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2004 8 December :: 11.46am
:: Music: Sick. ; ;
Well, I'm here at home...
I came home sick.
Went to the Orchestra concert last night, and I didn't see Bethany!! ; ; Sad, sad Dana. I swear, we'll make something work, Bethany! But yeah, I ate a cookie with green icing. It made me happy. And I saw Kiwi, Aisha and Ry-Anus (aka Rhianna).
It looks like Dylan's not coming back to Roland Grise. Maybe he's in juvy or something, but what could he have done to get there?
Woke up this morning, I was really sick. Went to school anyways. In Chorus, Mr. Riel got mad because I was late. But I went to the chorus room, and the band people were in there, so I had to get all the way over to the Band room. He was like "Well, I've been telling you guys it was in the bandroom today and tomorrow for the past week." and everyone stood up for me and said they never heard him say it. =) He said that we had selective hearing. Pssh.
We mixed stuff to make brownies in Mrs. Yeoman's. Brian's not in my group anymore!! ^_^ We're actually making the borwnies, Friday, though. We mixed the sugar and flour and stuff. The dry ingredients.
Then in Science, Mrs. Johson was extra Johnson-y. I found out that nearly half of the team is failing. Mrs. Johnson does not teach us SHIT. I swear, I haven't learned anything about Science in her class all year. -.-
Then I went to the nurse and my dad came to pick me up. As we were leaving, Mr. Hatch told me that I had a great voice and that I was very talented... Then on the car ride home, dad was talking about how I should spend more time on homework, and how I should change the way I look before next year. He said "We love you fine just the way you are, but you might have some teachers who discriminate against you... Because, well, I don't know if you notice this, but you have a little bit of a gothic... or punk kind of image." -.- He said he wanted me to head toward a "preppy" direction, because "preppy" originated from people who went to prep school and blah blah blah. -____________________________-; Whatever.
I think I'll go nap or something now. I'm exhausted.
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2004 6 December :: 8.40pm
:: Mood: Meh.
:: Music: Evanescence- Tourniquet
First off, I'm not really racist- I can explain my title. I just don't feel the need to.
But, for your enjoyment, I will anyways! ^_^
Well, we had a substitute in Math today... So we walked to the trailer, and looked in the little window before we walked in. Ethan turned to a big group of us and said, "Oh God, guys... it's that mean black lady." So, Rashon, Shiyana, and 'Los were walking up, and I yelled "OH GOD, I HATE BLACK... *looks at them* ...substitute teachers."
Yeah, my class is pretty close and cool. I'm down with the brothas and sistas. Ha.
Well, interesting things that have happened lately...
Nothing.
Although, if you walk up to Trevor Whitcomb and ask him if he likes girls, he says "I haven't reached that stage in life yet." What a cool kid. (He's in my Family/Consumer Science group. With Rhianna... and this kid Brian, who picks his nose sometimes... We're making brownies.. >.>) IF BRIAN FRICKIN' TOUCHES MY BROWNIES...
[/end angry brownie rant.]
I thought I'd treat you guys with a nice long entry. :]
Even though, what... two people read this? Ha. How cool am I?
So, anyways. I like to have jolly holidays in Canada. RIGHT, JOHN?
...Uhm, I wonder if you even read this. JOHN IF YOU READ THIS....
Then leave me a comment, nugget.
Erm... Yep. I think I'm done for now. I feel like I'm forgetting something, but if I am... I'll be sure to update later. I'm sure you care sooo much, though.
SHA! Oo noo mah yeah,
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2004 5 December :: 3.08pm
:: Music: Christmas Music. GAH!
Well, it's been a pretty lonely weekend. Carly's gone. ; ;
Didn't get to see Bethany today. I miss her dearly.
So what's happened- a whole lot of nothing.
Pointless post :)
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2004 3 December :: 4.37pm
:: Mood: Blee?
:: Music: Anti Flag- Turncoat.
