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2004 17 February :: 1.16pm
:: Mood: hot
:: Music: dashboard confessional - carry this picture for luck
jack called me twice at 6, i wonder why. i called him a few times, but all i got was his voicemail. i got up at around 8. came downstairs, turned on the computer and made myself some coffee. now i'm waiting for my mom to come home and take my brother to his friends house, then it will be nice in my house, i can scream as much as i want. i'm bored right now, no one is online. oh well, have more music to write.
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2004 12 February :: 3.50pm
Put yourself back in the place of just a few months ago. Watch the sun go down over the horizon. Feel the salt blowing off the ocean, the smell of her hair blowing in the wind. The calm sound of waves hitting the beach. Don't you miss her? Don't you miss feeling her body pressing against yours? Holding her in your arms as the starts come out in the sky?
ok, this is a start. i don't know if i like it or not yet.
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2004 7 February :: 10.29am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: glassjaw - hotel of the white locust
i'm bored again this morning. i have to get a hair cut in less than an hour. not very cool. i subed for a public school elementary school class yesterday for about an hour. 4th grade. i swear, kids have gotten stupider. i'll post some of the answers they gave me later for certain questions. you what was not cool, some of those kids were taller than i am. thats like not good when i'm in 10th grade and they are in 4th grade.
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2004 3 February :: 6.54am
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: thurday - this song has been brought to you by a falling bomb
i woke up this morning to the sound of rain against my window sill, a calm sound. lightly spelling out the mis-used and unknown phrases as it kissed my window. when i heard the car going over the road, i knew that we are not going to have a snow day today. you know what, that sucks. i could actually write my paper. ugh...have to go start the car. i'll post again when i'm home today.
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2004 2 February :: 6.50pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Thursday - Standing On The Edge Of Summer
Closing All My Windows
When the crowd parted for the paramedics, we already knew that it wasn't necessary. The street was painted a purple-red with the boy's blood. On impact, his body had folded on itself; he looked like he was praying to the mailbox. The air was turning the blood on the sidewalk rust brown, but in his hair it stayed a dark red. It seemed to get redder with every flash of the newspaper man's camera.
I bit down on my lip and the afternoon flooded onto my blood like an IV drip: the crowd's blank faces; the reporters searching for the parents; the steam drifting from the young boy's broken mouth; the pair of sneakers tangled in power lines hanging like a forgotten mistletoe.
The blood was soaking into my untied shoelace as we watched the ambulance pull up. I was right there: The calm voices of the paramedics made the temperature drop twenty degrees. I was right there: They zipped up the black bag and I couldn't breathe.
I tried to listen, but I couldn't resist the pull of the breathing open window. I saw myself running to it and lunging straight through it. I felt like I was suffocating in a zipped-up black bag.
I had to lock myself in the bathroom to stop myself from jumping out of the window. In the mirror, my hair was tinged red. I tried closing my eyes but when I looked in the mirror my hair was saturated, a thick crimson. The New Year cheers sounded like screams though the door and I swore that I'd never let myself care about anything else ever again. The next morning the paper said that a boy had fallen out of an unlocked window in his parent's apartment in New York. I dyed my hair the darkest black I could find. A black so dark it could cover the deepest red and suffocate the brightest halo.
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2004 31 January :: 12.57am
:: Mood: indescribable
:: Music: further seems forever - new year's project
yea, i can't describe how great i feel right now. i got to spend most of my friday night with claire, thank you god for such a wonderful night. shit, mom's yelling at me to go to sleep, i'll post more later
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2004 27 January :: 8.33am
Rain: You are the sound of rain. You have two
important sides. There is your strong, powerful
side and your calm, gentle side. Both are very
important. Rain also reflects a bit of darkness
in your personality. It isn't bad, just shows
that along with the good, you also can see bad,
which can come in handy. (please rate my quiz)
What Sound Are You?(now w/ pics)
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Ghost or spirit: You are a lost soul. Very calm and
sweet, you are often the one who asks: What if?
With a clever mind, you want to explore the
world on a different level. Without the
answers, you aren't ready to move on. You are
most likely very creative and find yourself
thinking things through on a different level.
(please rate my quiz)
**Where will you go when you die?**(now with pics)
brought to you by Quizilla
cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed
What Sign of Affection Are You?
