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2006 23 May :: 2.29pm
Bachelorette party was Saturday. Tons of fun! I won money too :-) Thanks Becca! ! !
Ahhh I don't feel so well today.
Lots of stuff to do. Charlie and I still have to finish registering at Bed, Bath, & Beyond. Got my hair done last night. Friday is another doctors appt. :) And Saturday Charlie's mommy and sister want to take me out for corset shopping! :-) Lots of fun. Sunday morning Char and I have to finish registering and then the Bridal Shower is in the afternoon. Then I have to pack. Monday we're going to the flea market and then I have to start moving more stuff. I can't BELIEVE next Friday I will be living in a new house and married. Then next weekend is our honeymoon which I have to pack for.
Oh man there is so much stuff to do! I bought Charlie's ring yesterday but they have to special order it. So it's supposed to come in time.
I'm just babbling so that's about it...
Oh and I'm pretty proud of myself, I actually lost weight, not gained, lost! Crazy.
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2006 18 May :: 1.54pm
:: Mood: motivated
i cleaned up my room some.
i have to run to the bank, because bruce was complaining.
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"is it cool to hit the sauce when you've got a bun in the oven?"
i need not say more.
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2006 17 May :: 11.44pm
:: Mood: headache : (
:: Music: muse - absolution
man, i really suck at first-person shooters. and apparently they give me headaches too.
so i'm done with those.
i miss my girly. i really hope she can come up this weekend.
i guess dad planned a skating party over at plainfield on sunday for libby's birthday.
i'm way too tired. far more than i should be.
and this headache stuff is bullshit.
i can't even think. not that i really could to begin with, but you know.
i work tomorrow. that's exciting.
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2006 16 May :: 10.34am
So my internet hasn't really been working.
But I've been working. A lot. Tiredness.
I got this really neat baby-bath thingy. It's a shower/spa bathtub and it looks really nice. I wish I could fit in it. haha.
I almost peed my pants driving home from work Sunday. You know what's the worst? Sneezing while you're driving. You know what's worse than that? Being pregnant and sneezing while you're driving. hahaha.
I just feel like sleeping. Yesterday I was sooooooooooooo excited about watching the Grey's Anatomy finale. Ahhh I even put a reminder in my phone. haha. I love that show! It was so sad :(
Well other than that nothing really is happening. Still getting stuff around at the new house. I can't believe I'm going to be moving out and married in about 2 1/2 weeks. AND WE HAVEN'T EVEN GOTTEN OUR MARRIAGE LICSENSE YET! That could be a problem...
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2006 14 May :: 2.44am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: the ladd mcintosh big band
mothers' day
well, i finished making mom's present. i just wound up doing what shannon said, since i figured mom would appreciate the creativity, and i didn't get to stop by the crafts store anytime this week.
and i had to ditch on kevin tonight. and i'll have to tomorrow as well, or, at the very least, postpone it until later in the evening, depending on how late we wind up staying at grandma's.
working saturdays sucks. especially when you're not getting paid overtime for it.
i assume i'll feel better about everything once i get my first check. which should be friday. so, less than a week and i'll be seeing a couple hundred bucks. that should shut me up some.
although, if i were working full time, like on my own-ness, life would suck. i'd have no friends. and i'd barely be scraping by. seriously. let's do the math a second:
$11 / hr.
40 hrs / wk.
= $440 gross/ wk. (= approx. $300 net)
$300 / wk.
52 wks. / yr.
= $15,600 / yr. INCOME
rent = $300 / mo.
utilities = $100 / mo.
food, etc. = $100 / wk.
= approx. $10,000 EXPENSES
= $5,600 miscellaneous expenses, savings, etc. / yr.
not to mention i'd be completely miserable. i personally don't know how dad does it. i mean, i just couldn't keep plugging away with that staring me in the face.
but in all truth, sometimes i don't see me keeping plugging away as the current situation sits either. i mean, i'm making maybe $6000 / yr. instead; and i have MORE expenses ($15,000 +) than i would if i weren't going to school, and the only thing i seem to have going for me is the fact that i'm NOT completely miserable, and hopefully when all is said and done, my school will have paid for itself, and i'll be able to be un-miserable, and more financially productive in my given field.
i just don't know if it will work. it's a good theory. but will it work?
at any rate, 'tis a far, far better thing to go to school than to waste away in some factory.
however, looking at these numbers, i won't be able to start a family for at least another 5 - 10 years. not that i'm in any great hurry. i just think it would be nice to have a family and a home. and i would potentially like to start on it before i'm 30.
