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2003 20 August :: 10.23pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Dashboard Confessional
Antoher Quiz for the Kids
cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed
What Sign of Affection Are You?
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2003 20 August :: 9.54pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Megan on the Phone
eh....
I'm tired...life sucks
I'm gonna lay on the street and wait for my neighbor with the Semi Truck to come home...
YAHNESS!!
woohoo....
"You could slit my throat and I would apologize for bleeding on your shirt" - Taking Back Sunday
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2003 20 August :: 5.45pm
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: dashboard confessional - this old wound
Just hold me close to you, just hold me close to you
Just hold me close to you, just hold me close to you, to you
i probably should sleep on of these days. with school coming up and all. have to go friday and buy my books and shit like that.
ska on the beach: oh god, if you would have gotten hurt, i dont know what i would have done
emo guitarist26: come see me in the hospital :-D
ska on the beach: I would find a way!
ska on the beach: i'd run to the freaking hospital
emo guitarist26: lol
ska on the beach: :-)
yea, i almost got in a car accident today. my dad got rear ended today. weird day.
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2003 20 August :: 4.19pm
:: Mood: eh
:: Music: none
funny moment
"Let's see...oh here's a large 3 bedroom condom...I mean condo!!"
hehe mina
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2003 20 August :: 9.58am
:: Mood: a tad bit happier
:: Music: Dashboard Confessional (<3)
quizish thing...
You are way too obsessed with DC.. i think your
scary.. maybe you should calm down a bit..
What type of Dashboard Confessional fan are you?
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2003 19 August :: 9.56pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: none
none
I can no longer deal with other people's problems. I am on the verge of an emotional breakdown and do not have the emotional strength to deal with people or their pity parties.
Sorry but Katy no longer gives a fuck.
woohoo....
"I'm one step closer to the edge and I'm about to break." - Linkin Park
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2003 19 August :: 6.55pm
:: Mood: headache
:: Music: Brand New
poemish thing
JESUS CHRIST!
Cant you see
What YOU are doing to me?!
The things you say are traumatizing
So you better start fucking realizing
That one day I may break
And cross the line
Then what will you say?!
Sometimes I think I should have bucked the fuck up
And swallowed the pills!
The world would be better,
At least that how it feels...
Be rid of one more bitching drama queen...
FUCK!
angst sucks ass....
woohoo....
"Just think of this and me as just a few of the many things, to lie around and clutter up your shelves" - Taking Back Sunday
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2003 19 August :: 6.53pm
:: Mood: headache
:: Music: Brand New
woo!
I have a gold star from my grand mental pictures!! (compliments of mina)
woohoo....
"The morning finds our bodies washed up 30 miles west" - Brand New
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2003 18 August :: 2.41pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: alkaline trio - take lots with alcohol
Been telling myself these jokes for so long well so long
I'm a has been who is heckled on the stage
im tired today. i got up at 5 and went running. it was cold, but i probably would be cold if you only run in running shorts when the sun is still not up.
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2003 17 August :: 3.55pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Maroon 5
hearts, stars, and horse shoes
Sundays suck...
Nothing to write!
ARG!!
woohoo....
"This double vision I've been seeing is finally clear." - Maroon 5
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2003 16 August :: 9.55pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Dashboard Confessional
::hugs:: I love my chris!!
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2003 15 August :: 10.14pm
:: Mood: slowly starting to wind down
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday
I HAD 5 WHOLE MINUTES OF CONVERSATION WITH HIM TODAY!!
I got my hair cut today.
Suzi was sad and I talked to her for almost 2 hours lol, by the time we were done it was too late for me to return all my other calls. I felt bad.
Nick likes my last journal entry...lol
I went to mass today, they were holding it in the gym b/c they're renivating the church and it was really hot!! OMG!!
My hair is cute!!
woohoo....
"We burn the gallows they erect, and cut the nooses they tie for out necks." - Brand New
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2003 15 August :: 10.12pm
:: Mood: giggly
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday
SHOW ME YOUR BOOBS!!
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2003 14 August :: 9.41pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday
Your Own Disaster (in a world full of a million songs, this is the one that brings me peace)
Just think of this and me
as just a few of the many things to lie around,
to clutter up your shelves.
And i wish you weren't worth the wait
cause there's some things i'd like to say to you.
And i don't think that you know what you've been missing.
Cause i don't think that you know what you've been missing.
And i dare you to forget the marks you left across my neck
from those nights when we were both found at our best.
Now i could make this obvious, and you
You could deny me all in one breath
You could shrug me off your shoulders.
And i don't think that you know what you've been missing.
Cause i don't think that you know what you've been missing.
