sonic reducer

:: 2005 20 September :: 11.47pm

So so so so so so so
SO
Excited.
Charlie leaves me wondering like he always does :-D
He's going to PROPOSE! But I don't know when, and that's what makes it so incredibly exciting. Mom is excited too.
I am just so incredibly happy and in love. <3

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:: 2005 20 September :: 9.01pm
:: Mood: pissed. at myself. like always.
:: Music: Genesis - selling england by the pound.

Gargantua and Pantagruel...

so. that was a brilliant way to waste three hours. because i have SO much spare time...

i'm a moron.

and after it all, i still didn't save any fucking lives!

and on the walk back i heard the snares practicing late. god i miss it.
i seriously think i'm going to try and get into the pit. if there is a pit.

it's late. i have a quiz tomorrow. and a test. and. ugh.

i totally fucked myself this weekend. and next weekend is filling up incredibly fast.

saturday:
- car to billy's / board from billy's.
- jackie party thing... (permitting i'm still invited.)

sunday:
- tunnel park BBQ. which i may have to scrap. but i really don't want to.

and i need to figure out when i can do coffee with mle.

i do it to myself.

that's probably why it makes me so mad.

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:: 2005 20 September :: 10.38am
:: Mood: ... okay, i guess
:: Music: BnL - the wrong man was convicted

fer teh fil!

Dear Christopher,

I would be happy to talk with you. The first thing I think you should do is come down to a Symphony rehearsal at DeVos Hall. See what your schedule is for next week. We can do sort of a job shadow thing. I would recommend next Thursday evening. That is our dress rehearsal for our next Classical concert. I could talk with management about you sitting up on stage with us. also our recording engineer will be there and you can meet him and talk with him. In the mean time my phone number is 446-XXXX. I would ask that you do not give that out to anyone since it is my cell phone. I look forward to talking with you.

Sincerely,

David Gross, Principal Timpanist
Grand Rapids Symphony

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:: 2005 19 September :: 10.48am

this is dated january 18, 2005
Dear Mr. Gross,

i'm not really too sure where to start, because my request is obscure, and my story is equally bizarre. i guess my best bet is to just give a brief rundown.

my name is Christopher Best. i am a senior at Cedar Springs High School. when i took my SATs i got a 750 in math and expressed an interest in music. the Peabody Conservatory received these statistics and sent me a mailing advertising their Recording Arts and Sciences program. every single thing i read in the letter really seemed to nail my situation. that mailing is practically the sole cause of my interest in peabody. i have, since i received the letter, applied to the peabody and have scheduled an audition. an audition which is in a little over a month. i've been asking around about what i can expect, because i've never done this before, and have been disappointed. what can i say? Cedar is the farthest place in the world from culture, and my family is useless. i've always had a knack and a passion for music, but i lack an extremely formal education. i'm in school band, i've been to Blue Lake, and i dabble in my spare time - of course i'm always LISTENING to music - but that's really about it. i believe i have the capacity and potential to do great things in music, but i'm also extremely afraid i got in over my head. i expressed this fear to my M.S.W. , and he suggested talking to somebody from the Symphony. a phone call later i was provided with your email from the 'personnel manager,' i believe it was (he was exceedingly cordial). so, i'm just hoping to get to talk so somebody sometime, or at least get some feedback from a person who knows better what the heck is going on - because i'm a tad bit lost. for all the 'help' and 'career advisement' that i've been offered, they really left me hanging.

anything at all that you can offer me will be beneficial, even if it's consolation for being delusional. i was just looking for some straight talk from anyone who had the credentials to give it.

i have also sent an email identical to this one to your associate, Mr. Hall.

many preemptive thanks,

Christopher Best

... wow.

a lot has changed. my home. my girlfriend. my college. my lifestyle. everything.

in under a year, my life has undergone a total revamp.

and yet i'm still the same guy i've always been. nothing special. nothing fancy. wow.

just amazing. and i never would've guessed it.