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2006 13 May :: 12.51am
:: Music: acoustic alchemy - radio contact
man. i probably shouldn't make a habit of this having a nightcap after work, but gol' durn it sure is nice.
i mean, it's really cool to have my body go numb and all the little noises to go quiet before i go to sleep. and it's not like it's so much as to cause a problem in the morning. it's just enough.
i don't think it's a problem. i could stop if i wanted to. like this weekend. that'd be good.
wheee. i should've seen this coming. i just enjoy the fact that i can't feel my face far too much. but yet i can still type and stuff....
meh. i don't think it's going to be an issue. i mean, it might be, but as long as i just respect things for what they are.
no sangria tonight though.
tonight is white russian. it's much better when its not 2% milk and orange rum, let me tell you. there's a fun story.
it involves kevin having sex in my parents' waterbed.
good times, good times.
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2006 12 May :: 1.27am
WOO!!! SANGRIA!!!
driving hilos is kinda fun.
that is all.
oh, and it looks like i have a place to live this fall. yay!
and driving hilos is fun.
and i'm taking the truck into the shop tomorrow.
but you already knew that.
shannon is super-serial sexiness.
but you knew that too.
man, my fingers won't work anymore....
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2006 11 May :: 12.48am
:: Mood: sleepyish
:: Music: boney james - sweet thing
charlevoix was fucking sweet. i want to go back there and stay in that place and that moment forever and ever. but i can't.
that being said, i started work on tuesday. and i'm making calls about living arrangements for next fall. so far no luck.
work is pretty cool. the guys are nice and relaxed, which is cool. and the work is sort of interesting. i'm basically unloading semi-trailers right now. and sorting the stuff that we're unloading. it's lots of pushing and pulling and lifting and stuff. but tomorrow i take my hilo test. hopefully that goes well. there's a written portion, as well as a practical, with an obstacle course and everything. hopefully i do alright.
friday morning i made an appointment to take the truck into the shop and have them replace the steering relay rod. apparently it's like a 4 hour job. and it's all free, because it's a recall part. sweetness. maybe i'll get an alignment out of the deal. i'll be sure to bring a book.
so, life keeps on trucking, faster than i can keep up. but that's okay.
i don't have to keep up. because everyone is so wonderful to me.
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2006 9 May :: 11.31am
Schools over! Finals are over! Yay! I won't be going back until next year and it's kind of a relief.
Lately I've been busy moving and working. Workin' workin' workin'. It feels like a dream, it just doesn't feel real to be moving. I mean, right now, I know where everything is. Now I'm going to be in a relatively new place where I have no idea where things are besides Meijer and the mall and work. What the heck.
We have a really nice deck and backyard. And rosebushes! I'm fricken nesting already! hahaha. I want everything clean and I'm planning on planting so much and getting things painted and... ah. Crazy. I just want to stay at home and clean and plant and cook. Is that bad? oh my gosh.
By next week I'm 'supposed' to have gained about 5 pounds and i weighed myself today and I've actually lost weight. But that's okay. Everything's healthy.
Anyway, that's about it for now.
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2006 4 May :: 10.32am
:: Mood: lame
:: Music: tengo la camisa negra....
alas; earwax.
one more day. and i've done absolutely nothing to prepare for the journey. or even the simple fact that it's been a week.
i'm supposed to be waiting for a package to arrive. no word yet. if it's not here by noon, tough shit, because i have to go to orientation for work. but i can't find my birth certificate. and tomorrow i need to go to grand valley in the morning blah blah blah.
check out dungeonman 3, with new l337 gr4f1x. it'll kick your ass before you knew what hit you. but in a good way.
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2006 3 May :: 1.01am
:: Mood: not tired enough
it's been cool hanging out with kevin for the past couple of days. we split the bottle of jägermeister last night, while we watched dogma. that was a lot of fun. we're both badasses, but at the same time, kind of classy. and that's fucking sweet.
going to chicago tomorrow with mom and libby. should be fun.
job training on thursday.
friday we leave for charlevoix. chris = indescribably excited.
oh, and i got my final grades for school.
