ahh soo full
ah just got home from pickin up samm and going to ruby tuesday. soo flippin full! haha

last night was molly's suprise party! haha dude it was like 3 degrees outside! haha i got molly some sexual like little kid lingerie! it was hotter than hell haha. dude so much shit happened - people boning, shit being broken, people crying... drama drama drama. it was fun though. hannah and i were like dog piling people and like tackling them haha it was really hot. it was the first time i had a lot of fun with her. taylor ball talked to me in PRIVATE at the party like confronting me about hating her and i was like "uhh well i barely know you really" and i guess she was under the impression that we were like in love or something. ha oh well. umm yeah thats all i can really think of cause like 30 people are IM'ing me so i will write you tomorrow. later homies

What kinda cool mother fucker are you? by l0ki
Name:
Age:
Color:
Favorite Word:
You	Thug
Quiz created with MemeGen!

thank god its the weekend
mm another update!

ha today is molly's suprise party and im gonna go shopping with samm at like target or some gay shit like that and buy some like XXXL grannie's and like a DD40 bra and stuff them in a box and hopefully she will open it in front of everyone. ha it's just molly's and i thing i guess.. hey, i would think it was fucking hilarious if someone gave that to me!

ha jess and i are texting back and forth and she finally found out about molly's halloween party.. ugh god im seriously getting myself TESTED lmao i told her that and she said she would go with me. haha i love that skanky hoe!

im sittin here doing nothing really.. waiting for samm to get home from her game so we can go to fair oaks to shopppp. haha i have no clothes? IM FINALLY GETTING OVER BEING SICK - christ, i have been sick for like 3 years it seems like! haha ive been so loaded on pills and shit to make me feel better since like the last week i dont even know my own name anymore! im in loveee with my aerosmith cd's.. omg i wanna bone steven tyler up the fucking ASSS! he is so hot.. we're getting married! haha. ugh my deoderant smell is so strong im like choking! haha i knew you were dying to find that out? mm well im gonna go pretend i have friends, later.

im a lazy sack o hell!
haha dude, i never write in this anymore! i keep telling myself im gonna be so glad someday that i wrote all this shit down but i cant get myself to write in it.. mm.. interesting

today was my hard day and it was a super BLASSTTT i swear to god.. mm, well i missed fucking donohue's class today thank god cause my shitty bracket broke off my tooth.. lmao so i had to get it fixed today!

OMFG HALLOWEEN IS ON SUNDAYYYYY FUCK YES MOTHERFUCKER! im so fucking stoked! molly is having a party on saturday so im excited about that too. could jeremey PLEASE be anymore fucking annoying? jesus christ he's outside the window staring at me thinking he's fucking hilarious.. omg i want to fucking kill him dude! he's just going to watch me i guess because hes a senior and he has so many friends that he has to attend to..? omg kinda random but that was what was happening at that very momento! dduuddee i want geoff in my fucking mouthhhhhhhhhhh i dont even know him but he hot and im desperate! lmao not really but i just want to bone him! haha um could haley t please get her nose farther up my ass? not DIRECTLY up mine but just everyones in general. dude she thinks shes the fucking coolest and shes fat and annoying and i want to killlll her! lmao patrick and taylor ball are an ITEM mmmmm! can i be in the middle of that sandwich? haha i find it perfect how the 2 people i hate most found eachother<33 its sweet really.. kinda SPIRITUAL! haha im going to kill sarah for not ever answering her damned phone! ahhh! haha im trying to find out where the HELL it is im supposed to go tomorrow because like our whole group is going to someone's house but we havent figured out whos yet so you know! i need to figure it out so i can pack and not look like shit! THANK YOU!

ah more orgasms for youuu
uhh lets see.. i went to the valley game last night.. it was hott! jesus christ 039834095839845 people where there! i couldnt even get up and down the bleachers. it was crazy ass.

