! The doosch! hehe. Well he called to make sure where he is gonna pick me up for homecoming and all that goods. I got up after that and got ready for drum lessons at 10:30 am. After that I went to House of Drums and set up my future lessons there in december. Then I got home around 12:30 and got ready to go the the hair style place. 2 hours it took to do my friggin hair. I looked like goldie locks i swear, but then I messed w/ it myself and changed it to look better....
I left my house and went to Carabba's. Awesome place. Brandan surprised me there. He bought me a corsage!! It was white roses. Well he met all my friends that were there. He was just like blonde 1, blonde 2, burnette 5..lol. Everyone loved him.
He's friend was w/ him too, Phil, our mascot!! lol . Amanda hit it off great w/ him. I teased her about Mike. I was like remember that Asian?? she was like No i don't recall. lol. Later me, her, phil and brandan went in brandan's car to harbor side. It was such a dandy ride. I wanted kelsy to hook up w/ him not amanda but o well...
When we got there we discovered that PHil can't dance for shizznet! lol. He was like a giant sea turtle. Brandan can dance thank goodness. Me and him grinded boy! woo-hoo! Amanda and I switched dance partners for a bit on a salsa dance. Yeah..Phil is hopless.
Brandan and I kept kissing and making out while we danced. great times!! He also like nibbled on my ear and did other stuff to it. Anne was right it does feel great. lol. Brandan and I can't be serious together, one of us always makes us crack up. He sang to me on a slow song..1..2..3..AWWWEE!!! lol.
He said sweet stuff to me at the end of the dance on that last 2 songs...I'm not gonna put in here what he said. ask me and i will tell...maybe..

I called my ma and told her that gaby's mom is gonna drive me home but actually Brandan was driving me and 5 of my friends home instead..shhh don't squeal on me. lol. It was soo fun on the ride home. Brandon got me pissed on the ride home and i wouldn't look at him, so he stopped on top of the CC bridge!!!! I'm like Brandan!!! He's like nope...So we kissed and we made up i guess and he went on.
After Gaby, Jordan, larrissa, and Jessica got dropped off and it was just anne, me and him. Me and him kept singing the songs on the rock stations and anne felt left out but it's all good. Then all of a sudden she was like "Michelle look at Brandan's uniform for work! DOn't u love guys in uniforms?" I was like " o yes!" lol. The she was like " I found his hat!" and Brandan yells, " It's a visor!" and she's like "sorry, a Visor!!". It was soo funny. Earlier Brandan kept choosing the wrong ways to go home and i'm like u make be choices. he's like well I choose u and i was like " like I said, u make bad choices". lol. sigh....I love that night. WHen we got to my house he kissed me good night...

Sunday
I went to church, the mall w/ Ginny, did homework and cleaned my room. It was an ok day. I realized that Levi and I are over, neither of us like eachother....

P.s
Amanda dind't stay w/ phil the whole night, she ditched him and she told him that she has a b/f.