Statistics: A
German: A
EuroCiv (history): B -
EuroCiv (literature): B -
and i'm going to have to go into the office on thursday and bitch some people out, because they didn't give me credit for my band class. however, i'm excited, simply because i'm not on probation. after one year of college, my cumulative gpa is a whopping 3.5. which i was pleased with. i just keep shooting for above a 3.2. and apparently, i keep hitting the mark, and indeed, going above and beyond it. which is nice. but i know the road will only get steeper as i get into my major courses. it's all uphill from here. but at least i have a semi-safe start. which pleases me greatly.
alrighty. so, i guess we're getting up at seven tomorrow. suppose i'm not getting much sleep tonight. that's what i get for taking a fucking nap.
i didn't mean to, honest!
but i'm feeling much better knowing that i'm starting to have things to do again. and i'm just coming to grips with my new/old life again. that transition has been more traumatic than i initially suspected. at least i'm having some help along the way.
love you guys.
and i miss my girlfriend.
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2006 2 May :: 11.30am
so i have three days left of school.
can i last?
gaah. so many weddings this summer. it's crazy. frickin yeah.
sometimes it makes me feel old and others it makes me feel young.
i'm not sure where that leaves me exactly.
18.
is that young or old?
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2006 30 April :: 9.39pm
:: Music: ryan's guitar / kevin's WOW
shannon's last weekend was fun. i had a good time. met jesse. met uncle dan. had dinner wit sum folks. it was nice.
i'll be going up to charlevoix with them this coming weekend. i'm looking very much forward to that.
ummm... other stuff...
got a 98% on my stats exam.
the GTI is dead, and we're not going to insure it anymore. hopefully i can get it running still, so if we wind up selling it, we won't be entirely raped. i don't want to sell it though. it's a fun car. but if i can't drive it, then what's the point?
steelcase this summer. orientation thursday.
wednesday i'm going to chicago with mom and libby to get some work done on the mini.
stuff, etc.
i'm getting distracted and forgetful. i'll come back later when i'm more sharp.
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2006 28 April :: 4.09pm
Charlie and I went to the Culinary Picnic today! Lots of fun. Egg tosses and water balloons, and waiter races. And I won a raffle. It was at John Ball and it was so nice out, besides the pond smelling like dead fish.
Then we went to the doctor and heard the baby's heartbeat! YAYYYYY. It was amazing. We were both grinning. Dr. Leary said the babies heart rate was in the 150s...so maybe a girl?!? :D YAY
So excited. My ultrasound is coming up quickly too. But now I have to work...
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2006 27 April :: 10.26am
holy crap. when is this sickness going away!? Seriously, going on about 42 days here. I have my ice carving final at one. But I can't really bring myself to get out of the house and go to class. Blah.
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2006 25 April :: 8.40pm
Sooooo
It's been quite a while since I've gotten on here. I am SOOOO happy class is almost done. I'll miss the people in my table service class but I'm happy that's over too. It makes for long days! Hmmm. News...
I've been sick for about 40 days straight, every day, every time I wake up. At least I know nothing is wrong, but still. UGH! I'm so glad it'll be gone soon (hopefully). 12 weeks today and Charlie and I get to hear the HEART on friday! WHOOOOO! Also we're going to a picnic for GRCC culinary students which will be a BLAST. This has been a pretty sad weekend due to the passing of a really wonderful grandma, but we know she's in a better place now and watching over us. I wanted her to see an u/s of the baby. I wanted her at our wedding. But that's selfish and she was in pain. So she'll be everywhere now. It was a beautiful day for the funeral (yesterday).
Okay. Okay. I'm gonna cry again.
I didn't go to work tonight because I felt like I was going to be sick any minute. Ugh. Gotta love it. But soon I will be able to feel the baby and that will be awesome!!!!
Alright I have to write a paper now on the Patriot Act. Fun stuff.
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2006 23 April :: 12.10pm
:: Mood: slightly disoriented
:: Music: QOTSA - song for the deaf
last weekend of the semester....
so, friday was pretty busy. class at 10. class at 2. radio show at 5. open swim at 7. dishes and dinner after swimming. then it was off to the big lake at 11. we left the big lake around 1 or so, having done all that we set out to do. saturday was moving moving moving shit, and going to the bank for cash for tuesday. i hung out with mom and bruce for a bit. then i came back to campus. placed the drink order for tuesday with andre. helped katie and ellen unloft their room. proceeded to unloft/clean/vacuum my room with jim. everything's all squared away now, i think. well, not everything. but as much as i could do. today shannon's coming back, i need to start my honors essays, maybe study for stats and german a little bit.