i did fucking nothing all day! haha the only thing i did was make my xmas list! haha im a faggott! now im talkin to joe.. she likes evan.. hot as hell.. heck yes mothafucka! im so damn tired! ahh this is the most boring entry i think ive ever written..

holy shit we got moved around in science and i sit next to CHRISTIAN! holy fuckin shit i swear to GOD he paid mrs. kain to do that to me! omg it was so fucking weird!

fuckfaceE
today was alright i guess.. mm.. not really! haha uhh shit. what classes did i have today? mm uhh.. oh yeah, mrs. mcdermott is such a fucking whore its not even FUNNY. i swear to god everyone would be CHEERING if i punched her in the fucking face.. ugh stupid ugly slut.

i got my haircut and nails done today - woohoo! haha my nails are like a dark brown and they make my hands look like the PALEST bitches ever! haha oh well. jesus i havent seen my hair blown out in the longest time basically because im to lazy to do it myself! ha oh well

well i went to the games the other night and holy shit if i even talk about it im gonna flip out so bad. what the fuck is kayla's flipping fucking problem? she knows i like him..? i mean i didnt ask her 928508235 times if it was ok.. I DIDNT OK?! ugh.. stupid bitch. make up your fucking mind! i dont even want him anymore just cause hes so MADLY obsessed with her.. ugh its annoying... im so fucking desperate.. jesus whats wrong with me?!

is samm fucking MENTALLY RETARDED!? why does she waste her time on thomas?! its BEYOND ME! i seriously want her to snap the FUCK outta it! hes so gay! why am i the only one who sees this?! samm should fucking seriously bone george up the ass because for once i actually approve and hes fucking hilarious from the one time ive actually hung out with him! i seriously am gonna start bitch slapping samm.. she'll thank me for it some day. and im seriously not over exaggerating.. i seriously fucking hate thomas more than jesus!

ahh so interesting
today we had some testy bullshity thing but i got to miss the first 2 periods of the day so i went straight from admin. homeroom to lunch then to resource and teen living.. it was sweet. i have the same deal tmrw except it will be from admin. to gym and lunch to civics.. yay!

i got up the courage to IM josh today.. im such a loser but i was seriously nervous! see how much i fuckin like him! hes makin ME nervous/shy! its fuckin insane! and we talked for a while but then he fizzled away.. oh well! haha

so todayy.. lets see.. what happened today.. uhh.. casey talked more shit about jess today! what a f-u-c-k-i-n-g moron! hes such a faggot! i really want to punch him in the face... i mean hes so damn cool cause his damn wenis is 2 inches long? ugh i hate him. MY SON IS IN LOVE WITH HALEY MCGLAUFLIN!!! what the FUCKING hell! im seriously never going to talk to him ever again if he ever go's out with her. shes such a fuckin fagass son of a bitch! her away message is all like "lovin someone special" UGH YOURE FUCKING UGLY AND NO ONE WANTS TO BONE YOUR FAT FUGLY PIMPLEY ASS! mm what else.. well i guess thats about it! exciting! oh wait, and molly and patrick broke up cause patrick is the stupidest shit i have ever seen.. bastard!

thomas has some kerry joke on his profile.. what a fucking dick head bitch. no one gives a flying FUCK about bush, unless the want to kill him! anyone who likes bush mine as well not even vote cause hes just going to do something stupid and get us all killed cause hes a crazed redneck texan.. stupid bitch. i fuckin hate thomas with a damn PASSION.. hes such a little cunt.. jesus christ..


vote for kerry you dumb shits

hola senora como estas!
today we went shopping.. sweeeet! ha we went to dulles and i got 3 sweatshirts 2 pairs of shoes and 1 shirt.. yay! haha i needed it! i had a major clothes drought!

talking to luke right now.. haha dude i love that slutty son of a bitch! haha we have a HOT DATE on saturday haha not really a date but were going somewhere i guess? i dunno. i have his number but i dunno if its his house phone or cell.. so im kinda scared to call it! haha i dunno im gay. apparently he likes haley? wtf.. im gonna have to slap him across the face! haha im sweet!

