REALize

REALize

:: 2003 11 June :: 11.43 pm

I love jelly bellies. they are so good. Nate, stacy i have tomarrow off work, let us go to a coffee house in sparta. Steph, i already assume that you are comming and k-t is driving you if she isn't at the hospital. just so you all know this is what you're doing tomarrow. or you guys can come to my house and get boufy blized. i sorta wanna and my ma said i could if i studied for the ACTs. who is this " Janice_2001" i want to ramble tonight. i had to clean up human and animal vomite today. The human excretion is definatly the lest favorable. there was a cat @ work that looked like a lion. Before i shaved it. j/k, it stilled looked like alion afterwards. hehehe. gtg, please mom

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:: 2003 11 June :: 10.07 pm

brb, gotta please the parents.

:: 2003 10 June :: 11.06 am

wow, pop up adds wow
I fired up the computer to check the weather. I need to do this so i could see if it would be wise to put my animals outside while i was @ k-ts. Not wise. TO get on the computer was i not wise. To put out my animals was not a wise notion. As you can see i'm very easily distracted. I've been sucked in by woohu, and i don't know how to get out. oh well, you think they'll let me stay?

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:: 2003 9 June :: 11.44 pm

when someone purges their soul of feelings no one reacts. they don't care, know how, or can bring themselves to do give advice. When you make stupid jokes that have no bearing on anything that is relevant in life people love you. they give you the attention that you live for, crave. So eventually you lock away all the feelings that are your true self, never expressing your emotions. So when they become too over whelming to be contained any more, people are shocked at your seriousness, dumb founded. Why can't we look past the laughter? Why do people have to assume that others are one dimensional? they aren't. Every person has positive and negative aspects. IT's like a cat having 6 toes. Sometimes the recessive genes are expressed, but only under a long shot of probability. But then all you see are the 6 toes, you're blinded because you can't see the other traits, the other 5 toes.

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:: 2003 5 June :: 11.54 pm

i love school. i don't want to leave, they'll have to force me. I wish that all day could be anatomy and physiology, w/ a dash of hands on time in AP history. Dear Lord, thank you for creating the synthetic urine analysis lab, my life would be hell w/ out it to brighten the day.

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:: 2003 4 June :: 7.08 pm

so sad. gonna miss the movie tonight, b/c i have no one to go w/. i really want to see it, but i guess if it's that important i would go alone, right? anyway, i'm grounded of the internet (for the first time in approximately 2-3 years i don't know how to react) so i'll make this short. I'm sad, i'm lonely poor me, now the pity party is over, and i realize there is a reason for all of this.
i'm stu... well, i have low self esteem, ha ha ha. what a joke. almost life calling jessa pure or nate modest. or Stephanie smart. or lisa cool. the names just don't match their descriptive terms.

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:: 2003 2 June :: 1.36 am

goodnight, i swear this time i'm going to bed.

:: 2003 2 June :: 12.05 am

ok, doin homework is a bad idea
i prefer failure to math. Don't you? I had a great time @ jake's party. wow, boys are stupid. but i was as close to action as i have been since freshman year, so i'm not complaining. and for once it wasn't stacy coming onto me. sorry stacy, i had to do it for rueben. Bird(one of jakes many male friends) made me a marshmallow roasting stick. i felt special. and another friend asked to see my breast, which made me feel cheap. and steph asked how i felt being beaten w/ a cane which made me feel slightly aroused. Sorry, had to pull that one out of the closet. anyway, how was your weekend world?

:: 2003 1 June :: 11.24 pm

i'm done, i don't care
i'll prove my subject wrong, starting now:"who? what? when? where? officer elections. HOW can you say that? You didn't
show up to elections TWO YEARS IN A ROW. This show's your voter's your
dedication to FFA. It shows where FFA falls on your list of priorities. If you
wanted an office you should have been there. We keep on nominating you for
other offices, but you weren't voted for. Don't trust hearsay, people have
hidden agendas. I have told you what i think about elections. They were
decided by voting. Just like banquet's awards. They are tallied,(pt. systems)
fairly, I tell you, and Lisa A tallied yours, not me. The awards such as:
outstanding member, stars, and proficiency awards are all determined by r-dawg
and his little committee, i have no say. It would have been diff. if I did.
and you doing a lot. I don't know everything that you've done, but i know what
you haven't done. You don't attend leadership conferences."

