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2007 8 February :: 8.28am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: A little less Sixteen Candles, a little more Touch Me - Fall Out Boy
Stupid Things
[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking/laughing.
[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking.
[x] You have ran into a glass/screen door.
[x] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, then
people gave you weird looks.
So far:5
[x] You have ran into a tree/bush.
[x] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow.
[x] You have tried to lick your elbow.
[x] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same rythm.
[x] You just tried to sing them.
So far: 10
[x] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.
[x] You have choked on your own spit.
[ ] You have seen the Matrix and still don't get it.
[ ]You've never seen the Matrix.
[ ] You type only with two fingers.
So far:12
[x] You have accidentally caught something on fire
[x] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose/eyes.
[x] You have caught yourself drooling.
[x] You've fallen asleep in class
[x] If someone says "fart" you laugh.
So far: 17
[x] Sometimes you just stop thinking.
[x] You are telling a story and forget what you were talking about
[x] People are often shaking their heads and walk away from you
[x]You are often told to use your "inside voice".
[x] you use your fingers to do simple math.
So far: 22
[x] You have eaten a bug (on accident)
[x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important
[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and
didn't realize it
[x] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand
So far: 26
[ ] You repost bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don't.
[x] You break a lot of things.
So far: 27
[ ] Your friends know not to use big words around you
[x] You tilt your head when you're confused
[x] You have fallen out of your chair before
So far: 29
[x] When you're laying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture of the ceiling
[x] The word "umm" is used many times a day.
So far: 31
Now count them up and put "I've done 31 stupid things out of 36"
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2007 7 February :: 8.43pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Fall out boy
I cuddled with your dealer because that's how I roll
It's True It's pick the month you were born in
1 - I ate
2 - I killed
3 - I ran naked with
4 - I cuddled with
5 - I needed
6 - I framed
7 - I smoked with
8 - I ran shirtless with
9 - I slept with
10 - I raped
11 - I stabbed
12-I fucked
Pick the day (number) you were born on
01 - a cat
02 - a dog
03 - a jew
04 - a mexican
05 - Santa Claus
06 - a homo
07 - your mom
08 - a prostitute
09 - a pornstar
10 -a bag of weed
11 - the trojan man
12 - the kool-aid man
13 - a bowl of cereal
14 - a whore
15 - a pickle
16 - a stripper
17 - a bisexual
18 -a condom
19 - an orange
20 - a crackhead
21 - a homeless guy
22 - JFK
23 - my ex
24 - you
25 - a jar of honey
26 - a lesbian
27 -Paris Hilton
28 - a french fry
29 - your dealer
30 -a glass of milk
31 - Ur grandma
Pick the color of shirt you are wearing
White - Because thats how i roll
Black - because I'm sexy as hell
Pink - Because the lil people told me to
Red - because I'm a pimp and you're jealous
Blue - because i have AMAZING boobs
Polka Dots - because I hate my life
Purple - because I'm gay
Gray - because I love marijuana
Other - because I have double D's
Green - because I'm beautiful
Orange - because I smoke crack
Turqoise - because I have a noodle in my nose
Brown - because i had to
Shirtless - because I've got abs
Other 2-For the assanation of JFK
YOU ONLY HAVE 3 MINUTES AND 69 SECONDS TO REPOST THIS AS WHATEVER YOUR RESULTS WERE OR YOU WILL HAVE BAD RELATIONSHIPS. And we all know that there's nothing worse than bad relationships!!!!
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2007 7 February :: 9.48am
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: Fall out boy
Kelly got back last night!! I was so excited to see him, I missed him oh so much. I'm still amazed how perfect he is and I've known him forever. He makes me happy :)
I really need to study for my test in... *clock checkage* yeah, an hour and 15 minutes. I'm not going to do good, and I know this, so I don't want to bother studying. Bad. I need to study a lot. Obviously I'm not though, I'm updating. I'll go study now I suppose.
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2007 5 February :: 1.55pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: If you could only see - Tonic
Shitastic Week
Kelly left sometime this morning for Lansing(sp) to attend his grandmother's funeral. I know he had to go but I miss him dang it.
He should be back on Wednesday if all goes as planned.
We get our announcements, caps and gowns tomorrow. I'm uber excited. I think we got like silver for the girls and maroon for the guys. I don't even remember what our colors are.
