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2005 18 November :: 1.16pm
I don’t know what to say
Don’t know what to do
Don’t know if it really even matters to you
How can I make you see
It matters to me
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2005 18 November :: 11.23am
everything is so....twisted. I hope it doesn't stay this way, I'm about to have a breakdown. I'm leaving tonight, I hope things don't get more out of control while I'm gone, and most of all I hope that I don't get replaced like it already seems I have. I at least hope that it isn't all forgotten over nothing.
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2005 17 November :: 10.51pm
The play was really awesome tonight!! I wasn't even nervous at all but Annalise and I couldn't stop laughing in our munchkin house's. I got a dozen roses and then Missy gave me a single rose too. I miss her. She is one of the nicest people I know. Anyways tomorrow is going to be a long day but at least we don't have to go to any classes. Two shows tomorrow=tiring.
What the hell? You really upset me sometimes. I just need to go to bed. I have a long weekend ahead of me.
sweet sixteen . beauty queen looking
through her magazine && everyone
thinks she has everything while deep inside she’s crying
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2005 17 November :: 9.56pm
Joe Lewis, I think that you are the love bug, and you have just bitten me!
(no, not really, but you're pretty awesome!)
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2005 17 November :: 9.44pm
oh man, now I know why I'm the way that I am. I hope nothing gets worse. I already have so many things stressing me out. One major one that I don't know what I'm going to do about it, and the rest just have to do with me making better use of...myself. I know why I care so much, but like I would ever tell anyone. gosh, I won't even truly admit anything to myself, like I know why in my head, for sure...100%, but I'm never going to say it outloud. It's so stupid. I just wish that they way I think about things happening in my head was the way that they really happened. If that was the case, then I would be totally stress free, I'm always so optimistic in my head, but in reality, I can't do half the things I thought I could do, and I can't be to anyone what I thought that I could be. And I guess I'm jsut feeling really awful because I don't know what to do, I always have a plan, and right now, I'm really lost, and I have nobody to talk to for real, that I can trust at the moment. ohhh gossshhhh! what the heck seriously, I can't take this anymore, I'm going to get sick after all this is figured out, yea, it's really bothering me that much.
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2005 17 November :: 8.55am
yesterday was the first snowfall of the season... which marks the day keegan asked me to be his girlfriend.... it may not be the technical date... but its the symbolic day. I can't wait till the 24th when we can finally wear our rings engraved "the first year". just a symbol of our relationship.. not promise rings, just a symbol.
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2005 16 November :: 10.14pm
:: Mood: Exhausted
I promise I wont let you down if you take my hand tonight.
I promise we'll be just fine this time, if you take my hand tonight.
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2005 16 November :: 7.57pm
I hate the world today
You're so good to me
I know but I can't change
Tried to tell you
But you look at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
Must have been relieved to see
The softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything
All rolled into one
Chorus:
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way
So take me as I am
This may mean
You'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that
When I start to make you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today won't mean a thing
Chorus
Just when you think, you got me figured out
The season's already changing
I think it's cool, you do what you do
And don't try to save me
Chorus
I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numb, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way
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2005 16 November :: 7.52pm
You got the best of me, and now I feel like shit. Trust me, it's not going to happen again.
Gilly it was wonderful talking to you! You always make my day. : )
I wish I oh nevermind...it is so unimportant, everything that I say is so pointless....most of the time.
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2005 15 November :: 10.26pm
I'm so tired. Dress rehearsal seemed like it took forever. Micky, Veronica, and I had to go into Great Day to get something while we were in full costume and makeup and wow did everyone look at us. Everyone kept asking us what we were doing. It was pretty fun and then we had to explain to them 1234028408 times that we are in the play. Tomorrow we have dress rehearsal again so I probably wont be home until right now once again. After school I'm going to April's house. It should be pretty fun.
Anyways here are pictures from yesterday!!
Read more..
I was going to show pictures from tonight but I want everyone to wait to see what we all look like if you come to the play!!
Anyways I should get going. I have to wash off all this makeup. It's gross, trust me.
<3 ashley
Oh yeah sorry these pictures are so big!!
Edit: Well, actually, the pictures aren't big anymore, I don't know how that happened, but someone must love me! ;)
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2005 15 November :: 8.42pm
ohhh man!!! I'm so flippen excited for this weekend, it gives me something to focus on besides my world that is actually happening.