stats exam tomorrow at 2pm, i think ... i have it written down somewhere. Deutsche Prüfung dienstag um 12 Uhr. honors essays are due tuesday at 4pm. after 4, we're getting dinner i guess, then party at hunter's tuesday night. wednesday i have a meeting with my advisor, and jim and i are moving out of the dorm. thursday i need to go into adecco and do all my paperwork stuff for steelcase, and maybe a drug test, and shannon is moving out, and i'm going down to richland with her. marty's doing a play on friday, so i guess we're going to that. saturday shannon needs a ride up to muskegon, so we'll do that, and then i'm home for the next week or so. then work starts.
that's chris's tentative life ina nutshell at the moment. it helps me to get things out of my head and onto, erm, paper. and hopefully it helps those of you who are wondering what the hell i'm up to all the damn time.
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2006 18 April :: 11.44pm
:: Mood: other
:: Music: benton falls - fighting starlight
shannon is super-sexy
Put your music player on shuffle. Press forward for each question. Use the song title as the answer to the question.
1. How am I feeling today?:
2. Will I get far in life?:
3. How do my friends see me?:
4. Where will I get married?:
5. What is my best friend's theme song?:
6. What is the story of my life?:
7. What is/was highschool like?:
8. How can I get ahead in life?:
9. What is the best thing about me?:
10. How is today going to be?:
11. What is in store for this weekend?:
12. What song describes my parents?:
13. My Grandparents:
14. How is my life going?:
15. What song will they play at my funeral?:
16. How does the world see me?:
17. Will I have a happy life?:
18. What do my friends really think of me?:
19. Do people secretly lust after me?:
20. What should I do with my life?:
21. Will I ever have children?:
22. What is some good advice?:
23. What is my signature dancing song?:
24. What do I think my current theme song is?
25. What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
26. What type of men/women do you like?:
answers:
1. Weird al yankovic – like a surgeon
2. Jamiroquai - loveblind
3. Dave Matthews band – rapunzel
4. Barenaked ladies – war on drugs
5. Jamie cullum – blame it on my youth
6. Lee Michaels – do you know what I mean?
7. The Beatles – because
8. Red hot chili peppers – californication
9. Frank zappa – tell me you love me
10. 3 doors down – By my side
11. Joseph Haydn – symphony no. 95 (3rd movement)
12. Morphine – a head with wings
13. Ladd McIntosh big band – taco tee shirt
14. Alice in chains – heaven beside you
15. Weezer – The world has turned and left me here
16. System of a down – holy mountains
17. Extreme – who cares?
18. Gorillaz – white light
19. Jimi Hendrix – bold as love
20. Homestarrunner – everybody knows it
21. Queen – somebody to love
22. Bing Crosby – Last night on the backporch
23. Ben folds five – selfless, cold and composed
24. Rush – by-tor and the snow dog
25. Dave Brubeck quartet – pick up sticks
26. Jet – cold hard bitch
*note: there were some edits made to avoid repetition of artists (some would say i cheated)*
this just in:
i'm tired.
be safe! stay classy!
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2006 16 April :: 12.39pm
:: Music: Amen - Please Kill Me
breaking the silence.
refusing to fuck up your life by posting comments that could potentially lead to disaster. i wish you well. that applies to everyone who reads this.
i need to stay away from people when i pms. lock up my phone. disable ims. i do weird shit.
so i want PrettyBoy (thusly nicknamed by GPR, who thinks i'm slightly boy crazy, which i am) which seems to be one of the craziest improbabilities EVER, but is somehow so. i'm probably delirious. YoungPunk was my boyfriend for less than a month, and obviously that was a mistake. if you're a good guy, go for a good girl, please. you can go after the edgy ones and try to save them, but they'll end up fucking you over as much as they've been fucked over, and it's not worth it. i hate all the girls that cheat and lie and do all the things that perpetuate and validate the evil girl stereotype. i hate the slutty girls. i'm a good girl. i'm a romantic. i don't think it's fair to be stereotyped with those girls just b/c your views are so skewed. that's all.
so maybe i'm not ready. maybe he doesn't care. maybe i've ceased to care. i hope that's the case. let's get this over with. point. click. post.
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2006 12 April :: 7.23pm
Okay seriously, it's not just the hormones...haha
I find it funny that they haven't really gone anywhere since I've known them. They're still around. Still hanging out with a younger and younger crowd. What's up with that?
Anyway.
