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:: 2006 24 January :: 11.04am

winter is too long.

and cold.

it's so wierd you wouldn't think that all this snow would make it cold outside. . .

:: 2006 23 January :: 4.41pm
:: Mood: funny
:: Music: SOAD

funny "ha, ha," or funny like a clown?

yeah. so, last night's escapades were quite unexpected. not unpleasant, by any means, but thoroughly surprising and utterly disorienting.

and the same question i always have for myself... now what?

although it might be the same old question, it's definitely a new twist. very different.

i realize i'm being all cryptic. maybe *gasp* it's because i don't want to broadcast everything to the world. and that's when you say "then why are you typing it in your journal?" and really, it's a fair point. if i don't want you to know, then why am i telling you? it's because i need to at least get it off my chest... regardless of whether it's comprehensible to my audience or not. it's merely self-serving catharsis, okay? sorry, i know i'm a greedy bastard, but there you are.

yeah. i can't really think of much else at the moment. so i don't have much else to say.

although i have to say, this whole situation has had a very positive impact on my relationship with katie. that's really inexpressibly marvelous.

heinous. aww.

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:: 2006 22 January :: 2.45pm
:: Mood: Apathetic
:: Music: Stabby Rip Stab-Stab

i must be emo...

hey guys. good weekend. no, GREAT WEEKEND! die gutes Wochenende.

i went skiing. did my radio show. had girls' night out. had guys' night out. did dishes twice. made french toast. cleaned the kitchen, top to bottom. and didn't do any homework.

what more could a growing college boy ask for?

sex? sure. but why would i, when i could clean the kitchen instead? i mean, seriously.

naw. lots of girl drama in the past week or two. still continuing. no sex though, which is a plus. that would complicate several matters much more than my puny, feeble mind could comprehend / tolerate.

"your head a splode"

oh jah, oh jah!

smile please. the world needs more lerts.

:: 2006 21 January :: 1.05pm

Yikes.
Hmm....
Work in 2 hours. :-/ my elbow hurts for some reason.
Oh, driving was so crappy this morning. I got home around 1:30 or so. It took me FOREVER and I took all back-roads cause I didn't want to crash on the expressway again. So scary.
So I watch the news and it was so funny. They were showing a livecam of the s-curve and how bad the roads were. Then they said that it hasn't stopped people in grand rapids from enjoying their night. And they showed this clip of a clerk getting robbed! Whoops. hahaha they go "Oops, we'd like to apologize that was the wrong clip!"
2 papers to write tomorrow then Monday we have a tour of Spectrum Health.
And tonight I get out at midnight or later. whoo!

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:: 2006 20 January :: 12.14pm

does anyone else feel a little weird when they are in a computer lab and the clicks on your keyboard are quite a bit more spaced out than blazing fingers next to you?

whatever.
so i decided to go into pharmacy, and i talked to the councler yesterday. turns out that i need to take 2 bios and a microbio all with labs. 6 chem. classes with labs, and calc.
sometimes i think that i have the worst ideas ever. how in the hell am i supposed to complete that without going completely insane???

basically my life is going to suck for the next six to eight years. by the time i actually have my degree i wont have any hair. just clumps of it stuck in my fingernails.

no but, calc is going to be fun right? ha ha hhhhhhhhhh.
ok so it's not. whatever.

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:: 2006 19 January :: 6.24pm

Oh my goodness! AHHHHHH It's killing me!
I just got a letter from GFS (Gordon Food Service) asking for chefs to work in their test kitchen. That was the job I was striving for! And get this:
$20/hr.
For only 4 weeks of the year, we choose which weeks. For 10 hours a day.
Add that all up, that's $1000 a week! $4000 a month.
And so I'm writing them back. I would love to work there. But I don't have all my years in yet for the requirement. But I'm writing them anyway so they keep me in mind for the future. I would've been able to work both jobs, too.
Dang.