Graduation is going to be so effing sad. We're leaving a seat for Justin with a white rose in it and we've got a slide show with some pictures of him on it and just a few paragraphs about him and... yeah. It's sad but he deserved it so we'll suck it up and make it through it alright.
-My Week-
(Monday)
*Accounting test
*Poultry test
*Concession stand - 5:30 p.m.
(Tuesday)
*Macbeth test
*Vocab test
*Get Senior stuff
(Wednesday)
*Poultry practice - 7:15 a.m.
*Sociology Test
*Talk to Kelly again -I hope-
(Thursday)
* ... I don't know
(Friday)
*Homecoming
*Homecoming Dance
(Saturday)
*Wake up at 4:15 a.m. get ready and drive 2 hours to take the ACT
Holy shit. I am going to have a very low score on my ACT this time around because I'll be out late with Homecoming. Now, yes, I could skip it, but ... fuck that. It's my last one! I don't want to. I'll just have to take the ACT again if I get a low score again. Last time I got a 21. Not ok. I need at least a 25. What I also need is to learn some fucking math. Math pwns me and kicks my ass everytime.
Anyway. That's that. We got out of school early because of a teacher meeting or something. Sweet. Renkoski, Tylor, Derek and I went to Taco Bell after school and ate. It was very delectible. We jammed out to Purple Rain and Unchained Melody. Good times, good times.
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2007 30 January :: 8.44am
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: A kiss to send us off - Incubus
The President
Everyone is so fucking sick at school. It's time to pull out a bio suit. Too bad I had to give it to the president when he needed one. Yeah, that's right. He came to me. I'm that dependable.
... Right, back to my story. My throat's starting to hurt so I'm living off of cough drops today. I swear if I get the shit they're passing around like a hacky sack I'll hurt them. I don't want or need to be sick.
I have a freaking Accounting test tomorrow. Oh joy.
We're getting to the part in Macbeth where Lady Macbeth (moi) goes crazy. I'm excited.
So it's 12 degrees outside right now, and our school is poor so our heaters aren't working too great. My fingers are blue, and if I didn't have pink lip gloss on, my lips would be too.
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2007 26 January :: 10.53am
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: Just a Phase - Incubus
I have drama practice after school every day but Friday for the play that takes place on February 15. Today should be my day off but I have to work from 3:30-8:30 and that just makes today really sucky because I have that to look forward to. I'm almost positive I have to work Saturday from 2:00-8:30. I better get to waitress tomorrow because we're always really busy and I want to make gobs of money in tips. That would make my Saturday being sucked up by difficult people semi alright.
I was going to come home straight from work and talk to Kelly since I won't really get to Saturday, but Tessi wanted to go watch a movie and everyone was busy and I was kind of feeling sorry for her, Lord help me, so I said I'd go see one with her after work. We were going to watch Catch and Release, but for some reason it isn't playing, so she wants to watch Dreamgirls. I don't know if it'll be good or not, I'm not exactly in the mood for a musical but ... whatever.
I miss Kelly and I just stopped talking to him 4 minutes ago.
This is going to be an extremely long weekend.
PowerFull
I decided I was dying of thirst and ran to get a powerade in between classes and it wouldn't spit it out forever and so I looked where they came out and there were two others already there so I got 3 all together. It was a sign. It means that I'm special and powerful.
Go me.
Our councelor is a creep head. She makes me laugh though.
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2007 22 January :: 10.58pm
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: Love Hurts - Incubus
Much needed update
So school let out due to the crazy ice storm that took out trees, power lines, phone lines, and houses. It was totally cool. We were out of school for an entire week. That week made me not ever want to return, so today, the first one back, sucked so bad. I'm ready to be out of here, and I want money so I can just go to Michigan and not have to hang around here and work my ass off just for the trip up there and for a car and for insurance and gas and food. Maybe I'll not eat anything but like... oh what's cheap?!... Ramon Noodles. They're like 10 cents per package around here I think. Anyway, I'll cut food for the most part, and cut gas, I'll just syphone it during the night, wearing my ninja clothes. Insurance... geeze. That'll have to stay on the list. Other than that I'm good I think. I'll just let my clothes kind of wash clean in rain, or find someone's pool...
I missed Kelly's birthday because of this stupid storm shit that happened here. That was sad. It was also our 4th anniversary. I tend to be all "omg random anniversary!" and it makes me feel bad for him. Guys don't care about that shit, I'm aware of it... But I still like to go on about it cause they're like "oh ... shit I have to act like this is important to me and say nice things to them and... gah! what's something nice to say!?" and it's humerous. I'm sorry. I find humor in other's distress. I got something wrong with me, but It's been wrong for 17 years and I'm ok with it now.