AndI

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tubularchick88

:: 2003 25 October :: 5.25pm
:: Mood: calm

Read this, it gave me chills!
> Daddy's Day at School
> >
> > Her hair was up in a ponytail
> > Her favorite dress tied with a bow.
> >
> > Today was Daddy's Day at school,
> > And she couldn't wait to go.
> >
> > But her mommy tried to tell her,
> > That she probably should stay home.
> > Why the kids might not understand,
> > If she went to school alone.
> >
> > But she was not afraid;
> > She knew just what to say.
> > What to tell her classmates
> > Of why he wasn't there today.
> >
> > But still her mother worried,
> > For her to face this day alone.
> > And that was why once again,
> > She tried to keep her daughter home.
> >
> > But the little girl went to school,
> > Eager to tell them all.
> > About a dad she never sees
> > A dad who never calls.
> >
> > There were daddies along the wall in back,
> > For everyone to meet.
> > Children squirming impatiently,
> > Anxious in their seats.
> >
> > One by one the teacher called,
> > A student from the class.
> > To introduce their daddy,
> > As seconds slowly passed.
> >
> > At last the teacher called her name,
> > Every child turned to stare.
> > Each of them was searching,
> > For a man who wasn't there.
> >
> > "Where's her daddy at?"
> > She heard a boy call out.
> > "She probably doesn't have one,"
> > Another student dared to shout.
> >
> > And from somewhere near the back,
> > She heard a daddy say,
> > "Looks like another deadbeat dad,
> > Too busy to waste his day."
> >
> > The words did not offend her,
> > As she smiled up at her Mom.
> > And looked back at her teacher,
> > Who told her to go on.
> >
> > And with hands behind her back,
> > Slowly she began to speak.
> > And out from the mouth of a child,
> > Came words incredibly unique.
> >
> > "My Daddy couldn't be here,
> > Because he lives so far away.
> > But I know he wishes he could be,
> > Since this is such a special day.
> >
> > And though you cannot meet him,
> > I wanted you to know.
> > All about my daddy,
> > And how much he loves me so.
> >
> > He loved to tell me stories
> > He taught me to ride my bike.
> > He surprised me with pink roses,
> > And taught me to fly a kite.
> >
> > We used to share fudge sundaes,
> > And ice cream in a cone.
> > And though you cannot see him,
> > I'm not standing here alone.
> >
> > "Cause my daddy's always with me,
> > Even though we are apart
> > I know because he told me,
> > He'll forever be in my heart"
> >
> > With that, her little hand reached up,
> > And lay across her chest.
> > Feeling her own heartbeat,
> > Beneath her favorite dress.
> >
> > And from somewhere in the crowd of dads,
> > Her mother stood in tears.
> > Proudly watching her daughter,
> > Who was wise beyond her years.
> >
> > For she stood up for the love
> > Of a man not in her life..
> > Doing what was best for her,
> > Doing what was right.
> >
> > And when she dropped her hand back down,
> > Staring straight into the crowd.
> > She finished with a voice so soft,
> > But its message clear and loud.
> >
> > "I love my daddy very much,
> > He's my shining star.
> > And if he could, he'd be here,
> > But heaven's just too far.
> >
> > You see he was a fireman
> > And died just this past year
> > When airplanes hit the towers
> > And taught Americans to fear.
> >
> > But sometimes when I close my eyes,
> > It's like he never went away."
> > And then she closed her eyes,
> > And saw him there that day.
> >
> > And to her mother's amazement,
> > She witnessed with surprise.
> > A room full of daddies and children,
> > All starting to close their eyes..
> >
> > Who knows what they saw before them,
> > Who knows what they felt inside.
> > Perhaps for merely a second,
> > They saw him at her side.
> >
> > "I know you're with me Daddy,"
> > To the silence she called out.
> > And what happened next made believers,
> > Of those once filled with doubt.
> >
> > Not one in that room could explain it,
> > For each of their eyes had been closed.
> > But there on the desk beside her,
> > Was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.
> >
> > And a child was blessed,
> > if only for a moment,
> > By the love of her shining bright star.
> > And given the gift of believing,
> > That heaven is never too far
> >
> > They say it takes a minute to find a
> > special person, an hour to
> > appreciate them, a day to love them, but
> > then an entire life to forget them.
> >
> > Send this phrase to the people you'll never
> > forget and remember to send
> > it also to the person that sent it to you.
> > It's short message to let them know that
> > you'll never forget them.
> >
> > If you don't send it to anyone, it means
> > you're in a hurry and that
> > you've forgot your friends.
> > Take the time...to live and love.
> >
> > Until eternity. God bless
> >

