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2006 29 April :: 2.31pm
tired as hell.
prom was wonderful. still didnt top last years, but we werent really aiming for that. it was wonderful in its own way. me and keegan went with brandi and ryan, im so glad we didnt go in a big group. we got pictures at my house, then at the rockford dam. we had dinner at mangiamo! (the exclamation point is part of the title.. odd as it is) it was absolutely gorgeous. the restaraunt itself is in a huge "old world" mansion. its italian and suprisingly wasnt that expensive. i think it'd be a safe bet to say that we ate at the most beautiful restaraunt. seriously.... lol.
i didnt really care for st. nicks. to me it was set up really awkwardly. the dance floor in its own little room thing... odd. we made it fun though. senior prom.. gotta live it up right? i couldnt have been more happier with the way my hair and dress turned out.. i felt like a princess. and keegan just looked absolutely wonderful. it was nice to see him in black for once. he's gone white, ivory, and FINALLY black. and the black definately looked best. *smiles.... i love us together.
after prom we went to steak n shake and then midnight bowling. we didnt really know what to do. me and keegan wanted to go to oasis, but brandi didnt want to. so we kind of winged it. we didnt want to go anywhere that alcohol might be... which rules out alot of the post prom parties! no worries though. keegan and i went back to his house and stayed there. this morning he even made me breakfast. aww.
all in all i got about 140 pictures. thats gonna be a pain to print!
i cant belive this was my last dance. no more getting dressed up. no more extensive hair, no more beautiful dresses. its about time though. im assuming the next time i get ALL done up like this will be my wedding! bring it on..... all the more reasons to get an expensive dress!
tonights a rampage game. i should probably get ready.
HOLY my goodness did it take forever to wash all the hair spray out of my hair. i havent yet gotten to blow drying it.. but i know thats its mega snarled.
have a good rest of the weekend.
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2006 28 April :: 4.09pm
Charlie and I went to the Culinary Picnic today! Lots of fun. Egg tosses and water balloons, and waiter races. And I won a raffle. It was at John Ball and it was so nice out, besides the pond smelling like dead fish.
Then we went to the doctor and heard the baby's heartbeat! YAYYYYY. It was amazing. We were both grinning. Dr. Leary said the babies heart rate was in the 150s...so maybe a girl?!? :D YAY
So excited. My ultrasound is coming up quickly too. But now I have to work...
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2006 28 April :: 12.33am
so. i'm going home tomorrow. blah blah blah. everyone is always like I can't believe how fast this all went! And I'm all, you weren't thinking that when you were in Hispanic Culture. It's gone by all normal. That's it. I don't know.
But I do know one this. This year has been fucking awesome. Not saying that I haven't been down, but for the most part. I'm in love with this place. Sure, Kalamazoo has a higher murder rate than Detroit. And a higher STD rate than the whole state of Michigan. And we live on a hill. But it's still a really diverse and fun place. This campus is amazing. I don't even care that I live in the Valley and I"m disconected from main campus.
This place is beautiful in the springtime. With the pond and the geese and the fountains and the blue sky. AMAAAZZZINNNG. There are flowers all over the place. I walk around and listen to my Ipod and I just want to sing and dance and hug strangers. Or at least smile real big.
And the people! OH! I was overwhelmed at first and nervous and my eyes were tired, but now. . . This valley has more people in it than high school. And even though it's really loud and I hate all the drinking that goes on, there's other cool stuff going on too. I've never met so many great and fun and openminded people. It's mind boggling. Fucking nuts. And you end up getting so close to a person when you share 14 feet of living space.
And all the stuffed I've learned. I feel so smart sometimes. High school was a horror story inside of a monster. I feel so big here. Like I'm about to burst at the seems at any moment. It's the best feeling. I don't even know where to begin with all that I'm feeling. It's like I'm leaving summer camp, but it's much bigger than that.
