Look at that monster go...

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:: 2005 10 January :: 7.02pm
:: Mood: flirty

w00t! I'm back... for now... Yeah, so i got grounded for the whole new years eve fiasco.. that sucked. But now my science grade is a C so its cool. Last week sucked. I felt very... ditched and lonley. But today has been better.
SCRATCH THAT
Dannys on... He cant come this summer
SilentXEternally: wanna hear so even shittier news
shpadoinklebunny: umm... ok
SilentXEternally: im not coming this summer either
shpadoinklebunny: what?!?!?!?!?!?!?
SilentXEternally: yea i have to get a job and stuff
shpadoinklebunny: get one here
shpadoinklebunny: !!
SilentXEternally: i cant cuz i live here
SilentXEternally: its a residency issue
shpadoinklebunny: bull shit, you could still get one here
SilentXEternally: and i cant work for a month and quit my job
shpadoinklebunny: yes you can.
shpadoinklebunny: so your not coming at all?
SilentXEternally: if i do it would only be like 2 or 3 days
SilentXEternally: but i doubt i will
shpadoinklebunny: oh
SilentXEternally: cuz i have to juggle summer school, work, band, and guitar lessons
SilentXEternally: and college prep
SilentXEternally: im taking SATs this summer as well and im gonna look for scholarships
shpadoinklebunny: danny..
shpadoinklebunny: i think maybe it would be better if we didnt talk anymore
SilentXEternally: ?
shpadoinklebunny: its too hard for me. I live you still and its pretty obvious that im just the girl you get action with when your here. I can't handle it. If i dont mean anything to you... why try?
SilentXEternally: well i wasnt looking for any relationship actually, i just figure we were friends, and i get action with pretty much every one so w/e
shpadoinklebunny: so i really dont mean anything to you?
SilentXEternally: i didnt say that i said we are friends, how could we be more then that, i live across the state, i have at least 10 females that want my nuts at all times, its hard for me to have any sort of serious relationship with any one
shpadoinklebunny: im not asking for a relationship!
SilentXEternally: and in all seriousness, my heart belongs to some one else
SilentXEternally: i just havent settled down enough yet
shpadoinklebunny: good bye danny.

and so it ends...
omg.

omg omg omg

i meant nothing to him
i loved him and i meant nothing to him.

omg im so fucking stupid
omg

-nightsloth-

:: 2005 10 January :: 6.57pm

howdy neighbor.
. . . im going to make efforts to post more often. yes, i will follow the will of mandy and kalie. . and whoever else.
o_O
nothing
to
say. . .
*dies*

Im kinda drained of any interesting stuff right now. I'm getting sick. I came home and took a nap on the couch. Totally crashed out right after school. nbot a good sign, but it felt good. im still kinda tired. ok imma go check on any comments i might have. . .

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Twitchy

:: 2005 9 January :: 9.30pm

for some reason I'm oddly at peace with things

I feel all torn up inside, this way and that, just ... reverting back to my old state
but things have changed and I'll never get back there
a mixture of the darkness creeping into my skull, current factors in life and such things have left me oddly complacent if that makes any sense

still, sometimes I feel like running straight into a brick wall

-nightsloth-

:: 2005 9 January :: 9.08pm

I'm here! i live! WEEEEEEEEEEEE!! You huys are really uniformed. i just realized that im pretty sure i never even posted about my family bakery. Yes, we're opening a bakery. Although paul probably told you. and umm. . . ehhhhh. . . . OH YEAH! My mom broke her ankle. Thats pretty recent though. On like, monday. Bakery? That began to manifest last summer. I know i'm an ass. a FLAMING ass.
. . .
I played zelda all weekend. It was great. My schudale went like this all weekend up till now. (sunday night)

Get up
Get dressed
Play Zelda until you are told to shovel snow
play more zelda
eat lunch
play more zelda
eat dinner
watch movie with family

Life is good. Peace out. Vote for Pedro.

Twitchy

:: 2005 1 January :: 12.52am

happy 2005
I'm drenched in cider, half a bottle on me, half in me
had a good night, partay, running down the streets ect. screaming my lungs out

it's been a long year, and there's time to recap later, but my sunglasses are a year old and ... well let's hope for a good year eh?

:: 2005 1 January :: 12.08am
:: Mood: infuriated

Why do i let myself do this to myself?

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:: 2004 31 December :: 2.50pm
:: Mood: drained

Thank you Tori, Tasha, and Chris. Y'all made me feel better last night. I'm feeling better about it. Sophie called and Anya talked to me and i feel better knowing i have friends. But this is especially to Tori and Tasha. Tori-- Even though sometimes we seem like exact opposites i can always talk to you about theese thing without fearing that you'll judge me. Tasha-- I hardly know you but you freakin rock. We have to hang out. Thanks for what you said. It made me feel un-whorey.