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:: 2005 18 September :: 11.26pm
:: Music: Cursive- Sierra

This song is so sad.
In the desert where the cities are made of gold
There's a girl playing hopscotch, with pink ribbon pigtails
And her mom calls out from an apartment balcony
"C'mon baby, your bath is ready, it's almost time for sleep"
And I wonder who's the father
And I wonder what they call him
Ohhh
Sierra
Does her mother smoke or does she jog every morning?
Does she drink when she thinks about me
Or doesn't she need to drink?
Does she have a man who works from 9 til 5?
Does he come home to kiss that young Sierra, tuck her in, and say goodnight?
And an extra kiss for momma
Ohh...
I want that kiss that kid that apartment.
I'm ready to settle down now
To get that man out of my bed
I want my daughter back now
I want to kiss her tuck her in and say
"Goodnight my baby"
Sierra...Sierra...Sierra...Sierra
I'll never know, now who you are, and I don't deserve to.
Sierra...Sierra...Sierra...Sierra
My little girl, we would've been so...
oh, nevermind.
But I'm ready to settle down now
Yeah I'm ready to leave that wrecking ball behind
I could be your carpenter
And you could be my twinkle in the sky
On that desert sky...

:: 2005 18 September :: 11.16pm
:: Music: UnderOath- I'm Content With Losing

"I'm leavin you the way I think it should be..."
-I love this song. AHHH
-I'm addicted to Laguna Beach. I can't wait till Season 2 is out to buy. I will get it.
-I'm going to learn how to play this song. Argh I love it.
-My ex-boss is really annoying. She didn't have my check on Friday and she says "Well I don't have your check ready and I don't have the checkbook or anything..." blah blah blah so I says:
"Well you should have had it ready. I'll be in on Monday."
All stern and such. I'm really cool. Kinda.
-My mom agrees that I will be married soon. It's AWESOME!
-Charlie and I looked at houses in GR Saturday it was fun. :-)
-Maybe baby.
-Classes on Tuesday.
-Tomorrow I'm going to try to get my flippin' check again.
-The whole unemployment thing sucks and I wouldn't even do it if it wasn't just to totally screw her over.
-I get my hair done on Wednesday yay!

That's it for right now.

stinko

:: 2005 18 September :: 5.18pm

for the love of God, there are no polar bears at John Ball Park Zoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anywho . . . college is pretty much like high school. only no one gives you detention for not showing up.
whatever. there are pretty much like five or six people from school that i regularly talk to/see anymore. it's so crazy.

so crazy.

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:: 2005 18 September :: 11.06am

etc.

well. i picked up the transmission yesterday... it was filthy. so i took it back to karl's and bathed it in mineral spirits. it's still ugly... but it's a darn sight better than it was. now i'm going to flush it out with brakleen and try and get the exterior nice and pretty. i might even repaint the end cap thingy. that cool fluorescent green. mmm. anyway. oh, i also pulled both of the driveaxles. so, next phase is to get fluid, brakleen, new axles, maybe new seals for the donor tranny. hector's supposed to be showing up soon, so i'll ask him about the next phase of the operation. and i thought it was really interesting that karl had the bentley for a '79 rabbit. i was disappointed i didn't have access to it sooner. because i would have used it like crazy on the blue bunny. speaking of which, i finally found someone to take it.

bruce and i went to buses by the beach last night, and i talked to billy. next saturday we're gonna trailer the blue bunny over to billy's house. i give him the rabbit and 250, and he gives me a really nice 24 channel, 4 buss, Mackie board. SCORE!!!! not only do i get rid of my old crap. which i will miss dearly. but i also get newer cooler crap. always awesome.

yeah. that's all. i mean, i haven't done any homework... but at least i'm making some sort of progress. it's a very refreshing sensation.

but i still smell like grease and mineral spirits. it feels good.

LOVE! PEACE! SEXUAL INDISCRETION!

:: 2005 16 September :: 10.15am
:: Music: the verve pipe - ominous man

was ist das wetter heute?

es regnet. und k�hle.

i think one of my current favorite words (there's a running tally) is this:

m�l�e.

just because of the crazy accents.

i love these headphones. and recording at 1 Mbps.

sleep is better, though.

lederhosen auf der tische. i think i've said that one before. or is it dem tische? fuck.

