them Damn Yankees

:: 2005 17 August :: 8.23pm

so uh boyfriend o' mine.... gonna call me anytime soon? gonna even let me know if you even fricken MADE it to Florida. orr......maybe you'll just chill and let me worry.

maybe
fucking
stupid.

ugh. k i was doing good but i am starting to get annoyed now.

dammit.

:: 2005 16 August :: 10.47pm

ugh. what the heck. i miss roman and i hate not having cell phones. Have i said that lately?

fatty fat fat fat.

BARACUDA

oh and steffy is 21 what the frick . can't wait until i move out and have an apartment like that. coolie cool.

:: 2005 16 August :: 6.38am
:: Music: kayne west- slow jamz

ugggh i'm the only one online. what does that say? it was so damn hot and uncomfortable in that stupid stupid stupid tiny-ass room upstairs that i couldn't take it anymore. i HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE that bed. my back hurts so bad from it. it sucks 100%. so i just couldn't take it anymore and just decided to get up. i tried sleeping on the couch for a while but nope that sucked too. and now the cats are running around like maniacs on crack and i have to babysit at 8........ ugh..................,a;lskdj

i hate stuff. you know?

:: 2005 16 August :: 12.55am

just got home from micahs.... and before that we just got home from mackinaw or mackinac or whatever it is.

it was nice to get away for a little bit.

thats really all i've got for right now. im listening to the night noises outside and its really calming.

:: 2005 15 August :: 10.23pm

I miss roman. he'd better come back safe and sound and in one piece and quickly.

BLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEH I wish we HAD FUCKING CELL PHONES. it would be so much easier. i can't wait until we do. My computers here in this house are so fucking stupid.

i dont want to type anymore.

loathing.

:: 2005 15 August :: 2.34pm

i'm at taryn's with jess and yeah i miss roman. i am a loser but oh well. i hate that we can't just buy our fucking cell phones. i can wait until we do. and well

i really need to brush my teeth i feel gross. band tonight DAR$ALSKDJ and

whateve.r i keep having dumb dreams about people i hardly know anymore. or ever really.

gahahas;lkdjfsl;djfs blah roman i love you.

danibean

:: 2005 14 August :: 1.16pm
:: Mood: groggy
:: Music: gorillaz

OMG ...yeah OMG....rascal flatts puts on the best concert in the world. holy shit....there aren't words to describe how freakin good they were. i bawled when they came out singing "here's to you". it was just amazing. and blake shelton opened and kicked ass. it was just the best night of my life. despite the fact that we stood in rain for 2 hours in line, and for over an hour while we waited and heard blake shelton. we were soaked. but it was 10000000% worth it. wooooo!!!!!!!!!

tom, you should come home now. i realllllly miss you buddy.

:: 2005 13 August :: 7.53pm

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i dont have any FUCKING FRIENDS TO FUCKING SEE A FUCKING MOVIE ON A FUCKING SATURDAY NIGHT. GOD DAMMTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT EVERYTHING FUCKING SUCKS.

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:: 2005 13 August :: 4.49pm

i want a friend. wish i had a friend.

danibean

:: 2005 13 August :: 12.05pm
:: Mood: excited

RASCAL FLATTS CONCERT TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've been waiting for over 3 months for this day!! well, we got the tickets 3 months ago...but i've been wanting to see them for like, 2 years now!! woo!

in sad news, tom is still in europe so i can't talk to him for another week. it's true that distance makes the heart grow fonder, and not talking to someone everyday does the same. i want him to come back so bad!! i miss him like crazy....i don't know how i'll get through this next week!!