Well, it was a better day. This morning Taylor, Marcus and I all showed up at the exact same time. "You know what this means, right? We were meant to face the world together until the end of time!" Hah. <3 them. Mr. Riel told us how great we were... Did a worksheet with Zach in Yeoman's class... Some black dude stole money from me... and generally, I'm scared shitless of black people... I'm not racist, I just don't really like being jumped by like five of them. But Shiyana told on him. XD I won't be getting my money back, though. *fumes* I'm not even sure how much it was, though. There was change from when my sister went shopping. (=/ I guess I'll have to get over it.) Read a book in Mrs. Johnson's class. Failed a test in Mr. Moore's... Finished my project in Ms. Connor's, and got bitched at by Mrs. Glasgow.
Just because she has sand in her vagina, she shouldn't take it out on our class. For fucking laughing at something.
James and Taylor are joining chorus. =) Yayy. Should be fun-ness. 2 more guys. Bass and tenor I'm assuming.
Can't wait til Sunday. I'll update later or something.
Carly's gone... ;_; I miss her already.
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--Your Favorite--
Hair Color:: I prefer darker.
Eye Color:: Blue.
(Their)Music Genre Preference:: Uhm, it doesn't matter to me really. As long as they aren't hardcore country fans, I'm alright.
Height(estimate):: Taller than me?
Age:: Around the same age. (Or 17, haha Keely)
Personality Type:: They need to be able to make me laugh.
--This or That--
Older or Younger:: Older :)
Romantic or Horndog:: Romantic. (I'm a girl. What the Hell did you expect?)
Smart or Stupid:: Both, ha.
Fat or Skinny:: It doesn't matter to me.
Skinny but Muscular or Big and Muscular:: I don't care too much.
Punk or Preppy:: Punk, I suppose. I <3 little emo boys, though.
The Big Picture or the Little Things:: Little things.
Flowers/Candy or Big Expensive Present:: I don't need either.
Mixtape or Burned CD:: Either.
Love or Lust:: Both.
Emotional or Just Not:: Emotional.
Sincere or Jokester:: Both.
Hott and mean or Ugly and sweet:: Ugly and sweet.
Sexy or Just "cute":: *shrugs* It ain`t a thang, niqqa.
Arse or Abs:: ARSE!!! ...and abs :)
Hair or Hands:: I <3 long haired boys. And girls. :)
Dimples or Eyes:: Eyes. Eyes. Eyes. Eyes.
Biceps or Calves/Thighs:: Biceps.
Teeth or Nose(some people are just wierd) :: Eh, it doesn't matter too much.
Clean Shaven or Scruffy:: Scruffy would annoy the shit out of me.
Rugged or Prim and Proper:: Eh...
Countryboy or Cityboy:: Either. Just as long as they don't have a country accent, I'm down.
Date alone or With Friends: *shrugs*
Mama's Boy or Rebel Without A Cause:: Both, ha.
--Have You Ever--
Dumped a guy because he liked you too much:: Uhm, actually...
Loved a guy because he stalked you:: Naw.
Loved a guy because he hated you:: Well, it made me like him more?
Asked your friend's crush out:: No. Well, once. But she was telling me to, and wouldn't leave me alone until I did. He said no anyways.
Lead a guy on for kicks:: Nope.
Asked a guy out purely because he was hott:: No.
Flirted with guys even though you had a boyfriend:: No.
Lied about not having a boyfriend:: No. I've only had 2 boyfriends, and they don't really count.
Lied about having one:: Well, once to this stalker guy.
Cheated:: No.
Been Cheated on:: Kind of.
Had a crush on a gay guy:: Heh.
--Their Clothing(yes/no)--
Boxers?:: Uhm...
Briefs?:: Whatever floats their boat.
Hat?:: Most of the time.
Skater Shoes?:: Yes. Or converse :)
Pimp Shoes?:: ...Pimp shoes?
Band Shirts?:: Hawt. Unless they're dumb bands. Like Good Charlotte or something.