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:: 2005 15 September :: 10.45pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: DMB - so much to say

Wie geht's? gut?
some people 'round here seem to have taken an upturn. some a downturn. so i guess we'll call mine a.... funny turn.
"i once had a bad turn in a booth."

oh, james bond, you heartthrob. what'll i ever do with you? aside from contract syphillis...

i'm sick of being an ass. and i'm sick of being unjustifiably tired. not exhausted. just a little sloth. enough to make me useless. but for no good reason.

i dropped the car off today. tomorrow i meet hector to pick up the bentley. then i'm off to detroit on saturday to pick up the new transmission. then saturday-day i'll attempt the swap. permitting nothing is screwy. which, it very well may be. gah. i don't want to think about all the potential catastrophes.

i think tomorrow night i'm going to go to buses by the beach with teh MUB (Mutter und Bruce). hopefully i can talk to billy about the mixing board. assuming he hasn't sold it already. i got sick of calling. i felt like he was avoiding me. this way i'll have him cornered.

and i wanted to call jackie tonight... but i didn't get home until 10:30 or so. shit fuckers. i guess it'll happen tomorrow. i hate this. i shouldn't have to just squeeze her in. it's just plain wrong. i should have all the time in the world for her. well, i do have lots of free time. it's just between 10am and 1pm. and she's busy during those hours.

it has switched to Heart - Dog and Butterfly.

i love WMA shuffle...

too bad defragging the hard drive takes about 6 hours with all that shit on here. i actually had to take some off, just for enough free space to defrag properly. geh. i'm gonna do homework now.

Ich studieren die Kommunikationswissenschaft. Wunderbar.

auf wiedersehosen...

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:: 2005 15 September :: 10.12pm

Oh my gosh you're right! I DO have a glow.

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:: 2005 15 September :: 12.21pm
:: Music: WMA shuffle...

Sex...

i think it's funny... but there we are.

i still can't speak german. but two of my vocab words will be difficult to forget.

dick = fat.
schlank (with an 'ahh' sound) = slender.

so, you might have a dick dick. or there are those of us with schlank shlongs.

i just had to get that out of my system.

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:: 2005 14 September :: 1.05am

Alright. So I don't have a job anymore. How abouts one last "screw you"! Yeah. I'm filing for unemployment. Not so much for the money though you know...but it might be nice. I don't think anyone really cares what my artwork looks like but I'm going to post one anyway because I think it's cool. I drew this a long time ago...
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:: 2005 13 September :: 4.33pm
:: Mood: hungry hippo
:: Music: Heart - Even it up.

why i love hector...
"I have been preparing various parts of the site for the chat room. Preparations A-G have all been completed. The Chat room is Preparation H and I think it is to the point now where it feels good to use, on the whole."

the man is hilarious. and this isn't even his best work. but it makes par. which is good enough for me.

i think it's about time for dinner. i've had 2 pop tarts and a granola bar.

it's good to be home. but it's still missing something... i'm still missing someone...

love and stuff, guys.

:: 2005 13 September :: 3.02pm

I'm in nutrition class right now.
Kathy called today. Hmm...
She's taking me off the schedule permanently because I am in class during the day.
Yeah I don't like her.

:: 2005 12 September :: 11.53pm
:: Music: Bleed the Dream- Solace

Side aches. Ugh. Class tomorrow. 2-9. It's pathetic I take the long way home every time because I would get lost any other way. My back hurts. I'm tired. And complaining a lot. I hope there isn't something going on again. . .
Dad comes home at 4 am. From work. He left around noon today. He works his butt off. Dang. He's so awesome.
Charlie and I hung out today and went to Steak n Shake. Yummmm. I haven't had one of their shakes in forever! And it was so good. I may post some pics on here but I have to read some chaps for english tomorrow. I put it off long enough. Ugh. Boring...

:: 2005 12 September :: 11.47pm
:: Mood: sleepy

shit. i miss her.

and i just realized... shaney now has a picture of me with james on my lap. i think that's some sort of inescapable induction into the family.

not that i'm trying to escape. in fact... for some reason, i'm trying to get in. yeah, you know the reason. and yes, i still miss her.

"kids these days... it's always 'sex, sex, sex' all the time..." - life of brian.

i need to stock up on lube. that shit is not cheap.

oh well. we won't ever have the opportunity to use it anyway.

"yeah, and monkeys fly out of my butt."