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:: 2006 19 January :: 2.46pm

i don't know. ugh. i don't feel good enough. tonight's going to be fun though.

:: 2006 18 January :: 8.42pm
:: Music: Death Cab For Cutie- Passenger Seat

Wow. Crazy stuff happened today. I feel kinda bad... Oh well.
Char and I had fun today. It was just overall a really good time. I think we needed to laugh more. So that was good. :-)
We're in love. It's nice. I got some pics developed today, here's a creepy one I took...

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:: 2006 17 January :: 12.00am
:: Mood: messed...
:: Music: burnin' for buddy

well, i had yet another marvelous dinner... white rice, bacon and eggs. mmm... so good. with a little mrs dash. oh shit! i made coffee... whoops. i'm sure it's cold by now. oh well.

hm.

*checks*

...

AMAZING!!!

it's still warm! not piping hot, but hey. beggars can't be choosy.

.

i'm just totally weirded out. i didn't get over katie over break like i thought i had. so it's weird again with that. and hunter's ex is seeking psychiatric help, and i talked with her last night for a couple hours, and i really hope she's not into me. i mean she's nice and all, but that's a lot of baggage i would thoroughly regret.

and somehow i never realized it before, but ellen is crazy hot. i'm not sure just how i missed that vital part of the scene, but i did.

i've been running like crazy and accomplishing nothing all week already. well, i guess i accomplished something... i had band rehearsal tonight. that's right, band rehearsal. feel free to laugh now, or any time henceforth. i know i'm laughing heartily, myself. what foolishness, gah.

meh. well. yeah. 'tis life, for yon lad (me).

Heute, ich habe manchmal Hausaufgaben f�r Deutsch. Nach das, ich muss treffe mit der Schauer. Ich bin nicht so sauber (und habe verr�ckthaare)

das ist sehr... yucky.

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:: 2006 17 January :: 9.34pm

Tomorrow class is at 7:30. AHHH. Then Charlie and I are going out to breakfast together. Yippers. :-)

:: 2006 17 January :: 3.00pm

I am bored. Oh so bored. blah blah blah blah blah blah

:: 2006 16 January :: 10.53pm
:: Music: Hawthorne Heights- Dissolve and Decay

Man I love you Charlie. <3

Today was kind of relaxing. I feel bad for not really working or anything...
Got up at 6 though (i haven't gotten up at 6 in almost a year!) Went to class, (i can tell Intro to Hosp. is going to be GREAT!), then got out of class around 8:10. Went home and slept then went to Charlie's and had a lot of fun :-) Now I'm watching the Bachelor. hahaha.

:: 2006 15 January :: 8.09pm

THIS IS OUR NEW CAR
I'm really excited! It's coming in 3 months! They'll start working on it in 3 wks down in Bowling Green.
The new Z06 is the fastest GM car. And it weighs 300 lbs less than the Ferrari 430, which is pretty awesome. Sorry, Char and I went to the Auto Show at Devos today and I got really really excited. I love cars.

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:: 2006 14 January :: 5.35pm
:: Music: bright eyes-first day of my life

ME!
i look so cute right now!
someone other than my sleeping boyfriend needs to see me.

how much does it cost to rent a billboard?
i mean, that wouldn't be vein right? like it would be brightening everyones day to see me staring back at them as they fly by going 80 on the highway. maybe i'll cause some accidents. really, that would be the best outcome. . .

um . . . yeah, i have to go now and look into this further.

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:: 2006 12 January :: 1.36pm

waiting to leave for class. boring! I'm all ready to go! hahaha. I just want to get it over with. it's survey of Am. Govn't and it'll be boring. I'm hungry I guess I could eat. Wow. What an update!