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2005 15 November :: 8.26pm
my day went like this.....shit shit shit shit fun shit shit, Dani called, shit, went tanning(unshitty for approx. 27 minutes), came home,shit, ALMOST fell asleep on the couch, ate dinner, and now I'm writing bout how shitty my day was and moping around somemore.
I wanted you to call me SO SO SO bad. And when I say I want a hug, I mean I really really NEED a hug. Just so you know in the future.
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2005 14 November :: 11.09pm
Maybe someday I'll be able to tell you...
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2005 14 November :: 8.31pm
:: Mood: Happy
I'm watching Laguna Beach re-runs
That wasn't what I expected. Oh well it's not like my world is going to end or anything.
Today was my Birthday so that just makes everything better. H let me leave play practice after my scene because it was my Birthday. Otherwise I would have had to stay the whole play. Thank god for Birthdays. I went out to dinner @ Olive Garden. They all sang to me and it was really embarrassing. Lisa was also there with Chris since it was their one month today and they sat pretty close to us. So I thought that that was pretty cool that they were there and so were we and we didn't plan it. All day people kept calling me,leaving voicemails, and texting me to tell me Happy Birthday. It made me happy lol. Anyways I love everyones cards and Lisa got me the coolest present ever. She gave it to me this morning in the car. Today is my cousin Zoe's 1st Birthday and my dogs birthday lol except I don't know how old he is, it's also my grandpas b-day, my grandmas dogs b-day and then today erika bauer and I both found out in 3rd hour we have the same b-days so we both thought that was cool......
Everyone should come see the play.
I'm excited for the play and for whatever this weekend brings haha..
Anyways I gotta go.
I'm so tired. I didn't really sleep last night and I didn't really all weekend either. I would go to bed but I have to at least watch Laguna Beach.
<33 ashley
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2005 14 November :: 1.55pm
Honestly, I only try to please everyone, it's not like I deliberatly defy you, I don't tell you that I don't have time just to be a smart ass, just because you don't have time for anything doesn't mean everyone else is just sitting around not doing anything. I have a life too, and let me tell you doing the freakin dishes isn't my top priority at the moment. There are some things that are a little bit more important to me, and when I don't feel like stting around and listening to you bitch I'm NOT going to. You can't sit me down anymore and make me hear you. Especially if your only way of communicating with me is by yelling and being sarcastic and mocking everything that comes out of my mouth. I'm sorry that I don't have time to clean the house, I didn't know that I was the only one who freakin lived here who knew where the vaccum was. Don't yell at me if you're going to say shit like you just did, because I'm not listening to you. You may think I'm being a bitch but I'm not, I'm just not bending to your every will anymore, if it's not ok with you that I'm growing up and have things that I HAVE to do, then too bad for you. Get someone else to do everything for you, by you yelling at me and bitchin about how nothing ever gets done around here, and then not taking any inititive to do for yourself, I'm sure as hell not going to help you, when I move out and you live in a shit hole, because right now...I AM the only one who cares enough to clean around here, you're going to finally appreciate everything that I did. I wouldn't do a damn thing around here if it wasn't for the fact that I'm a neat freak and I get crazy when its messy, but because I do care, and I like where I love even more when it's clean, I do clean and so many other things that you never even notice.
It bugs me that I can be in such a wonderful mood, and then you come home and seriously are only here long enough to yell at me and tell me what to clean next and my whole day is messed up to the point where I don't want to be here anymore. Why am i the only one that you ask to do anything? Kourtney is here more than anyone else, why is it that she gets to take naps on the couch and we have to tip toe around while we clean, just so she doesn't get woken up? Who made her queen? GRR! I don't want to talk about this anymore, it's stupid and the only person who cares is me, and Kourtney, I know that you read this and I don't care what you think about it.
and that's another thing, why is it that everything that is mine is also everyone elses? Why can't you all just stay out of my room? oh I know why, cuz it's the cleanest out of all three of us, so you two have to trash mine, and I have to clean it like every freakin day, and you know that I will because it bugs me so much. I can't help it that I want to be organized a little bit! seriously this is so stupid. I'm getting out of here.
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