I love Jenna. She's too awesome, and I'm gonna miss her soooo much. And then there's everyone else that i've made friends with. It's so cool. You don't ever not have anyone to talk to or see. I'm going to miss them a whole lot. This is such a cool community. Just my side of the building is. . .great. sigh.
Plus all of this has made me closer to Jake. We're so much stronger now. I love love love love love love love him.
I had an amazing job, which almost hurts more to leave than school. I love my kids. I can go on for hours about the reasons why preschoolers are the best people on the planet. There so honest and so sweet. Even the naughty ones. And they have no idea about anything. The world exsists for them and that's it. But you can still mold them and love them. ahhhh.
It just feels so fucking sweet. I know what I want to do with my life, I'm crap my pants happy and I know I'm not done growing up. But I'm going to live my life before I do all this settling down business. I feel very mature and very excited about my sweet life. I'm not going to be the girl from cedar anymore.
I'm Sarah Ruth Cohen. And I'm awesome.
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2006 27 April :: 11.23pm
UGh, i'm sorry. but can i just remind you how much YOU suck and how much you annoy me and how i am like a thousand times cooler than you and i can hardly stand you and AHHH you make me want to pull my own hair out.
ugh
so excited for tomorrow though.
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2006 27 April :: 1.35pm
i just tried on my prom dress and jewlery and all that... OMG.
SMILES SOOOOOOO BIG
im excited now. it still fits. my tan is wonderful. i cant wait to eat at montiago or whatever its called. !!!!!!
see everyone tomorrow!
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2006 27 April :: 10.26am
holy crap. when is this sickness going away!? Seriously, going on about 42 days here. I have my ice carving final at one. But I can't really bring myself to get out of the house and go to class. Blah.
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2006 26 April :: 11.08pm
i would never ask for someone else or something else but why does everything have to go wrong. i just want ONE day to be free of worries or concerns for us. i hate being so far away,
gonna go cry. again.
i love you though.
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2006 25 April :: 9.51pm
okokokokokokokok.
spanish exam. done over. yay. good. piano exam tommorrow and then i'm basically done. i just have to do my online human sexuality exam clean my stuff up and make out with jenna. that's it.
THEN ON TUESDAY I START MY NEW JOBBBIE! yay for me! and thanks JESSICA WILDE. no we're gonna see each other all the time. maybe we'll go out and get crunked after work. ha hahahahahah.
tomorrow i'm having a dance party with the peepers
that'll be sweet.
i'm so burned out right now. like i've never even been so weary. ugh. i almost lost my patience today with the kids. only one more day.
at least i got to eat lemons for dinner. and i got a free sensual massage. good times.
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2006 25 April :: 8.40pm
Sooooo
It's been quite a while since I've gotten on here. I am SOOOO happy class is almost done. I'll miss the people in my table service class but I'm happy that's over too. It makes for long days! Hmmm. News...
I've been sick for about 40 days straight, every day, every time I wake up. At least I know nothing is wrong, but still. UGH! I'm so glad it'll be gone soon (hopefully). 12 weeks today and Charlie and I get to hear the HEART on friday! WHOOOOO! Also we're going to a picnic for GRCC culinary students which will be a BLAST. This has been a pretty sad weekend due to the passing of a really wonderful grandma, but we know she's in a better place now and watching over us. I wanted her to see an u/s of the baby. I wanted her at our wedding. But that's selfish and she was in pain. So she'll be everywhere now. It was a beautiful day for the funeral (yesterday).
Okay. Okay. I'm gonna cry again.
I didn't go to work tonight because I felt like I was going to be sick any minute. Ugh. Gotta love it. But soon I will be able to feel the baby and that will be awesome!!!!
Alright I have to write a paper now on the Patriot Act. Fun stuff.
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2006 25 April :: 1.56pm
*phew... sigh of relief.
in other news.. H's prom promise spiel went good today. I figured that'd be a good message instead of handing out crappy pens. Feedback?
prom.friday.ohgod.
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2006 24 April :: 8.10pm
okay. one exam down. only two days left at Arcadia. sad sad.
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2006 24 April :: 2.09pm
UGHGHGHGHG
what else can suck.