12 days till i move in to my dorm at CMU!! i met some of my roomies the other day and we bought a ton of stuff for our room and bathroom!! and then we went and saw keegan at logans!!

last wednesday = 1st margarita grill experience!! way fun!!

vacation bible school is now over. i'm glad i'll get to sleep in, but i'm sad because it was really fun and the kids were adorable. especially my buddy hunter. ugh...i cried when i said goodbye to him. he is an unchurched child and by the end of the week he was coming up to me giving me hugs and asking me about jesus. it was so wonderful. a seed was planted and it just made me cry with happiness.

anyways, kaly and i are leaving soon so we can get to jackson early and play at the fair before the concert starts at 8 with blake shelton!! plus we have general admin. tickets so we want to get in line early!!! woo!!! have a fun weekend loves!

:: 2005 12 August :: 10.43pm

wow. today was such a horrible day but when i got to rosie's and worked for the first time ever it was really nice.It still doesn't change how horrible a day it was but at least rosie's seems like it is going to be a good time. Everyone is really nice there and it was pretty fun. I can't wait till i get to wear a cute little pink dress.

i probably lost my job at arby's even though i was going to keep it and just work a few hours every week. i wrote down my schedule wrong and was supposed to be at arbys and rosie's at the same time. i tried to find a cover but no one could do it. so yeah i went to rosie's so i'm pretty sure i'm fired because phyllis was not feeling at all sorry for me to say the least. so yeah that's great. i couldn't stop crying about that and then roman and i got into a huge fight. i'd never felt like that before but as soon as i saw his face when he walked towards me i just thought to myself i can't leave my baby. it could never happen. i love you baby so much.

So.

i had a good time at rosie's and i love my baby so much. I love him.

i found out that we have DVD recorder. How awesome is that? I guess my dad bought it like 2 months ago or something but I didn't even know we had. Coolllllies. jess remember when we used to say that? lol. coolies. ha.

yeah. goodnight. Has anyone ever tried any kind of diet pill and if so, which kind ? just curious.

sugarmouse0587

:: 2005 12 August :: 5.37pm
:: Music: i would be listening to the darkness, but windows media playa is on crack

seriously. . .
...ummm. . .I'm cool.

:: 2005 12 August :: 3.42pm

i am honestly having a horrible day. i can't stop fucking crying all fucking fucking fucking day and i just want roman to come give me a hug and tell me i'm not as ugly as i feel but
you know
that wont happen. considering ever fucking day soemthing has to go wrong and his car will just sit there forever rotting away

asdfn;lasdkgjsl;dkgjsl;kdgjal;skd nothing good like ever happens and if it does, it's very soon covered up with something shitty.

just
like
fucking always.

:: 2005 12 August :: 12.31pm

another perfect morning. except this time i woke up with him here.. he didnt wake me up when he got here.

last night after i got out of work we went back to his house and fell asleep around 11.. then at about 2 we woke up and it was pouring rain and there was lightning and thunder and darkness... its moments like that where we're so connected to eachother, even in silence... that make me realize how fortunate we are to have found eachother.

i came home around 4, fell asleep thinking about us, and woke up with the only other person that has ever fully completed that simple 2 letter word.

:: 2005 12 August :: 11.15am

Here's some pictures...
Baby Katriana- She's a cutie!
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~~~

:: 2005 11 August :: 9.57pm

HMMMMMM
I say that a lot. I almost got in a STUPID accident on my part.... Yeah that sucks. Char saw the whole thing too. hehe. I feel stupid. Anyway, I am just feeling good about things. Class will be starting soon. I guess I can kind of post my schedule. (I'm kinda guessing)
Mon---- Bakery/Deli Operation 8:50am-1:50 pm
Tue---- Bakery/Deli Op 8:50-1:50pm......Menu Planning/ Nut. 2-3:30..... Business Eng. 5:45-9pm (BUSY!)
Wed---- Bakery/Deli Op 8:50-1:50
Thurs--- Bakery/Deli Op 8:50-1:50......... Menu Planning/ Nutrition 2-3:30pm
Fri-------Bakery/Deli Op BLAH BLAH BLAH......
Sat.------ First Aid 7:45-11:45

I actually think I got my schedule right. Yeah. It's full. Plus work. Plus Char. Plus friends. I go in at 1:30 tomorrow. Yay! I have to talk to a lawyer. blah. And I was also a witness today at work. Interesting...

sugarmouse0587

:: 2005 11 August :: 9.46pm

okay, so i'm leaving this junkyard in like a little more than a week.
EXCITED!!!
anyone want to hang out?

