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:: 2003 19 August :: 4.51 pm
:: Music: i can't get christina a.'s "you are beautyfull, in every single way..''

i admitt it
school is here. anger. dineil(it's not just a river in egjpt kids!), and finaly exceptance and shopping. here is my schedual:
1*gen. chem, jungkind (hope he's hot!)
2*brit lit millard, love her!
3*Fed govt. london, hope he has a hot student teacher, for steph, hehheh excuse me, stevie
4*advan. animal sci, r-dawg
5*span 3 w/ ryan, soon to change
6*ap bio, fournier, no, oh god i didn't even look to see who it would be, my god, no i wanted mcdonald!!! damn it, all my friends are in this class, we will be split up, and she'll try to make us work, ahhhjhhhhhhahhapiroesf

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:: 2003 16 August :: 10.40 pm
:: Mood: enraged
:: Music: Be gentle to the appliances, they are all I have

my bro has glow in the dark crabs on his boxers
i began this entry playful and whimsical. now i must rave.
Since i've crashed my car “things” have become starkly apparent to me. Over the summer only 2 (steph and k-t) people have even made an attempt to hang w/ me. others say: why don't you do something. well why don't you. all other human contact was purely formal, by coincidence or business related. This fucking pisses me off. I see what has happened. Why did i have to be the initiator of every freaking social gathering? Why did you all want to hang out, when i had a freakin' car? I've been used, and it is evident that i have exactly 2 friends. TO those of you who haven’t made and effort to be my friend, don't expect me to be buzzing over to your house after school to drop you off. i'm done. i don't care if i have only two friends, b/c at least i know that they care about me, not just my ability to make things happen through transportation. Remember that day we all went to the coffee shop? My idea, it was great fun, yet no one could step up to the plate after I had rolled off it and organize anything. My mother was correct, the only reason I had so many friends is because I had the ability to plan and execute adventures. Since the crash I haven’t been allowed that opportunity, but I would have been able to attend one, yet none have been made perceptible to me. It doesn't matter if you don't have a frikin' car. Where their is a will, there is a way. Steph knows this. My dad and mom as well as her folks all know the route between our houses. if anyone really wanted to do something it would have happened. and to those of who have wheels, i express disappointment. right now i can't even decipher clear thoughts, so this entry will radiate confusion, but it has to be said.

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:: 2003 15 August :: 11.24 pm

Naughty. Librarian. Glasses. need i say more?

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:: 2003 15 August :: 10.43 pm

cars

in theory i'm against puting value material iteams
but
i have a NEW CAR!!! W/ leather interior, a new trans. and power everything
i love it
and it's all mine, my $, my choice, mine.

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:: 2003 9 August :: 10.42 pm
:: Music: i heard it thought the grap vine

my summer review
summer review:

1)
* got out of school, worked, signed up for sum. school,
*had fun w/ friends, drove though taco bell w/ linsey bigney on the roofof my car
*lost regional office
2)
* started dairy juding
*worked w/ my steer and lambs
*rolled over my car
3)
*started math class, actually learning
*Placed 7th in the state for dairy judging
*started training foxy lady
4)
*enjoying math
*went to SLCOO, REFUSED drugs @ msu
*painted boards w/ ekb.
5)
*Steer goes crazy, decide he can stay home( thats ok b/c then i got to help other people learn about beef projects and spend more time promoting 4-H)
*go to fair
* take my final exam for math, receive an 89% woohu!!!
*Wednesday (after the exam) meet up w/ some ffa buddys @ fair, get back to camper and: run into a 5th wheel trailer w/ my head. ah the relentless teasing. went to emergency room. that was interesting.
* hans goes crazy @ fair. ha, that was a short drive, and amazingly cory brown was his passenger. poor mrs. brown
* during sheep show i get selected to move onto final showmanship, tickled pink, but my sheep stopped moving half way though, oh well, i did ok. other sheep places 5th in his class. work pays off. and the oxy moron to this statement would be my brother. he won showmanship for sheep. woohu.
*Thursday: come back from butterworth, see cuz win little kiddy showmanship. yahu. sell my sheep for cheap. dad had to buy one. sammy from the mill buys the other. nice fellow, should recruit his son for ffa. i will now buy all my shavings from him. Oh, b/f sold I was @ the ffa trailer. We stayed tooo late. When we got back brain (postumus) was holding my sheep and say, hey, good thing you made it or I would have had more sheep.
*Friday. dairy show starts at 10am. i had a good, crazy morning. joking around, washing my beautiful heifer and showing. k-t meyer and i were neck and neck for 1st place showmanship, but when the judge made us switch cows her cow was bad for me, and too big. i've trained my heifer, well, alot. she waas good for katie. so k-t gets 1st, i'm in a really close 2nd. k-t asks me to do sweepstakes, i except, attempting to with hold my enthusiasm.
*show my jersey. she receives grand champ. jersey. i love her. but not the way you think.
„h officials give me the word that i'm in for sweeps. i begin practicing ( which i had already started on Wednesday) and re-learning things that have changed. i am allowed to take time out to go on a death trap of a ride based on the theory of centrifugal force.. I did it for my 9 yr. Old cuz, so it was justified. I Taught some kids how to show dairy, and hung out w/ phill (droolll, droolll drolll) untill about 8:30 when k-t and I ran our sheep. That was a lot of fun b/c a bunch of the kids I know from ekb wanted to help and the sheep were prancing ext. ya know, cute kids and sheep, hahahha. Yadayayaydday. So that was cool.
„h Saturday; get down to fair about 7:30. Clean up poop in dairy barn
„h dad brings me a pig beatin' stick, it is the same cane i used for my debut as charlessumner. cool beans
* i go over to the sheep barn, at first i see one sheep being naughty, standing on the fence, and eating ribbons, i smile at tiny tim on my way in and say: "silly sheep" he laughs, then as i draw closer i realize that they are my sheep being bad. ha. so i feed them and stand around talking to tim and his nephew jimmy, who is also doin' sweeps. we're talkin and tim says" doyou know whos lamb that is? " and i'm confused at this pt. then i notice a sheep running at me. ah. loose sheep. cool, well he was so hungry that after we found his pen, he jumped out again. it was chaos. but funny.