"it's like he just woke up one morning and was like, bring on the piss!" lol.
ugh how long till you're with me. seriously.
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2006 23 April :: 8.06pm
I swear, if one more person starts out a sentance by saying "I seen..." or "We seen...."
I will kill them. STOP BEING STUPID. It's "I saw, We saw." Gawd I swear its like you all think it's cool or something to sound so effing retarted.
idiots
ps. blah blah blah i love roman can't wait to be done with school grilled cheese are yummy love dani and went to the casino and cmu and woo woo fun time and yay ayyaayay prom cant wait and bonanza wah hoo. love love blah blah blah.
/jess/
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2006 20 April :: 10.42pm
it's like just one more aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalkj;lkj;lkj
so no school tomorrow either because of a health event thing.
and everything is okay for the moment.
and by everything i mean almost nothing but more than something.
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2006 19 April :: 10.03pm
Oh my gosh. Best night ever!
Sarah Weddington is probably the most awesome person on the whole planet. I think I'll have to be an official femminst in her honor.
seriously. nicest person ever.
and i never thought that much about abortion before. i never was emotional about it anyway.
so this is what i think: stay the fuck away from my uterus.
if i had the oppurtunity to move to canada and jake would come with me i'd be gone in a heartbeat. this country is moving backwards and i'm not going with it.
ps-jessica benzer, she compared fighting the pro-choice fight to LOTR.
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2006 19 April :: 10.04pm
i love how nothing is EVER right
EVER
oh and one more thing
god i fucking hate all you people who get to see your boyfriends everyday.
aslkfja;sldjas;lkfj FUCFK
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2006 19 April :: 4.24pm
heres to the worst day ever...
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2006 18 April :: 9.42pm
okay so get this
on TOP OF THE FRICKEN FULL RIDE i also got a $1000 scholarship I applied for a long time ago
and my parents say
what you expect us to pay for you books
and they STILL WONT HELP AND I'M NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO FUCKING MOVE OUT AND THEN START SCHOOL AND CHANGE JOB LOCATIONS ALL IN THE SAME FUCKING MONTH
I CAN'T STAND THEM. NOTHING IS EVER GOOD ENOUGH!!!
WHAT DO THEY EXPECT?!??
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2006 16 April :: 10.55pm
Everything seems so shitty. ugh, it is.
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2006 16 April :: 7.14pm
so i worked all day and now i'm finally home.
ughghghghghg what a dumb day.
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2006 16 April :: 6.11am
friday was so beautiful. keegan and i went to AJ's and went mini golfing (which i won) and then in the batting cages. i'm not sure that i've ever even held a baseball bat.. lol.
then we got ice cream and went to riverside park which was wonderful. after that we drove around downtown and stopped at nicks house (breakdancer) and last but not least, got smoothies from coldstone. it was a really good night.
saturday we had a yearbook work day. the senior section is seriously awesome. if you havent bought a yearbook you NEED to. for the people who didnt buy a book this year.. i think that once it comes out next year and people see how good it is, we're going to sell all of our extras.i just did 3 spreads in 3 days. (just so you know.. it takes some poeple about a month or more just to do one) im so excited for the book to be done!
yesterday after the yearbook thing and before i went to work, i went for a run/walk. i havent excersised in so long. and then i got home.. cleaned out under our bunny hut (which was long due... ugh) and wheel barrowed it to the back of our property. i was just in such a good mood ijust wanted to be outside. but TODAY my legs hurt from overdoing it on my walk thing, my back hurts from lifting the wheelbarrow wrong, my shoulders hurt from doing countless handstands, and my tricept is a bit inflamed. ah well, who cares.
we're going to my uncle david and aunt pats today for easter dinner. keegans coming after he gets out of work. he has to be in at 11 and his boss wouldnt let him come in at 12 after church. like ANYONES gonna be eating at logans on easter during church hours. so that's to bad.
the "easter bunny" brought me the carrie underwood cd and a silk robe in my easter basket this morning (thats right, im 17 and still get easter baskets and christmas stockings... my mom doesnt want to let go) and im SEEING carrie underwood at the KENNY CONCERT! i can barely stand the wait. derks bently is gonna be there too.. but i dont really like him. BUT brandi and i just got tickets for the tim mcgraw and faith hill concert too! OMG... now im just freaking out. because im going to two of the biggest concerts this year. i cant WAIT!
happy easter!