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2004 27 January :: 7.49am
Good. You know your music. You should be able to
work at Championship Vinyl with Rob, Dick and
Barry
Do You Know Your Music (Sorry MTV Generation I Doubt You Can Handle This One)
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i love that movie.
Times New Roman is your bag. You are proper, have
good grammar and may occasionally use
Italics...
Your font is..
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You, my friend are a true individual. You most
likely hate trends and are creative. By seeing
things differently, people either admire you or
think you are a bit strange. I'm guessing you
are a lot like me. Perhaps a Good Charlotte
hater? I hope so. An inspiration to us all,
continue being you! (If you like GC, I'm sorry,
I am just expressing an opinion)
A Deeper Look Inside Yourself (with pics)
brought to you by Quizilla
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2004 25 January :: 1.33pm
You don't say much of anything
When questioned of your whereabouts
And I just can't see through the evidence
It's evident
It's right in front of me in black and white and red
And I don't believe in much of anything
I'm glad I have people I call friends
If it was up to me I'd never have to miss you
It's for the better in the bitter end
I guess you'd know the best
You have every right to be
This appalled with me
Join the club
I signed up a long time ago and I know how you feel
And when you decked me
You left me knocked out on the floor
I came to bloodied up, but you weren't around
I picked my teeth off the ground like they'd been there before
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2004 22 January :: 9.43pm
do you hear the jet plane
yawning miles across the sky?
hear the garbage truck
back down the boulevard,
setting off the car alarms as it passes by?
do you hear the static
of one thousand detuned radios?
shut the window, love.
keep the world outside.
I don't want to think about anyone
but the footsteps are getting louder,
drowning out the sound of the rain,
as it knocks on the windowsill.
I'm not answering the phone -- let it ring.
lately I've been feeling like
a falling bomb.
the ground is getting closer
and the sky
is falling
down.
this song has been brought to you
this song has been brought to you
by a falling bomb.
by a falling bomb.
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2003 29 November :: 2.03pm
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: taking back sunday - you're soo last summer
She said
"don't, don't let it go to your head
Boys like you are a dime a dozen,
Boys like you are a dime a dozen"
She said
"you're a touch overrated,
you're a lush and I hate it
but these grass stains on my knees
they won't mean a thing"
And all I (all I)
Need to know (need to know)
Is that I'm somethin you'll be missin
(is that I'm somethin that you're missin)
(maybe I should hate for this)
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that far
(maybe I should hate for this)
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that...
I'd never lie to you
Unless I had to
I'll do what I got to
Unless I had to
I'll do what I go to, the truth
is you could slit my throat
And with my one last gasping breath
I'd apologize for bleedin on your shirt
And all I (all I)
Need to know (need to know)
Is that I'm somethin you'll be missin
(is that I'm somethin that you're missin)
(maybe I should hate for this)
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that far
(maybe I should hate for this)
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that...
Cuase I'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions
This'll be last chance you get to drop my name
Cuase I'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions
This'll be last chance you get to drop my name
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar
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2003 23 November :: 4.39pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Linkin Park
I dunno...
Nothing exciting to write about....
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2003 15 November :: 10.07am
:: Music: wating for autumn - yellow
Yes, you will always be remembered for your good
ways. You seem to be close and caring around
your family and other people you really know.
You will be a major loss for them. There will
be an empty spot once you are gone. It may
sound morbid to you, but it could also be good.
Keep on with your great ways. You will have a
beautiful funeral.
What Type of Funeral Will You Have? Will You Be Missed Once You're Gone?
brought to you by Quizilla
Eb major - you are warm and kind, always there for
your friends, who are in turn there for you.
You are content with your confortable life and
what you are currently achieving; if you keep
in this state you will go far.
what key signature are you?