I don't mean to get all sappy and crap. But I had the ultimate best feeling today. I won't get too into it cause I think it's a personal thing for Char and I, but I felt sooo close to the baby. I can't believe I am so close to the 2nd trimester already. It seems to be going fast. I've been sick practically every morning for the past 4 weeks though. So I'm ready to start feeling better.
We bought a duplex and we move on May 6! It's so nice and pretty and at the end of a cauldesac. I'm excited yet I'm going to miss my mom and dad so much. We're so close. :(
Anyway, that's about it for now.
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2006 12 April :: 7.00pm
:: Mood: badong?
:: Music: exploding pop bottles
Ich heiße Super-fantastisch...
alrighty. band concert was last night. i really enjoyed it, and i thought it went well. my mallet parts were shaky, but no missed notes, and that was the important part. and i did a really good job on snare, i thought. i was pleased.
and talking with mom about stuff helped out a super lots. so that was good.
i need to find somebody to cover for my radio show on friday, since i'm going down to shannon's, and her mom is picking us up at 3:30.
k.
journal party at hunter's. jigga h007 h007?
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2006 11 April :: 1.56am
:: Mood: past dead
:: Music: kein musik
eine neue eintragung
(copied from open diary)
Ja. Das heißt "a new entry" (in an account of something). Diese ist ein klein Teil von meine Lebe, ich denke, also das macht gut.
Sonntag ist Oster. Die Familie von Shannon hat mir für diesen Feiertag geeinladen. Das ist sehr gut. Aber, ich weiß nicht was meine Familie für Oster macht. Ach, so... OK, ich soll spreche Deutsch nicht mehr.
i'm getting better though, and that's reassuring. it's by far my best class, and the most interesting. and i seem to be progressing nicely. i'm excited about next year. although it seems to be quite the task to get a minor. i guess i would need 22 credits BEYOND 201, and i'm just not sure about that. hell, i don't even know if i can get that much for my major... ; )
band performance is tomorrow night. i got my suit and stuff all squared away. i'm so sharp when i'm dressed up. or at least i feel like it, which is really all that matters.
i bet shannon will be upset with me. she was over here a little bit ago, and i kept falling asleep. and now that she left, i'm up and awake. i didn't intend for it to go that way. i'm gonna go brush my teefers and hit the sack now.
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2006 7 April :: 12.57pm
only like three weeks.
i still have . . .
four tests
three projects
two papers
one lab final
this is making my brain hurt.
but summer is going to be bomb.
im leaving the state at least once if it kills me.
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2006 6 April :: 2.01am
:: Mood: i must be eeemo...
:: Music: the Impressions - People Get Ready
these are rhetorical...
i can't focus. i can't think about anything else. i'm just so lost in my own head. so zoned out. i'm sick of having responsibilities. i don't want them anymore. i just want to subsist, but i'm in a society that won't allow it. and i want to figure out who i really am, and what i'm really here for. how the fuck am i supposed to do that when i can't even properly exist here? and how am i supposed to have a healthy relationship with anyone when i'm insane? and is there a way to have a truly healthy relationship without treating it like you're fucking married? i mean, dad and kathy are great, and i'm really happy for them and the steps that they've taken together. and i would one day like to take those same steps. but not right now, man. not right now. right now i'm supposed to be crazy college party all the time like. i'm supposed to skip my classes. i'm supposed to ignore this paper i'm writing. i'm supposed to waste mommy and daddy's money.
right?
i'm supposed to be a general education loser. i'm certainly not the "honors" type. but now that i'm here, it's like i'm stuck in the commitment. like i have to finish what i started unwittingly. that's really fucking fair. say "hey, umm... listen, we're not going to tell you what you need to do. we'll just give you free reign, and you can guess a lot. and for every wrong guess, you get an anal probe and a loan to pay off. how does that sound? good." then when i fuck up, i guess i just should have known better, according to them. but HOW oh wise ones. HOW am i supposed to know better, when in actuality, i know virtually nothing at all. and what little knowledge i do have is so trivial, so mundane, that it's not even worth knowing.
feelings suck, because they lie to me. and i have a hard time discerning between them and the truth.
i wanna go to bed.
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2006 5 April :: 6.26pm
Whooooooo
Found my wedding dress!!!!!
We're getting it tomorrow! YAY!!!!
whoa. i was going to put it on here, then i realized Charlie gets on here sometimes. that was a close one! guess you'll all have to wait to see it. it's beautiful!!!
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