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2006 15 April :: 10.15am
is there any way to make this all go away? i just want to be happy and actually hold on to that. i just feel any motivation and good feelings ebbing way.
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2006 14 April :: 11.29pm
Does anyone have either
a. Some jewelry i can wear for prom ( i know you said you probably did for me erika)
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b. Some light pink gloves...
my dress is light pink and... um.. i dont really care what it's like if you want to tell me about it... just not like a little chain w/ a jewel or something... something a little more than that.
thanks
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2006 14 April :: 11.06pm
This one reminds me of people at rosie's and maybe what i'd like to say back to them:
Fairway: Your Source for Vintage Foods
Old woman: No! No! You need to cut from that side of the meat. Last week you gave me a cut from the right side. I want a cut from the left side! Don't you know that I want a fresh cut of meat?
Deli guy: Only way you gonna get a fresher cut of meat is if I take it from your wrinkly white ass.
--Fairway Market, 74th & Broadway
Lol and this one is so funny
Woman on cell: No, I mean, whatever. I cried for that baby when it died and all. Shit! I even went to its funeral and the damn thing wasn't even born! Who the fuck has a funeral for a baby that wasn't even born?...Whatever, that's not the point. The point is, I'm sure as hell not going to a birthday party for a baby whose funeral I went to a year ago. That is fucking morbid...and they had better not be expecting presents.
--14th between 7th & 8th
hahha all these remind me of the other day when me and roman went to applebees to eat and we listened in on this lady (we couldn't help it because she was SO loud and then it got SO interesting) for like seriously an hour about her husband who worked for a school and then she found out he was cheating on her with a student... she had two kids and he left home and she figured out he was at a hotel nearby that they had went to together before and she was able to coax the hotel manager into giving her a key because she had the same last name as her husband and she said she had the kids and didn't have a key and she went to the hotel room and put the card in and opened it a crack because she was afraid of what she'd see and she saw make up on the counter(GASP) and then it all came out that it was a student and blah blah blah... unfortuanttely that was all we got. it was so funny. we hardly spoke a word to each other because we were listening to her story.
Girl #1: I know it smells kind of cheap, but I like it because it's the perfume I was wearing when I lost my virginity.
Girl #2: I thought you were wearing Ralph when you lost it.
Girl #1: No, that was my other virginity.
--60th & Columbus
Woman: Look at all these rude motherfuckin' men! Can't get up and let none of these ladies have a seat.
Man: Having a vagina is not a disability.
--L train
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2006 13 April :: 11.37am
so i'm back and badder than ever. i know that isn't even correct, but i mean that i'm a bad-ass. you know how i roll.
i'm not even fully functional and i'm still badder than you. i can't even walk up stairs and i'm such an m-fing baddy mcbadderson sack.
also i can't sleep. freaking a. i went to bed at 10:30. didn't fall asleep til almost one woke up again at 4:30 to read and then woke up again at 6:40 to go to menards and fill out an app. i'm a monster. then i helped jake jump start his car and drove all the way to the zoo and didn't pass out. then i dragged my bag upstairs without any help.
you can't even touch me.
i miss jenna and i don't know where she is and my belly hurts and i'm hungry. and i don't want to put pants on.
okay and these people owe me:
Chris Best-One Georgia Book
Jessica Wilde-Ditto (sorry I keep nagging, I just love my little bookies)
Travis Macdonald-How to Survive the Loss of a Love (I know you don't even read this, but it's not called how to survive the loss of a book) IF ANYONE COMES IN CONTACT WITH THIS CHILD OR HIS TWIN SHOULD NOTIFY HIM OF MY ANGER.