Anyway. LAN Party thing. I do believe I'm going to allow myself to be drug away by Kelly to attend. I'll have to leave like the morning of the 5th and drive all day, then stop and sleep somewhere, then drive the rest of the day on the 6th. Make it there, collapse in exaustion and then wake up and go on another road trip to PA for however many days. Hotel room with Kelly? Fuck yes. Amazing.
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2007 1 January :: 12.34pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Look after you - The Fray
2007 is finally here and I've got a whole hell of a lot to look forward to.
* Contest season for FFA -hopefully making State which would take place in April.
* Senior Pictures. -I pray they'll come out good. I'm not too photogenic, but we'll see.
* Senior Trip to Orlando, Florida -April 25-30 Only class to ever fly. We be teh shit.
* My effing 18th Birthday which so happens to be taking place in Florida. Sweet? Hell yes.
* Graduation (!!! zomg) -May 10
* Fucking Graduation Party. That'll be a great night.
* (Something I won't be looking to forward to) Getting another job. Ashley wants me to get one with her at Wal-Mart -oh joy- and sell my soul to afford college. I might look into prostitution as well. Not sure, but it's a definite possibility.
* July something I shall finally be getting my shit together and going to Michigan. Hello Kelly. (... like hello kitty... but not... I liked it, f you)
* Finding a job up there, which I will totally force Kelly to help me with.
* Getting my ass to school a mere 3 months after graduating, only to start the whole 4 year shit all over again. This time it'll be alright though, because I'll be able to see Kell and make him take me places to destress. Doesn't he have lots to look forward to? Haha
That's the jist of it. Of course there are small things but so far that's all 07 has for me. It should be a good year, and if not, hopefully at least better than the previous one.
Christmas was good, lots of food and not-so-needed presents that i've no place to put, but that's alright, whatever. That's why they made little sisters, and rubbermaid tubs that fit under your bed :)
One more day of break and then school starts back up. I think I'll be even more annoyed with people so it should be interesting, I'll try not to be, but I'm definitly not making any promises.
I don't know if the mail runs today or not. Ashley said it doesn't but I think it should.
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2006 15 December :: 3.55pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Turn to Gold - Audioslave
Final Scores
Accounting - 100%
Business Management - 100%
Psychology - 95%
English - 100%
That's all the finals I had, and they were all really good, so I'm happy.
Tomorrow night is the Christmas dance... I so do not want to go, but my friends and I always get a group photo and I do already have my dress so I can't just not show up.
My hair appointment is at 1:30 so I'll have to use lots of hairspray so it'll stay. We're all going to go eat in Joplin at 4:00, then the dance starts at 7:00 I think, so we'll only be a little bit late for the start of it.
I'm debating just taking the pictures and then leaving, because I still have to do some last minute shopping.
I have to get a movie for Jessica, something for one of my teachers, something for the gift exchange at church this sunday, and something for my youth leaders... yeah. Goodbye all my money.
Everyone was bitching me out for not coming up town tonight, but... fuck them. I'm staying home and talking to Kelly for a little bit, and then I'm going to pray my face doesn't break out and die tomorrow, and sleeping. I don't even know how I'm going to do my hair. Geeze. I'm so behind in everything.
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2006 14 December :: 9.27am
:: Music: Face Down - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Today marks the third month Kelly and I have been together.
Love him.
I had my Accounting final this morning, and I messed up one transaction, but thankfully I caught it before I turned it in.
I have my Psychology final today as well. I wasn't worried about my Accounting one, but Psych is a whole other story.
Kelly said I need to not be such a worry wart, so I'm trying to tell myself it'll be alright, but I'm still terrified.
Last night Ashley and I were messing around, and she tickled me and I threw my head up and she brought hers down and we killed eachother. I have a huge goose egg on my left eyebrow, and she's got one on the right side of her forehead.
Painful.
Funny.
Ok, I have to study for Psych now.
Oh yeah, did I mention I love Kelly? Cause I so do.
three broken ribs and a seperated sternum
one currently broken ankle
took 8 x-rays to figure that one out
i probably glow in the dark now
numerous bruises, cuts, abrasions and other aches and pains
but i'm still swinging
one semester of college down
a shit load more to go
two more papers to write
two exams to take
too many late night food runs
and too many miles ran
three days til home
but it doesn't feel like christmas yet
at least to me
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2006 7 December :: 10.04am
:: Music: Smack That - Akon & Eminem
It just wouldn't be a good day if the school's server didn't crash at least eight times in the middle of doing something important.