:: 2006 12 January :: 12.55am

wow. first week and i'm already abandoning my homework.

this doesn't bode well at all.

but on the plus side, my social life is kicking some serious ass. and hunter is the best thing ever. well, maybe not ever. but he's good for me, in that "similar, yet different" sort of way. i really need to let go of my inhibitions, and get back to my instincts. not like buck wild or anything, but just a little more in tune. i'm so far removed from all that "human" shit, it's no wonder i feel detached all the fucking time.

i think i should go to bed. and i need to take a shower tomorrow morning. ahh... i'm so fucked. what did i do? what will i do?

FUCKED I SAY!!!

you're falling deeper, deeper 3 into the deepest, most relaxing sleep you've ever had 2 the most relaxing sleep you've ever had... deeper, falling, sinking, relaxed 1.

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:: 2006 11 January :: 11.52pm
:: Music: Elliott Smith- Say Yes

Have you watched the news lately?
Seriously, this world is awful.
It's just.... awful.

I'm just really upset.
"My job is one of the most emotionally fulfilling jobs..." -the "Abortionist"

And the whole thing going on with the body in the landfill. I was talking to my hair lady about it and she just said "Well, I mean, it's going to get disgusting with the birds and the tractors running over it..."
And that is NOT what I'm thinking about. I'm thinking, How can those 3 kids leave their FATHER there, in that landfill. Does he honestly deserve to be there? That is awful. He wanted to be cremated, but of course they don't care. Doesn't he deserve something better?

People just amaze me. It seems they're completely guilt-free.
Damn.

:: 2006 11 January :: 10.08pm
:: Music: Death Cab For Cutie- Soul Meets Body

What did I ever do to deserve this...?
I'm sick of feeling this way.
I don't want my feelings anymore.

:: 2006 10 January :: 11.47pm

I absolutely am in love with this song.
I cannot guess what we'll discover
We turn the dirt with our palms cupped like shovels
But I know our filthy hand can wash one another�s
And not one speck will remain

I do believe it�s true
That there are roads left in both of our shoes
If the silence takes you
Then I hope it takes me too
So brown eyes I hold you near
Cause you�re the only song I want to hear
A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere

Where soul meets body

:: 2006 10 January :: 10.54pm

As for work, work is GREAT. I missed it so much. I think that was part of my mooood.
It feels good to be back.
We did a party tonight, in-house, for 120 and i now have delicious chocolate cake in hand...haha. Maybe it'll help cure the saddies. :-P
Nah.
I got to drive the Trailblazer to work and it was soooo relaxing and nice.
Work/School are actually going somewhere and I feel good about it. I feel GREAT about it.
I'm going to a special dinner at CC for our ACF members. My boss is getting voted Chef of the Year and I am taking my aunt. Tickets are $65 though. Ehhh... It'll be fun and it's something I feel I need to do.
I'm going to probably go to bed soon. The earliest I've gone to bed in probably 2 1/2 weeks.

:: 2006 10 January :: 10.49pm

Ugh. Why is it so awful. Just put on your clomping boots and jump all over my heart. And to think I had a good feeling going. Thanks for ruining it. Thank you.

:: 2006 9 January :: 10.09pm

I felt so much love from you tonight...

and so much hurt.

I love you.

:: 2006 9 January :: 12.30pm

Eh. Whatever.
I just made a huge step, and even though it hurts, it feels great to know that I'm growing.
As for you, you're cryptic.
I actually care about this. I'm actually making an effort and learning how to fix it. You can jump on anytime now... Talk to me maybe?
Believe me, I'm sick of it too. But don't exaggerate. We have our really good times too. I can't imagine life without you. But we don't need to be like this. We can be fine.
This is all going to be great. :-)

spud	:: 2006 9 January :: 1.09am :: Mood: calm ahhhhh... it's good to be back. so goood. i just feel so at peace. Es ist sp�ter dann meine Schlafszeit. Ich habe Klasse am 9 Uhr. Guten Nocht! Bis Morgen!!! 3 comments \| feedback

:: 2006 8 January :: 8.24pm

ohhhhhhhh this week will be fun/interesting!!!
I'm really excited. I'll post more later...

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