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2008 7 April :: 2.41am
wow. it's gonna be a long stretch to exams.
and an early morning tomorrow. i'll be ready to crash once i get done at the scientists meeting tomorrow night. but that'll be fun, at least. the events leading up to it, not so much.
although, filming went reasonably well today. and i got some free food out of the deal. and i met a guy who wants to record me on drums. and i got to play drums at that party last night, which also had some free food and was a lot of fun. and i got to play drums and hear dad's new band on friday, and have some free food after that as well. so, the themes for this weekend were : party, free food, and drums.
not too bad. except that i got nothing accomplished and slept way too late this morning. but it all worked out, i guess.
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2008 6 April :: 3.13pm
:: Music: The Shins - Sleeping Lessons
I'm going to ask Kyle if he would like to join me in going to the school of music spring formal.
I know its only going to be a “sure” or a “no thanks” But I guess I will probably be upset if he says no.
Why does this feel like high school again?
I really am very nervous.
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2008 3 April :: 12.23am
you know. sometimes i just don't understand.
most times, in fact.
i just wonder where the fuck i went so wrong. when it all looked so promising. and then there are those other times when i wonder how in the hell it worked out so perfectly, when i thought it would be shit. and either way, i was fucking wrong, and didn't get a chance to appreciate it, because i was so busy being wrong.
and then i failed college. or at least pissed a bunch of people off for being stupid. and pissed myself off even more.
i've been ridiculously angry all day today, and i don't understand it. i really need to blow off some steam.
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2008 30 March :: 11.23pm
life seems to be spinning round and round in circles and im helpless to stop it... i cant control anything and its truly irritating.
its not good its not bad... im just in space, gray, not growing, shrinking, making any change. i exist and that is truly it.
what the fuck ever
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2008 28 March :: 2.20am
I wish I were a better person.
Sorry.
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2008 27 March :: 2.26am
The opera is this weekend. I'm very excited :)
I like Kyle, and I guess I will find out this weekend what he thinks about that. He cant be totally disinterested, he sits and talks to me at rehearsal every night.
And what’s up with my roommate? He sometimes makes things awkward for me. Hmm.
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2008 26 March :: 10.58am
Life is Complicated
got the privilage of stayong over two hours last night cause people keep callin in! its over time for me so its gonna pay off i guess.
i get home and tj has pics of his nephews, which we havnt seen or heard from his sister on over two years so i dont know how. apperently she has a myspace and he got them off of there. i guess he left her a nice little message, and she hasnt replied yet. i dunno this may start something it may not. i just hope he at least can continue to get new pcs of the kids hell we never even met the last one...
let the drama continue!
in other news, we got the rings! they are fabulous! his school stuff is going well and i finally got my lazy butt up and got all the info im gonna need to start school. also i found some friends of mine from when i first lived here in IN so thats exciting, they are all guys so tj isnt happy but oh well!
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2008 25 March :: 5.46pm
:: Music: temple of the dog
i had a dream last night that i played hockey with the red wings. i was really bad. but they still liked having me on the team, for whatever reason. it was one of those dreams where it's really frustrating, because you can't move as fast as you know that you can. and you keep trying to will your body to do stuff, but it won't. before that i was driving in a car with my sister. which i think was a continuation of a previous dream i'd had.
did the in-class shoot today. it kinda sucked balls, but whatever.
robby had to cancel today. which i guess is okay. i just wish he would have told me ahead of time so i wouldn't have had to go and reserve the recorder and have dad bring the mics out and all of that happy horseshit. but i suppose it was for the best. it gave me time to get more accustomed to the machine and think through exactly how i want to set it up when he actually can record.
also, i couldn't talk to the financial aid people today. but i made an appointment for next wednesday. and i might be able to do walk-ins before the appointment. i'm debating on how urgent my need is. well, i need $2000 by april 25, if at all possible. so pretty urgent, i suppose.
then again, i won't be able to give them anything if i can't register for the class, which i also have to wait on. i talked to the lady in the school of com office today, and she said that the names hadn't been cleared yet, and to try again next monday. and if they're not up by next monday, i'll just have to wait longer.
and the honors college still hasn't cleared me for WRT 305 yet, either.
so all around, a whole bunch of waiting for people to get their shit together. which is frustrating. but there's nothing i can do about it, other than wait, so i might as well just relax and enjoy.
there's a free trade concert tonight that i'm helping out at. the scientists are running the pa and recorder for the show. should be fun. i enjoy doing that stuff, and they're good people. always a good time.