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andi

:: 2003 25 October :: 9.13am
:: Mood: awake

Last night_Today
Ok yesturday I went across the street (that's Publix by the way) and I watched the Sk8rs sk8. I didn't bring my board b/c I was too tired to sk8brd. Later I found Jordan, Anne and richi. We hanged out together w/ Jared too. It was kinda fun. Anne left to go to the Carnivel w/ Amanda and Amber. Later I went home to go talk to my parents about what I was gonna do that night...
SO that night I went over Nick's house. It's sooo gorgeous and he lives in Cape Harbor. Holy mother of PEARL! Nick is soo sweet he's like MIchelle don't say n e thing. He doesn't like to show off that he has a big house or that their kinda rich. But basically their not rich. I guess they spend money on their house thta they have no money for themselves. Well n e ways, We watched Movies and cuddled..ooolalala! lol. Nick's friend was there too, devin, along w/ Jordan. Nick and he friend, who has nice abs by the way, jumped off the 2nd floor balcony into the pool. I wish I did that! But Nick didn't tell me to bring my swim suit! Stupid poopoo poo person! lol. Maybe next weekend eh?? I'm starting to like Nick more and more. I don't really wanna like him b/c he likes michelle. But it'l be alright. she doesn't wanna go out w/ him or no body for that matter.

Today
I have to go to Drum practice in the AM! How stupid! i can't sleep in! O well.
Later I'm getting my hair did. Hate doing hair, hate dresses, hate the heels...
I'm gonna go to Caraba's and meet Amanda and Anne and Kelsy there. Then at 7:00 Brandan is gonna meet me there and pick me up. I love that Kid too death. But u know...if u know how he is like I do, then u don't really wanna go out w/ him...poopoo poopoo poo on a sticky wicky! I have to skidaddle and get ready for drum practice later g!


AndI

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andi

:: 2003 24 October :: 3.25pm
:: Mood: bouncy

Another one from HIM! lol
Top Ten Signs That Your Mother Does Indeed Wishes To Kill You!
By: Brandon Lamb and Dave Johnson

1.) She mixes your chocolate milk with rat poison instead of Nesquik.
2.) Instead of making your sandwiches with lunchmeat, she throws rusty razor blades on your bread.
3.) You know for a fact that she spiked your peanut butter cookies with ammonia.
4.) Instead of Glades Plug-ins, you find random dead animal parts around your electrical sockets.
5.) Every time you go to take a bath, your tub is filled with pig blood.
6.) She sets your dog on fire for the fun of it.
7.) She keyed the message, “You don’t have long now, not too much time now…” on your car door.
8.) Instead of taking your tooth and replacing it with money, like any normal tooth fairy would, your mom took your tooth and made a shrine out of it, and left you her index finger.
9.) She gives you a tombstone describing in vivid detail the ways she would like to destroy you and your soul, for your birthday.
10.) Instead of tucking you in at night, she dumps buckets full of flesh eating insects into your bed at night.

Okay. Here's the thing about this, I don't know how acceptable this would be. You guys can make the call and whatever, it's just... I 'unno, it freaks me out, just a little.
I'm sure you understand... I hope.

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andi

:: 2003 22 October :: 5.08pm
:: Mood: realization

_My sister_(gone??)
I was on the bus today and I called me mom b/c I wanted to know if I can go tonight to FMHS for this thing w/ Nick. Well...my mom was like I dunno, I'm heading to the Emergancy room. Right then and there my heart sank and my eyes got big. I'm like why?? She said my sister got in a car accident. I'm ok..I didn't know what to think or ne thing. So i hanged up...hoping that everything is fine.

Later my mom finally came home w/ my sister...there was no other car to c except for my mom's car. I'm like where is her car? A dump truck ran into the front end of my sister's car. The whole front is totally smashed. It's totaled. She should of been dead. I'm still in shock. I'm shaky and everything that goes w/ it.

Word to everyone (from me to u): Every damn minute of ur life is a blessing, don't waste it at being mad at someone or being evil. Enjoy every friggin secound of it.