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:: 2005 11 September :: 10.07pm
:: Music: Driftwood: A Fairy Tale- Cursive

My arms, my legs, my heart, my face...
I saw my grandparents today. At dinner my grandma asked me how old I was going to be. I felt bad. She only has 2 grandkids. My grandpa hugged me extra hard :-)
It's just sad to watch people get older.
We're pretty sure my mom's cancer came back. They really don't know what it is, but it was a large tumor on the side of her head. She goes for a ct scan tomorrow morning. When Kathy was telling me about how her mom died, and she started crying, i just couldn't hold up. I started crying. I don't want to lose her. She's had this once. Now she started getting headaches again and she's tired all the time. I don't want to lose her. I can't.

:: 2005 11 September :: 2.50am
:: Music: Irony of Dying On Your Birthday- Senses Fail

I tried to make these smaller
Here's the cutie. I fed her ice cream today. She loved it, it was so cute. No brain freeze though, that's good.
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And here's my boy!

Here's Katriana in her totally stylish sunglasses!

:: 2005 11 September :: 1.51am

I'm doing good for barely any sleep. Exorcism of Emily Rose is pretty okay. It can't be really really really scary obviously because it was based on a true story so they can't add too much. Which actually makes it good/scary because you know it's happened. It was scarier afterwards too because there were cats in the movie and when we got home the cats were making noises. The lights were all off and Elvis sounded like a little kid screaming. I guess there was a racoon outside though. But still.
Today I got up at 6 to go to class and it was good and all. My stomach growled like a stupid moron though. It was annoying. Then I got out earlier and slept like an hour at Char's. Then his fam started showing up because they all got to go to the ZOO. Not fair at all. I had to leave for work. Which wasn't bad at all today. Then I went back home and they were still GONE. So I went to Wal-Mart and bought a bunch of cleaning supplies and cleaned for a couple hours. Just went crazy. Then everyone came home and we went out to eat. I have a cute picture of Katriana so I think I may post it. I am totally staying home tomorrow. All freakin' day. I ran my car into concrete today...a little. (in a parking ramp) hahaha. How stupid. G'night.

:: 2005 9 September :: 12.02pm

Yeahhh. That last entry was so long I just deleted it. I only work for 3.5 hours today. holy crap. That's kind of awesome, just because it's Friday and it's payday and tomorrow I have to get up at 6 for class.
I want to just have one day where I'm not always counting hours. I'm so crazy! I'm going to write my granny a letter now. teehee. :-)

:: 2005 8 September :: 10.34pm
:: Music: The Recluse- Cursive

THIS SONG IS AWESOME
How'd I end up here to begin with?
I don't know.
And why do I start what I can't finish?
Oh please don't barrage me with the questions
To all those lovely answers
My ego's like my stomach, it keeps
Shitting what I feed it
But maybe I don't wanna finish anything
Anymore.
Maybe I can wait in bed till [he] comes home and whispers...
*You're in my web now,
I've come to wrap you up tight
Till it's time to bite down.*
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I can't believe this cd had to grow on me. It's like a euphoric moment. Every song sounds good to me now. Hm.
Slept in, went to class, went pretty good, went to Char's, went to McD's to see Jess, went home and I am so energetic right now...it's crazy. Tomorrow I have to work then I'm going to go see The Exorcism of Emily Rose and maybe go to Friday's. And I have to go grocery shopping!
TOMORROW IS PAYDAY! It's funny, I only have enough gas paycheck-to-paycheck. I'm running low but I have enough to get to work. Then I need to cash my check. Haha. I have class Sat. morning @ 7:45 then work. blahshshshs.

:: 2005 8 September :: 3.00am
:: Music: From First To Last- Note To Self.

This is probably the most I've ever updated. So I'm looking at tattoos right now...and I can't believe what some people get. Not to mention the creepy guy that used to stop in at the cafe who had pooh bear characters on his arms.....ekkk.
I think I'm going to just get a plain star on my ankle or foot. What about on my ribcage? hm? Nah... Wait. I think I want some on my foot. Ugh. I have to go to class tomorrow. Er. Today. In about 11 hours. I'm going to bed now. No more of this journal stuff! ha

:: 2005 8 September :: 1.57am
:: Music: PURGING

GET UP
GET DRESSED
GO TO WORK
they all know who you are...
They can't believe you'd show up here
BUT THAT'S JUST WHO THEY ARE
SHUT UP
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I miss you.