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swimfan14

:: 2006 29 May :: 10.51pm

This weekend was pretty good.

Friday I went out to dinner with my dad, Stacy, Luke, Mandy, and Danielle. Afterwards we went to Cold Stone and then Luke came over. We sat on my roof and looked at the stars! It was pretty cute.
Saturday Luke came over and we also had a cook out with some of our family. My little cousins all came over. They are so cute. Later I went to Mikki's bonfire. We played this game with April and her boyfriend against me and Elyse. I don't know what it was called, but it was really fun. They lost both times haha. Afterwards Elyse spent the night.
Sunday we went up to Brower and up on the Muskegon River on my uncles boat. It was pretty awesome. There was so many people from school there and we got chased by this crazy lady on the sandbar. Good times.
Today I had to babysit Kamie's baby Kelsie. She's so cute! Afterwards I went to Lukes and that is pretty much my weekend.

I'm pretty excited because my dad is getting a boat now! We used to have a house boat and we would stay in it almost every night at the marina, but I don't think he wants that big of a boat anymore. I don't know. We'll see, but I'm pretty stoaked about that.

Four more days left of school. Yesss!!

Ashley----<3

7 screamed | i am afraid


bleedingsun

:: 2006 29 May :: 6.35pm

A Recollection

And the studying begins.

After a half an hour of just gathering materials, (notes, worksheets, quizzes) I am finally ready to start remembering all the information I've forgotten in the last few months. This will take awhile.

I'm dreading tomorrow. Math never has been a strength of mine.

4 screamed | i am afraid


.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 28 May :: 12.25am

you just have to revive me.

you're the only one who can do that, jess. everyone else just pisses me off.

aww well isn't that sweet. being in love is just the best isn't it.

I am getting kinda excited for stef's wedding and i'm happy that she is with a good guy and that everything is good for them and i can't wait for the baby makin. wait, that sounds wrong. i can't wait for a baby to be made. Yes... lol. i dont really care how it gets done, just do it. lol i want a little nephew. yes , a nephew not a neice. if it's a niece they can have it back. girls just bug me.

i am also THRILLED to be moving in august!!! YAY moving in with my best friend/ boyfriend lol. i love him and can't wait to like, own our toilet paper lol. we will own everything in that little apartment and it will be ours! yay! i am so excited. i can't stop buying little things for us for the apartment. my whole trunk is almost full to capacity and soon the backseat probably will be too. i only need a few more things really. it seems like a lot but it's probably not that much.. i duno. and stef and paul are giving us a bunch of stuff after their wedding gifts which is awesome of them.

i'm so excited! and i love my baby! not literallly baby. not like i'm preggy baby but like my baby darling roman r to the o to the MAN roman banana shana fo fanna foman. roman.


love!

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empath

:: 2006 27 May :: 2.04pm
:: Music: Muse

Update
I had a nice little vacation this week. It was meant to be for thinking and sorting everything out, but instead it just allowed me to forget about everything that matters. Not as productive, but much more enjoyable. I think I want to go to a different place every week or every other week, just for a couple days or so.

All of my plans for the fall have been a little fucked up thanks to my deadbeat brother (whom I love of course).
Also, I ran into an old friend yesterday and he's totally cool, so I may be seeing more of him in the near future. I'm so blessed. Really, I am.

i am afraid


.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 27 May :: 9.18am

ugh how'd i get so fucking replaced?

dumb

and oh what else is dumb. i dont have work from 9 - 5:30 like i thought. it's 10- 7:30... so i still dont' have to close but the day will pretty much be over when i get out. hooray. and my wisdom teeth (lack there of) still hurt and are even bleeding still. gross i know but what do i do. i dont know what else there is to do? so now i just get to talk for 9 hours making it worse. ugh!

i am afraid


.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 26 May :: 11.46pm

omg.

i realized for the second time that i am done with high school

party!!!

and i love beans and love working with her but i hate working

tomorrow's another day another dollar. as much as i hate that phrase.

9-5:30..... at least i dont have to close.

ASLK!@! and my teeth or lack there of still hurt. i actually think they are bleeding. come on and heal already jeez.

and oh wait there's more. i am so totally in love with roman bryan nastally garcia. i could just dance! love him. yay for love. and everyone in it.

i am afraid


.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 26 May :: 10.01am

oh my gosh i need to lose weight.


i'm getting so ... ugh frusterated. what if i can't handle it all. ugh and then right after i type that he calls and says i love you. pfff. sucker. i'm a sucker for him. well okay . in short. i can handle it and i will handle it and it will be the happiest moment in my life when i am finally free. we are finally free. i can't wait and i can say i did it on my own. we did it.

but i still need to lose weight. i'm so gross.
8 months of being apart and never better.

well, doctors appointment and then work from 1 - 10pm. i have no life. but i need the money.

i am afraid


wraith6699

:: 2006 26 May :: 2.36am

just got back from seeing X-Men 3 with phil, will, and kyle; it was awesome

oh, and i saw a trailer for Snakes on a Plane. Now, think about the audience at a midnight showing of X-Men 3. That's right, the theater ERUPTED when we saw a snake on that mother-fucking plane.

and juggernaut really made our day when he said "don't you know who i am? I'm the juggernaut BITCH!" since we were making jokes revolving around those exact lines whenever he had any screentime.

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skippi16

:: 2006 25 May :: 9.02pm

so we graduate in excatly one week... YAY

my car is a piece of shit and i hate it!