AndI

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tubularchick88

:: 2003 21 October :: 9.35pm
:: Mood: pissed off

What the fuck?
Okay, I go through ALOT of trouble to do this tubular trip to Orlando seeing Alkaline trio,staying in REALLY nice resort,screwing around in Dinsey, and eating at really nice places. I had to go thu alot of shit w/ my parents(who were awesome about this). This all originated from a friend of mine saying that he was mad that I havent been a fan as long as him and that he would be very displeased if i went(not in those words). So i was like ok, ill take you to, but its his best friends b-day that day and him who really loves the band to so i agreed to TAKE HIS FRIEND on this trip.Well then I wanted to take a chick friend cuz it would blow w/out her, but it turns out she cant go. So he is acting all bitchy to me when i am doing HIM this huge favor and i pretty much tell him its not worth it. He gets all pissed and weirded out and i was like bye. So i talk to another friend and i find out that he thinks this is like some kind of DATE OR SOMETHING! OMG What a freak! What on gods green earth would make him think that? I liked him 2 years ago! He has a gf! I DO NOT LIKE HIM,I WILL NEVER LIKE HIM! and he blew me off on something that was really important to me earlier apparently for the exact same reason.(To the person that told me this info, im sorry but i had to get advise). I need help and advice ppl, am i in the wrong? Im so sick of this shit, i am honestly done w/ it!GRRRRR and ps, to whom this goes out to FUCK YOU,YOU ARE NOT WORTH JACK SHIT

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andi

:: 2003 19 October :: 12.32am
:: Mood: peaceful (goddly like)
:: Music: Relient K

To the only one who understands me...
I am Understood?

sometimes it's embarassing to talk to you
to hold a conversation w/ the only one who sees right through
this version of myself i try to hide behind
i'll bury my face b/c my disgrace will leave me terrified & sometimes i'm so thankful for your loyalty
your love regardless of the mistakes i make will spoil me
my confindence is, in a sense, a gift you've given me
and i'm satisfied to realize u're all i'll ever need
you look into my life and never stopped and ur thinking all my thoughts are so simple but so beautiful and u recite my words right back to me
before i speak you let me know i am understood and sometimes i spend my time trying to escape
I work so hard so desperatly in an attempt to create space cause i want distance from the utmost important thing i know
i see your love then turn my back and beg you to go.
you're the only one who understands completely. u're the only one who knows me but still loves (me) completely and sometimes the place i'm at is at a loss for words
if i think of something worthy i know that it's already yours
and through the times i've faded and you've outlined me again you've just patiently waited to bring me back and then the noise has broken my defense.
let me embrace salvatioin
your voice has broken my defense

let me embrace slavation
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This is to the one, the only one who understands me and accepts me for who i am regardless of everything that i do and say. None of my friends know him, at least i think....

AndI

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tubularchick88

:: 2003 18 October :: 11.55pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Alkaline Trio's This Could be Love

Guitar
Wow, now i kno why guys play guitar, and why its easier for them. I dunno about all you other chicks,but i apparently like have small hands. Compared to other chicks i have big hands but to my guy friends i have small hands so now i see why it sooo much easier for them.GRRRR! The c chord alone in killing me, if i cant handle that,what am i gunna do?Oh well, i can do it!

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andi

:: 2003 17 October :: 3.34pm
:: Mood: Sneeky )(kinda)(

..:*:..People..:*:..
"People are not always what they seem", that quote never applied to me nor did I pay attention to what it says. BIG mistake. I advise everyone in the universe to go by it and be very careful and particular of choosing friends.
Yeah, sure they seem nice and TubuLAR (my word g) but what do they act and say when your not around? If you trust them that's skippy, but that doesn't stop them from talking bad about you behind your back or dissing you.
I will admit to you all today, October 17, 2003 that I, AndI, were one of those ppl who talked crap about ne one's back. Key word: Were. I try not to do it ne more expecially if it's one of my friends who have done nuttin to me. I thought that was what some of my friends did too. Wrong! Dead Wrong! They talk behind my back and all that evil blue french (wee wee!) monkey's bum. I am angry for it. But hey I can't stop them.
I thought better of them, but they did talk behind some our friends back too, so why would they not talk behind my back too?
If you talk behinds someone's back and act like you like them to their face, your a friggin liar and you are leading them on. It's like the wussy way of it all.

I am ready to give up on some ppl and just move outta this dead town and forget everything and everyone!!!!!! But I love this Coma place. It's my home, I lived here my whole life...)(Sigh)(

Sooo screw everyone who I mean this too!