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i'm bored
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2003 11 November :: 7.17pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: Brand New
Jude Law and A Semester Abroad
Whatever poison's in this bottle
will leave me broken, sore and stiff
But it's the genie at the bottom who I'm sucking at,
he owes me one last wish
So here's a present to let you know I still exist
I hope the next boy that you kiss has
something terribly contagious on his lips
But I got a plan (I got a plan)
To drink for forty days and forty nights
A sip for every second-hand tick
And every time you fed the line,
“you mean so much to me”
I'm without you
Tell all the English boys you meet
i'm your American boy back in the states
The American boy you used to date
who would do anything you say
Tell all the English boys you meet
i'm your American boy back in the states
The American boy you used to date
who would do anything you say
And even if her plane crashes tonight
she'll find some way to disappoint me,
by not burning in the wreckage,
or drowning at the bottom of the sea
Jess, I still taste you, and thus reserve my right to hate you
And all this empty space that you create
does nothing for my flawless sense of style
It's 8:45 (it's 8:45), the weather is getting better by the hour
(rains all the time)
I hope it rains there all the time
And if you ever said you miss me then don't say you never lied
I'm without you
Tell all the English boys you meet
im your American boy back in the states
The American boy you used to date
who would do anything you say
Tell all the English boys you meet
i'm your American boy back in the states
The American boy you used to date
who would do anything you say,
who would do anything you say
Never gonna get it right, you're never gonna get it [15x]
Okay no more songs about you. After this one I am done.
You're gone.[repeat untill end]
Tell all the English boys you meet
i'm your American boy back in the states
The American boy you used to date
who would do anything you say
Tell all the English boys you meet
i'm your American boy back in the states
The American boy you used to date
who would do anything you say
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2003 8 November :: 5.10pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: none (headache)
I'm back!!
I'm back homies!! I hope you all missed me, I will be updating this journal also, which is a total of 3...although one is not going so well...hmmm..oh well...
I'm going to completely re-vamp this page, color, icons, lyrics, etc...
be ready!!
woohoo....
"Upon arrival the guests had all stared, dripping wet and clearly depressed he headed straight for the stairs" - Brand New
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2003 26 October :: 10.07pm
The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Take the Dante's Inferno Test
shit
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2003 26 October :: 7.00pm
You are Jesse!
Which Member of Brand New are You?
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i knew it, people say it all the time
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2003 23 October :: 4.11pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: taking back sunday - eleven
ok, me and my friend chris wrote a poem/song thing.
the parts with the * are mine
This is My Love Affair With a Jagged Scrap of Metal;
These Are The Times That Try Men's Souls
all distinctions must be sunk into the same name
"depression."
these capsules are counterfiting my identity
*the identity which i choose not to share with those i deem unacceptable*
and they say "these are the times, that try men's souls"
*"the times where all men will be held accountable for their actions"*
but i feel as if my actions are accounting for me,
holding my head under water
*and this water is cold, i won't have to fight for long*
and this world is ugly, i won't have to be here for long
the sky bleeds an aray or red, i wonder if it cut's it's wrists too
*these scars are still raw, and know i'm bleeding for you tonight*
i'll drain myself of imperfections, renew my viens,
and inhale deeply, inhale you deeply
*please know i do this because i care, not for the thrill*
when my blood gathers in the creases of this tile,
its your reflection that i see
and you say
"when you cut, you're cutting me"
and i say
"these are the times that try men's souls,
and these are my emotions, that you can't see"
*that you shall never see as long as i have air within my lungs*
but this nicotine addiction, is causing them to turn black,
and i fear that my heart is rotting too
*rotting from the loss of blood*
*and the loss of love that you so easly bestowed upon me*
since you asked me if there was another,
and i shamefully nodded,
my eyes couldn't lie, and my wrists can't hide.
this is my love affair with a jagged scrap of metal.
*i have felt more from this razor*
*then i have ever felt from you,*
*except for the pain you bring me*
your monumental blame,
brought this upon me.
"when you cut you're cutting me"
did you ever know, you're cutting me?
i've lost control of my senses
and my subconscious is lying at your feet,
and so is the razor,
stained with your biological traces
*and these cuts run as deep as the hurt you give me*
and they say "these are the times, that try men's souls"
tell me what you think.
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2003 15 October :: 7.22pm
Your element is Earth. I hate to say it but you are
down to earth. Stubborn and loyal. You tend to
want to nurture others and you are the one
person friends always come to for awnsers.
Without people like you others would be flying
over the edge because, whether you know it or
not you keep a steady beat to your life and
will end up where you want to in the end. There
is a sureness about you that is hard to match
that draws people to you. No matter what
happens the Earth keeps turning.
What's your element
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ROMANTIC
You may get hurt from time to time, and its because
you trust. You believe in love, and romance.
You like to make people happy, exspecially when
you care, and they care right back. Hopefully
you'll find that special someone!
Are You A Hopeless Romantic or A Fool?