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2008 25 March :: 11.29am
why is he so selfish??? why is it all about him. i have feelings to and if i get upset its my fault and i have to fix it. DAMNIT!!! heaven fuckin forbid he do anything to the relationship.... argh you love him to death but ya still wanna ring hid neck.
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2008 24 March :: 11.23pm
dear god,
if i go deaf because i'm the first person to ever be diagnosed with a "skull infection" i am going to be pissed at you until further notice.
sincerely,
Chris
actually, my nose is getting a lot better. but now my left ear is all messed up. it's happened two or three times now where i go to blow my nose, and then i blow too hard or something, and my ear pops, and then it rings and feels all funky, occasionally making more popping/swelling sounds, until eventually it goes away. but the entire time it's like that, i can't hear shit. i know it's something to do with my eardrum. but that doesn't make me feel any better. i kind of need my eardrum if i want to work in a recording studio. motherfucker.
i feel good though. i got a lot of shit done today. and i have lots more to do tomorrow. should be cool though. i'm definitely getting somewhere with stuff and things. always gratifying.
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2008 23 March :: 10.34pm
today was another epic day at pondo!!!!!!!! dumbass highschool kids who dont think to sweep before they mop! arg
oh well got home it was clean for the most part so that made me happy...
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2008 22 March :: 10.30pm
BOYS SUCK!!!!!!!!!
the girls at work got me a Chevy hat today... it made tj happy. :)
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2008 21 March :: 1.15pm
:: Mood: unintelligent
yay!
thanks andy!
here you go:
*names have been changed, for fun and profit*
so, i'm a little slow sometimes. we all know this to be true.
i got an email awhile back from FRED, saying something along the lines of "i was listening to music on xxxxxxx.com, and it made me think/feel some of our conversation a while back. you should check it out." so, i was like 'okay. don't recall having any conversation of this sort with FRED. but hey, i forget things all the time.' so, life went on. a little while later i actually went and checked out the site. it was sweet, so i sent him a note saying it was awesome, and he replied with a couple of bands to check out. so i did. and i thought, 'wow, FRED's taste has changed a bit. i guess that's to be expected. and i like it. it's cool. but it seems different for him.' but it wasn't really that far of a stretch, so i didn't question it. life went on. then i made a project for my media II class, using FRED's music, and i sent FRED an email requesting permission to use it. and he replied saying it was fine, using what i understood to be some quote from the liner notes. only, when i checked the liner notes, i couldn't find anything remotely resembling the quote anywhere on them. huh. that's odd. so, i sent FRED a message today, saying that i had finished the project and, if he was interested, i could get a copy to him on DVD. he messaged me back with his address, so i could mail it to him. but why would i need to mail it to him, when FRED lives right in town? i could just drop it off at his apartment.
so, after working out the fact - and coming to terms with the embarrassment - that i'd been talking to the wrong FRED for about a year, i then realized that i'd roped myself into sending a dvd, having nothing to do with FRED (not to be confused with FRED) - or his music - all the way to fucking san francisco. that, and i still don't technically have permission from FRED to use the music that i'm sending to FRED.
all because i'm an idiot.
so, long story longer, no matter how many problems and snafus you encounter with all of your dealings today, whether at work, or at home, or with other bullshit, at least take solace in the fact that you're not quite as moronic as me.
sincerely,
FRITZ (a tribute to any dr. seuss fans in the crowd)
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2008 19 March :: 9.59pm
today at work was shitty... some of these stupid high school kids are useless. you ask them to clean something and somehow it looks worse than before.... how in the hell does that happen?
tjs a big butthead... and i want to punch him right now for no real reason except i can... ha.
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2008 18 March :: 12.20pm
its been a while, but nothing new.... i am not going to be an aunt, yay
it was kinda freaking me out the whole idea that this girl, who by the way is 17 and still a freshman in high school, may have had to be in my life practically forever. but now i hope that nathan just gets rid of her.
Tj is taking classes now for his diesel, and he's really excited about it. im happy he's doing something that finally makes him happy.
work is going real well, and so is wedding planning. everything is comimg together and every day i get more and more happy about it.
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