And i don't think that you know, said i dont think that you know,
Said i don't think that you know what you've been missing.
Hey lush, have fun.
It's the weekend.
(And i don't think that you know what you've been missing.
No, i don't think that you know what you've been missing.
Oh, i don't think that you know what you've been missing.
No i don't think that you know what you've been missing.)
Just forget me.
It's that simple.
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2003 14 August :: 9.37pm
:: Mood: slightly satisfied
:: Music: Suzy on the phone
yipee for everyone but me
Once again someone else's love life is perfect and I am left watching from the other side of the window...
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2003 14 August :: 9.25pm
:: Mood: headache
:: Music: Maroon 5
People suck.
Life sucks.
The world sucks.
EVERYTHING SUCKS!!
Ok now with that out of my system...
Today was so boring...I did nothing. Hmmmm.
Tomorrow I'm going shopping maybe something exciting will happen.
It seems that something is going on with everyone's relationships but me...::sighness::
Oh well...
woohoo....
"Nobody said it was easy, nobody said it would be so hard." - Coldplay
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2003 12 August :: 7.24pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: A Mark, A Mission, A Brand, A Scar
Eh...
Well I am dissapointed in a few people and the choices they have made today...hmmm...but I can't control people so I shouldn't really worry, or care.
I bought the new Dashboard Confessional CD today. My favorite song is "Bend and Not Break". I also bought the Brand New CD. It's really good. I like "Play Crack the Sky."
Benjii skated over here yesterday to visit me. It was cool, he wants me to listen to the Five Iron Frenzie CD he brought. I haven't had the time though. Lots has been happening.
I really don't have much to say...
Spencer called me last night. It was weird, I didn't even know he had my number.
I dunno...today is oddish. It started off pretty good but kind of went downhill due to the fact that I feel like shit...::sigh::
Well I'm leaving now, too bored or tired to add anymore...
Day Three of No Contact...
woohoo....
"This is the end." - Brand New
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2003 10 August :: 1.24pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: brand new - okay i believe you, but my tommy gun don't
wooo!!!! eric is getting his tele soon!!!! going to be much fucking fun. i want to do a cover of the quiet things that no one ever knows. that would be rad. it would be awesome doing it live. i have a lot of ideas, but its hard to get them done sometimes.
nick is learning rhymthm guitar, i need to check on how he's doing.
Wasting words on lowercases and capitals!
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2003 9 August :: 1.55pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: matt skiba - in your wake
I dragged this lake looking for corpses
Dusted for prints, pried up the floorboards
Pieces of planes and black box recorders
Don't lie
And I've been preoccupied with these sick, sick senses
That sense DNA on barbed wire fences
Maybe someday I'll find me a suspect
That has no alibi
New Year's Eve was as boring as heaven
I watched flies fuck on channel 11
There was no one to kiss, there was nothing to drink
Except some old rotten milk someone left in the sink
And there's no ring on the phone anymore
There's no reason to call I passed out on the floor
Smoked myself stupid and drank my insides raisin dry
But at the right place at the right time
I'll be dead wrong and you'll be just fine
And I won't have to quit doing fucked up shit
For anyone but me
And at the right place at the right time
It will have been worth it to stand in line
And you won't have to stop
Saying "I love cops" for anyone but me
Your private eye
alkaline trio - private eye
wasp stings hurt. i have one under my left eye and 7 on my back. bastards went down my shirt. then me and ray sprayed their nest. revenge!!!!!!
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2003 8 August :: 7.20pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: MXPX
um....tropical fruit pies...lol
::Beats computer with stick:: DAMN TECHNOLOGICAL BEAST OF BURDEN!! DAMN YOU TO HELL!!
....oh....hello boys and girls. I went to the KZoo Ribfest and I feel sick lol. GO ME!!
I think I may have seen the evil bus driver who tried to hit me with her...bus. whoa...
Well not much going on...lol...so why did I bother writing a journal entry...? Because I had nothing better to do lol. I'm going to go tickle a ferret.
woohoo....
"Come up to meet ya, tell you I'm sorry, you don't how lovely you are." - Coldplay
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2003 7 August :: 8.54pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: Dashboard Confessional
Trudging through Thursday
It's another long and boring thursday...::sigh::
I've been so tired lately...it's this damn cold. I pretty much start to head down hill by 2:45pm. My medicine isn't much help, it's just cures my sleeping problems, not my day problems.
Nothing really exciting has happened today. I nearly got hit by a bus yesterday. I was walking and not paying attention and the driver didn't even try to stop, they would have plowed right through me lol. Go Katy!!