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spud

:: 2006 25 May :: 12.57am
:: Mood: not bad. not anything.

lamb...

first off - funny quote of the day:

"skiing combines outdoor fun with knocking down trees with your face."
- dave barry

---------------------

okay. work was normal. i did stuff. theoretically got paid for it. life goes on.

i was overcome with this overwhelming desire to call shannon. and what made it more difficult is i know she would have wanted me to. but i had to make use of what little willpower i have, and say no. i will see her friday night. just repeat the mantra, i guess. i feel like i should channel that energy i get into something productive, though. like, when i want to call her and talk to her, i should do something else instead. like she did with my memory box, or something. but i'm not as creative like that, so i don't know. i'll have to come up with something. i suppose i could write. i would be writing a lot. i could keep a pad and pen in the truck though. but i usually have to be in a different mindset to write. i dunno. we'll give it a shot.

the reading thing has worked well in that regard, i suppose. which i've been continuing. i finished part one of lamb, and will now proceed to post up my favorite quotes:

"'i'm thinking of being a professional mourner. how hard can it be? tear at your hair, sing a dirge or two, take the rest of the week off.'
'his father is a stonemason,' joshua said. 'we may both learn that skill.' at my urging, my father had offered to take joshua on as an apprentice if joseph approved.
'or a shepherd,' i added quickly. 'being a shepherd seems easy. i went with kaliel last week to tend his flock. the law says that two must go with the flock to keep an abomination from happening. i can spot an abomination from fifty paces.'
maggie smiled. 'and did you prevent any abominations?'
'oh yes, i kept all of the abominations at bay while kaliel played with his favorite sheep behind the bushes.'
'biff,' joshua said gravely, 'that was the abomination you were supposed to prevent.'
'it was?'
'yes.'
'whoops. oh well, i think i would make an excellent mourner. do you know the words of any dirges, maggie? i'm going to need to learn some dirges.'"

::

"with the tip of his sword, justus guided my gaze to apollo's stone penis, which lay in the dirt next to the two corpses. 'and do you want to explain how that happened?'
'the pox?' i ventured.
'the pox can do that,' maggie said. 'can rot it right off.'
'how do you know that?' joshua asked her.
'just guessing. i'm sure glad that's all over.'
justus let his sword fall to his side with a sigh. 'go home. all of you. by order of gaius justus gallicus, under-commander of the sixth legieon, commander of the third and fourth centuries, under authority of emperor tiberius and the roman empire, you are all commanded to go home and perpetrate no weird shit until i have gotten well drunk and had several days to sleep it off.'"

::

"'we have to find out a couple of things before joshua starts being the messiah,' i said.
'like what?' john seemed as if he would start crying again.
'well, like where joshua left his destiny and whether or not he's allowed to, uh, have an abomination with a woman.'
'it's not an abomination if it's with a woman,' josh added.
'it's not?'
'nope. sheep, goats, pretty much any animal - it's an abomination. but with a woman, it's something totally different.'
'what about a woman and a goat, what's that?' asked john.
'that's five shekels in damascus,' i said. 'six if you want to help.'
joshua punched me in the shoulder.
'sorry, old joke.' i grinned. 'couldn't resist.'"

::

so, apparantly my favorite parts circle around the singing of dirges and bestiality.

that explains a lot.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 24 May :: 2.29pm

go to bank
get schedule at rosies
mail at postoffice
pay car payment
U

i am afraid


skippi16

:: 2006 24 May :: 2.10pm

life after school
GOD LIFE AFTER SCHOOL IS SO FUCKING BORING!!!!!!!!

i miss band so much that i am going crazy. me and bill are going back tomorrow morning cause its horrible to be away..... now that i dont have anything to do its like my life is meaningless now.... cept for the fact that i have to work....

that sounded a little emo... ugh, we're moving stuff now and i am realizing how bad i dont want to move. i dont know n e one down in indana cept for my cousins, and who wants to hang out with their irresponcible, immature evil cousins.... not me! Oh well i guess i will make friends some how... i am a very friendly person. ahh moving sucks cause im going to miss all my friends and some of them i wont be seeing ever again. i mean lets get really here, half of the people in that god forsaken school i will not see after graduation and its somewhat ok with my cause some of them i dont want to see....

3 screamed | i am afraid


spud

:: 2006 24 May :: 12.11pm

notable mention:

i just had the shortest, most productive phone conversation with my mother, to date.

i thought that was noteworthy. aside from that, i've been reading again which is good. and i'm working. i suppose that's also good. it's looking like i'll have saturday off - keep your fingers crossed. shannon is coming down on friday. friday i have to go into the hiring agency office and sort some stuff out about my check. they shorted me 3 minutes. which, i mean, it's just three minutes. but on the other hand, there's no reason for me to have been shorted at all, and as a matter of principle, that's very aggravating.

and i've only gotten one receipt. i don't even know if i actually have the money yet. i need to go to the bank and check.

and the truck needs work. i don't have time, tools, or a place to do it.

i see not much has changed.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 23 May :: 9.49pm

i just took like 30 pictures of myself and edited them all

getting your wisdom teeth out doesn't hurt THAT bad but it sure it boring!

living room dark red and bed room purple... bathroom i think light blue and what color should the kitchen be?

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 23 May :: 2.33pm
:: Mood: sore
:: Music: i write sins not tradgedies

life may be okay again

So i think it's fine and we're fine and most of all i'm fine because you were fine to begin with. which i highly appreciate and find completely supportive and sweet and loving and it was sweet to hear it all but i just could not handle it i know.

it is a little tiny bit sad but most of all.. not.

so i am happy and not scared and my mouth hurts but hopefully that willl be the only pain i experience for a long time.

hooray, life is good again i think and i am so looking forward to the move and the apartment. yay!

i am afraid

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