Biondi-The Diary of Marie Antoinette.
That is all.
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2006 12 April :: 8.42pm
i am so tired. yesterday and last night was such a long day.. and then this morning ...and then driving 2 hours just to work 5 more.....
wow
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2006 12 April :: 7.23pm
Okay seriously, it's not just the hormones...haha
I find it funny that they haven't really gone anywhere since I've known them. They're still around. Still hanging out with a younger and younger crowd. What's up with that?
Anyway.
I don't mean to get all sappy and crap. But I had the ultimate best feeling today. I won't get too into it cause I think it's a personal thing for Char and I, but I felt sooo close to the baby. I can't believe I am so close to the 2nd trimester already. It seems to be going fast. I've been sick practically every morning for the past 4 weeks though. So I'm ready to start feeling better.
We bought a duplex and we move on May 6! It's so nice and pretty and at the end of a cauldesac. I'm excited yet I'm going to miss my mom and dad so much. We're so close. :(
Anyway, that's about it for now.
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2006 11 April :: 9.32pm
I got a full ride scholarship at Davenport.
I couldn't even breathe.
and I have no idea what i'm going to do.
oh, i forgot to mention.. i can only attend one of the grand rapids campuses. not kalamazoo or anything.
so my plans???
are like messed up
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2006 10 April :: 6.19pm
And in other news... MAJOR apartment hunt today... unfortuatlnleyeyeyeyeye ly by myself because Ro MAN had to work. it was quite a day. driving from 9-4.... i had to stop on the way home and sleep at a gas station for a half hour because i kept falling asleep on the expressway. I think I have it narrowed down to two different ones.... Westchester Woods and our orginal Alpine Village. We will look at them (Hopefully) one final time on Prom day, the 28th because we will not be seeing each other, nor traveling to K-Zoo before that date. It will be another long day.
I need to do some major budgeting and calculating and calling and checking and mailing and faxing and working so that I can do some paying and mailing and giving away money-ing.....
Frustration ensues. But thats okay. Anything to get out of here.
I am pretty sure I am taking a year off. I know that's what Roman is doing. We will be trying to save every penny we can. Then I think I'm going to go to Olympia or Davenport for medical assisting which is not my dream job, but I dont think I have any dream job other than being a mom and the job placement is 99% so I think it is a good idea. If I dont do that, then I think I may actually go to college. I dont know, thats just what I'm thinking. But I'm pretty positive I dont want to do cosmetology anymore. Eh it just doesn't appeal to me very much anymore. Clients and making everyone happy and it's the same kind of shit you have to deal with as a waitress. Acting like you are the nicest person in the world with absolutely no problems just so you can get a big tip and their business in the future. I don't want to do that. I can handle being nice, but OVERWHELMINGLY PERFECT is another story.
I like the idea of having a year where I just have ONE thing going on... WORK. I LOVE the idea of having a year where I can finally enjoy being WITH Roman instead of with him but away from him.
I've never had any time where I could just be with him whenever I wanted. We've always been restricted or away from each other. How great will it be to finally be able to be together every day. Perfect.
*sigh of relief* School tomorrow is not something I"m looking forward to, at all.
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2006 9 April :: 11.18pm
two days till i go under the knife. i'm trying to tell myself not to be scared, but i am.
oh the other side though. school is almost done. i don't really know if that's a good thing. i get to lose more friends. yay. and i still don't have a job.
why am i so unhireable? seriously. i don't know if you know this, but i'm kind of a big deal. but fer rel though. i like working and i'm smart and responsible and i have good references. i also have experience. i don't say this much
but what the fuck?
i was harassed at my last job and i had to fucking quit, i didn't even call osha or anything. no one even tried to convince me to stay and make them behave. and those guys didn't get fired or in trouble. and then no one would hire me.
i'm blaming cedar springs for this. it's forever tainted my life.
FUCK YOU CEDAR FUCKING SUCKING SPRINGS.
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