ok, sweeps
I WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!
GREATEST ACHIEVEMENT SO FAR IN MY LIFE!!! WOOHU!!!
did i mention it comes w/ 200 dollars!!! woohu!!! new car!!!
ok, i'm done celebrating
well maybe not, but come over to see my huge trophies and we have a sexy good time. i was good see you tonight steph, once again, you hair looks awesome!!!

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:: 2003 1 August :: 11.01 pm
:: Music: AHH... FOXY LADY

hahaha sooo friken funny
ok several EXCITING things happend today. went out w/ steph. shered sheep, went to mejiers. and school. but the day's finalie what horrid. we pull in the drive way and pat says: is anyone home? i said" yes, prob. asleep" thinking that the reason the van wasn't visible was b/c it was in the garage. no biggy. pat was more concerned than i was. go in the house. dead silent. "anyone home" a faint "yea" is the only reply. i say" dad, where are mom and grady?" dad says " the totaled the van" i start fumbling, i say " are they ok, dad, dad! answer me!" by this time i think bad, if he isn't at the hosipital, or maybe he just came home to get me. anyway, i feel bad, growing more and more hysterical. he won't reply. i run up stairs. dad is laughing. mom is watching tv. i'm sobbing. mom says " that was mean, hahahhah" i say, omg..." flabergasted, "i really believed you. that is not funny. when you didn't answere i thought they were dead" dad starts saying how i'm over reacting. blaming my tears on my own exersion, from doing too much. they say get out of their bed room, telling me all the things i didn't do today, (i made arrangement for every detail of fair last night untill 2 am) i go outside to get some paper work. trying not to cry any longer. still not funny, to me. one reason was b/c about a week ago i had a dream that mom died. and then of cource my accident. he thought it was hilarious. sort of like the time he lead me to beleive that he had hit a dear, when he had a mounted head in the blazer. i hope this was funny for you, b/c it was not for me. i'm distressed. i need a glass of water. steph, i'll call you, k-t, whats up w/ the fuz? lisa, did ya get my message?

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:: 2003 1 August :: 2.49 pm


ha. linsey and nate. what ugly babes. "i'm just kidding!" ha ha hha well, i don't have time to write, so if ya wanna be my friend and be considered for the "in crowd", (ha) you'd better come down to fair. i saw 2 rainbows this morning. that's what you get when you run 7 sheep @ 6:30 in the morning. it was beautiful. i'm blessed

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:: 2003 28 July :: 10.20 pm

blue. blue paint. oh god i'm covered in blue paint. who did this dasterdly smerfing do you say? my two little cousins, paul haines, and benijamin blasher. devils. if you see these young boys paint them. tell em' baylee sent you.

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:: 2003 25 July :: 7.28 pm

i guess you have to except your masticisim when you start enjoying the sensation of soap in you eyes. that when i knew it.

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:: 2003 25 July :: 7.18 pm

well. what can we do to break the tension, i know, let's have sex. "yea sure!" "really?" "no, bye" ahhh... the 70s. another great quoat " ah where is my nose" from both a wonderful Russian novel and the new arby's commercial

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:: 2003 22 July :: 1.56 pm

"dragon liver 17 sickles a pound? they must be mad!"

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:: 2003 22 July :: 1.52 pm

people are stupid. all of you. i love you. i don't know. i'm stupid. but people are stupider. sheep are smart, and sexy. that's all i have to say

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:: 2003 19 July :: 10.45 pm

Gryffindor!
Gryffindor! Fun-loving and ballsy down to the last
detail, you follow rules when it's convenient
for you and never turn down an opportunity to
par-tay. You're loud, mischievous, and a little
naive at times, but never let your awesome
self-confidence waver. Like Slytherin, you too
appreciate the finer things in life...just in a
very...different way.


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ah... well, yes. i hate to lie. i was very disagreeable w/ my family today. thats what they get for treating baylee drown like the bitch! they left me. to see pirates of the Caribbean. so basically if it had been any other member of the family saying, "please wait so i can put pants on to come w/ you" they would have obliged. but i'm being punished. for wrecking my car. a month and a half ago.

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:: 2003 19 July :: 1.50 pm

hummm... something interesting to write. well. my mother hates me, but that is a mundane and common problem correct? what else. so much has been happening. society is down the shitter when it concerns money, power, and hate. Family members take advantage of their loved ones. This is my problem w/ $. Also weighing heavliy on my coinscience is our president, takeing advantage of both $ and power. He is stupid. trickel down doesn't work. He should be giving out tax returns left and right. if you ask me that isn't an executive power, yet congress seems to be in his pocket. He loves the power, and lets people smarter than him run his office, cheney takes advantage of this by giveing the government contracks to rebuild iraq to his company. hate. i hate you. hehehe

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:: 2003 16 July :: 11.45 pm
:: Music: queen, i've fallen in loveaaa this time i know its for realll i've fallen in lohhave god' knows

well, i'm not in love, but i do like
yea, skipped work today, need to do my hmwrk. bye

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