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2005 11 October :: 4.42pm
noo, god im just so fucking mad...... its just a multiple entry type of rage i guess....
what the hell is your problem?
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2005 11 October :: 4.39pm
im done with this.
i had a rotten day, and the one thing i was looking forward to taking comfort in cancelled on me.
i could very easily take comfort in something else.
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2005 10 October :: 3.36am
GAHHH
Tonight has sucked. Well, after I left Charlie's that is. Parents are gone for awhile. So when Charlie had to go to work I went home and took care of the puppies. But I'm supposed to pull an all-nighter so when he comes here after work we can just sleep all day. He'll be here in about 5 1/2 hours. I need to sleep!
Guess what!? It's really crappy. I told my mom earlier that I really need a new bed. I'm sick of my futon. And I want a real mattress. But really I'm okay with my futon, it'll do. So I decided to clean my room today. Just totally rearrange everything and mess everything up. And I have this HUGE dresser that I had to move by myself, and I wanted to move my bed to the other wall. Long story short: I BROKE MY FUTON! BOO HOO. What luck. And the worst part was, it was about 1:30 am and I really wanted to just finish cleaning my room and sleep. But I had to move EVERYTHING around and then I didn't know what to do w/my bed frame so I put it in the yard. hahaha.
CRAPPY. So now we have to sleep on my big futon mattress on the floor. Eh. I'm tired it doesn't matter. I am so rambling right now. I'm exhausted. I went shopping today for a long time. GBAKHJANJAdahKDJ
G'night. Oh yeah, next saturday lissa, char and i are going for tattoos! mine shall be on my foot. awesome. it's going to hurt though. good thing i bought new shoes today!
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2005 9 October :: 11.10pm
wow what a way to ruin a perfect weekend. thanks a lot guys . Guess the tally is down to one now. Whatever, i'll deal with that.
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2005 9 October :: 3.22pm
last night was so fun. the most fun i'd had at a dance. and the before and after of course. i love roman and yay.
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2005 6 October :: 3.27pm
okay so. . .every time i walk my building i am screaming in my head. not any words, but yelling.
there's something creepy in my room and i think it's going to kill me.
seriously.
i am going to freak out because i'm not sure what's going on.
am i being picky and judgemental and mean? am i really trying?
yeah. so i bet god is way pissed at me because i can't even bother to be sincerely nice.
ahhh. i don't know. i just don't like it. am i supposed to like everyone? am i supposed to be good to those i like the least. it's hard. it's really really really really hard. and i'm not even good at faking things.
plus i'm really petty. seriously a hugh bitch is what i am. and i hate pretending. i hateeeeeeeeee ittttt.
ugh, but other people have told me the same thing, so it's probably not just me. still. i'm not being good.
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2005 6 October :: 1.14pm
:: Mood: delicious
right now i am eating taco sause off a cheese stick.
sooooo good
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2005 4 October :: 8.17pm
i LOVE you roman!
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2005 3 October :: 7.59pm
:: Mood: sad
do you love me?????
i had fun this weekend....thanks for everyone who was a part of it. i love you all.
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2005 3 October :: 7.20pm
tonights laguna night, im waiting for keegan to get out of work so we can go over to stacys. that kristin... dirty little skank. giggles
im excited for homecoming, especially since i wont be so pale.. thank god for bronzing tanning lotion.
yeah, so algebra 2 is kicking my ass... anyone care to help me out?!
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2005 3 October :: 4.40pm
:: Music: Still Remains- White Walls
Yipppeeee finally 18.
hooray.
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2005 3 October :: 4.01pm
:: Mood: sickish
i don't know about you guys though. i want you to go away, cause i don't feel like talking.
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2005 2 October :: 11.03pm
So are the yearbooks out yet?
And does anyone know if I can pick up the senior dvd at school?
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2005 2 October :: 10.42pm
:: Music: Grey's Anatomy
Holy fuck'n crap. That was a fun birthday. Even though it's not truly my birthday until tomorrow. Only now am I getting excited. Even though it's not a huge deal or anything.
We went to Sand's tonight and played pool and stuff and it was fun. I got a really....well....that gift was CRAZY ! ! ! hm...and funny.
Tonight has been fun. Woo.
I'm going to apply at Sam's Club. Probably on Thursday. I'm really hoping I can work there. Robby said I could get a raise already just for having food experience. That's cool. And Becca works there too! And it's close to el apartmento. :-) home. That's also cool.
Anyway. goodnight. tomorrow i have to work on a crappy english test. blahhhh.
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2005 2 October :: 12.45pm
Gahhhh. 18 tomorrow. I'm buyin lottery tickets. bahahaha. whatever. This weekend i'm getting tattoos. I have to go w/my friends and w/Char and his family so I suppose that means I get a couple. hehehe. ooooh welll. His mommy made me birthday dinner and his dad brought him into a room and shook his hand and told him congratulations. It's really cool. I have to leave in a second if Charlie will ever get here. I may be going to the Bayside concert tonight at el intersecto. We'll see. GAHHH Where is he?!?
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2005 1 October :: 11.56pm
k i just have to write about my hideously LONG day....
today i got up at 8:30 got ready and went to the school. played with the pit all day long in band and then had the little competition on the field and then played cymbols in the parade and then walked back to the parade and watched with roman and then walked all the way back to the school ALONE ahhh and then realized i didn't have my keys so walked all the way to the back and then put my uniform away and then drove to Rosie's , changed and got put on the floor and got tables as soon as i walked back through that kitchen door!!
we were so busy. but at least roman and jess came to see me :0) . i started crying at one point because i was so stressed because we were so exteremely busy. I got a $35 tip. that beats my 20 dollars . that was from a 12 top. WOW . i was happy! and me and chelsy were the only servers tonight. just us two!! and we closed all by ourselves again. i like working with chelsy she's a sweetheart. and to finish the night i made $119 tonight yay!! in tips. not even counting the hourly which adds about 15 more. but wow my feet hurt. i've been standing the whole day. i didn't have a chance to get a drink or sit down or even bus a table the whole night until 9 at night. wow it was a long day.
i got my senior pics back and they are really cool . i have like 8126545612 million wallets . awesome.