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:: 2005 10 August :: 11.09pm

gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawd

common fucking courtesy. ever FUCKING heard of it?!

bloke.

:: 2005 10 August :: 11.21am

Well. I work in about 2 hours. Last night went well. Charlie came to visit me :-) <3 I just have this feeling. This really great feeling. Just complete love. It's beautiful. I feel really great. Today is going to be a good day.

:: 2005 9 August :: 11.05am
:: Music: Small Brown Bike

So... Things have been going pretty steady. I work at 1:30 today. That's preeeetty late. I was supposed to hang out with Jane and Ashley tonight but I don't think it'll work out tonight. Charlie hasn't been able to sleep so I don't know what to do. The new kitty Abby is doing really well. She's getting along with all the other kids and singing "Reunited and it feels so good!"
Maybe baby. I'm going to wait to see. Cooking thing is goin'. My back has been hurting like a crazy mofo, like before. I slept sooooo much today.
This is all just a rambling entree.

danibean

:: 2005 8 August :: 11.18pm

yay!! horray for birthday's!! especially when they're yours!!!!!!!!!! haha...like today!!! :)

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:: 2005 8 August :: 10.18pm

i miss you and i just want to cry and have you comfort me

:: 2005 8 August :: 10.03pm

It's going to feel good to sleep for a while. Oh so good.

sugarmouse0587

:: 2005 8 August :: 7.16pm
:: Mood: upset

i'm disapearing. no, seriously. i feel so fucked up. like i'm not motivated to do anything. but i hate napping and being so lame. i don't know. i just want to get out of this place and never come back. cedar springs is so depressing. my god. i just want to end it every time i drive through. and. . .he keeps getting so upset. it's not helping. even when i'm being good i feel guilty. i don't have to have reasons. i have feelings. and there's my brother who is probably the biggest asshole ever. everyone says stand up to him. . .where does that get me? crying. it's easier just to let him have his way. then my nerves are solid. and my mom makes me nervous even when she's not yelling at me. maybe that's why i'm so annoyed with her all the time. she could go off any time. and there are friends i'm neglecting. and i'm a big phony liar and i'm not very nice or anything. and i feel fat. i know i'm not, but i feel like i could be soon, but no one will exercise with me and then i can't keep it up. actually the only person who will exercise with me is a lot stronger and has more endurance and he makes me feel bad because i'm weak in the athletics department. and i don't have any money and when i do i spend it on things i don't need. i'm tired of my cell phone. not the phone itself, but having one is making me ache. i think i hate cell phones. and this whole thing is lame because it's all excuses. i'm freaking out.

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:: 2005 8 August :: 2.21pm

GOODBYE, Arby's.

Hello, Rosie's.

and Thank You, God.

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:: 2005 8 August :: 10.47am

keegan just left for work, i suppose i should do something productive like mow the lawn.... i'll just wait for him to do it! :)

my senior pictures went pretty good. we were there for 3 and a half hours and he's still not done. so tuesday we're going to the beach, and then we still have set up another indoor session. and yesterday i came to the realization that my cheeks are entirely to fat. i really really dont like them. i told my mom that im gonna get lyposuction done on my cheeks.. laughs... its true.

we went to see keegan at work last night.... simply HAD to give him a hard time. he's a good waitor. my cousin audra was working too.. so she sat down with us for quite a while... said she was gonna have it out with keegan cuz he took her family and we should have been sitting in HER section. giggles* audra said i was the talk of server alley last night..... ohhhhh yeah.

when he got out of work we went and got life and guess who... gotta love the classics. what nerds we are.