**You wanna know who I'm talking about then ask and maybe I will tell you..**

AndI

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andi

:: 2003 16 October :: 6.53pm
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: stacie's mom

Publix..:_:..My boyz
I went to Publix and Casey, Joe, Dirt, Jared, and Logan was there. YAY! We, well more them, skated and stuff. Casey, it was soo great and funny (sorry casey) he ollied off a 10 ft garbage thingy and he was doin great but the deck got away from under him and he fell hard on his feet and landed on his bum. It hurt his knee pretty bad. ((tear))

Casey, Jared, Logan and Dirt were trying to ollie over the drain. It was funny when they busted their cap and their heads peeked over. lol sooo cute!
Some dudes came over and started to skate and I felt like the dork on the side ((boo-hoo)). But later they went somewhere else for a bit but came back. When they were gone Jared was teaching me how to do an ollie better than i do now. I did do it better 2 times outta what? 10, 20 times? I lost count..lol yeah but i'm trying.
Then a guy name Jason came over and was trying to teach me too! I didm't perform my mad skills ((yeah right!)) in front of him b/c i'm not comfortable in front of ppl i don't know to skate w/ yet b/c i'm not that great as all of 'em are. When he gave up on me and left Jared asked," You know that was his way of hitting on u right?" I'm like no crap. Jason is cool and all but he's a jerk and a show off at the same time. urgh!

Jared and I left those guys and went home.
I had fun that day.

Then later i went to church and was grrdified at Levi the whole friggin time. I have no clue why. I'm ready to give up on that kid. I don't feel it n e more. We're not like we use to be ((frown)). Alright well i'm gonna go. lata balla!

AndI

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tubularchick88

:: 2003 15 October :: 10.22pm
:: Mood: excited

Halloween!
Yay! Im at my aunt and uncles for Halloween meaning no limits! I can be w/ my friends on a Friday night as late as I want and I can do pretty much whutever I want! I dunno why God gave this to be but im sure glad he did!WooHoo! Hell ya!

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andi

:: 2003 13 October :: 9.09pm
:: Mood: OPEN

Who I really am, or what I know about me...
I came to realization the other night that NO one knows the real me. But who can blame you? I don't even know the real me....But I would like to tell you the real me or at least what I know of myself at this moment b/c I'm still on the long dusty road of getting to know me b/c some of you know, I have lost myself over the summer.....

ONE thing I want you to all know is that I have a major desire and I am determined to be diffrent from everyone. Set myself apart from them. I actually wanna be that weird girl in the corner. I know I am picky about people having the same crap as me or saying teh stuff that i say. But dude(s) son't u understand? When I was little I wanted to take up sk8brding and drums just b/c not alot of girls do it. I wanna do and have stuff thta no one has. Impossible? Yes and NO. It's just my goal in life. I wanna feel and BE different. But a good different.I feel trapped and I cna't breathe when I can't be a different someone. So you want me to stop being a bitch about you or someone else talking and having the same stuff and doing the same crap? then DON'T do it. I would be very happy if you stop....

Another thing is I'm stubborn. If i think I'm right or have a strong point. I wont back down unless if i don't it'll lead to something bad. But it varies..

3rd thing I actually don't get mad or hate ppl unless they do the certain things that will get me that way. Like goin behind my back. That will really get me pissed and wanna choke you and hope to die. Another is being something your not. Whose worth working ur ass off for being something that's fake n e ways?? Another well.....i'm not gonna go there.

4th I believe in GOD. I try to be a good christian. There is really nuttin to live for on the Earth. I fall back to being a "bad christian" just b/c of my surrondings. But I try, but not my hardest. Right now I am heading to hell b/c I haven't been baptized. I did when I was lil but that actually doesn't count b/c it wasn't my choice. Hell....geez that's scary to me.

5th I don't get scared too easily. It's just all fun and games to me.

6th I like to do crazy stuff. But I may not do it if there will be a bad outcome.

7th I don't take a lot of things personal. Sorry to say but if I'm in a fight w/ someone and w/ their "evil" comments to me and them trying to get me pissed or feel bad I laugh. I just find it funny. I guess b/c I don't take it personal b/c it's all in an opinion. It what ppl think about me, but it's not what i think about me sometimes.

8th I do some-what care what ppl think about me to the extent. Just b/c i care doesn't mean I will change myself for them. I also don't think if i do this what will they think of me then?? They don't like it then w/evas.