Vintage shirts?:: Totally 80's, dude!
Southpole/um..other thug clothes..?:: Johnnn! Wigga, please.
Dixie Outfitters/Big Johnsons?:: What the...
Independent/DC?:: I don't like DC so much. Their shoes suck. They're too expensive and they fall apart really easily.
Skavenger/UGP?:: ...
Fox/Thor?:: I don't care much about clothing.
Jeans or Shorts?:: Jeans.
--Be Honest--
Would you ever date a guy for his money?:: Nope.
Would you ever date a guy for his social status?:: Nope.
Have you ever liked hanging out with your bf's friends more than him?:: What the Hell? I'm confused.
Have you ever pretended to like somebody to make them feel better?: Er, no. I don't believe I have.
Have you called a girl a whore, when you were screwing lots of guys?:: Oh yeah let me tell you. I was banging 6 guys at once, and I called this one girl up and called her a whore. (Note to the slow: sarcasm is your friend)
Do looks matter?:: Well, if you've seen the guys I've gone out with, then you know that's a big N-O.
Are you honestly scared of being dumped?:: No. Not really.
Does size matter?:: Not really, because I'm not banging people yet. Ha.
Do you avoid 'situations' with ugly guys?:: What do you mean by "situations"? (No, I don't avoid ugly guys. Unless it's Wade or Tim. Ew.)
Are you ashamed to be seen with your ugly friends?:: No.
Are you ashamed for being ashamed?(you better be):: I wasn't ashamed in the first place.
Do you hide things from your crushes/guy friends/bf?:: Uh, no. Nothing important.
Do you lie about masturbation for attention or false innocence?:: No.
Do you really want a guy to say if those jeans make your butt look fat?:: No...
Are you dissapointed when your bf doesn't say I love you right away?:: No.
Wanna be a virgin till marriage?: Uh, I guess that'd kind of be neat, but I doubt it.
Do you really love the guys everytime that you say it?: Yeah. Loving someone and being in love are two different things.
Do you dream about your crushes/bfs/guy friends?:: Yeah. Alot.
Would you makeout with a guy friend just to get it over with/curiosity?:: Been there. Done that.
Does this survey suck nuts?: Monkey nuts!
Yes, I'm bored.
No, don't complain. Bitches.
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2004 2 December :: 4.49pm
Well, my good mood is completely gone. And the butterflies are only making me feel lonely.
About an hour after I posted last night, my dad called me and my sister downstairs. Mom was lying in bed. She was incoheirant, and I could barely understand what she was saying. She's been taking a "friend" of her's medicine. Yeah, some friend. Beside the fact that it makes her speach slurred, and completely not understandable, she takes it with alcohol, which is really dangerous.
She's been drinking more, and smoking about a pack a day. I'm afraid to get in the car with her behind the wheel. She's under the influence of something everyday when she picks me up from school. I remember about 2 months ago. She'd cut down sooo much. She was down to like two cigarettes a day, and she cut out drinking all together. I was so proud of her. But she's just let herself be influenced again.
This morning, we had a 3 hour chorus practice. I cried when we were out in the seats. A bunch of preps saw me. They thought it was because I got bumped off the solo...
I guess that's part of the reason. I just wanted to show people I was good at something. This was my one time to be recognized. But instead, he gave it to a seventh grader, who gets recognized for her swimming acheivements all the time.
Carly, my wonderful sister... I look up to her so much. I wanted her to hear me. I was going to put my whole heart into that few seconds of singing, but of course, that just won't happen.
All day, there were tears in my eyes. Once again, my chance to be seen was taken away... and I fear for my mother's life. There have been many times before when she's almost died because she was intoxicated. She may have to leave for rehab. A month without a mother....
Wow.
I don't see why I have to watch so many people be ruined by drugs or alcohol. No matter what I say to them, it means nothing. I can never get the message across. I've seen this happen too many times before...
Fucking tears me apart.
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