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2005 1 October :: 8.58am
fuck you i hope you fall flat on your face and die. im done holding back bitch.
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2005 30 September :: 4.08pm
YOU MAKE ME SO MAD
but maybe i'm supposed to be worried instead. GREAT.
dg'alskdgjsd;lghjsd;lgjsd;lgj i'm so SICK OF THIS!
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2005 29 September :: 11.36pm
:: Music: Senses Fail- You're Cute When You Scream
"All I know is revenge is sweet when you know that you are worthless..."
And all I know is you're cute when you scream...
I'll take you
Up to the top
Of this building and just push you off...
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AHHHHH
Charlie got a ring the other night!!!! It's on layaway right now.
I'm just excited to get our married lives started. Even though it won't happen for a little while and what not.
I'm sitting here curled up in my comforter because it is soooo cold in here. Lalalala. I don't really have much else to say I just felt like posting. I had my nutrition presentation today. I think it went okay. . . eh.
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2005 29 September :: 9.43pm
play tryouts, powderfuff practice, tanning *FINALLY* (and yes you STILL owe me 20) and now hopefully a LOT of shut eye. say hello to another crazy busy weekend... SHOOT me.
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2005 29 September :: 6.56pm
1) Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, liposuction and air conditioning.
2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.
3) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.
4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.
5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Britney Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.
6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.
7) Obviously, gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.
8) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.
9) Children can never succeed without both a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.
10) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans...
*Re-post this if you believe that laws against gay marriage are just plain stupid
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2005 29 September :: 6.31pm
i hate college. and i'm not even in it. hmm.
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2005 28 September :: 9.56pm
i always worry it might be the last time i say love you baby.
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2005 27 September :: 10.48pm
Man, I am doing pretty damn well in my classes, I must say. Today went kind of fast for being a longer day... I guess....if that makes sense. I'm going to try to get a new job...somewhere...
We'll see.
I'll tell you what I do know though... There are a lot of ellipses in this entry, and I love Charlie.
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2005 27 September :: 10.23pm
im so tired. we just got back from the mall(s)... it is NOT fun dress shopping.. but ALAS i found one. and its green.. that wonderful las vegas green.. and i've tried it on and all that jazz again since i got home.. and cant find a single thing wrong with it or that i dont like. thats always nice.
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2005 27 September :: 11.30am
good things i've been doing
drinking milk
walking to class
going to the rec center
making friends
going to bed early
doing my homework
*feeding the homeless
*that is a lie
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2005 27 September :: 6.09am
another day.
i think me and keegan are gonna find my homecomming dress after school today. its about time. i really wanna find that perfect dress... its hard cuz i cant see myself falling in love with a dress the way i fell in love with my prom dress. it really did look perfect.
last night was laguna night...... if ONLY brad would have been awake. *kicks him and giggles
i dont wanna go to first hour today. im already behind on my algebra. GREAT. im just sick of having homework every night. and esp. math homework. i guess more than anything im just sick of this stupid routine of waking up, crawling out of bed, and going to school. to bad i cant just sleep the rest of my life.
my mom got me a hundred dollar gift card to this salon in rockford called genisis as an end of red flannel thing. im SO looking forward to getting a massage with it. i think the day of homecomming im gonna go there and get a massage and have my hair and nails done. i deserve to be pampered once in awhile. esp after this last week.
side note: GET TAN ERIKA! im so white right now. i just hate throwing money into such a dangerous thing as tanning. wooooo.. lets go buy cancer. hells yeah!
after we get my dress... its straight back to keegans for a nap.
i just zoned out there for awhile.. i hate when that happens. well i guess i've rambled on long enough about nothing in particular. and i suppose i should get dressed and try and look all wonderfull....
*sighs... our drama project....
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2005 27 September :: 12.27am
:: Music: Still Remains- Stare and Wonder
whoop whoop
I'm on my lil bitty computer. it's fun. it's the first time i've gotten on the internet on it. hehe.
Sooo... WE FOUND A HOUSE!!!!! Yipppeeeee
It's near John Ball and Millenium Park. It's got 4 bedrooms and a huge yard. But we'll see, we're going to try to check it out on Sunday. Yay. I'm excited.
I totally forgot about my own birthday. It's next monday but I forgot!
Anyway, I'm going to check out the Heritage tomorrow. Long day. At least I finished my BA 101 paper. yuck.
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2005 26 September :: 2.14pm
:: Music: fallllloutuuut boyyyy
So new phone number everyone!
799-1066
it's the year william the Conqueror invaded england!!!!
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2005 25 September :: 10.20pm
*sighs
could i BE anymore sad. at least desperate housewives was on tonight to comfort me.
lately... whenever we're apart i get this empty feeling inside. like it almost hurts that you arent with me. and as much as i hate it, i love feeling that way. not empty, but complete when i'm with you. now hows THAT for "is the glass half empty or half full"... 10 months and we're still goin strong.
*sighs again... last night was hard. we are no longer the reigning red flannel girls... but we will ALWAYS be the 2004 girls and the connection we formed with eachother and with Sue is unbreakable.
what a hectic weekend.. im suffering from sleep deprivation... is that a word? ahh well.. close enough.
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