Nothing really to talk about, it's been a boring day...I want to go out and do something tomorrow with HIM (lol I love saying that). I am going to the KZoo Ribfest for no particular reason (FREE FOOD). Thinking about taking someone with me. Won't be asking Tony though...he hasn't called me back and I don't want to have to try and deal with the Wife of Satan again...she really pisses me off sometimes. But eh, I'll get over it.
I was bored earlier this afternoon so I drove by Susan and Mina's house. I also drove by Benjii's but I drive by there everyday lol. I think I'm gonna call someone...
woohoo....
"So you're friends think I'm crazy? But I wasn't trying to impress those girls was I?" - Dashboard Confessional
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2003 6 August :: 9.24pm
:: Mood: happy/sick
:: Music: Dashboard Confessional
So far...
This has been a pretty good week.
I got the phone call I've been waiting for (the one from HIM...lol)!! I was sitting around watching Project Greenlight with my dad and it was like quarter to eleven. I thought it was Susan or someone so I didn't check the ID. I was SO surprised to hear his voice. It was such a feeling or relief and nervousness...it's hard to describe. He said he was on the phone with his friend like 5 minutes before and all of a sudden was like "I have to call Katy". He said he just wanted to talk about anything...it was great. My hand was shaking the entire time. It was scary though because I came home from Flint that day and on the way home I was thinking "It would be so great if he called me tonight". He kept insisting that it wasn't me and that he didn't think I understood that completely. So I invited him over because he said he wanted to tell me everything that had been going on. So we made plans for him to come over Monday.
He came over about 6:20ish but I didn't get home untill 6:45ish. I felt bad about him having to sit on my couch waiting. But we went outside and talked until 9:00. Some of the things he told me scared the shit out of me...I wanted to cry at one point. All the scars on his arm scared me to, I never noticed them all until now...::shudders:: We just sat outside, holding hands and laying on the grass. There was this one point where we were facing each other and I leaned forward and hugged him and he held me real tight. I wanted him to never let go...I had been missing that feeling for so long. I really want to be his again. I feel so much better but there is still that small missing piece. I never wanted him to leave but he had to get home to his son...::sigh::
I talked to Sensei on Monday and she is moving to Novi next week. I told her I'd meet her up there and asked if I could bring Tony with me. i haven't gotten a reply back yet.
I GET TO GO TO DASHBOARD ON OCTOBER FOURTH!! HOORAH!!
Well that's it for now...I think...
woohoo....
"Won't you hold me now? I will not bend I will not break" - Dashboard Confessional
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2003 5 August :: 12.52am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: copeland - testing the strong ones
There's an angel by your hospital bed desparate to hear his name on your breath.
As he looks down you're not making a sound.
Open your eyes and look at me.
I'll bring to you whatever you need.
I'll tell you I'm sorry that I can't take this pain away from you.
I'd put it on my own body if I knew how to, can't you see?
I've got to bust you out of here somehow.
I've never seen your heart this tired I've never seen your spirit held down.
I know that you say, "this is what you get for being a bad child."
But I know this will be your reward in just a little while.
It's testing the strong ones.
It's scarring the beautiful ones.
It's holding the loved ones one last time.
that is a great song. im feeling very weird right now.
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2003 4 August :: 11.48pm
So where'd you go?
How was your vacation home?
Well obviously you were busy, too busy for me
So this is how you leave me?
I'm broken hearted on the floor,
My tears seep through the crack under my door
Where I am locked in, shut down,
I'm so tired of picking myself up off the ground
So Happy Valentine's Day
I hope the sun's out in New York
I hope he bought you roses
I hope he bought you roses
So Happy Valentine's Day
I hope the sun's out in New York
I hope he bought you roses
I hope he bought you roses
ray left a bit ago. im tired. very tired.
im going to the u.p. this fall. expect lots of pictures of the leaves and trees. i may even write a song.
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2003 3 August :: 10.28am
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: Maroon 5
Harder to Breathe
How dare you say that my behavior is unacceptable
So condescending unnecessarily critical
I have the tendency of getting very physical
So watch your step cause if I do you'll need a miracle
You drain me dry and make me wonder why I'm even here
This Double Vision I was seeing is finally clear
You want to stay but you know very well I want you gone
Not fit to fuckin' tread the ground that I am walking on
When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
What you are doing is screwing things up inside my head
You should know better you never listened to a word I said
Clutching your pillow and writhing in a naked sweat
Hoping somebody someday will do you like I did
When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Does it kill
Does it burn
Is it painful to learn
That it's me that has all the control
Does it thrill
Does it sting
When you feel what I bring
And you wish that you had me to hold
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