9th I can say somethings that are mean to ppl w/out me knowing it. I just don't think ppl will take it in that way.

10th I hate ppl being immature, grow up!!! We're how old now? 2? It bugs me when ppl can't even go up and talk to a guy or a girl and make a big deal. That also falls into I hate drama queens. We don't need them in the world.

I if i have n e more of me's i'll let u know b/c I can't stand it when ppl don't get stuff about me but i don't even know some stuff about me...

AndI
p.s. A journal always has a first step.

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tubularchick88

:: 2003 12 October :: 11.09pm
:: Mood: aggravated

Fuck you!
To one person, fuck you, you should kno who u are!

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andi

:: 2003 11 October :: 9.45pm
:: Mood: good

Saturday night!!!
Dude i chilled w/ my hoe's hehe j/k. luv u! We went to down town CC. There is a neato cafe there. I think that should be our hang out for now on, seriously. N e ways, we hanged there for 2 hours and then walked the city or rather a city wanna-be that this town is. It was fun.
There was a korny parade. There was a car show. Woo! Amanda and I had our dream cars there or what is close to it.

We went into wallgreens to buy something. I bought the TGI Fridays chips ((yummy!!)) and a water. well I couldn't open the bag so amber and amanda tried. lol didn't work out. So Amber went in to ask the lady to cut it. Amanda and I laughed so hard b/c we could imagine over the intercom saying,"Blonde girl w/ pink hair aisle 1 ailse 1 step away from the bag" yeah so the cashier lady started laughing at amber when she left.
We hanged on the side of the store and played w/ the store carts. Sooo fun fun!! Amanda got in one and amber was pushing her around. A cop came by and Amanda was on the phone w/ her grandma b/c she called and Amanda yelled o shit cop! Amanda scrambles out still on the phone w/ grandma and gets the drinks and run....Woo! We went back and had races. A truck was backing out, so we went to the side to wait and he's like u gonna race or what? SO Amanda and I raced and he betted that i would win for 2 bucks. But amanda won b/c we wanted the money but u know, the doosh didn't pay. O well.
Then we walked around while scarfing on the chips. It was grand. I attacked the chicks w/ the chips (i rhymed) amber threatened me. I like it when she does that. She tried to have me spill my wa wa on me but w/ my neatoness that i have (ya right) she only got a lil on me. A car went by and slowed down to check us out and i yelled keep movin. So they did and then turned around to go back to us. We went back in the cafe to listen to the blues guy and to get away from the guys in car. Well later those guys came in the cafe. lol they left though.
Then Amber's pa picked us up and droped me off. It was all fun and games. Woo hoo!
I'm home alone now. It's all good though. Ok i'm gonna go. Ta Ta.

AndI

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tubularchick88

:: 2003 11 October :: 1.41am
:: Mood: happy

Whats up?
Hey, just got back from the movies,had a tubular time. My friend amanda and i like put red gel in our hair and hers turned out really good but mine turned out pretty shity but thats ok becuz once i washed it out, it stayed pink so im happy.We saw School of Rock which wasnt bad, then we walked around and went to Outback w/ an uber hot waiter. He was fun, i wanted to take him home!LoLz!Anyway!i ment some new ppl which was neato and yea, i had a better time than expected!Yay!I rock LoLz(im not concided, im just confident) LoL!Byes and thanx Anne,Amanda, and Michelle your fuckin awesome!

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tubularchick88

:: 2003 10 October :: 5.05pm
:: Mood: contemplative

Why??
why are we judged on what you wear and what you listen to? ok it is so odd coming from me of all ppl but i now understand. i truely never understood what ppl meant when they said"dont label me". i never even agreed w/ it untill now.i hate that i am becoming, or even just wearing and listening to what i want and some ppl (who will never be mentioned) dont think its me. of all ppl, you kno that i wouldnt change myself to make other ppl happy becuz i dont believe in that. i change becuz i want to and i like whut im becoming. i am no poser, and though no one has said that, they implied it. we really are all posers no matter who u are! its like calling someone tall! if you are a friend of mine, will you just support me?thanx byes