so i guess there was some game today that no one bothered to invite me too? uhh.. how sweet? wtf is this? does everyone hate me now?! whats going on?! haha i seriously dont know whats going on with my friends.. am i that replaceable?! haha i guess i dont make that good of company.. oh well! i went shopping and then went to some smelly crusty-ass game.. i win! i guess what happened was hannah and austin broke up because he never liked her but went out with her because she was "hannah skinner".. uhh.. come again? haha dude i was talking to sarah when i heard about this and she was like "yeah he told me that like a week ago and he told kayla like a while before that too!" i was like "uhh youre a good friend" seriously.. im glad to know i have friends like that<33 what sluts! i would be pissed if they didnt tell me! whores! haha they said she wasnt mad but she prolly was. knowing hannah she wouldnt say anything anyway.. oh well!

well thats it for now<33 later kids!

my <3ly week
tired as shit.. i just got back from lucketts appreciation dinner thing ha it was hot. all the people who work there are such stoners and i love it.

school's doin pretty good suprisingly.. i love luke m. haha he is my SON! haha i want to bone him. i fucking want josh in my undies right this MOMENTT.. damn him<33. i thought jess was pissed at me today.. i dunno i thought she was but she says she isnt.. who knows! oh well! i want to hang with my cool cats.. i miss them.. no one likes me man! haha dude no made any attempt to party with me today except for molly.. oh well.. im fucking COOL! haha

ugh jess and derek are getting on my nerves! i can't say one thing to derek or jessica without the other one knowing word for word what i said to the other! its driving me insane.. plus samm thinks im fucking JEALOUS! that such bullshit i can't even explain it to you.. i seriously dont want that ugly p.o.s. [ jess is givin me crap right now about derek! UGH I DONT FUCKING CARE()#@Q%(()^*)(@#*% ] i want them to break-up.. i don't like my best friend and my neighbor being together.. i duno.. its weird.

molly is the love of my life hahah i want to bone her! and dude christian wants to fucking rape me in an alley! haha everytime i see him hes like randomly staring at me! ha ask paige dude! its true! but omg you have no idea how bad i want josh.. ugh.. damn him for being like madly obsessed with kayla.. whore! she gets all of em! haha i love her but i want josh(*#%()*$^

my lovelyy day
umm today i hung out with jess and sarah and went to derek's so jess and her could bone for like 98398234 hours.. sarah and i were so frucking bored but found amusement in making fun of them and going through their shit! haha i had a minor thing with jess but nothing serious

i had my teen living field trip the other day.. sucked balls. the only good part was when we got to ride all the rides, and the bus. haha kayla is so fucking funny haha i love her.

tomorrow i think i have to mow and then we get to go get pedicures and shit and then either im hangin out with jess and sarah and a bunch of people or im going to amy's with mom to hang out with the eblens. i havent decided yet basically cause i dont know whats going on.

im still fucking sick.. im going to die. i hate being sick. i also hate school to hell! my classes fucking blow.. ugh so gay. im already so behind on all my shit and i have like NOTHING to do! haha im such a faggot! i did my english homework in the hallway.. im fucking stoned! haha i dont know how i forget this simple ass things!

kat is at the house right now.. im getting ready to go to bed. im so tired. i saw umm beki at mcdonalds today haha i love her - i havent seen her in for fucking EVER! haha. she was hangin out with christian ward.. dont even ask i dont even know. ha dude i love katina.. i dont even know her last name but i do! haha shes hilarious and i love her! haha devin z. is so pretty it blows my mind! and shes not preppy or anything.. her style rocks my soul. shes funny too. i want to like rape both of them..

i want jump josh's bones.. im a loser.. i like barely even talk to him a lot anymore but i still do! later kiddos!