People annoy me today.
I've not been able to sleep lately.
Christmas dance is on the 16th. I don't want to go, but everyone will kill me if I don't. I'm almost at the "eh, I don't care if people get pissed" point. What will I do there? Watch all my friends dance with their person, while I overload on punch, causing me to take a trip to the bathroom every 20 minutes to piss, and sigh non stop thinking of how much fun I could be having if Kelly were here. I would so drag him to petty little High School dances.
I need to get my damn senior pictures schedualed and taken. I guess I'm doing it in Spring or some shit, because it's gross now and everything is dead. I hate pictures.
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2006 4 December :: 8.33pm
:: Music: Oil and Water - Incubus
Mom has not stopped making my life hell for deciding to move to Michigan. She doesn't think I'll be able to afford it, she doesn't think I'm going for the right reasons, she knows that I won't like it, she knows that I won't make it.
Why does she now care after 17 years of not giving a fuck about me? I feel like she doesn't want me to be happy and have what I want. She said that I was getting out of here for a man with a dick between his legs, and that was the only reason. It's nice to know that she thinks that I'm nothing but a whore who'll go to the extremes for a good fuck. I wish that she would just leave me the fuck alone about this. She's not paying for one damned cent of anything I do after high school so she can go to Hell and keep her mouth shut.
I'm to the point that even if things don't go as well as I would hope, I don't get all the financial aid and scholarships that I need, I'll go just to spite her. I don't hate her, but I wished I could.
Dad doesn't think I'll be able to afford it, nor does he want me to go, but he's realized that if I want to go, I'm going and that I'm old enough to make this decision, that he can't take my hand and lead me in the other direction. I only wish mom were more like him.
If I stick around here for the two years mom insists that will be two years without Kelly and I don't want that. The only other option would be for him to come live down here, but he's already said that he doesn't want to do that, so that isn't even an option really.
I wish this would be made simple, but then I guess it wouldn't be called life. I'm to the point that I can't handle mom in my face screaming about how I can't do this, how she won't let me etc. I can't even say anything back. I have to sit there and take it, or she'll cut off the internet and take the computer. That would really be hell. I would seriously just move out if that happened. I would go live with my grandparents. They hate her anyway, they'd understand. Of course that wouldn't solve me having a computer, seeing as how they've not got one either, but I wouldn't have my mother to listen to any longer.
This rant settled nothing. I don't even feel better. I'm now just petrified I'll come home from school tomorrow to a bare desk.
I wish I knew where Kelly was, he'd make me feel better, but he's not talking so Lord know's where he's at.
Ice and Sanity
Ok first thing first. I bought the new Incubus - Light Grenades album last night, and it's completely amazing. I cannot get enough of it.
Second thing; There's this ice storm going on and ... well it got me out of school so props to it, but there's always the "it could eat my power lines" thing that dampens the glee of the no school.
Already two of the surrounding towns have lost their power. Some how it missed us and we're snuggled between the two towns. Hopefully it stays that way. I made mom a huge ass list of things that I'll need to survive if it steals away the power. Example - 1. AA Batteries for my cd player so I can still be amazed with Incubus, 2. A Door to December and Demon Seed by Dean Koontz. 3. Generator for the computer only.
Not too extreme of a request imo.
Anyway, mom informed me that we all have to clean the house from top to bottom right now incase we lose power.... Do not want to do this. I want my bed back. But oh well. I'll snuggle up after I work.
Oh! Speaking of which, I'm supposed to work Thursday nights and my boss didn't call last night to inform me of whether I was or not, when he's supposed to. So ... I take it I'm not working, which so isn't cool. I need money damn him.
*sigh*
Ok. I shall return when I am able to.
OMFG
I fucking got into Ferris!!!!
Just after I decided to stick around home too, and wait a few years. I'm going to call up there and see if there's any way to waver the out of state tuition, like if I get a high enough score on my ACT next time around or whatever, and if so, fuck home, my ass will be planted in Michigan.
*hyperventilates*
Mmk
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2006 10 November :: 11.14pm
:: Mood: ecstatic/bummed
:: Music: Lucky - 7 Mary 3
**Barnwarming**
So ... obviously tonight was Barnwarming. And bitches, I fucking won.
