Cecelia

Cecelia

:: 2004 24 June :: 7.31pm

i need someone whos 21 >[:,)
rockin ryan rapes roomates.

sometimes things are better left un-said......this is one of those times :)

*smiles*

wish upon a falling star

sugarjackj

:: 2004 21 June :: 10.39pm

my hurting is not some teenage "love" kind of breakup shit. the whole "i loved you and
you broke my heart" thing is a bunch of SHIT.

first off YOUR FUCKING 16 OR 17. Things happening now in your life are
inconsequential.

unless your mother likes playing fucking mind games with you.

at this point in your life you are a stupid kid with no clue about anything that will happen
to you in the future.

and if your not talking to family the word "love" mean absolutely shit. you dont know
love. your in a fling with someone who will dump you in an instant for someone else with
the drop of a hat. its not love, its teenage lust.

your heart is broken? i dont think so. thats more bullshit then i even care to think about.
your heart is such a strong thing. and even as you think its breaking.....its only bending.

it bothers me that people even think that their "pain" is so bad from a breakup that they
should die. DO IT. kill yourself no ones going to care. the less "woe is me" act the better.

my mom is playing mind games with me again.
my life with her is based on lies, anger, guilt ,memories and love.

i love her so much, yet i feel so shunned. as long as nothing is serious everything will be
fine.
i love her but im glad that i dont live with her.

everyone in my life notices my abnormalities.
EVERYONE.

everyone in my family is so sorry for me and my sisters because we never had a normal
life. never a normal childhood.
im sick of pity and in sick of living with this. i know i will never be normal. im sorry if that
inconveniences you. im just trying to keep myself from having a breakdown.

im hurt, im venting to an online journal that no one reads and once again..........i just need
someone here.

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sugarjackj

:: 2004 16 June :: 7.24pm

So i have been thinking.

and its good...real good.

last night had a few firsts for me

like hitchiking. the first time i ever do it i wind up getting a ride with one of my friends that just happend to be there.

im just sitting here right now.............you know i think my picture on my licence is ok......................aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh

bored.

wish upon a falling star

sugarjackj

:: 2004 14 June :: 7.27pm

im so mad i could stick a fucking pen through my eye.

you ever get that feeling like your all alone and no one will let you in. i hate it.

i dont even have anyone to talk to.
just someone to be there.

fuck
thats 6to much to ask for.

things could be a lot better right now.

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sugarjackj

:: 2004 9 June :: 12.56pm

yesterday i got 4 teeth pulled.
i feel like crap.

my parents have been on my case about getting a job. they are going to stop giving me gas money soon.

but im not allowed to take the car right now anyways......im on super doses of vikadin...........or however you spell it.

im bored and i hurt.

someone love me.

(or call me)

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sugarjackj

:: 2004 2 June :: 5.22pm

HIGHLIGHTS OF MY SOPHOMORE YEAR

Hardest Class: geomety?

Easiest Class: Choir

Funnest Class: TV PRO!!

Best Teacher: MARTINO!

Worse Teacher: i liked all my teachers this year.......maybe dolbee

Best Grade: tv pro

Worse Grade: goemetry

Broing/Fun lunch: Fun lunch. it will be better next year when i can go out to lunch with
people

Detentions: 6?

Best : hearing someone rip one REALY loud

Worse : picking up trash

Funnest Dance: hoe down!

Newest Friend: i dont know

Oldest Friend: Kirah!!

Favorite Memory: the spring concert with all the parts i had! and my b-day party was
fun.

Embarissing Memory: when they called off homecomming court i got of the stands ran
out onto the floor yelling �I WON I WON!!!!� then i fell down..............all for a $10 bet.

Worse Memory: Going to forest view

Best School Meal: subway day!

Worse School Meal: maynards wraps (they have bugs in them)

Best Descion: Taking the job martino offerd to me.

Biggest Regret: having no regrets

Biggest Concern: that i wont be able to get over the guy i have liked for a realy long
time.

Smallest Concern: if my mom is going to bring my amp sunday

Friend you wish you still had: ??????

Friend that you are glad you dont have: uhhh?????

Spring Break/Winter Break: winter break

Best boyfriend/girlfriend: Zach. hes the only one i went out with!

Worse boyfriend/girlfriend: same

Coolest Trend:

Dumbest Trend: the need to speak like a gettho thug. ( right THRRR)

Good/Bad Year: good

Rate it 1-10 (10 best): 8

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sugarjackj

:: 2004 30 May :: 3.20pm

Like i said before, way too ballsy.
it happens.

Buck stoped by the other night. heh.

it was weird because i dont like him anymore so it just seemed like such an empty visit to me.

noonlevoseem

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sugarjackj

:: 2004 28 May :: 9.29pm

So last night i had this very liberating conversation with katie. (addison you just made my shit list) it was one of those things that made me feel so un-alone.

Its great just to talk to someone alone about whatever. I can honestly say its been a great while. I know im odd but to me thats one of the best feelings.

but oh well.

i love it.

i also love my new gutiar.
it kicks ssssoooooo much ass.
my new songs i have to write them down or something because ALL of my songs are on memory alone! effing a.

good night

wish upon a falling star

sugarjackj

:: 2004 22 May :: 8.35pm
:: Music: Cranberrys - Zombie

lalala i need to do................you.

Ok so theres a party at my house next thursday. the 27th.

yea its going to be cool because my parents are going out of town.

figeyburger.

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sugarjackj

:: 2004 19 May :: 5.53pm

i think i have figured it out.

im not cool.

im not a weird person.
this makes me less ineresting.

so fuck you all.

im working the system from the inside

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sugarjackj

:: 2004 19 May :: 3.26pm

i got 4 diffrent kent thingys today from 4 diffrent people today.

so when it comes to raging lesbians thanks for thinking of me!

it a nice picture though.

sex sells.

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sugarjackj

:: 2004 17 May :: 9.02pm

JACKIE - door opens

JESS - looks up

JESS - "JACKIE! HI!.."

JACKIE - "OH MY GOD WHAT IS THAT?!?"

JESS - jumps away

BOLTH - laughs hysterically

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sugarjackj

:: 2004 17 May :: 6.38pm

Yeah so im way to ballsy.

jess it seriously made my day.

haha i mean you dont see THAT every day.

so right now im made of money, and its good till it lasts.

im going with my mommy up north to go golfing with her on drummond island.

yea you think its hick here, im related to half the people on that island. And Mat is my age and hes been married for awhile now! kswgfevboiUef

love me.

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sugarjackj

:: 2004 16 May :: 6.10pm

Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer
Your first full name
Your personality rates a seven (you rock)
your best quality is you have all your teeth =D
your worst quality is youre very wild
this is because lifes a bitch
Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

Wild? ME?! never!

so i had fun last night.

sorry if i was a bitch to anyone.

my back hurts from falling on the ground.

and my butt.

im going to bed.

wish upon a falling star

sugarjackj

:: 2004 14 May :: 6.25pm

theres a party at my house tomorrow 8-11

come and be cool.........like me

if you need directions call me

696-3449

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