:: 2005 7 August :: 11.49pm
:: Mood: angry ish

What does the Wilde name mean?
Last Name: Wilde
Irish, English, and German: variant of Wild.
Dutch (de Wilde) and Jewish (Ashkenazic): nickname for a violent, unruly, and irascible man, from Middle Dutch wilde �wild�, German Wilde �wild man�, �savage�.

Yeah, sounds pefectly right to me. But only a man. and there's only one in this house.

dumb
you are

And..

yeah, this is funny, seriously- this is what we do at pit. It's my deformed baby!! ...... look! Read more..

and thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat's all. goodnight.
i hope at least one person looked at all those.

:: 2005 7 August :: 6.08pm

Holy crap! I just spent $600 online. bleh.

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:: 2005 7 August :: 9.28am

yesterday was one of the best days this whole summer.

we had our grand haven parade... and let me tell ya, it was HUGE! but it was so much fun before hand because we got to walk around and hand out massive ammounts of red flannel buttons to the other floats and there are some CRAZY people! one of the floats was a huge coast guard boat, and all the queens and court members that were around all got up onto the boat with the coast gaurd men..... *mmmm* and got a very lovely picture taken with all the guns on the boat.... i dont know it was just sooo fun. and the parade itself was huge... at one point one of the guys from WGVU jumped on our float with his camera crew and asked me all these questions...... i was like woohu! *giggles.

my mom and keegan made it to the parade just in time, they werent even there for 10 minutes when my float went by. after the parade we went to my uncle mark and aunt pattys (me, my mom, keegan and shelby) and then we came back into cedar.. by the way.. i have MASTERED the art of changing in the car. its pretty difficult to change out of those red flannel dress and all the stuff with it without flashing all the other cars..... laughs* anyways..... we came back here to freshin up and all that good stuff.. then me and keegan went over to his house for jennys shower.. jenny is keegans cousin, and she's marrying my cousin ben... they've been together since the 8th grade... it was kind of odd being at keegans house for a bridal shower for my cousins fiance... a little ironic. but it was so cool, cuz my aunt susie was there... so i was in like my second home, eating really good food talking to my OWN family! te he he..... but NO this does not make us related... and besides he's adopted... mwah ha ha ha.

after the shower me keegan and emma went back to my house to pick up shelby (she's four) and the 4 of us went to chucky cheese. we got 160 tokens... holy cow! it was sooooo much fun. one of the funnest things we've done in the summer! *laughs.. we're such nerds... but it was cool because it was me and keegan and our sisters. it was sweet and all that jazz..... :)

OH yeah... and between the four of us shelby had 1102 tickets to choose stuff with.... *shakes head. its funny cuz we spent 30 dollars on tokens for probably 5 dollars worth of stuff..... oh well, we got good pictures and those are "priceless" *laughs...... OH the cornyness.

i have my senior pictures today.... they BETTER still be today. they got reschedualed last time. im excited.. im super tan right now. well... i think anyways *shrugs.

yancy didnt make it out to grand haven yesterday.... the traffic was to bad, he never would have made it.... ahh well.

when we left chucky cheese we went to target and i bough shelby this disney princess game... well the setup took forever, so me, shelby, my mom and keegan were up till midnight because she HAD to play it before she went to sleep. she's so cute.

alright, i've babbled on enough. i dont like writing long descriptive entires.. AND i dont like reading them... but whatever

have a good day loves.

:: 2005 6 August :: 11.34am

Char and I saw Dukes last night. YEEHAW
okay. that's enough. Seriously funny movie.
"Do you know how fast you were going?"
"Uh....eight?"
"Eight"
"Officer, isn't the speed limit 10?"
"Yes"
~~~~~

I didn't have to work today! Hoo-ray!
I got to sleep in and it felt fan-fucking-tastic! Charlie and I get a new kitty today from his mom's. So it's not really new...and it's not really a kitty anymore, but still. I love Abbs. And we shall have to see about a little something else. Maybe by tomorrow. Good talk last night. I mean, not while it was going on but I feel better now.