mm another day of school b l a h
today sucked ass. i was absent yesterday with some cold thing - i still have it but ill suffer and go to school. i was running around like crazy today in resource finding my teachers doing a make-up quiz and journal entry for donohue and kain. damn. my leg like cramped up after walking around! im a fat bitch! ha i missed gym yesterday too.. glorious<33

i got in a fight with mrs. mcdermott today. i mean she was cooler than hell at orientation and samm really liked her and shit but omfg what a fucking menopausal physco BITCH. i mean i have put up with shit from her since school started but i had to fucking blow up today. we were picking group for the state fair thing and i was over where the groups were bein put together and i wasnt like RIPPING THROUGH THE PAPERS GLANCING AT GROUPS AND BLOWING UP THE WORLD! but i mean i looked over there but there was like 30 other people over there like me just aimlessly walking around so you know, whatever? no biggie. and then after we picked them - she like pulled mere over and was all like "you girls think you're so smart having jay go over there and spy at who's in the groups" and mere was like "uh to bad we like picked all this crap out on the phone since we first found out we were going" (#*@)%(*$^)_(&*@#(*U@)$^(7 JESUS FUCKING CHRIST MRS. MCDERMOTT! BITE MY MOTHERFUCKING STINKY WHITE ASS! jesus christ and then i was seriously YELLING at rainee with a tone today because.. holy shit.. whatta fuckin WHORE! ugh jesus christ. shes made me sit in the first 6 seats on the bus for like 2 weeks even though i SERIOUSLY didnt do a damn thing! and like i didnt say anything about it cause i was like "oh well whatever. fuck it" and then like today when i got on in the afternoon i was just like fuck it im sitting where ever the hell i feel like it. and then she called me up and was giving me shit about it i was just yelling at her about i was the only one being punished and shit and it wasnt fair and shit and she was like "DO YOU WANT TO SIT IN THE FIRST 4 SITS THEN?!" and wtf kinda answer is she looking for? a yes? i mean fuck that the fist 6th is bad enough so i shut up and glared at her the whole time. im gonna UNIONIZE the damn bus and we're just going to murder her fatass. bitch.

i wanna bone josh. hot damn i love him. hes so friggin hot. mm<33

i have a major load of shit to do tonight and im about to like fall asleep... eh, fuck me. im tired.

tess is trying to talk to me.. damnit. why do people want to be friends with me? i dont understand

trying to write in this more!
ugh i clicked out and fucked up what i had already written.. damn. oh welL! well i was saying how pissed off at myself i am for not writing in this anymore. im gonna try a lot harder. so whats new with me?!

umm its the end on the second week of school. i guess harmoney is alright. i mean i love it soo much more than BRMS but i dont get a good vibe from the teachers or anything. i thought i was going to like my schedule but now i dont know. oh well. and not to sound like a SERIOUS faggot and you know i would choose to NEVER EVER say anything like this but im kind of intimidated by the 9th graders.. like im not peeing in my briefs but still. everyone fucking glares at me! they stare at me like some hobo is peeing on my head! bastards.. oh well! i hate civics<3. espanol is alright [-> i dunno if i even spelled espanol right.. oh well <-]

derek and jess are still "together" kinda gay but who cares. im so fucking sick of all the kids in our neighborhood now. ugh jesus christ. what was i smoking wanting to hang out with them? i hate bradley. fuck hes gay. and i hate jeremey. HES ALWAYS HERE! both times we went to the movies, he was there. omg driving me fucking crazy! i love patrick haha i like stalk him. haha he was teaching me mean shit to do to people when they shake your hand! haha it was ghetto... that reminds me.. my knuckles hurt! ha.

now im on the phone with jess.. haha were bitching about people! ha as normaLLLL! i'll finish this later, bye!

havent written in a million years
mm i got back from the bahamas a couple days ago - it was pretty awesome. wyatt and miles kinda got on my nerves but besides that i had a lot of fun. im a lot tanner, im not albino anymore, heh.

i haven't done anything for the past couple of days.. i hung out with the local gang much like i did today - jesus christ i hate matt g. ughh his fatass just pisses me off. i went off on him today like he fucking deserves - eh, im a bitch hoe, whatever.