ah chrissy. Some may speculate that your lashing out is a plea for attention. and i probably wouldn't disagree. i'm not you, so i can't be sure. I'm sick of bickering. i've said the same things repeatedly. and you are correct. you don't know the situation w/ my cows. Ownership is judged, not labor. I've done work. Every summer from the time i was old enough to carry a bale of hay until i got a paying job i would spend at my grandparents, working on the farm. I still do when i go on vacation from school. This is how I take care of my fair animals. I don�t really need to justify myself to you. About the �I don�t trust your word� issue. K-t knows the story. The only reason I talked to your parents is b/c I was presenting an award I sincerely believed you had earned, not because I was suspicious of your authenticity. And my trust has little to do w/ you. I�m naive by nature. I trust people, not just you. Finally, I told you in the above paragraph, which appears on as a comment to one of your entry, exactly what I said at elections. I don�t know why you are still dwelling on it. Ok, I�m done, I don�t care if you decree that I�m a horrible person on your woohu, b/c people who know me have already judged that from themselves and people who don�t know me don�t care, and are most likely too intelligent to believe hearsay on someone�s character. Chrissy, I don�t think you are a bad person, I do think that you have a misled perception of who I am and what causes me to be a member of FFA. I hope that in the future you won�t judge me or anyone else, assuming that our actions are a reflection of hatred projected at you. Your actions have been successful in diverting my attention from those I care about.
So know I will focus on steph. I�ve missed you this weekend. A sexy good time just isn�t the same w/out you. Stacy, you whore, your accusation of me loving nate is disgraceful. How can I love someone who hasn�t even made me a marshmallow roasting stick? It�s an inside joke, so is that! Ahhhhh. Lisa, I must see you soon, we need to make a delivery to joe�s house. Yea baby. Yea. Jessa- please tell me you got boufy-blitzed this weekend? Hehhehe. K-t, glad to hear your flowerpot/tea kettle wasn�t severely damaged and that you managed to finish it today. Don�t break it in too soon. It is sad that these five people are the only ones I think are neccisary to become updated about. But I wouldn�t trade a single one of you for multitudes of popular, selfish, shallow friends who I can�t relate too. Anyway, I had a frikin scary day, but it was soo frikin scary that I don�t want to relive it. So you�ll have to be held in suspense. ha. what a joke, i'm the only one who reads this. Oh well, I love ya�ll, I�m getting that sleepy high so I�ll go do my homework now. bye

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:: 2003 31 May :: 2.49 pm

yea, this is coming to you from stacy and baylee. We had an indecent proposal. nate, baylee and stacy. This will be beautiful love making. or very ugly babies. hehehe. no, we had an orgiastic good time at nate's open house. There were cows next door, and i'm not talking about me. he he ha. anyway, is what stacy said. stacy "we have a date w/ nate" hehehe, she's a poet and didn't even understand that she was!!! not funny. ha bye Steph, why? Just WHY???

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:: 2003 30 May :: 10.14 pm

That opportunities are never lost; someone will take the ones you miss.
Ya know if someone was to stumble across any of your journals (and defiantly mine) they would be bewildered. Sometimes i am too. J/k We have an excessive amount of "inside jokes", and i take that as a sign of friendship. Amen?
I'm feeling at peace tonight. I've been telling people my "ideas" (hehe dogma) lately and it is honestly a relief.

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:: 2003 29 May :: 10.29 pm

1-0
I got it out!!! Victor baylee , looser stains in steph's band shirt. Sorry i borrowed w/ out permission, don't force it, it'll break.

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:: 2003 29 May :: 10.25 pm

wow rueben, wow
wow, i'm not homosexual. i like men, just cuz i'm not gettin any doesn't mean i don't want any. But one consolation, Joe does not think i'm gay. Ah. Jessa, you should have taken the 10$. Stupid move, could have truly started your career. oh well, there is always next time. Anyway, rueben i'm not gay, i'm just funny. And smart, and cool, and omg i am!!! no, just kidding, sayin' i'm just too good to be true. This is just a public service announcement to any interested young (or old) men, i'm free and i'm straight!!!

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:: 2003 28 May :: 7.32 pm

My goodness. I became sooo entwined in replying to people's entries that i closed my woohu window b/f i posted myself!!! oh well, i am absent minded, and i love me for me. ha, even if i am a "fucking fat bitch" honestly, i'm a non-confrontational person. I'd rather be hit than to cause injury to someone else. anyway.
What is up w/ all this "i don't want to lose you as a friend". This phrase is bs. Fights strengthen friendships, not cause them to break. Nothing causes this separation, do you know why? b/c life is too precious. Live each day loving, even if you only love you hand. Ok, i'm done w/ that shit. see yall at school tomorrow.

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:: 2003 27 May :: 10.38 pm

I move that the participants of this quarrel establish and time and place under controlled circumstances to discuss these matters.

do i hear a 2nd?

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