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Mr. Perfect: You have what it takes to woo the
women. You like to wine and dine. You come up
with nice ideas to keep things interesting. You
are sensitive and caring. A great catch!
Are You Romantic (For Men)
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ok? oh and yea, corey, i don't lie on the quizes.
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2003 14 October :: 4.37pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: brand new - flying at tree level
We were doomed from the start,
as starters are.
Why am I doing this?
Digging my own grave.
Though it's shallow,
I would lie in it.
We're down in the basement,
in the dark,
after we crash your car.
Hoping fast that my arrow,
hits the mark,
so you know who we are.
Please keep the reporters at bay.
This a matter of life and death,
but I deal with things like this everyday.
Please keep the reporters at bay.
You never do what I tell you to.
You never do what I say.
We've been hurting a long time.
Trying hard for this.
We all have sizeable scars.
We got it.
You'd break it all apart.
We got it.
We can make it work like this...
Yes we are a bullet
in the heart
and the message sent.
Always dragging your feet
over sand
and over hot cement.
Make a list of your favorites.
Write it down.
Make it legible.
A problem we're always facing.
We never rest.
You either push or pull.
Please keep the crowd under control.
This is a matter of life and death,
and we're not prepared.
I just want you to know.
Please keep the crowd under control.
This is the weight of my conscience.
This is an all time low.
We've been hurting a long time.
Trying hard for this.
We all have sizeable scars.
We got it.
You'd break it all apart.
We got it.
We can make it work like this...
I see my baby.
She's starry eyed.
I feel my bones break all the time.
I see my baby.
She's starry eyed.
She follows. Don't call me unkind.
I see my baby.
She's starry eyed.
I feel my bones break all the time.
I see my baby.
She's starry eyed.
She follows. Don't call me unkind.
We've been hurting a long time.
Trying hard for this.
We all have sizeable scars.
We got it.
You'd break it all apart.
We got it.
We can make it work like this...
We've been hurting a long time.
Trying hard for this.
We all have sizeable scars.
We got it.
You'd break it all apart.
We got it.
We could make it work like this...
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2003 8 October :: 3.51pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: taking back sunday - your own disaster
lets just put it this way....dislocated shoulders hurt soo fucking bad!!!!!! i dont know how i made it through school. i need help.
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2003 6 October :: 2.04pm
:: Mood: good to know that if i ever need attention all i h
:: Music: brand new - me vs. maradonna vs. elvis
i met brand new yesterday. it was awesome. i'll most more later because right now i am working on a damn spanish presentation.
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2003 5 October :: 9.27am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: brand new - play crack the sky
Passed out on the overpass
Sunday best and broken glass
Broken down from the bikes and bars
Suspended like spirits over speeding cars
You and me were kings over the parkway tonight
And tonight will go on forever while we
walk around this town like we own the streets
and stay awake through summer like we own the heat
Singing "everybody wake up(wake up)it's time to get down"
(everybody, everybody wake up its time to get down)
And when I pass the bottle back to Pete
on the overpass tonight, I bet we laugh
I'm gonna stay eighteen forever (cut me open)
So we can stay like this forever (sun poisoned)
And we'll never miss a party (this offer stands forever)
cause we keep them going constantly
And we'll never have to listen (new haircut)
to anyone about anything (new bracelet)
cause it's all been done and it's all been said (eyeliner)
we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get (wait forever)
The hell out of this town
Find some conversation
The low fule lights been on for days
It doesn't mean anyhting
I've got another 500 nother 500 miles
before we shut this engine down,
we shut it down
i have to call kevin in a few minutes to see what we are doing today. i woke up a bit ago. i re-did my journal. like it?
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2003 5 October :: 12.44am
In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along
I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretense
And still I feel I said too much
My silence is my self defense
And every time I've held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
And so it goes, and so it goes
And so will you soon I suppose
But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
So I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break
And this is why my eyes are closed
It's just as well for all I've seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows
So I would choose to be with you
That's if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows
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2003 4 October :: 11.22am
emo guitarist 26: man, i was soo cold last night
JJ21848: omg my hands were numb
emo guitarist 26: so were mine
emo guitarist 26: i warmed up a bit after i put my clothes back on
yea, last night was our homecoming game. Pilots won 8-7 against Harper Woods Notre Dame!!!!!
i ran the goddamn chariot at halftime. i was down to just shorts for half an hour while its 35 out and raining. cold. but fucking awesome!
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