i havent been online in like 985023985 years. did i ever tell you about the pizza face girl with ugly asshole friends? well if i havent, i wont today, im to lazy to type. the title pretty much covers it.

i want to go to boston. im supposed to leave tmrw but i dont think thats the way things are going to turn out.. im scared. i think im going to research tickets as im typing to you, help my dad get a head start cause i dont trust him [ mild laugh ]

i miss tori - im typing everything i think of now, i need to pack.. i dont like my haircut [ i got my haircut.. its semi-fugly ] but anyway, i miss tori. i havent seen her fat ugly ass in like 987215-981340958 years.. i want to eat exlax with her again.. shes hott.

well.. im sure ive bored you enough, im going to go look at plane tickets again.. later children

p.s. jeremy drove samm to 7-11 lmao.. ahh tell you the details later i guess

QUIZZES

new stuff
well.. i havent done a hell of a lot but whatever.. read on

i talked to john today for like the first time on the phone.. meh.. it was nothing special.. i think im going to break up with him tomorrow.. i like him but its too hard to deal with this summer relationship bullshit. meh.. everytime i write shit like this i look back at it and im like "jesus christ, do i really sound that teeny bopper?".. oh well... i forget about it eventually anyway.

i talked to tori about the whole samm situation. im not really on sides - i think both of them have different points and stuff and both of them have just kinda messed up at some point. i just dont like seeing samm frustrated about that sort of thing - i swear to god tori, samm's, and codie's relationship is basically identical to sarah, jess's, and mine. except my wheel of friends is a a "teeny" bit more dramatic. i love tori to hell and shit and shes like the only friend of samm's that i like approve of so i hate seeing them conflicted. i dunno why but i feel like its my responsibility to talk to tori for samm when i know samm doesnt really want me to and its none of my business but i dunno.. i just care about them both - i dont want to see them get messed up.

im having a rollercoaster emotion day. i was pretty content earlier but then i read some entries in this and now im like.. melancholy or whatever other word there is for it. ive realized through this that i have so many more like.. issues with tj and sarah and possibly jess. ive never really realized how much of a jealous person i am. on one hand, im jealous of tj and jessica but on the other hand i just hate tj and i dont want to share jess with him. and im insanely jealous of sarah and jess. i feel like i have the right to be jess's number one since ive been bff with her since 3rd grade, which is a really long time. i dont understand what sarah has that i dont. im so conflicted with this. i wish i could just come out and confront jess about this cause its seriously tearing me up. jesus christ i want a therapist.. i need someone to talk to about this shit that wont judge me to hell. i mean, ive always really had it in my mind that i was jealous of sarah and jess but i never really liked to think about it but now that i have, and am.. there are so many more deeper issues about the whole situation that are like fucking tormenting me.. im not how i used to be and it fucking kills me. i mean.. i dont want to sounds like a manic depressive person cause i do have a lot of fun and i have a good life and shit but i just have my share of fairy huge issues.. i dont know what to do.. one part of me tells me that i should be upset about these things and that i should, you know, like confront them or whatever but another side of me is like get off your sorry ass and stop whining about all this shit! all people have their problems, no one wants to hear about yours!... i dunno.. i think i pity myself too much.. i feel like im too young to have to worry about this shit. ugh.. and i hate that all these entries make me sounds like an 8 year old "well shes being mean!", "i hate this, i hate that!".. i also think that a lot of my problem is my huge self-esteem problem! i think most of it is that i freaking love the way i am but im more afraid that who i am fucks everything up, you know? i mean i could give a flying fuck about what people think but certain people can make me just want to change who i am to please them.. like jess, samm, my 'rents, other random friends. ughh.. im so fucking messed up. while im writing this im like "you're such a fucking loser if this is all you ever think about you stupid loner."

i dont have time for this..
somebody leave me a comment - make me feel sane