*Barnwarming Queen*
That's right. I got second in the bitting an apple on the string, first in milking a goat, first in throwing a cow pattie, first in doing an obstacle course with a spoon in my mouth with an egg on it.
It was pretty amazing, and my crown is effing huge.
I was hoping Kelly would be on and I could be all happy and talk to him to make for the perfect night, but he isn't on and I don't know if he'll get on later so I don't really want to go to bed for the fear of me getting off right as he gets on.
Ugh.
I might just go to bed anyway because I'm so tired.
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2006 3 November :: 8.26am
:: Music: The Warmth - Incubus
Let's set the scene: School. Business room. 3 students including me. 1 teacher. 8:28 a.m.
I don't like any of the people in this class, with the exception of 3 people, and they all went to take the ASVAP test for the army.
I'm a big complainer this year. I probably annoy lots of people... bur I guess I'm alright with that. I stop going around people that annoy me, and so far no one has avoided me so maybe I aint that bad? ha...
Kendra's still a resident at my house. It's not like she's some awful person, she's funny, we've been not close friends but still friends since I was in sixth grade, but it's still weird, I've never had someone live with me. Actually, it's definitly a good thing. She can stay till I move out because she steals all the attention away from me and that's Sooo a good thing. I've not really gotten yelled at for being on the computer in a long time cause mom's like "oh where's Kendra" all the time. Probably annoying to her, but that's alright. At least it aint me.
So Ashley want's me to give up on my dream of going to Ferris and being with Kelly to move to Arkansas and go to the U of A with her and some of our mutual friends that she graduated with. I told her I was going where I could be with Kelly so she told me to force him to move down here with us, and I ran it by him knowing he wouldn't want to, and I was right, so I told her I was still going to Ferris and now she hates me and thinks that I'm stupid, and then told mom that the only reason I'm going there is to be with him and that set mom on my case but I just ignore her. Ashley aint one of my favorites now. She pulls stupid shit like that all the time and acts like my mother. It would be cool to live with her because she is fun some times, but I forgot about how bitchy she can be, so I'm happy I'm stickin to the origional plan.
Anyway, I'm leaving this class. Hopefully Renkoski's got all the shit done in the library so we can watch stupid video's and get in trouble for laughing too much and too loudly.
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2006 28 October :: 10.09pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: Through the Glass - Stone Sour
I'm back from my little FFA adventure in Indiana. It was effing cold. it rained and snowed the entire time, which made the already sucky deal of walking around town in skirt heels and hose even worse because no one had an umbrella and our ag advisors wouldn't stop and let us buy one.
I got home entirely psyched to talk to Kelly... and he wasn't on. still isn't in fact. So i'm allowing myself to waste energy being sad.
Watched the effing game last night and got to see the Cardinal's kick ass. <3 them. I'm so happy we won the effing world series. hot damn
Nothing else has really happened. I just miss Kelly.
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2006 21 October :: 9.33pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: Embraceable You - George Gershwin
I love Kelly to death. he's the easiest person to talk to, he's gorgeous, he's sweet, he's funny, he's nice, he's fun to mess around with. We can be complete smartasses to eachother, and know that it's ok. That's what I wanted and that's what I got lucky enough to find. I'm so happy right now, and I can't wait until July so that we can actually be together and hug and kiss and get into our mock fights and so we can just simply touch and talk. I love his voice, it's deep and ... yummy. I can never get enough of it, yet I hardly get to talk to him because my family is crazy and stays up really late all the time.
Mom's letting me put the computer in my room though, so that's good, but dad's being a slacker and not getting around to putting the phone jack in my room.
Hopefully he'll do it soon though.
Hopefully.
all kinds of time
The clock's running down
The team's losing ground
To the opposing defense
The young quarterback
Waits for the snap
When suddenly it all starts to make sense
He's got all kinds of time
He's got all kinds of time
All kinds of time
He's got all kinds of time
All kinds of time
He takes a step back
He's under attack
But he knows that no one can touch him now
He seems so at ease
A strange inner peace
Is all that he's feeling somehow
He's got all kinds of time
He's got all kinds of time
All kinds of time
He's got all kinds of time
All kinds of time
He thinks of his mother
He thinks of his bride-to-be
He thinks of his father
His two younger brothers
Gathered around the widescreen TV
He looks to the left
He looks to the right
And there in a golden ray of light
Is his open man
Just as he planned
The whole world is his tonight