Ok. Now that thats out... Me and Danny had some fun yesterday. Morgans Par-tay was cool. Except for when the molestation turned creepy and i felt like a whore in front of my best friends and the guy that i like. Yeah that wasnt cool. Dont worry Cy-muffin. i still lobe you. That was just... one time thing i think.

Todays new years eve! Im goin down to first night with a buncha peoples. It should be fun. I hope Danny will come down. He's going snowmobiling so i cant call him... Hes leaving tomorrow. Sometimes i wonder if the happy-ness is worth it because the sadness is so... over powering of the happy. Ya know?

:: 2004 30 December :: 9.01am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: AFI-- the celluloid dream

Ok so i was a wee bit emotional last night. But i was thinking about me and danny alot last night and if i mean as much to him as he does to me. But i was talking to nate this morning and he said some pretty sweet things that kinda reassured me...
shpadoinklebunny: i just wonder sometimes if i mean anything to him..
poisonedheart235: You do Nora, don't worry
shpadoinklebunny: or if im the girl he gets action with
poisonedheart235: No, the girls he gets action with are the ones back in Federal Way that'll spread their legs in a split second for him
poisonedheart235: I think he actually cares about you
shpadoinklebunny: really?
poisonedheart235: yes
shpadoinklebunny: thanks alot, i kinda needed that
shpadoinklebunny: *hug*
poisonedheart235: AHHH
poisonedheart235: *dies*
shpadoinklebunny: lol
poisonedheart235: sorry, I'm deathly allergic to "happy"
shpadoinklebunny: haha
shpadoinklebunny: my bad...:-\

aww how sweeeeeeeeeeeeet. So i think im gonna go over to Mercedes house (who happens to be Dannys neighbor... what a conicedence!!) and umm.. do.. my.. homework.... Hahaha. then tonight is morgans Par-tay. w00t!

Last nights movie sucked ass. I fell asleep in the theatre! It wasn't scary at all.. then again.. i was thinking about other things.... *smile*

i do alot of ...'s. Ohh well.

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:: 2004 29 December :: 6.24pm

fucker cant come

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:: 2004 29 December :: 6.07pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: weezer--undone

im at sophies. We went and saw Irobot and then i went back to her house where we watched Mean Girls and Dogma and she did my eyebrows. Mandy called me and said that Danny had been looking for me all day so i called him and he said to call him in an hour so i did and he was gone so i called his cell but i was disconnected or something and i called mercedes and sophies retarded phone said the call couldnt go through or some shit. But whats evah. Eaurgh, im excited to see him! I hope mike isnt there...

:: 2004 29 December :: 10.20am

1)What is your favorite color?--res
2)Have you ever loved somebody outside your family? (or thought you loved them)-- yes
3)What is your favorite number?--9
4)What is your favorite word? (be serious)--platoon
5)Have you ever cut yourself?--yes
6)Are you depressed as you are answering these questions?--no
7)Are you only filling this out cause you have nothing better to do?--lol, yeah
8)If you had to choose Sex, Drugs, or Music what would you pick? (one of the three interview questions to afi you can view at mtv.com)-- right now? music
9)Is your life boring to you?--sometimes, but other times it can be very eventful
10)What is your favorite band?-- Prolly AFI or the spice girls
11)How many questions did the longest quiz have that you've taken?--umm, purple?
12)Did that last question make sense?--no not really
13)Can you see yourself snorting cocaine 14.3 years from now?-- talk to me in 14.7 years...
14)Do you think you'd ever do drugs? (assuming you havn't)-- smells like BACON... nice shoes.... *twitches*... lol.
15)Why are you still filling out these stupid-ass questions?-- because i feel like it
16)How far would you go with someone? (you don't have to answer..that's kind of personal)-- i dont intend on dying a virgin..
17)Do you care about yourself?--yes
18)What's your second favorite color?--blue
19)What's your third favorite color?--pink
20)What's your fourth favorite color?--i dont know....

:: 2004 29 December :: 10.04am
:: Mood: hungry

Hes here!!! Well not like here as in my house, but here as in, in spokane. Muwahahaha. Im going over to sophies today, i hafta ride the bus downtown, ugh!! I think i'll be late to meet her... oh well, lol. I saw meet the fockers last night. I was spazzing the entire time. I'd start thinking about him and go all spazzy and twitchy. I feel kinda bad that i didnt trust Vivi not to flirt w/ him. She knows how much this means to me. and how much i like him. I need to call Mercedes about tomorrow. I'm so excited!!

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Twitchy

:: 2004 28 December :: 11.24pm

why can I never find the words to what I really need to say?
why do I ask that question when I know the answer?

:: 2004 28 December :: 8.32pm
:: Mood: bouncy

ohh my lord...... an hour and 24 mins till hes here!!! I know i wont be able to see him for a while but just the fact that he's less than a mile away makes me want to run over there and jump on him and lick his face, lol. Mandy gets it, lol. Im twitching all over again, hfgkfkdhndgfjgdfjkbndfmg,