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andi

:: 2003 10 October :: 4.05pm
:: Mood: Smart??? maybe not...

another one!!
The Difference Between Knowledge and Intelligence
By: Brandon Lamb

Almost everyday, someone walks up to me and tells me that they feel stupid. This is not only annoying, but slightly depressing as well. The general populace of this school feels inferior to those select few with a 4.0 GPA or higher and then have absolutely no need to. The amount of knowledge that you hold has absolutely nothing to do with how smart you are. People who lord their knowledge over others should be beat with dirty shovels for their stupidity and consent to pathetic human nature.
Knowledge is what makes up the world around us. Knowledge is not something to obtain, the obtaining of knowledge is entirely voluntary and has nothing to do with your personal level of intellect. Nearly every human on Earth is born with an inherent amount of intelligence that will grow with age, not with knowledge of its use. Intelligence is what makes you and I human. It is not, however, what makes us better or worse than someone. All men are created equal, yet, more than likely, it takes us a length of time to realize this, as the past has clearly shown.
Some humans harness their intelligence to gain knowledge, knowledge of the world and "society" around them, and that is more than fine. Yes, it is more than fine until they try to abuse the knowledge they have. By using the word "abuse", I mean more than simply using their knowledge to make others feel inferior to them and their personal level of knowledge. Whether or not they do it consciously is not a question I would like to address because the possible answers imply nothing excellent about the human race as a whole.
Some humans, unlike those listed above look beyond the world around them and what it contains, they look further, and they look within. The true sign of intelligence is the non-use of it to gain knowledge about the world, for the world does not last and is fickle and childish more often than not. Yes, the true sign of intelligence is harnessing your intelligence to gain knowledge of yourself. Through the knowledge of oneself, you can learn more about our world, the universe, and those who survive in them, more so than you could ever without it. The knowledge of one's being cannot be found in any books or conversations; only through hard work and many severely relevant epiphanies can one learn the truth of one's self. Only fools say knowledge is power! Knowledge is as irrelevant as many lives are without what makes our fabric of humanity, truth. So the next time you feel stupid, don't come whining to me, simply search for comfort in the truth of yourself, because that is the only thing that will keep you warm in the frost of lies that makes up our world today.

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andi

:: 2003 9 October :: 9.41am
:: Mood: annoyed

Journals
Definition of Journals: To write your events, thoughts and feelings on matters....

Ok so referring to that, why do people put surveys and quizes in their journal?? I've always woundered. Don't get me wrong. I don't think it's bad or wrong. So yeah... I just think it shows immaturity. Don't ask me how it makes me think that, it just does.

Speaking of immaturity, I CAN'T stand immature people. They drive me NUTS!!! I've tried to not get annoyed my them or anything related to that but I can't help it. I don't mind people for being immature on somethings, b/c somethings call for immaturity.
Where ever I look there is immaturity in people 24/7. argh! I just wanna smack their heads together w/ coconuts. I have no idea why I said coconuts, but yeah...

I'm in Web design class right now and I have to go and do Fireworks. lata balla. Holla!

AndI

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andi

:: 2003 7 October :: 9.38pm
:: Mood: crazy

ello!
Holla balla! hehe. Ok so yeah.
Monday

My bed was my best friend that day. I slept it all away! Well then I went to go babysit. I let the 5 yr old and the 3 yr. old swing on the basketball hoop rim. Don't worry, they only got a scratch or 2 or 20, but don't get me started on the broken leg. It wasn't my fault i swear! I made some lil mulla. not much though.

Today


School..snooze! ok on a better subject, I had drum lessons today. woo! It was the best. I was outta there in 20 mintes! Fastest ever! I did really good in there for sizzle my nizzle!

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I found out that there is a gay high school! The only gay school in Amarica. It's been around for 20 yrs and has only 2 classes. This year, yup, it's a official . It's a public school! It's named after a polition who got assaniatated for being gay. SO the name is dun dun dun....Harvey Milk High School! Woo! It allows gays, lez, and bi's and trans. Super dooper....

That's all I have to really tell about now. SO lata!

AndI (woo-wee-woo-wee-woo!)

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